Day: August 2, 2020

Day 130 easy like Sunday morning…. 🎼🎹

Slept like a LOG… having a lovely lazy morning, I say that then remember I am writing lists of things that need doing so really while lazy it still very much has a purpose. This old mind of mine is like a ticking clock….. the main thing is that I’m in Grans chair with my feet up and life doesn’t get much better than that!

This year has not been how any one of could could ever have imagined. While some people’s lives have changed for the first I can only say that lockdown has been the making of me. I’ve said before that everyone joined my wee crazy stay at home world and made it ok for me to be in isolation. Up until now I’ve felt that life was passing me by and I was missing out, despite not actually wanting to, or being able to join in. So who knows what the second half of 2020 will bring. We can only live for the present day and be grateful for that. I’ve wanted to be able to say that and really mean it for years and now I truly can.

I can laugh at this now because it is actually true but depression is such a crippling illness that you actually feel safe in your misery. (I was going to type miserableness there!) however, I can now choose to laugh things off and those days are way better than the ones you don’t.
I have to say there is no way that it’s this easy but there is an element of truth to it. Once you heal you can chose to change your outlook but it’s taken me years to get to this stage.
One of the hardest parts to do. I think I fully accept myself now apart from being devastated by my weight gain when I see photos. This is the last negative I need to rid myself of
Always remember to put yourself first. We are not good at this as a nation but we have nothing to give others if we don’t see our own true worth first.
I always knew I’d look back on this and know that it happened for a very good reason. I am so blessed to have had the chance to review my whole outlook on life and see it as I see it now.
I feel that the rest is starting to come now
Absolutely. Things just do not matter I just want a simple life
We all need to do this. I type these things as much for you reading as I do for me.
We all matter… all of us.
Now this actually made me laugh as I am the elephant in this picture basking in the glow of friendship. I know I need to change this mindset but I know it will come
🌈🌈🌈

There also a few virus funnies I’ve seen recently as we adjust to a new normal wearing masks inside shops etc

Amen!

And now more seriously….

The 1918 flu pandemic was just over 100 years ago…
Scarily similar
Wow
Who knew spitting was such a thing back then?! Guess it was mostly from baccy
😷😷

Let’s think about all this for a minute. 102 years on, all the technology we have now and yet NOTHING has changed. We think we have the answers to everything, we think we know it all. Our world has been brought to its knees by a virus. We’ve worried about wars and natural disasters, all of which have been dreadful, terrifying and life changing for many but our whole world has stopped again… for a virus. 😷🦠😳

You know, I just want to say that I am loving writing this today. I just told Craig it was going to be a good one and he said “they’re always good”….. cheesy moment as I told him that I was so lucky he supported this every step of the way. All it would take would be one word of negativity from him and this blog would be finished. I’d second guess everything I write and worry about being on the phone so much blah blah blah… I told him that he was the best husband ever for supporting me……he said “yeah well I don’t read it” with a huge grin on his face. We have a completely different way of communicating now and I love it though he does deserve a slap for that!

So all this and it’s only 11.24 precisely. I put the phone down and cleaned the house like a maddie. LOVIN’ my new hoover although I had to empty it 3 times today. Maybe need a new hoover per dog?!? So bathrooms cleaned every hair picked up and I’m now out in the sun, feet up again enjoying the heat for a change.

I’m not sure if the sun will last but it’s nice to have time time with no dogs while Craig walks them. He asked me if I was sure I didn’t want to come with him. I was sure…. 🤔🤭😊

It’s only been 5 minutes and it’s clouded over and I’m cold 😳🤣

Not sure this crochet blanket was meant to be a cold shoulder top?!? Repairs needed!
Meadow garden or pile of weeds coming along….
There are at least 3 flowers so far. If you look really hard!

Craig sent me a Nike film video to share as it talks about how sport is managing through the pandemic. Worth a watch shows how we have had to adapt.

So I literally have spent the afternoon with my feet up which is really nice for once. I came inside and got warmer clothes on and then the sun came out. Honestly go figure. Some country this we live in. The weather doesn’t know what it’s doing one minute to the next.

We’re gonna have a very early dinner. Roast chicken crown is in the oven with potato croquettes and veg. Trying to replace some of the high sugar and high fat foods with fruit and veg.

Hope you all have a lovely Sunday and manage to relax at some point. I have a busy week ahead… check me. Going to psych myself up for it.

There is a whole lot of love to be found in the world 💜

Stay safe everyone ❤️❤️❤️