Day 566 from a dry, calm Nairn to a misty drive home 🏡

We were in bed for 7.30pm last night and honestly slept right through til 8am this morning. Musta needed it!!

It wasn’t as cold last night so we didn’t need the diesel heater on at all and I think the fresh air took its toll and we were out for the count.

It rained a fair bit overnight and we woke up to lots of condensation this morning!

So thought I’d show you how we roll in our tent…

Bhruic sleeping with Craig
Calaidh on me
Freya telling me it’s time to wake up!

Think she needs the dentist?!

Much cuter when she’s not being jaws!

So we finally got up.

Now check this photo and zoom in on the left hand side… that’s how close the Alpacas are to the tent.

The dark brown Aplaca is called Hamish.

Morning you guys!
Back Butteries this time for breakfast with coffee of course

Not sure if I said but I’ve been on decaf coffee this last week and I’ve noticed a difference in my anxiety. I am way calmer… now I realise this could be a number of things as I’ve been working on the Daylight app for anxiety too. It could just be that I’ve spent the last two nights in a field… maybe that’s it. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

The skies are dramatic
And then the sun came out!
Dramatic skies opposite though

I think the rain is coming but we are so lucky we got to laze around and pack up until we left about 1.30pm.

I took them down to the pond again. They love playing around here. We were very lucky that the site was so quiet so we could leave the dogs running around in the dog walk area…. They had a blast.

Arty stone throw shot!
Mini thistle!

And so it was time to leave…. It started to rain about 10 minutes into our 4 hour drive and it rained pretty much all the way down. Just low cloud and misty rain. We were so lucky with the weather this weekend not to have been camping in it!

Few shots from the drive down…. I loved not driving!!

Lovely scenery all the way down despite the weather. We got stuck in 3 traffic jams but they only added 15 mins or so.

I am now here.

Remember we all got this!

Stay safe everyone 🔥🔥🔥

Day 565 a day in sunny Nairn! 🏕🐶🐶🐶

It was super chilly last night after we had dinner and we got the wood burning stove on and sat cooried in next to it. We sat out until just before 10pm.

We have the diesel heater for the tent… we had it on to start with. Switched it off through the night and back on again early morning as it had cooled down a bit. We have 2 cots that we sleep on and the dogs either lie on the floor or pick a person to lie on… literally.

So we didn’t sleep great. I was comfy and relaxed but always pretty aware of what was going on round about me. it’s hard not to be when 3 border collies want to use you as a trampoline!🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Got up at 7.30 to take the dogs out and it was a lovely red sky. (Don’t want red sky in the morning though as that suggests the weather will turn?!?)

She know never cooks…. cooked bacon 🥓 for rolls and made coffee for breakfast.

Love a campfire breakfast 🍳

So we decided to head down to Nairn this morning as we didn’t see any of it the last time we were here. Nairn is only 3 miles from Barns Highland Campsite. 🏕

It’s cloudy and a bit overcast but I have my thermals on under my clothes. I have 5 layers on my top half!!! I am cosy.

Let’s all pose unwillingly beside the driftwood tree…
This tree is stunning!
The hammerhead shark hat strikes again

We had some fun with the frisbee and the girls ran for miles!

More tree art!
Love this view from up at the marina
Nairn Marina
View over to Cromarty

We went for a walk around the marina and then stopped at the Strathnairn Beach Cafe for coffee and a cake. To be fair we had only really just had breakfast but hey… it’s a holiday. And there’s always room for cake!

And as we waited for our order the sun came out!!!

Looking toward Inverness
Looking out to sea
Car park at the beach

We popped into Sainsbury’s and I spotted this wee guy in the car park 🍄

It’s amazing what you see when you take the time to look around you. when would you ever think this would grow right behind your parking space at a supermarket. Nature is amazing!!

The drive home to the campsite along lovely single track roads. it’s been blue skies and sunshine for most of the afternoon. Stunning!

On arrival…… 🤣🤣🤣

This campsite is spotlessly clean

Took the dogs for a run in the field.

Bhru searching for her stone!
Calaidh waiting for a stone!
Doesn’t this look positively tropical?!?

If you look In the top left hand corner of the next pic you’ll see our car… that’s where we’re camped.

Same again here…. Campsite up directly behind Freya
They’ve loved playing around as there are no other dogs so they’ve had a bit more freedom
Clouding over

Craigs watching the football now and I’m crocheting. We are sitting out in the sun but it’s disappearing fast and my fingers are still cold in fingerless gloves. My crochet is getting slower…. I’ve retreated into the car for a nap!

It’s been a beautiful day. It’s very cold but it’s so calm and bright…. No wind and no rain and that’s all we can ask.

The alpacas came down to check the dogs…

So Craig went to check them out!!

But you’re not dogs!

We made chicken and chorizo chilli and honey wraps tonight. They were so good. I’m really enjoying cooking though it’s hardly gourmet chef stuff… it’s good for me!

No sunset tonight but there’s still a lovely colour in the sky.

This has been another great break at Barns Highland. It’s so calm and peaceful here… the only sound is the barking of our own dogs…. When an Alpaca comes to visit 🤣🤣 no sign of the Highlanders today! Boo……

A quiet night in front of the stove for us. Just how we like it. The forecast looks good and the rain should stay away!

Stay safe everyone 🏕🔥🐶

Day 564 ROADTRIP to Nairn! 🚘🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿🐶🐶🐶👫

And we’re off again…. This time it’s the 5 of us and it only took us a whole lot of hours to be ready to leave.

We’re in the Touareg this time and have brought the tent. Abbie the Campervan, who is just 200 miles shy of 100,000 miles on the clock, is having a rest at home. I’m having a rest in the passenger seat and it’s lovely to be chauffeur driven!!

Of course we woke up to the first frost of 2021…. Yay! Let’s go and sleep outside tonight shall we?!?

I’m feeling good, if you can’t tell. I am calm despite loads of triggers this morning. The delay in getting away, the amount of stuff we seem to have but I’m good. Craig might say I never helped pack but I stayed out the way at critical times when things may have overwhelmed me and spent time hanging washing and loading the dishwasher! The result is a calm and happy wife. What’s not to love?!?

So we left at 11.35 precisely.

Glasgow from the M74… check that sky! it’s not a pretty city but it’s a very pretty sky!
There were hundreds of geese migrating just before Perth but all I got was a tiny view of them through some long grass!!
Love this wee cottage
Pitlochry was heaving today but is a lovely wee town

Our first stop was Faskally just north of Pitlochry where we stopped to walk the dogs. Wow. What an unexpected surprise!

The view from the car!
Think this is my favourite 🤩
Of course hoddit, Doddit and ploddit were there too!
Heading north on the A9
How cute is this?!?
When I was a wee girl my dad told me if you stamp in the long grass you might find pheasants… I stamped a lot and lost my sandal into the raging river just about here!! I will never forget that. I was gutted!

We arrived at our campsite just outside Nairn about 4pm. This guy is in a field literally 500 yards from us!

This one really is a poser!!

After I took a million pics of the coos, I took the dogs for a walk in to the pond.

As we were setting up the tent I realised that the sun was already starting to set.

Look at the colours in the sky. It was a lovely sunset.

The dying sun lit up this field

Here we are all set up in the sunset!

As we worked I just ran about taking photos. It was beautiful.

I cooked dinner…… did you hear that?!? Yeah I actually cooked fish fajitas.

That’s our first camping night dinner tradition. They were super tasty… the dogs want some!

Cooking at sunset
And all of a sudden these guys arrived!!

There was much woo woo woo-big from Freya. To be fair the Alpacas must have seen the dogs and came down to investigate.. 3 against 3! The two white ones are now lying in the field next us… guarding their land! 🦙 🦙

Sunset on 🦙

I took the dogs back in for another run round the pond and took this next pic with my head torch on…

Sunset over the pond is lovely!

The moon is stunning tonight too. This next pic looks really spooky.

I’ve had the best day. I’m so proud of my mood and most of my reactions today. I am calm and truly appreciating the moment. Every moment today for what it is. There have been some very special moments… I have never been that close to a highland coo!!!

So we’re sitting outside in front of the wood burning stove, the stars are outcast the moon is moody and I just had an alcohol free Eden Mill gin in a can with Rose Lemonade. Lovely!

More exploring tomorrow.

Stay safe everyone 🔥🔥🔥 and stay warm!

Day 563 a great sleep and a better day!

I was asleep on the couch by 8pm so jumped into bed before 8.30pm… had a great sleep until he-who-shall-remain-nameless shouted that there was a cat trying to get into the bedroom window…. 😳🐈

I hadn’t heard the cat meowing…. I heard the person who heard tha cat 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 Just saying…..

So I lay awake for a bit until I got up but it wasn’t the same crippling anxiety, as earlier in the week, that kept me awake more just a a gentle normal human thought process.

I’ve been doing some work on the Daylight app around anxiety and some really simple steps really help. A tense and release 10 minute session is so simple but effect.

It’s been a good day. I’ve got loads done. It feels good to be back in control after the craziness that anxiety brings…. but it also feels very good to be at my weekend again!

I’ve got loads of positivity to share. Have a read through each one and think about what they mean to you.

So lots of positivity today. We’re away for the weekend again so have to get organised to leave sharp tomorrow. I’m sitting in my comfies with my feet up thinking hard about what I need to take. 🤣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 562 back to the Fit Body Farm and a whole lot less anxiety 🏋🏻‍♀️🤸🏻‍♀️

The 5am alarm. Oh how I’ve missed it. Not!

Now when I think of it I’ve been awake lying in bed worrying about everything I had to do in the day so I’d have been as well being at the gym in the morning. Way more productive on the old brain.

It felt really good to be back. I was anxious, I felt a bit uncomfortable but I settled in.

So my focus today was to try and deny my anxiety. I can’t let it define me. I can’t let it take over every situation in my life. I tried to focus on peace and being present I. The moment again.

Now I honestly read things like this throughout the day to help keep me calm.

So an ok day today. I’m shattered and missing crochet again tonight but I am wrapped up in a blanket on the couch and barely able to keep my eyes open.

I was recommended the Daylight app which is being made available to people in Scotland to help combat anxiety. I’ve already signed up and completed all the questionnaires and gone through the first exercise.

It’s really helped. I hope the rest of them will too. I need to take this by the horns and get it to……. 🤭😬

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 561 fighting anxiety all day but winning 🥇

Honestly it’s so tiring battling the constant fight with anxiety. I slept like a log… out for the count until 5.20am.

When I woke up I realised I was really tense. My jaw was clenched and my neck solid and my head was thumping.

I took some paracetamol but they never touched the sides. Tension. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt like tension as bad as this. Those antidepressants must have numbed everything.

I know I need to eat better, get back to exercise and look after myself a bit better and all of that will help.

So today’s been tough. There’s nothing bad happening, nothing I shouldn’t be able to handle with my eyes closed, just a constant welling of anxiety at things happening throughout the day.

Yet…. every time I have talked myself out of it and been proud of the way I’ve dealt with it.

At lunch I did a 5 minute meditation to calm anxiety. That helped a bit too. Just taking time out to breathe.

I know how ridiculous this all sounds. I hear myself. I know you may read this and think jeez…. just chill out. Calm down. Relax. There’s nothing to worry about. Chillax. 🤣

I am trying…. Every single minute of today I had to work at it.

Wow 🤩

Yeah maybe I should just keep some of this noise to myself. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

When I got home from work I nipped into Claire’s for Cole Kitten Cuddles.

Look at how cute he is!! He’s so teeny.

So I’ve finished Grace and Frankie on Netflix now and am looking for a new show…. I’ve started watching Suits as I write this. There are 9 seasons.

I could be some time…. 🤣🤣

This too shall pass.

Just need it to bloody hurry up.

Stay safe everyone ♥️💜🧡

Day 560 another day a the office 🚐🚐🚐

Today did not go at all as planned but my world did not fall apart.

I didn’t sleep well last night. I was awake for about 3 hours and ended up on the couch for a bit so I’m tired now and a bit lost for words. Doesn’t happen often eh?!

I’ve been calm most of the day. I’ve been ruffled a few times and felt the anxiety flutter but I’ve dealt with the situations as each one arose and dealt with them like a calm, normal person instead of flying off the anxiety spectrum.

That’s been such a relief. I love calm after a storm. The calm feels even better than you can imagine.

I’ve picked up some meditation to try again. Meditation has worked for me in the past and at the moment it feels like the next thing to try. I read that different things help different people at different times and that resonated with me.

My lovely in-laws were here when I got home tonight as they’d had a wee day out in Largs. Had a quick catch up with them in the village pub before heading home and getting into my comfies.

Early night for me!

Stay safe everyone 💜🧡💜

Day 559 housework Sunday and a good chill with 3 Border Collies….. 😬😳🤣

I’ve been struggling to find half my clothes in the bedroom…. Drawers have become messy and stuff seems to be hiding so I decided to do a wee spring clean and have a bag of clothes for charity to show for it!

Was really cathartic and I can be in the bedroom now without being overwhelmed by stuff being everywhere.

We store a fair bit of the camping gear in here so it can seem like a dumping ground if it’s not controlled. Jeez it’s all about the control in my world eh?!?

I had the drawers and wardrobe cleared before 11am. Pretty good going.

I hoovered the rest of the downstairs and even decided to do a wee mini service on the hoover. In a house with 3 dogs the hoover is never going to keep up…… we have the Shark and I’m sure I’ve said before that I’m I’m not impressed with it at all. However, maybe I don’t look after it….. so today I did!

The following pic is not for the faint hearted. This is the Shark Anti Wrap Hair Vacuum cleaner…..

Hmmmm I see hair wrapped. I think? Maybe if I look closely?!?

So you’ll be pleased to know that’s all gone now and I took out all the filters and washed them, then cleaned out the inside of the hoover itself.

Craig then starts to empty out his car at the front door to…… uh oh…..yup you guessed it…. Start hoovering it out. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😂

The guts of the hoover were drying on the radiator….. 😬

I took Calaidh and Bhru up the hill for a walk but I’m feeling pretty shattered. It’s an effort. I feel exhausted but it’s been a long hard week of overthinking and I’m already pre-overthinking this week.

We played frisbee
This is the ditch it got stuck in yesterday 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 love that there’s an obvious hole in the hedgerow

So yeah I need to stay in control this week and not overthink things. Everything is in place, it just needs doing and I am more than capable of doing it. I just need to remember that. I need to focus on being present in the moment and appreciating it.

Today is World Mental Health Day and I’m not quite certain what that means but at least it gets us talking about a mental health.

It’s important to talk about your feelings and not keep them bottled up. My chat overflows to anyone who will listen. 😂

So I came through to my clean and tidy and organised bedroom for a wee lie down. A wee chill. I shut the door. Bliss.

Somehow I seem to have been “sprung”…. Found out. 🐶🐶🐶

The bed is such a great vantage point for the comings and going’s from the village pub.

It’s really relaxing. 😳

So I think we all need that Sunday afternoon reminder that we’ve got what it takes to handle everything this week throws at us.

Here are some photos of the ivy from this morning that always makes me smile this time of the year. I used to sit and watch it change colour when I was off sick. It was a sign of time passing….

It’s just beautiful in the sunlight this morning.

So be like the ivy and show everyone your colours this week, be vibrant, bright and happy. True happiness is here and now. Stop and take a moment to appreciate being alive.

I know…. I hear myself. But it’s true.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 558 a positive day! 💜💜💜

Oooh I really have. ♥️

We had a lovely wee night last night. We are very quick to watch the next movie, the next TV series and binge watch of an evening and have done since lockdown began and probably long before that too.

We decided to have a cosy night in the sunroom last night. The wood burning stove has been cleaned out and it’s a lovely space to sit with the log burner on.

I didn’t finish the blog until after 8 but we sat till 11.30 listening to “heart songs”… songs that mean something on our life. We were singing away half the night. (The crazy, anxiety-ridden girl from a few days ago was just a memory….Albeit still a painful one).

I’m still emotional. There were tears through the songs but good tears, happy tears and memories and positive thoughts for the future.

I said the other day that I really need to make some peace with my anxiety. It’s easy to say when you’re not in the thick of it but I need to accept that it is a part of me and it’s what makes me me. I am passionate about anything that I do (as if you haven’t noticed…) I get obsessed by things being right…. That’s just it… it’s my version of what I think is right…. That’s not always possible and that’s not the end of the world. That is ok.

This next one is so true but at the same time if I appreciate the present moment then I have to believe that there’s no time like the present.

Humans naturally wait for the next “hit” of happiness. The next purchase, the next holiday, the next house etc… if we keep searching for the next thing then we will never be truly happy with what we already have.

I’m reading a new book…. just in case you wondered where all this wisdom was coming from?!? 🤣🤣

I was listening to Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast and she interviewed Gelong Thubten. I got to work on Thursday and ordered his book straight away as he talks about how happiness is here and now in the present. Very like the Eckhart Tolle teachings I’ve been listening to.

Focus on the now. The present moment.

Check my new jammies for lounging around the house.

Perfect! 💜
This is my current situation…. Trying to get a nap in said comfies…. Happiness is…. snuggles with Bhruic and Freya 💜💜

So back to the book…..

This is so true and I’ve never thought of that before now.

So my day so far…. Dog walk with Calaidh and Freya. Then dog walk with Bhru. It’s very wet!!!

I actually got stuck in a ditch walking Bhru… I threw the frisbee into a deep ditch and she looked at me with that look like she had no idea what I meant…. She was not going for it. I had to…….

Could I get back out?! Honestly where are all your dog walking buddies when you need them. I couldn’t find anything to pull up on to give me the humph out…. Ended up having to get both feet down in the ditch and crawl up and out on my hands and knees 🤦🏻‍♀️. Classy.

Soaked through!! And showing off the Ivy again

Claire popped in for a cuppa after I had my shower and then I took a wee drive down to Irvine for a wander round the shops… hence the newly purchased jammies.

I was only there for an hour or so. It was pretty busy and queued to get in and out the car park.

It’s still raining.

I’m gonna settle down for a nap now I think. Poor Craig’s working all day today so I reckon I have an hour and a half. Just enough time.

He called……. At 16.54….. woke me up… I booked back off and he is now home. Full of admiration for my new purple jammies…… 🤣🤣🤣 I’d only I could replicate his face when he saw me. I’m still giggling…. 🤷🏻‍♀️😂🤣

He says I look like blind Al from Deadpool….. nowI’m not gonna lie…. Even the back of the seat is the same as the new blanket I have on Grans chair….

I’m still sleepy. I’d normally be grumpy but I’m laughing. He says I need some big gold chains. 🤣🤣🤣

I’ve had another lovely wee day. I’m content. Happy on the moment. Still giggling at my jammies….

Stay safe everyone 💜💜💜

Day 557 a bit of self love today 💜🧡♥️

Not gonna lie… the mood wasn’t the best this morning. My stomach cramps were sore so I took paracetamol. The good thing is I feel really calm though projected into orbit by random questions and discussions. For no reason. Totally me, my head and I. 🤯

However, I had a lovely wee day today.

The girl that used to paint my toes has been on maternity leave since October last year! She came back to work this week and I booked my toenails in as soon as I knew! It’s the only real beauty thing that I do. There’s something lovely about having your toes painted. I have a lovely plummy red colour today. I’ve tried and decided you don’t need the pic….. 💅🏼🤣

That only took a half hour so I headed up to Linwood as I was meeting an old friend for lunch. She’s not old…. Before you start… I’ve known her since we worked together in 2001-2002. I was very early so popped into Asda to pick up dinner while I waited.

I met Carol-ann at 12 at the Linwood Farm. Wait until you see the cakes…… oh my actual word.

So we had the loveliest lunch which Carol-ann stated was her shout before I even had a chance to say hello! Should say here that Carol-Ann made the lovely Lucky Teddy that she gave me last year because she thought I would love it. And I did and I do! Lucky lives in the living room on top of the drinks cabinet…. Well out the way of puppy jaws!

Gorgeous eh?! And she made it!!!

Anyway…. We’ve probably not met up since about 2016 I reckon so there was loads to catch up on!!!

Now for the cakes….

I want you to take some time to zoom in on these…. They are honestly about 30cm high. I have never seen cake like it.

We have a slice of the Mars Attack to share tonight…. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Ice cream?!?!?!?! Wow!

After lunch I drove up to Braehead Shopping centre. I had an appointment for a free facial in Boots…. Not gonna lie, I thought it was a makeover but it was a facial. Now you’re in the middle of the shop… at the No7 stand…. But I had an hours worth of facial (stop it for those of you sniggering at that word… I know who you are)

For free.

So you would think… it’s gonna cost you. They’ll get you to buy everything they used. That was my fear.

Actually the girl gave me wee sample tubs of most of the things she used. One of the serums was £34.95 and I reckon she must have given me at least a £6 sample of it. I’m so impressed. I have it all to try at home.

For free!

Bumped into my neighbours mum and dad. So lovely to see them and have a wee chat. Within minutes we both messaged Claire to tell her we’d met each other and how lovely it was. I love that!

So back home and popped into the pub for a 0% Tanquery Gin and pink soda before dinner.

We’re having a lovely chilled out evening in the sunroom. Candles on, twinkly lights twinkling. We decided this morning we’d have a different night. I feel like I’ve spent most of it writing this so I gonna go and enjoy it. Time without tv. Priceless.

Time without anxiety. Absolute bliss. Heaven.

I need to learn to accept that sometimes I suffer from overwhelming anxiety. It skews my view of things. It’s on overreaction. It’s not the end of the world.

It’s just who I am.

Now I’m off to eat lots of cake and drink Nozeco!

Stay safe everyone 🥰🥰🥰