Day 615 a beautiful cold and frosty day ❄️☀️❄️

What a beautiful day. There’s not been a cloud in the sky all day.

I’ve had a good day because I chose to do what I wanted to do rather what I should do. I’m not feeling great but I’m not going to give it any power. There’s no reason to feel rotten just now. The sun shone, it’s nearly Christmas and Craig chose my least favourite tasks off the list!!

He did the food shopping while I walked the dogs this morning. I thought the fresh air would be good.

The dogs were great today. I was ready for ambush around every corner, every branch, every twig but thankfully we didn’t need it overthinking brain.

The colours were amazing today 💙 💚

My trees 🌳

Goat Fell looks spectacular covered in snow in the distance!

Heading back into the village.

What’s this Bhru says?!?

I love this wee cottage in the sun.

The sun at the bottom of the garden.

So I’ve done washing and hung it to dry and moved the sun room around so that I can crochet without the icy blast at the door in Gran’s chair. Such a random thing to do but it made a big difference! I know I could just shut the door but the dogs were running in and out.

I crocheted and listened to music. Added a whole new row onto the blanket. This one jumped up and wouldn’t let me get on with it!! I am under here.

And….. then I went to bed. Electric blanket on and slept for an hour and a half.

The list will have to wait. Once I allowed myself to realise that it was ok.

Always , always before!!!

We watched the Holiday last night which is a lovely Christmas feel good movie and tonight we’re on Love the Coopers. I’m drinking Ikea’s alcohol free mulled wine. Claire got me a bottle the other week. Smells so good.

Cheers to a good week ahead!

Stay safe everyone ☀️❄️☀️

Day 614 anxiety to calm to Christmas dinner in the pub! 🎄🎅🏼🧑🏼‍🎄

Wow… I had a rough morning fighting with my head. There were tears before 7am and tears again before 11am but I’ve done my best to work at it this morning and I think I’ve calmed my overthinking.

I’ve brought Abbie the campervan down to work as there’s a auto electrician in that can fix issues I have with the stereo and reverse camera. I feel like I have “worked” in my head all weekend as a result. This was my choice but I’ve spent the whole weekend thinking about things that need done at work blah blah blah…. and things I could have done differently or better.. beating myself up.

I’m worried about Christmas , I feel I “should” be enjoying the run up to Christmas more, soaking up the atmosphere, I’m worrying about what to get everyone but not enough to actually do anything about it. It’s just hanging over me. Christmas is a difficult time for so many people. People put so much expectation on the right gifts, the right meal, having a good time and how many of just don’t click with all that expectation?

So back to the morning, we got up and had coffee after I bent poor Craig’s ear when he say “talk to me about it”…. He should never have asked….. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

He went off to work and I took the dogs out to “get that over with”…. I actually had a really lovely walk and managed all 3 at once easily.

Christmas lights at sunrise
Off we plod
The sky was a lovely shade of pink
Yeah these are almost identical!!
Big clouds
Not seen reflections in this puddle for ages as there’s not been a puddle for ages!
These berries looked beautiful in the morning light
On the pull 🙄😆 I love these clouds, they lit up the sky
The dark sky was really navy blue but this doesn’t do it justice
“Hello Coo” says Bhru!
The colours changing every minute
Sunrise back home!

So I did a poo pick in the garden which is always lovely…… but it’s done and looks so much better. Non dog folks wince at this point!

Morning light

I got the dogs settled and went through to the bedroom and did a 20 minute Mindfulness Meditation 🧘🏻‍♀️

Honestly when it started my head was absolutely jumping. If you can imagine a comic with a fight scene….

Not kidding that’s exactly what my head felt like. I could almost feel the punches and kicks being thrown. I reckon after the first 5 minutes of the meditation it finally subsided. Maybe I’ve just got very descriptive in my blog writing days… 🤣 but it really did feel like that.

I then did a Body Shop Vitamin C face mask and sat listening to music. Not just any music but music I used to sing when I was in the church choir as a kid. Faurés Requiem and Christmas carols with descants. I know… ok.. if anyone had seen me I was even more crazy than normal with a white sheet mask over my face and big headphones on “gie’in it laldy” as they say in Scotland.

The singing (with great gusto) caused more tears… stirring up memories of years long gone. Jeez would you listen to me. I sound like old mother time eh?!?

Anyway…. I am finally calm. I’m exhausted but calm.

And now Abbie has her stereo hanging out!!

Love my wee sloth plaque

So it turns out the stereo didn’t have an earth to the handbrake 😳 so I never got full functionality of it as it thought I was always driving… or something like that. 🤷🏻‍♀️

So all fixed and back up the road by 1.55pm just in time for Christmas lunch at the Gateside Inn… next door.

Christmas table!
Craig got “beard brussels” from the girls

What an amazing meal. Craig’s had goats cheese tart to start and I had chicken liver pâté. Forgot to take photos…. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Main courses were Steak Pie with all the trimmings and Roast Gammon.

Steak pie
Gammon with all the trimmings
This jumper looks a lot better in real life than it does in the photo!!

The sky was amazing again when we left. I spent about 15 minutes in the back garden taking photos.

Fire in the sky 🔥
Autumn clouds 🍂
Isn’t this amazing!
Clouds over the house
Fire over the back deck
Very spooky trees
Wow 🤩

So it’s 4.30pm and I’m in bed with the electric blanket on while Craig watches the football. Bliss.

I’m like a different person from this morning and the relief is immense. I plan to have a very lazy evening in front of the tree and the fire…. As soon as that football noise stops 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😳🤣

Stay safe everyone 🔥🔥🔥

Day 613 it’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas 🎄 🎅🏼🤶🏼🎄

Have to start with last nights trip to the theatre darlings…. 🎭 wow…. Les Misérables in Glasgow’s Theatre Royal was phenomenal. The music is still ringing in my ears.

What a stunning venue to start off with. Don’t think I’ve been there before… I would like to say that this is my photo but I didn’t make it on stage last night!

I did get this…

Thats the most people I’ve seen all in one place for a very long time.

There was a huge queue when we arrived but it actually went down pretty quickly. The first check was the COVID passport to prove we were double vaccinated. The second check was for booze in your bag… and then finally the tickets check.

We got seated with about two minutes to spare.

The show was honestly out of this world. It was exceptional. It’s 4.20pm and I can still hear it all swirling round in my head. I managed to hold it together until almost the last act… 😭

One thing that struck me was I haven’t clapped like that in a very long time either. They got a standing ovation.

The theatre emptied pretty quickly and we got back to the car. It took us an extra half hour to get home as all the slip roads onto the M8 were closed! We were stuck in a queue of folk following each other, hoping that the next slip might be open!!

11.56pm I got into my bed.

4.45am and it was time to wake up for the Fit Body Farm………. Less than 5 hours sleep! I am shattered today. Just about to go for a nap as I can hardly keep my eyes open. We did run loads at the farm too which is always extra knackering!

Craig’s been off today too so we’ve done loads of housework and went to the Gateside Plant Centre to pick our Christmas tree. 🎄

Now I should say that we can see the Plant Centre from our living room window and one year we did actually carry our tree home. We regretted it!! This time we took the car with the roof rack!

Ta dah…… 🎄🎄🎄🎄🎄🎄

The poor pups have to pose in front of it every year…. 🤣

I noticed the sky outside as we were putting some lights out. It was so red!

And these are our outdoor lights.

I’ve got the electric blanket on now and I’m gonna to get some sleep. It’s a bit late but hey…. Thought I’d show you the headboard as I just wrapped lights around that too!!

So in other news it’s been a costly day for us. Abbie the camper van was in the garage again but that was only £50 to fill some leaks on the exhaust.

We had a toilet engineer… not a plumber… out this morning to fix our Saniflow bathroom which was backing up and water wasn’t flowing away. We have a second bathroom right beside the main bathroom. So random. The folks before us put it in so their old dad could have a shower without climbing into the bath.

We been having waterworks issues for a long time in that bathroom. We turned a blind eye until I realised the shower cubicle had an inch of water in the bottom of it, one day last week. Finally it’s all fixed and we are £194.19 lighter….

Happy weekend!

Stay safe everyone 🎄🎄🎄

Day 612 quickie tonight as I’m off to the theatre!!

For the first time in how many years?!?! I have lost count. I’m off to the theatre tonight to see Les Miserables.

I went into work for 7 so I could leave at 3pm and I’m still rushing. Even leaving early I felt like I was rushing and I’ve not thrown the feeling yet.

Maybe that’s because I preempted that I would have no clue how to get ready or what to wear!!! I’ve had about 4 outfits on and have settled for the best of a causal bunch and I have 15 minutes until we leave!

So I am ready to go and really looking forward to seeing the show. I’ve seen it before but I can’t wait to see it again. I’ve honestly not been out out in years!

I have my covid passport ready to prove that I’m double jabbed before we get in.

Have a great evening everyone and pics tomorrow!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 611 first day of Advent snd no voices in my head 🤣

Awwww what a lovely day today. She who chattered in my head all day yesterday was silent ALL day today. Not a peep! Isn’t it amazing how it can be so different one day to the next.

If I’m honest I’ve felt shattered since last night. I slept really well but felt groggy when I woke up. I have that lovely silence after the frenetic ramblings of yesterday. It’s no wonder I’m exhausted. I did all Decembers thinking in one day 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

The Fit Body Farm was great again this morning. I did up my weights on the last exercise and I feels really good when I’m able to do that.

It was super dark when I came out and yet the photo I took looks way lighter.

I thought this looked really lovely

I’ve been focussed at work and got loads done again but this time without the incessant chatter and put-me-downs. I really am my own worst enemy!!

This made me laugh!! A lot!! for once in about 3 years it’s no true!

I’m off to meet the hookers tonight at 7pm. I really need to get the finger out and try and finish my blanket.

I ♥️ this!

So I thought I’d look for some more photos tonight as I’m enjoying that and remember just how many places I’ve been and seen. what to pick tonight?!

John O’Groats Hogmanay 2019
Burn running into the top of Smoo Cave in Durness
Waterfall dropping into Smoo Cave
Dornoch Beach 2019
Waterfall in Glencoe
The 3 sisters in Glencoe (well 2 of them!)
Bidean nam Bian, Glencoe
Craighouse, Jura 2021
Iona, 2017
Sailing out of Rothesay, Bute
Uig on Skye to Lochmaddy, North Uist
Clachan Sands, North Uist 2019
Clachan Sands
Clachan Sands
Eriskay, South Uist
Sun sets in Ardrossan 2019
Sun setting over Irvine Beach 2019
Great Cumbria 2019
Sun setting in Largs 2019

Ahhh loved a wee trip down memory lane.

Off to meet the hookers!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 610 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 Happy St Andrew’s Day 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

It’s 6.17am and I’ve been wide awake since 5am…. Thought I’d put this dead time to good use.

This waking up early malarkey bugs me. I have two mornings a week I get to sleep until 6.30am….. and I’ve not managed it for weeks.

Do you ever hear the voice inside your head that chatters away when you most want to rest. Mine never shuts up in the morning. Since 5am she’s told me that I can’t control my dogs out on a dog walk, my dogs don’t respect me, I must be running out of money about now, scared to check the bank account, how will I afford Christmas, well I can’t to the village Christmas Eve dog walk as I can’t control my dogs in a big group, who would I take, who would I leave behind, then I’ll have to walk the others, how will they be on Christmas Day at our folks house, I’ve no Christmas presents for anyone yet, why have I left it so late, what am I going to get, when am I going to buy them, how will I afford them, I should really check the bank to put my mind at ease but that might worry me more. (I’ve read that back and I cringe…. None of those things are an issue 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣but I want to sun up how crazy the thoughts can be at times).

All through that I’ve been trying to breathe deeply, shut down the inner voice and just be in the moment.

We are by far our own worst enemies!! You would never talk to anyone else like that. Ever.

It feels like a pain in my lower stomach, a bubbling of anxiety.

I’ve checked my positive feed on FB. That helps.

Eh hullo…. I’m trying!!

Now that I’m up and moving I can shut her up a bit. Jeez…..

The forecast is pretty dreich for today.

I step into the shower…. There’s a tennis ball.

Took me all my time to get a photo without the reflection in the shower box 😆 and in my house we also have this to deal with….

You never shower alone!

It was a very dark drive to work! I know that sounds ridiculous, but a real misty and murky dark.

In work I’m flitting backwards and forwards between jobs like a budgie. A wave of anxiety washing over me when I think of something while I’m doing something else. Drop the first thing, pick up the new thing, half do it then back to the first thing.

I have a list…. I keep jumping about the list, adding things, never removing. Constantly adding as my brain fires off things that need doing.

We have customers come and go and I add to the list. I’m still chirping away inside my head and it’s 2pm before I get a minute to stop for lunch.

And relax… and write this. It helps. I feel a bit calmer already. Don’t get me wrong, I’m ok today and getting things done just self criticising my every move and every decision. I’m not about to burst into tears!

And more importantly, I achieved a lot today, despite all of that. Go figure eh but no wonder I get tired!

I have literally just had a conversation with someone who said the tone of my blog is so different now than from a few months back….. 😬😬😬grins as written this already and not deleting now…. 😬😬😬

So I thought a nice way to finish today would be some of my favourite photos of Scotland seeing as it’s St Andrew’s Day.

Glencoe 2016
Campbeltown
Kissimul Castle, Barra 2014
CalMac leaving Oban, one of my favourite towns
Princes Bay, Eriskay, 2019
Isle of Shuna 2017
The Galloway Forest, Raiders Road 2018
Bidean nam Bian, Glencoe, 2016
Iona 2017
Leaving Oban for Barra 2014
Isle of Lewis 2014
Portencross Beach 2021
Scottish rush hour!
Sunrise in Tongue on the North Coast 500 Hogmanay 2019
Smoo Cave, Durness, 2019
Corran Sands, Islay, 2021
Highland Cow

I really enjoyed looking through all my photos and there’s another 47,000 or so to go so we’ll never run out… 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 609 Fit Body Farm workout of the year 🏋🏻‍♀️& new Tartan Camper hoody!

I was in bed from 8.30pm last night and out for the count. Slept like a log. Finally!

Up at at ‘em at 5am ready for Fit Body Farm action. Today was the 2021 Workout of the Year where they are tying to encourage as many members as possible, past and present, to attend this workout number 1 of the week, over today and tomorrow.

I am the vision in yellow 💛 at the back.

Craig and I are members to Team Courage 💛💛

I was buzzing during the workout. I loved it! Short, sharp bursts of effort being cheered on by your team members. I had two lovely compliments about how fast I was on the ski-erg and how much weight I’d lost. So lovely of people to take the time to say that. I still haven’t lost much weight but I’ve lost 52cms so far which is great and I’m really feeling it.

My team won the final challenge. She who is not competitive at all…. Showed a teensy weensy wee shred of competitiveness today!

So a great start to the day!

There was still some snow this morning when I left

It’s been a rotten day weatherise. We had to watch out for ice at the farm but it’s got milder and it’s now really smirry rain. that rain that soaks you!!

A busy day at Tartan HQ and finally got a Tartan hoody! Sure the pics are disappointing as it seems a few folk think my tartan T-shirt’s and hoodies are tartan…. Eh no, sorry!

Being jumped on by Calaidh and Bhruic!

So another good day AND Craig made the tastiest dinner which always helps.

Sitting in front of the fire and not moving forward the rest of the night!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 608 it’s snowing!!! and my first ever Fogbow! What a beautiful day! ⛄️ ☀️ ❄️

Wow nature is amazing… I’m just back from the most stunning dog walk through snow, fog and pure blue sky sunshine. I am absolute buzzing!

I’m really going to have to build in some time to delete photos every day if I keep taking this many. So I’ll keep the chatter too minimum today as it’ll take me hours to sift through the millions of shots. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😆

Suffice to say I have a huge big grin on my face and am absolutely loving life. I just need to do this every day…. Not too much to ask?!? 🤷🏻‍♀️🙄🤣

It started with Calaidh barking again this morning. I got up to the loo and looked out the window… ran back into the bedroom practically shouting that it had been SNOWING!

Not sure why us Scots feel the need to share our snow with each other but we really do. In the next hour or so there’s a pic from each set of parents showing off theirs!

7.15am
Claire did the Christmas lights in the Memorial Hall yesterday🎄

So it wasn’t heavy at all but we don’t care we share it anyway!

Our bamboo!

My wee 81 year old lady phoned this morning so I had a 45 chat with her and heard all her news then decided to head out with the dogs. Calaidh first.

It was freezing fog but so stunning and atmospheric.

Reek Street
Still in Reek Street
Top of Reek Street
Loved the snow on the dry stane dyke
A gate 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣
That water must be freezing!
This bush is covered in red berries
Heading into Spiers Old School grounds
My favourite gate in Spiers
So moody!
The spookiest tree ever!
Big branch down in Storm Arwen on Friday
Foggy field

All of a sudden on the road home the fog starts to clear. As I take this next photo I happen to turn to my left…

And see this…..

Don’t think this is the best picture but it’s the first one!
I “think” this is the best one

It was really hard not to get too much of me in the photo as the sun is right behind me casting a shadow.

The sky ended up clearing to blue above it

I honestly can’t tell you how amazing it felt to be seeing this. It makes you feel so very good to be alive. I am so excited on a day when blog content just slaps me in the face!

By this time the sun is huge in the sky

Craig’s watching the Rangers game so I come running in the house shoving my phone in his face, chirping like a budgie and Rangers score their second goal. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😬😳🤣 least he was looking at a Fogbow when he missed it!

So back out with Bhruic and Freya but this time up the hill across the road. While I walk I’m sending the Fogbow pic to the family group chats…. As I look up…

Fogbow number 2!!! 😳🤯
Got another photo of it closer to the farm

And carrying on round the corner I see another one. Not to be fair… this could just be the same one moving. 😆

Fogbow number 3 or 2 repeated?!?

Wow, wow and wow.

I spent years driving to and from a job I hated, making myself ill being in first and out last, priding myself in my busyness…. because I thought that’s what you had to do. I never looked up. Never stopped to look at anything.

I am so proud that I’ve come this far and am able to feel like this about the sky… I mean come on. Get a room. (That makes no real sense at all but it was funny in my head?!)

The Fog’s still hanging
The Great Wall of fog!
Rising above the fog in the valley
Trees emerging
Big patch of snow
Freya’s not impressed
I don’t ever remember seeing the fog clear like this
The small steeple to the left is Beith Parish Church
These trees made lovely patterns on the road
The road home

So now have my feet up in Gran’s chair.

The puppers are worn out

I’m enjoying a Turkish Apple Tea which Claire got me for my birthday.

And this is my view.

I hardly ever listen to music but it’s a playlist Craig made me for my birthday last year…. Each song means something to us… and it drowns out the football!!

And just like that…. Somewhere over the rainbow – The Ukele Boys starts playing! The law of attraction is amazing when you are in the right headspace!

Ours next door neighbour Holly provided a 3.30pm lunch/dinner…

Haggis, beeps and tarries with a whisky creme sauce!

It was the special in the pub this week. How lucky were we? It was so good.

The sky is darkening now. I’ve still to think about Christmas shopping, make tomorrow’s breakfast and lunch and write some words around my Fit Body Farm nomination and I really wanted to crochet today. But that’s ok. It can all wait.

So once again it’s nearly Sunday night and we face the week ahead. Remember if anything hits you that you feel you can’t handle, it’s only temporary. It will pass. Just keep on appreciating the present moment for what it is. Right here, right now. No worries foe the future, no shame of the past. Just what is.

And I’ll try and take my own advice!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 607 the calm(ish) after the Storm Arwen 🌪🌪🌪

Wow well that was some night. I don’t remember a storm that bad, certainly not since we’ve lived here. It was wild!

I think we were luckier than the east coast of Scotland. I have seen friends and family that have lost sheds, greenhouses, fences and poor mum and dad had some mega force of wind take down not only their fence but push over their heavy double wooden seat!

Our house was cold last night. The force of the wind blowing on the windows and doors was crazy. I had to wrap a scarf and a hoody round the door handle to try and cover the lock to stop the wind from howling through it! We do have a very old house so it’s not the most weather secure.

The wind howled all night. I didn’t sleep great as I was either listening to it or being woken up by it. We hear very little from our bedroom normally as the walls are about a foot thick. This was walloping into the weindow panes and finding every angle necessary to get through!

We woke to Calaidh having a 6.15am bark at the wind…. the joys eh?!

6.15am

However it was a beautiful morning and I’ve got loads done. I started with a dog walk with Bhruic and Freya at 8.30am.

Lovely clouds
This was the worst we found, a big branch down that someone had moved onto the verge
Almost sunrise
First icy puddle I’ve seen!
Of course there’s a gate!
Everything is so bright in the sun!
Sun’s up!
The tree in Geilsland estate
Sun between two trees
Walking into Gateside
Everything beautiful in the winter sun 🌞
Nature is amazing. All the leaves are piled like this!
Sunrise in the village
Maybe we should sweep them up?! Freya says??

Back home to drop them off and take Calaidh up the hill.

Sunrise on the edge of the village
Off we go!
Those patches are icy!
I spend so long avoiding the pylons in my local photos… I decided to embrace one!
The farm
Another gate!
Calaidh enjoying her walk
Spooky tree!
Not sure what I’m trying to achieve with this photo?!? Hard to make a star shape when you’re taking the photo and holding a poo bag!! Shows the the long winter sun shadow and Calaidh just above my head waiting for me
Good girl!
Love these trees!
Lovely view up the hill
Love this pic, Calaidh living her best life!
Back down to the main road

Back home and shower before heading straight down to my lovely friend, Gayle’s, shop for Christmas cards. She does some lovely ones from Gateside so I always like to try and get them before they sell out.

Doesn’t the window look beautiful 🤩
Loved these guys!
It’s just so beautiful

Back home and out to Abbie the campervan for a major clean out! I found a packet of scones that went off on 11the September!!!!! And the worst of it is.. they still look ok….

No sign of mould!!!

Spent the rest of the morning and early afternoon out there in the van pottering, with the heater on of course. Felt really good to get it back into shape.

Then it was time for lunch and a weeeeee nap!

This pair were sitting on my knee so this is a selfie!! Love the look on Bhruic’s face.

Mum called and we had a good wee chat and it woke me up enough to get moving again, changed the bed, tidied the bedroom, put washing away. It feels good.

Just before I started to make dinner I went to let the dogs out the back and noticed the most amazing sky!

Not sure the photo even does it justice.

It was stunning.

So lucky to catch this as it was over in minutes. A reminder that life is short and you should look around so you don’t miss things.

I’m cooking chicken pizza for dinner tonight with olives, peppers, onion and goats cheese. We’re having that with roasted potatoes and broccoli healthy style.

It’s still freezing outside but both fires are on and it’s super cosy inside.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 606 shopping with mum!! 🛍🛍🛍🛍♥️

Up before the birds for the Fit Body Farm and did a wee jig in the street when I saw Rachel two doors down getting into the car to go to her gym… we’re a crazy lot in this village!

The farm was hard this morning. Constant activity but at 6-7/10 effort… no breaks. It’s hard to work at 6-7/10 when everyone is bombing past you on the first run and you’re trying to speak in a loud voice to remind them it’s only 6-7/10 effort…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

So probably 10 x 500m runs this morning with wall ball targets, burpee broad jumps, sled push and pull and walking lunges with 20kg rec bags in between. As usual it starts off hard but I did settle into using the run as the kind of rest before the next exercise.

It was super cold and windy this morning. The grass was SOAKING and freezing once the wind caught my wet clothes. Yup crazy 😝

So, unusual for a Friday, but I had a shower at the farm so I could head straight to meet Mum without going home first.

The sunrise was pretty spectacular again.

The moon is quite small
Sunrise in the van windows in

So it was a nice drive this morning. A huge trip down memory lane as Google maps took me past Kilmarnock and through East Kilbride , both places we used to live. Not driven those roads in years but missed all the Glasgow traffic and got to Livingston Designer Outlet for 9am.

Of course we did it again and agreed to meet for shopping on Black Friday. The car park was full almost by the time I met mum only about 10-15 minutes later and pretty quickly the shops were heaving!

Of course we went for breakfast first and I had porridge with honey and an Oat Milk Latte. We didn’t get any photos but my FB memories today from 2016!! Told you we make a habit of it!

Today looked pretty much like this but without the chocolate!

This is me in 2016… before I went off sick and piled on the weight!

2016 🤷🏻‍♀️💕💜

So we had a good wander round but definitely don’t have the shopping stamina we used to have. Took some photos in the Lindt shop but proud to say didn’t buy a thing. 😆

How many flavours?!?
This wee guy was huge!
Merry Christmas from Lindt!

We went into Muffin Break for lunch as everywhere was queued out the door except Krispy Kreme and Muffin Break for some reason.

Claire sent me this and said drive carefully home. It was some stormy drive back though I left about 1.30pm. Two hands on the wheel all the way. Yea I know you should always have two hands on the wheel but you know what I mean. Really holding on!

Gavin the Fit Body Farm coach (and owner) has sent me a link to a motivational book called “The Thin Woman’s Brain” and I’ve been listening to it while driving since Tuesday. It’s actually really good and as he said, same applies to guys too.

It explains why we overeat and how naturally thin women have a different relationship to food than those who have generated a food addiction. So today I’ve not had access to the best choices of food but I have thought about the flavours, savoured the food in my mouth and tried not to eat anymore when I became full. It encourages you to think about the difference between actual hunger and brain hunger. Brain hunger is the reason I put on 3 stone throughout my illness. I’ve understood that my buying and devouring the whole bag of Cadbury’s Chocolate Buttons, on almost a daily basis, was my body’s way of trying to generate some dopamine. Really all it did was give it a small hit but created an addiction for more. It’s really interesting and well worth a read or listen.

So straight into bed, when I got home, with the electric blanket on! Couldn’t really sleep but had a good hour or so rest.

My FB post on View from my window is now up at 39,600 likes with over 4,700 comments!! I’ve tried to keep up with them but sure I’ll be liking comments for a good few weeks to come. It’s finally slowed today but I’ve got loads to go back to. What a wonderful page.

I think I said before that I have my FB set so that I only see positive posts now and use it as a tool to help me write the blog. It’s a great feeling to take control over what you see.

I’m in jammies ready for a cosy Friday evening in front of the fire as the wind whistles down the chimney and howls outside the windows.

Happy weekend x

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️