Day 974 Fit Body Farm Workout of the Year 2022

What an amazing start to the day. The FBF Workout of the year. It encourages people back to the Farm, across today and tomorrow, to take part in this challenge.

The dualling Avery’s but on the same team. Craig was cycling like mad here!

I cannot stress this enough. I LOVE these team workouts. I felt on top of the world at the end of it. Helped out by the fact that me shooting a basket, literally 2 seconds before the lovely Linda next to me, meant my team won this morning!

The winning basket!!!

The other guys had done all the hard work. Cathy was amazing on the battle ropes just before me. The teams were neck and neck all the way. That feeling of everyone watching you, your team routing for you and you hit your basket, is amazing. ♥️

I should also point out that there are icy puddles outside and we’re outside shooting hoops before 7am. I hear myself, it’s crazy.

I’m must admit that I don’t really feel that kind of excitement much in my new, calm and chilled out life.

Even after my amazing 50th birthday I reckon the last time I had that much fun was the day out on the Waverley Paddle Steamer. The high is addictive.

That’s not to belittle my birthday at all. I think there’s a different pressure there, not wanting to turn 50 and being a nervous centre of attention is very different.

I don’t drink anymore so I don’t have that longing for a night out like I used to have.

Snapshot this nugget from a video clip!

Here’s the team photo Gavin from FBF shared on FB , a good turnout from the 6am crew!!

I’m rambling now but you get the drift.

I was awfy happy after that workout 🏋🏻‍♀️ 😂

The sunrise was amazing again this morning. I know you just be sick of seeing it by now. 😂

Love the reflections in the van.

I’ve said it before but will never stop being grateful for the beautiful surroundings that we get to work out in. I love that it’s all over before I’ve even had time to think about it!

It was still lovely when I got to Tartan HQ. The vans were all super frosty.

It’s been another good day at work. Cold, but I was ready for it!

Ellison brought me in lentil soup for lunch! How lovely was that. I heated it up in the van.

Unfortunately the diesel heater didn’t work so I was freezing, apart from the soup! It was 9°C inside the van today as there was no sun. I’m back on the diesel heater FB forum to see what else I can do with it.

Was a weeeeeee bit miffed that my new found diesel heater knowledge was no damn use to me today!!

Anyway, it’s another chance to learn something else about them, she says, through gritted teeth.

I’m home having dinner before the Crochet Hookers meet at 6.30. I have the back door open for the dogs and the cold is really creeping into my bones. It’s a full moon tonight. It was huge in the sky when I left work.

Todays been another good day. I’m off out to try the diesel heater again. Wish me luck.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 973 a good bit warmer today though it was my first frosty day!

I set about everything with a much warmer outlook today. 😆

I wore a thicker jumper, a hat, scarf and gloves from the outset and it seems to have done the trick. I was ready for anything the cold threw at me.

I set my alarm for 15 minutes earlier today, so I could drive to a cheap petrol station on the way to work. I realise the irony of that. Drive further to save a few pence….

I had to scrape Abbie the Campervan for the first time this year.

She has her big boy wheels back on

Now remembering I am only 5ft 4 inches, this is about as much of the windscreen as I can clear.

Did I remember Craig had given me a homemade de-icer to try??

No, I did not… I whapped my lunch bag down on top of it and completely forgot it was on my passenger seat.

Just as well I got up early. I had to sit for about 10 minutes until I could see enough to drive.

So ALL the way to the petrol station and the nice lady said I had enough Nectar points to save 5p a litre. Thank you very much lovely lady. (Yes I know probably still not worth the extra 10 mile drive but hey….)

The office was warmer as boss man left the heating on low last night which took the edge off the metal portacabin chill… and of course I was dressed like Nanook of the North (whoever that is?!)

I headed out to Abbie for lunch today as the sun was splitting the cold skies. Abbie was toasty warm in the sun, so I made soup and toasted my wrap.

By 3.50pm the sun was almost down.

As I ooohed and aaahed at the sunset, boss man sarcastically pointed out how lovely the moon was…. Methinks he was making fun of me 🤣🤣🤣 little does he realise I took s photo of it as it was stunning! Full moon tomorrow!

The van was all misted up again, when I left work, so I decided to try and fix my diesel heater as the boys are so busy, I am determined to get it going.

I tried to get the top off it to change the temperature sensor and it didn’t work. Only because I couldn’t actually get the top off, of course. 🤣

So I took this photo and posted on a FB forum where they gave me options to try and it worked straight away!!!!

I am soooo chuffed. The forum is great and has loads of experts on it… I may be using them again. I’ve been sitting outside the house in my jammies, hat, gloves and jacket and the diesel heater is pumping away nicely!!

I also came home to a lovely 50th birthday gift from my friend Aileen. We met about 1995 when we worked in Panasonic together. That’s nearly 30 years…. Wow!

I tried to take a photo, it’s the middle one! I love having a couple of necklaces on at once and these sit perfectly together.

So I’ve had a really good day today. I’m feeling quite excitable for some reason, which is quite rare. I did have a caffeine coffee at about 10.30am. Could be that 😂😂

It’s so nice to feel confident and happy. No tears on the progesterone this month and I stop it again tomorrow for 2 weeks.

Back in the house now. Fire on, candles lit and the puppers looking for a tennis ball to be thrown, as usual. Watching The Handmaid’s Tale again.

All is well.

AND MY DIESEL HEATER IS WORKING!!!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 972 I got chills, they’re multiplying… 🥶

I’ve been soooooo cold today, I’ve not been able to get a heat.

I say that, all wrapped up in Christmas jammies and a crochet blanket and I feel pretty cosy now.

Its only been about 5°C which is not as cold as it’s going to be for the rest of this week. I just had such a chill that my 4 layers of clothes didn’t touch it. Must look out my thermals for tomorrow and see if that helps. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

It was very dark when I left the Farm this morning but still really atmospheric.

This is a selfie I took…..

I am in here!!!!!

That’s how dark it was!!

Ellison and I were both dressed in Christmas penguin jumpers today.

I put my hat on about 10.30 and it made such a difference. I wore it the rest of the day!

It’s 5th December already. I have lovely foamy face wash, hair volumising shampoo, nail varnish and a couple of other things from my lovely birthday gift advent calendar.

I used the foamy face wash at the Farm this morning. I didn’t take my shower gel with me. As the foamy face wash foamed up like a foamy thing, I gave it a quick wheech round in place of shower gel.

It is Eucalyptus and Pine. 😳

Eucalyptus is minty. 😳

Never washed anything off so fast!!!! what a fright! 🤣

On a lighter note, Wonder Doodles is a lovely page on FB. They are posting lovely advent messages, I don’t often see them until I’ve already published the blog.

It was a lovely night when I left Tartan but dark by the time I got home.

I’ve been a machine since I got home… I say that, a machine by own on terms, not anyone else’s. I put together lasagne that Craig had started.

Then I hoovered the house. Been meaning to do it for a few days now and it felt good to get it down.

I’ve sat down and got wrapped up, and am watching The Handmaid’s Tale. I never got through season 5 so I’m starting it again, now that my heads in a better place. It’s very intense! 😂

So I know it’s early days, about 6 weeks since I’ve been on HRT, but I have to say that I am feeling pretty good these days.

Other then the overeating (which I’m very aware of, and trying to stop) I really have no adverse reactions to it.

I’m not going to count my chickens just yet but it feels good to be finding my way back.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 971 when life gives you burst zips, make the best of it ♥️

First things first…. Wild sea swimming this morning with Ellison and Eileen…. Did not happen because my wetsuit zip burst only 2nd time of wearing!!! I was gutted…

I took it all off again… no mean feat, and tried everything I could to get it zipped back up. Short of cutting the material and stitching it back up, there was nothing I could do.

There’s no way I could go in without it, remembering the freezing cold feet on Tuesday.

I sat about in my swimming costume for about 5 or 10 minutes trying to decide what to do. My alarm had gone off at 7.15am and I had read this when I woke up…..

Seriously… people often ask me how I can manage to write a blog on a daily basis…. The content just throws itself at me. As upset as I am at not being able to go swimming, it doesn’t need to ruin my day. I could have gone and sat with a coffee and watched them, but I though I might find that harder. I jumped back into bed for a bit… and put the electric blanket on as I had just been sitting around in a swimming cozzie and it’s very cold and frosty today! 😂

We finally got up and had coffee. We decided to use some of my birthday vouchers and head out to Mocha Jak’s, a coffee shop near us for breakfast. Thanks to Claire’s mum and dad for them! We took Calaidh.

I had Avocado Toast with tattie scones, halloumi and a fried egg with siracha sauce and Craig had the Mama Mocha breakfast.

Calaidh was a good girl.

She had doggy sausages. She then posed perfectly while I was paying at the till.

We both noticed that the staff were not very welcoming this morning. There weren’t many smiles which seemed a bit sad but maybe they were just tired after a very busy day yesterday. There was a Craft Fayre that may have had the run off their feet…. Then FB threw me this….

So very true. I thanked them profusely for lovely food with big smiles!!

We went for a walk around Spiers Old School Grounds, having been there in ages. Got a photo of my favourite gate.

The better photo is really the wall next to my favourite gate 😂

Back home and dropped Calaidh off and picked up Bhru and Freya and took the for a good run.

There are no photos, other than this lovely sky.

It’s really cold out there today so I’m in leggings and a Christmas jumper wrapped up in a blanket on the couch. I may have a nap.

Just have to tell you about our wreath making last night. The little gift shop girls went wreath making at McConnells florist in Beith.

I love my wreath…. it’s on the front door already!

The girls all made stunning wreaths.

Aren’t they beautiful?!?

I found it surprisingly easy to do and I really enjoyed it. We had a lovely wee snack in the middle too with sandwiches and cakes.

I left the florist about 9pm to drive back to Kilmarnock to pick Craig up… saved me going home first.

I really don’t like driving in the dark anymore. I used to hear people say that and couldn’t understand it. I do now.

Other than not being able to see well , I was even scared waiting for him in the van. It’s ridiculous really.

We were home by about 10.15 and I went straight to bed as ho early for sea swimming…. Aka fighting with a wetsuit.

Rachel two doors down is working on the village Christmas tree today. It’s such a beautiful tree from the Gateside Plant Centre, but sadly a huge section of the lights are not working. She’s having to order new lights…. It still looks lovely.

So not much else to report from here. Other than putting the washing away I will be ignoring the rest of the housework needing done.

It’s not long now until more holidays. Woop woop!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 970 Abbie the Campervan herded some sheep and other stories 🐏😆

It’s only 3.30pm and I’m having a lovely day. I had an amazing sleep. Woke up just after 4am and hadn’t even moved since 10pm. Managed to get back to sleep until 7.30am. Bliss.

I got stress get up andninto dog walking gear to walking the terrible trio before work.

It’s a lovely morning, it’s cool but not cold and dry. This is the sky at the bottom of the garden when we headed out.

The street was really quiet. I love being up and out when everyone else is still asleep.

It just got better.

The colours were just out of this world. I felt so lucky to be out there instead of stressing about waking all three dogs at once.

I never met a soul. Just me and the three degrees. 😂 These markings in the sky were really interesting. Wondered what caused it?

The road was really super muddy for some reason, so the dogs were filthy. I let them have a paddle in the burn. No meant dear down a hill on their leads. I did stay standing up straight 😂

The photos look fake but honestly there was no filter used. A morning like this fills me with so much joy. I feel bursting with excitement just looking at the sky.

I “think” this one shows the moon and two plane trails which seemed very close together.

Now in true Julie fashion, I bring you back down to earth with a bump, to tell you that through all this beauty the pups were pooping like no tomorrow and my poo bags kept splitting… I had to try and wrap each one as best I could, an honestly I do think I do pretty well in the circumstances. So many people seem to leave them out on the country roads. I ended up having to put them wrapped up in my pocket… 🤦🏻‍♀️😆 I was lucky that no poop escaped but still… brings some reality to the beautiful moment 💩😆

The little gift shop was great today…. Super busy. I love it when it’s so busy. So many lovely people buying Christmas cards and gifts. Lots of chat which you know I love.

There was also cake! (Bought from Gro Coffee last night!)

Back up the road and had to take Craig to Kilmarnock as he had an afternoon/night out with the boys.

I made him take this photo as I drove. It doesn’t do it justice. The clouds looked like they were pouring down out of that circle shape. Unusual.

As I drove home there were loads of sheep on the road in front of me! The sound of Abbie grumbling along the road sent them charging back into the field any way they could. It felt quite powerful to watch them all find their way. 🐏🐏🐏😂

I’m now sitting watching The Grinch as I write this. Bhruic is watching the tv!

I had a lovely time at Gro with the Menopause Mates group, now aptly renamed as the menopause maniacs!

I picked up Kirstin, who lives nearby so at least we weren’t arriving alone, but there was no need to worry. It was so lovely to meet everyone we’ve been chatting to on Messenger. We all go to the Fit Body Farm, but different classes, so might not ever meet up. It was so lovely to meet with girls who are all going through the same things and have a good old chat about the menopause.

I had a huge peppermint slice. It was exquisite!

Pic doesn’t do it justice!

We sat next to this beautiful tree.

I only have about 2 hours before I head back out Christmas Wreath making with the little gift shop girls! Really looking forward to it.

I have to go back and retrieve Craigie (or Merlin the happy pig 🙄) whenever he’s ready for collection…. after my wreath making. He’s under strict instructions not to be too late as I have wild sea swimming at 9am tomorrow!

It’s all go but I am smiling. A lot!

Stay safe everyone 🎄🎅🏼🤶🏼

Day 969 the Fit Body Farm, the little gift shop and meeting a lovely group of Menopause Mates!

I cried aloud when the alarm went off at 5am. I’d had such a great sleep, I didn’t want to get up but I bounded out of bed and got ready for the Farm. (It was a bit of a big effort “bound” if I’m honest 😆)

And boy, the Farm was hard work this morning. We were in pairs and had to work while our partner rested. We did 2 lengths of the gym pushing a heavy sled then a 250m run before our partner took over, we rested while they did theirs stint and then we did it all over again….for 12 minutes.

Then 20 x 4kg wall ball target throws followed by a 250m run, for 12 minutes and then 8 burpees followed by a 250m run for 12 minutes. 😳😆

I was knackered!!

Andrena and I barely spoke during it, other then to give the odd word of encouragement as we got our breath back. Hard work but a great workout with a great buddy!

I went out into the garden with the dogs when I got back. It’s a cold but lovely morning.

Throw the ball mum.

I’m not giving her the ball back….

I don’t care about the ball, just wanna play with Bhruic!

Me and my shadow….. Freya always follows Bhru around.

I jumped in the shower to get ready for work and headed to get my Christmas nails done before work this morning.

Back home for 15 minutes and then off to work at the little gift shop. (yeah I know, I’m knackered just writing it!)

Had another lovely day, with lots of lovely chat, but forgot to wear a Christmas jumper today! 😂

I was about to say that I came home for a quick bite to eat but that reminded me….. I need to draw a line again. I’ve said a few times this week that I’ve been gorging on food.

Shovelling it in.

It has to stop.

My good jeans are tight today. “No wonder” my inner voice screamed at me this morning!

Anyway, it has stopped a bit today. I am aware of it. I haven’t eaten the best of food but I have chewed it slowly and savoured it, rather than scoffing it without breathing. I feel fuller than I would have yesterday.

All of that said… I’m off to Gro Coffee in Irvine tonight with a lovely group of ladies from the Fit Body Farm…. Some of whom I’ve never even met as they got to classes at different times.

I posted on our FBF Members page one day… I was saying how amazing it was to work out there on a beautiful sunrise morning, when I’d felt so bad the day before, having just started HRT.

So many girls replied to my post and we got “chatting” and one of them set up a Messenger chat group where we can all talk about our symptoms and generally provide support to each other. It’s been a great group to be a part of.

So tonight we’re having a coffee catch up in Gro in Irvine….. there will be cakes…. Yeah I know….

I better go and get ready as I have to be out in 20 minutes… the blog took up all of my rest time but I do feel much better!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 968 first day of advent… hello December, already!

I am trying to be in the Christmas spirit this year as it’s not usually my thing. I have chosen to ignore the magic of Christmas for years now.

I have the most amazing M&S advent calendar which I got from my Aunt & Uncle for my 50th…. That really was the birthday that keeps on giving.

It has loads of M&S beauty products in it. I’ve never had anything quite like it and I was so excited to open it this morning.

I even looked out the Christmas jumpers this morning and wore one to work. I mean come on….. could I be any more Christmassy?!?

I’ve had a really good day at work today. I wasn’t in the best headspace but turned it all around. Managed to think straight through the confusion and ended up thinking it was a great day.

I didn’t think I slept well last night, was up a few times in the night and was clenching my jaw so much I couldn’t move it when I first woke up.

I woke with a thumping headache but it passed after my first lemsip of the day! Seems I actually got 8.5 hours which is pretty amazing. Funny how I thought exactly the opposite.

I’m sitting watching a very cheesy Christmas movie as I write this and Craig is out at work.

Bhruic is cuddled into my Christmas jumper and check the Christmas jammies too… I’m really trying!

One thing I did want to talk about…. Is anyone else in the UK wondering what had happened to the size of our toilet rolls?!?

They are double the thickness that they used to be and they are all over the shops now. The ones in work have grown too!!! 😂

The latest thing in our world to change I guess…. Toilet roll is now as thick as kitchen roll. Who knew?!

I’m still stuffing my face with any food I can get my hands on. I’ve put on so much weight this week… but I can’t do everything at once. It is what it is.

So not much else to report. Have a busy weekend so will no doubt have a really early night again tonight.

Stay safe everyone 🎄🎅🏼🤶🏼

Day 967 Happy St Andrews Day 2022 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

St Andrew is the patron saint of Scotland.

We celebrate St Andrews Day by feasting on haggis, neeps (turnip) and tatties (potatoes) but Craig and I had chicken fajitas 😆

We don’t even get a national holiday but hey…. There’s not much else to say about St Andrews day…. 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿💙

I slept like a log last night and really struggled to wake up at 5am… but I did and went to the Fit Body Farm.

It was hard today. I know it’s too much info but I’m good at the overshare…. My boobs were agony today. I almost wanted them as I ran. Now I know there a million jokes running through so many minds just now but honestly, they were so painful. It made me feel very slow and heavy today. I walked a few of the runs today just to save the pain. My Shock Absorber bra didn’t cut it today. 😆

Progesterone is not my friend.

I’m just starting week two of my second round of it and I definitely feel the hormones. I’ve been so lethargic all week. I’ve been in bed by 7-8pm every night, curled up with the electric blanket. I have put on weight as I’m eating to frantically search for energy. As I said the other day, nothing is cutting it, I gorge on dinner then have 12 squares of chocolate. Nothing is ever enough.

Mood wise I’m a bit more irritable, a bit more throw hands up in the air and walk away rather than sit and deal with something that hasn’t gone quite my way.

Other than that…. I’m peachy. 😆 I laughed at that…. it’s true, I’m actually pretty happy resting and eating. I know it’s not the best but it’s working for me just now so it is what it is.

Work was good again today but I’ve cancelled crochet tonight as I just need my jammies.

I’m off to watch the second half of Dirty Dancing tonight. I started it yesterday then fell asleep!

Nobody puts Baby in a corner. ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 966 a bit of an antsy day that ended with wild sea swimming!

I had the best sleep last night. Out for the count, so cosy and I did not want to open my eyes this morning, let alone get up!

I’m writing this in bed now and I finally feel this is where I’m meant to be 😂 it’s only 7pm!

They say the second day back is the hardest. I feel really tired, wiped out and a bit irritated that I have to do anything. I just wanted to stay in bed all day.

I tried to be super healthy with food today and yet I want to gorge on anything “bad” I can get my hands on. Yet none of it actually satisfies the hunger inside of me.

Work was actually good and I was busy but I overthought a lot and didn’t do things as comfortably as I did yesterday.

One thing that I did do and loved today was wild sea swimming for the first time…. Well not the first time ever but I spent about 20 minutes in the Firth of Clyde tonight and it’s 29th November!

I went with Ellison from work as her sister, Eileen, has been wild sea swimming for a good few years now and knows everything about the tides and wind direction etc. It seemed safe to go on her recommendation. I got a wetsuit for my 50th from Craigie as Ellison and I had talked about it a good few months back.

So finally tonight was the night. We left work very sharp, after I got changed into the wetsuit in Abbie the Campervan. That was a workout in itself. 😆

I was so excited.

Eileen lent me a spare pair of wetsuit gloves which really helped but NOTHING prepared me for the cold on my feet. I had to walk back out of the sea as quickly as I walked in.

By 4.30pm it was pretty dark and they reckon the water was around 9°C…. No concept as to how cold that would feel.

Waves of pain up my legs, pardon the pun.

I didn’t have wetsuit socks which the others did so I know that would have helped.

I just had to paddle about on the shore for a bit to acclimatise…. It was only a few minutes before my feet were numb enough and I could head in!

I had a waterproof pouch for my phone that Ellison gave me ages ago, but I have to say my photos are rubbish…. There was way too much going on to get a good photo 😂😂

I slowly walked out to the girls feeling the cold seep through various parts of the wetsuit 😂 but honestly nothing matched the cold of my feet. My body and hands were plenty warm enough.

Ellison and Eileen!
Ellison having a float!
Me finally having a float!

It was honestly amazing!

I have to order some wetsuit socks as there is nothing fun about that level of cold on my bare ankles….. but it felt amazing and a really fun thing to do.

I got dried as fast as I could and Ellison had given me a flask which I had a decaf coffee in. It helped to have a warm drink. My toes were numb most of the drive home. Abbie was up to 26°C by the time I got home and my feet were still cold.

I jumped straight in the shower and washed all my wet stuff. There’s a whole lotta sand in my bath now. No idea I was carrying that!

So as I said, I’m in bed with the electric blanket on and I’m super cosy. Ready for sleep.

A really fun end to the day! Thanks so much to the girls for inviting me and for lending me so many things!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 965 back to the Fit Body Farm and Tartan HQ

Back to reality with a bang today. Wide awake at 4.30am.

I made the mistake of looking at my phone before I got up, and read a post where a guy was complaining about a company that had fitted his pop top roof in his van. It may have been a dreadful experience but he dragged that company through the mud. I got really anxious reading it and that set the tone for the early morning. I fumbled my way through getting ready for the Farm.

I set off in my amazing non- wobbly van and realised that I could hear road noise and that it was the drivers door that was open. I tried to shut it as I drove…. Actually managed it.

Then a few miles down the road, a GIANT rat ran across the road in front of me. It was enormous!!! Craig even saw it in the car behind me. Mahoosive! Thankfully I slammed on the brakes and didn’t hit it.

Then…. Our road to the farm was closed. We had to turn around and follow a diversion.

The new road takes us over a single track narrow bridge and at 5.55am I met another car right there. Of course I did. 😳

By the time I got the farm I was all over the place. Frazzled, nervous, off.

However, the Farm was great. Hard work but a great work out it. I felt really good during and after it.

It was a lovely morning and the start of another lovely day. Calm and sunny. Cold in the shade but nice in the sun… in November. Crazy.

Tartan went well and it was good to get back into a routine. The day flew by and it was 4pm before I knew it! There were quite a few customers in today which always makes the day go quickly.

I’ve actually had a really good day. There’s been anxiety, some excitement but generally calm and in control. It feels good.

Had the best drive home in months… no wobble just a straight drive home. Bliss.

Big chat with mum on the phone for 50 minutes. We talked the hind legs off a donkey…. 😂 such a crazy saying.

Every time I go to write the blog in the living room, I get covered in puppers looking for affection. Craig took some photos!

Awwww bless.

Waiting on a Morrisons food delivery before I make dinner. That’s my excuse and I’m sticking it.

Hope you all had a good start to the week too.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 964 a beautiful day and lovely end to a weeks’ + holiday and lovely spa break!

It’s a beautiful morning! I can’t wait to get out and take some photos of Houstoun House Hotel near Livingston in Scotland.

I’m here because lovely Claire, next door, has treated me to an overnight spa break for my 50th birthday. What a lovely idea and very generous gift!!

Unbeknown to Claire, Craig and I actually got married here in 2010!! She had no idea as we only met since she moved in next door and it’s obviously never come up in conversation. She wanted to go somewhere that was a decent drive away so it felt like a mini holiday… and that it was!

All I knew was we were away overnight and I needed to take a swimming costume. The various places I thought it might have been were in a completely different direction from the way she was driving.

I stared to smile to myself as we headed along the M8 and realised how far we had to go on the sat nav. It’s such a lovely hotel!

We’ve had the best time and it’s been so lovely for me to reminisce, as I’ve not been back here since Mum and Dad’s 40th Ruby Anniversary in 2012. We are also very lucky to see it on such a lovely November day.

Here is a wedding photo of Craig and I standing on the steps at the end of that last photo.

And more importantly…. With family, Gran in purple and Nana in red who are no longer with us. Very special memories. 💜♥️

(And yes that really is Craig!!)

Also, how is this hydrangea just starting to flower?!? In November?!

Also took this mushroom 🍄 standing tall on the grass.

I was working in the little gift shop yesterday, until 1pm, and had quite a busy morning. I was all packed to go as we were leaving by 1.30pm.

Car selfie

We arrived around 2.45 and unpacked and headed to the Spa.

We swam in the pool and sat in the sauna for a while before our treatments at 4pm. We had a back, neck and shoulder massage followed by an Elemis facial.

It was soooo good and how lucky am I have to have two lovely massage and facial packages in one week?!? I am literally so chilled I’m horizontal!

It was dark by the time we came out and made this dash back into the hotel in our goonies and spa sliders.

We headed straight to the room and got into fleecy jammies that Claire had bought specially for the occasion. I had some Rosé Nozeco as we got ready.

Dinner was booked for 7.30pm in the restaurant.

The meal was lovely and we had a few giggles.

Back to the room after dinner for more Nozeco and bed. I’ve been popping Lemsip all the time and managed another great nights sleep only waking for the loo at 5.22am! Managed to get to the toilet and back creaking every floorboard but not waking Claire… #ninja 😂

The bed was so white and dog hair free. 😆 I had the best sleep and we had a good long lie. Breakfast was at 9.30am and yes, I forgot to order decaf coffee 🤦🏻‍♀️😆

A really chilled out and relaxing break which is exactly what I needed. I can’t thank Claire enough for such a lovely time. 💜💜

We got back home just before 1pm and I did 2 dog walks back to back. It’s still lovely and sunny.

So as I said, the perfect end to the best week.

I’m not sure I can ever repay the kindness and generosity of my family and friends over the course of my 50th birthday celebrations. I’ve been so spoiled and I’m so very grateful to everyone for making it such a special time for me.

Oh and I don’t think I shared a pic of the Crocs I got from Craig which make me smile every time I wear them 😂♥️😂

Classy burd 😂😂

So back to the Farm and Tartan land tomorrow to see what I’ve missed. A good few nights into the progesterone and still feeling ok. Long may that continue.

It’s 4.15pm and actually pretty dark outside. The nights are fair drawin’ in 😂

Stay safe everyone 💜💜💜

Day 962 I dot the told but had a good day at the little gift shop 🎁🎄

Remember that lovely Caramel Waffle Latte yesterday?! I mean it was soooo good.

Caffeine free?

What do you reckon? You know me well enough by now. I forgot to ask for decaf.

Time for pipe band style drumming of the heart… 3.15am.

Wide. Awake.

I took cold and flu tablets before bed which were working just fine until I woke up. I got up to blow my nose and put Vicks Vaporub on my top lip. Great idea until it burns 🥵

I had already decided not to go to the Farm using the cold as an excuse. I know it’s just an excuse as we are perfectly capable of working out with a head cold, just not a chest cold. I didn’t go to sleep until after 11pm which is a real luxury for me. So by 3.15am I’d only had about 4 hours sleep.

I did fall back asleep finally until 7.15.am.

I get so caught up in not wanting real milk that I totally forget the decaf thing, every time. Unless someone is there like Mum or Claire screaming “DECAF” over my shoulder. 😆

Gayle bought me my own little jar of decaf coffee for the shop too so I’ve no excuse there. 🥳

I have vouchers to spend in the little gift shop today. To say I’m excited is an understatement. I will actually get to buy some of the things I’ve been eying up all these weeks.

The shop is looking super festive now that Gayle has done the Christmas windows…. And I have to say, this is not the best photo!

I love the bow and the door and Gayle did this all by herself!

Isn’t that just beautiful?

I watched her make a couple of bows for a lady today and it was fascinating. Isn’t it funny how we all have different skills?!? Gayle was wheeching those bows together so easily while I watched on with awe and wonder. I kept going on about talented she was and she kept putting it down to being so easy.

She’s a whizz! I of course took photos at every step 😂

So we had a good day but I was definitely flagging with the cold. It’s just a sniffly head cold but I feel quite wabbit with it. Gayle sent me to get some cold and flu stuff to help perk me up. It worked for a bit, I just have to keep taking it.

When I came home I popped into the pub as Craig was meeting a friend so I had a couple of Coke Zeros before heading home to get into my jammies and a super cosy hoodie! (Yeah I’m reading that back screaming CAFFEINE at myself….. 😆)

Do you remember I talked about the power outage the other night? How I took a call when they phoned to apologise and I said we weren’t affected by it and I reckoned I might have missed out on some apology payment?!? (Such a long sentence!)

We all got a £10 Amazon voucher and a box of chocolates delivered today!! I’ve never heard of that before.

So one last amazing bow!

She made that in under two minutes. 😳

So that’s all from me. Cosy, early night for me tonight as Claire and I are heading off on an 50th birthday surprise trip after work tomorrow! This birthday just keeps on giving. Exciting times!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 961 another lovely holiday… shopping this time 🛍️🛍️

I went back on progesterone last night for the next two weeks. Craig told the pups to watch out when I told him…. There may be tears in the next few weeks. It’s only 1.35pm and I can feel it already. I’m more emotional and the tears aren’t far away.

I’ve got the start of a cold since I finished my massage yesterday. My nose is constantly running!

I was meant to be meeting mum for shopping today, but she works at a local day centre for the elderly on a Thursday and has to miss next week for a funeral, so didn’t want to miss two weeks in a row.

I hummed and hawed but decided to come shopping myself. I had M&S vouchers for my birthday.

I medicated up with cold and flu tablets and headed to Braehead Shopping Centre outside Glasgow and had the best wee day.

I’m flagging now and sitting in Starbucks with a Christmas red cup full of Caramel Waffle Latte. It’s lovely!

So I’ve had another wee fashion show to myself. I’m not spending my birthday money yet as I need to keep that for Abbie the Campervan and her demanding wobble, but I have managed to buy quite a lot on the cheap.

I started in M&S of course. I got these lovely checked joggies with my birthday voucher.

I also tried on these….

Not sure what I’m doing with the leg again?!?
Bit dull tho liked the black leggings
I really like this WEEKEND sweatshirt but it’s £29.50 so I left it… for now.

I also saw boots in M&S…. Standing joke in our family that I always got ankle boots for my birthday when I was wee…. It is the season to be fair. They were £45 with 20% off but I left them as I figured I didn’t need them that much. They were in the back of my mind though.

I then headed straight to Pandora as I wanted to get something with Mum and Dad’s money to know that it was from them for my 50th.

I looked at charms but none of them felt right… the girl asked me what my style was.

I told her I didn’t have any style and waved a hand down over what I was wearing as if to say “see?!?”

What a self deprecating thing to say. I wouldn’t be that cruel to my worst enemy. I put myself down every dance I get.

Anyway….. I decided to go for a bracelet instead. I can never have too many and this one mixes silver with rose gold so it’s different to everything else I have. It was also 30% off!!

I was in there for quite a while and by the time I left, there was a huge queue!

Onwards to New Look for a huge trying on spree. They have an “up to 50% off sale”.

Now I’m not a fan of a really big necklace but I loved this. Half price.
Quite liked this too but didn’t get it
This pinafore was a tenner! I love me a pinny….. although it looked dreadful without something under it so got this stripey top in Primark for £4 in their sale

From New Look into Deichmann and found the same boots as in M&S but with 50% off. I got the boots for £20! That’s only a tenner per boot…. Then off into Primark.

Didn’t go for either of these two tops though the idea was there, just didn’t think they worked.

Tried this sweatshirt on next as it was to go with the checked joggies….

Model’s own body warmer 😂😂😂

Show yourself more love….. that rings so true after how I’d reacted in Pandora. This T-shirt was £3.

Now hear me out here….. I took in a leather look jacket.

I love it. It’s a whole £14.

I’ve managed to pick up 2 or 3 different outfits today for under £100.

Now that I write all of this there is a part of me thinking about the labour that goes into making these throwaway clothes…. And I feel a tinge of guilt., but I can’t afford anything else so have to make do with as cheap as I can.

Didn’t get this hoodie but it was cute.

Now I should interrupt myself here and say that Gayle (of the little gift shop fame) has introduced me to an Instagram account called Fabfatand40plus (click link to see her) and I’m really inspired by the clothes she wears and the outfits she puts together. Gayle has also introduced me to different ideas and I have been in my element today putting all these outfits together.

This next photo here shows the boots too.

Chunky…. The boots that is 😂

The garage just phoned…..

Abbie is ready to collect and has stopped wobbling. 🥳

For a mere £740. 😱

Not gonna lie… I cried (Could just be the progesterone 😂)

She needed the o/s and n/ drive shaft and stub shaft.

On the plus side she is no longer wobbling, yay!!

And yes…. Kind of wish I hadn’t spent what I did today but hey…. Least I’ll look a bit smarter when I’m driving my non-wobbly van. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😂 clutching at straws here!

I’ve had a lovely holiday. Very chilled and relaxed. Ready for the little gift shop tomorrow!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 960 dog walks in the rain and a birthday massage (stop it….) 💆🏻‍♀️

I had another long lie this morning but missed the Farm. I say long lie but I’m still awake after 7am.

I’m writing this sitting on the couch with the fire burning, watching a cheesy romcom 😂 IN THE MORNING!!!

I mean who does that?!?!

Me, it would seem.

This is the second week of holiday this year that I’ve been stuck in the house without wheels…. Abbie the Campervan is STILL in the garage. They didn’t even call me yesterday.

The last week I had off was in August and I was raging the whole week. I felt like a caged lion…. I wanted to be anywhere but home.

This week I am completely embracing the days at home. I am so grateful for everything that I have.

I went for 2 dog walks in the pouring rain and wind this morning. I enjoyed it. I wasn’t raging that I “had to” do it. it just needed doing.

I forgot the phone on the first walk…. But check Bhru’s wee face… I’m a drowned rat by the second walk.

Had to take my glasses off so I could actually see. A huge downside wearing glasses when it rains.

I came home and had a shower and am sitting watching the cheesiest movie ever. I’m inspired by my friend Tracey in Canada watching Christmas movies yesterday while she’s sick with covid. Get well soon T.

For a long time now I have never been festive. A long time. I think it started when we didn’t have kids and Christmas seemed so magical for folk with kids. I guess I was jealous. I was always a bit resentful that Christmas didn’t hold that same magic for adults. Read this….

It’s only me that has chosen to ignore the magic and pretend it’s not for me anymore.

Working in the little gift shop has helped me get into the spirit of things this year. I also had insider information that the Christmas trees were arriving at the Gateside Plant Centre this morning so I kept “Christmas Claire” up to speed like a nosey neighbour.

I’m planning to be way more festive this year and will start wearing Christmas jumpers in December I reckon. I also have an M&S Advent Calendar with lots of lovely goodies in it. Can’t wait to see what I get. Another birthday gift that will keep on giving. Day 1 is a bigger box than most. Exciting!

I have a long massage booked for 2pm today at Harmony in Beith.

I cannot wait!!

How lovely is this wee room…

I’ve had the best massage. Sooooo good. Can highly recommend.

I was a very lucky girl (see what I did there?!? I still think I’m 18…) and I got lots of Harmony vouchers for my birthday. I usually only have the wee half hour back, neck and shoulders massage but today was the full bhuna! Back, neck and shoulders, legs and facial. Bliss.

I am so chilled out and relaxed I could just sleep. I’m back in front of the fire and have to say awake for the Crochet Hookers at 6.30pm. 😆😂

Oh that reminds me… yesterday we had a power outage planned. Electricity was to go off between 9-10 and 3-5.

It switched off just after 9am but only for about 10 minutes at most.

We were ready for it at 3pm yesterday, having had a very late lunch/early dinner about 2.30pm and I had my book in the sunroom with my wee book torch….. I continued to read and finished my book about 5.30pm and the power hadn’t gone off. It did however, at about 6.15pm…. Just when I had run out of book!!

We were all set up with candles.

The village hall was booked for 6.45pm, for the exercise class, which couldn’t go ahead. Claire took this photo of us outside our houses about 6.30pm, with our phone torches, as we discussed what to do. It a fab photo. I’m in the middle.

It totally sums up the power cut with the candles in our living room.

Scottish Power Network called today to apologise. I told them it was absolutely fine by us, although the Hall wasn’t happy 😆 think the guy got pelters from lots of other people he spoke to so it was nice for me to say it was no bother. Check this laissez faire attitude from me these days…. Bet I just missed out on an apology payment… 🤷🏻‍♀️

Speaking of money… Abbie the Campervan is still not ready but they have actually found the cause now. It’s where the drive shafts link into the gearbox which makes sense…. But wait for it… caused by her lift and big wheels which everyone advised me to buy but have been the cause of every breakdown since they were fitted….. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

Grits teeth, smiles politely and keeps hold of birthday money to pay for the work. Honestly I am not moaning about this. I just want her back and want her to drive without the wobble. I will also save up for the old springs to be replaced and have her brought back down to size so we can stop blaming that once and for all!

So that’s all from me today. Chilled and relaxed.

Just about to post when my lovely friend Carol-Ann came to the door with a beautiful gift!

It’s a lovely journal so I can write things down that don’t always make the cut for the blog. How lovely to have an unexpected catch up and good few hugs.

Right…. Feed dogs then crochet!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 959 a beautiful day for housework, reading a whole book and bowel cancer test on 22/11/22 😬

It’s a beautiful day that I don’t think really was forecast.

I’ve been pottering round in my jammies all morning so far. I’ve done the housework, hoovered, scrubbed walls (that I wanted to wash before all my family came to stay!) and found a place for all of my lovely birthday gifts. It’s been running going back through everything again. I love this mug from the Crochet Hookers….

I’m also reading a birthday book from the Crochet Hookers called the Girls who Disappeared. I can’t put it down.

I did my bowel cancer test this morning so that’s all packaged up ready to send back. I had to write the date on the outside of it. I quite liked the fact that it’s 22/11/22.

It’s 12.45 and I’ve just wandered outside and sat down on the bench to enjoy the warmth of that sun.

It’s been nice to have a day with no real pressure to do anything. Of course it ss would have been equally lovely down by the sea and I wish I’d gone, but it wouldn’t be a holiday without me wishing I had done wzwsomething else now would it?!?

When we were kids, Dad always wanted a “plan of attack” whenever we had a holiday. He used to clap his hands and rub them together and ask what the plan of attack was. Maybe that’s where I get my desire to fill a holiday?

We took the dogs for a walk early afternoon and I posted my sample.

I’ve just realised that this post box dates back to King George as it says G-R at the top of it. Who knew??

We had a lovely walk and came home and I made beef stroganoff for a very late lunch. I also had a huge bit of birthday cake that’s still going strong. Not much left now.

I’ve sat and read in the sunroom for the rest of the afternoon. It got really cold so I put the stove on in the sunroom and proceeded to sit and roast quietly.

It’s been a lovely day filled with nothing much yet I have a clean house and that’s always a bonus.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 958 first real day of holidays

It nice to have a day off work. To have no plans.

We slept through the Fit Body Farm this morning. Think we’re both exhausted after such a busy weekend.

I didn’t have much voice this morning when I woke up after shouting over the noise at the party and singing at the top of my lungs and way to much talking…. But do not fear because it came back, Craigie hasn’t had the luxury of a silent day. 😬😆

We took Abbie the Campervan back to the garage at 9am and walked back home from Glengarnock.

It’s a lovely morning but bitter. Hat and gloves for this first time.

I have Freya, I’ve just hidden her 😂 it’s more a photo of Craigie’s ass 😂 and me wearing his hat. 😂

This next one would have been amazing except for the power lines.

Gloves were off by the time we got home but it was a cold walk.

I got vouchers for Gro Coffee in Irvine from my Auntie Marion. Strike while the iron is hot, we have spent them already!

We had a lovely wee lunch. Look how pretty the food was.

It was super tasty too! I also had my custom coconut milk latte and Craig had posh diet coke!

We did not have a cake. Check us. We still have a house full of cake and regardless of what you might think when you might want cake… you CAN actually have toooooo much cake 🎂 😂

Forgot to share a really cool card I got from Kate and Jamie who live in the village. I love it!

So I’ve actually handled all this turning 50 malarkey, quite well. Age is just a number but this doesn’t feel as easy as 40 did.

I have had the best time despite wishing we were in the Maldives for a fortnight. We’ve seen so many lovely people and I’ve made some very special memories of my 50th.

The HRT is going fine despite losing a patch and having to plaster one down. Craig is the key to a plaster sticking. Any I’ve applied end up falling off.

I’m off the progesterone just now as it’s 2 weeks on and 2 weeks off, but I have to go back on it on Wednesday night.

I’m a bit nervous as it made me feel so low a few weeks back, but I need to take it.

“If oestrogen is the feed you use to grow a lawn, progesterone is the lawn mower that keeps the grass in check”. So my eloquent Doctor put it.

I’ve spoken to so many people this weekend about menopause. There are 34+ symptoms that are now attributed to peri-menopause or menopause.

All of these can be helped by replacing the hormones that we lose at this time of life.

It’s no less natural than taking insulin when you are diabetic or even for humans to drive in a car. It doesn’t matter what age you are. There are benefits from taking HRT that will help on later life. If you’re not sure, read up on it. You might be surprised.

In a stark reminder of my new age bracket, I’ve just received my bowel cancer screening kit. Craig’s lucky I won’t get him to help with this. 😆😂

It’s not even 3pm and I have my feet up, I’m listening to my birthday playlist on Spotify as I write this. I never got much chance to listen on Saturday.

I may have a nap.

Yet the garage phone just as I settled down…. Abbie is still wobbling despite having the passenger side drive shaft fitted. They need her overnight. They’ll drive her up on the ramp tomorrow….. the saga continues.

We are just watching the last ever episode of The Walking Dead. The end of a blood thirsty, zombie era. Who’d have thunk the blog would ever say those words?!?

I actually cried…. Way more than I should have. I’m just tired 🥱 😂

Hope Monday was ok for you.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 957 the day after all the 50th celebrations and a 13th birthday party!

I went from glam to camping in one fell swoop.

I’m currently lying outside the house in Abbie the Campervan as both sets of parents are staying over after my 50th birthday celebrations yesterday.

I finally crawled out of the house at 1.08am and left the men to their whisky.

Craig calls me at 2am to say he’s just as happy with the couch…… awwww thank you for waking me up to tell me that darling….. to be fair, it suits me fine as Abbie can be a snore free zone 😂😂😂

Abbie is also 12.5°C inside. Of course my diesel heater chose not to work posting an error 08 code.

I’ve been on YouTube to try to fix it but none of it worked. I’m warm enough, fully dressed under our normal duvet and 2 blankets but the minute you move and expose any part of you to to the elements it’s freezing. My forehead is very cold… I should get up and get my hat. 😆

I didn’t really sleep at all. The silence is both wonderful and deafening. There is a ringing in my ears from the excitement of it all.

For someone who likes to sit by the side of the sea, away out on the rocks, away from everyone…. Yesterday brought a whole lot of socialisation…. Right out my comfort zone these days…. And yet, I had the best day.

I had my wobbles, there were a few tears, I felt uncomfortable in my own skin particularly because I was dolled up the nines which is just not me anymore.

Mums cousin Joyce gave me a beautiful hand made bracelet just before we headed into the village pub for a family afternoon tea…. She got a gibbering wreck of panic and a few tears.

The day started with a hair and makeup “appointment” with Claire next door. She very kindly helped get me ready with s minimum of fuss. I was all set to go home with pinned curls in my hair to unpin them and let the flowing curls cascade. Here starteth the stress 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😂

I could not get the clips out for love nor money…. What seemed to be a perfectly simple operation, turned into a furious, swearing nightmare as they got stuck in my hair and I had to almost rip a few of them out. I panicked and made it worse. By the time I got them out, I couldn’t think straight enough to see the finished article. Craig was busy setting up so wasn’t there to help. Joyce appeared not long after and brought me back down to earth.

I just didn’t feel like me and yet…..it was me, just a part of me that had been buried years ago. Buried in messy buns, leggings and jumpers.

I teetered in to the pub on my ridiculously high heels. It’s been about 4 or 5 years since I wore them. Heels used to be my thing. They are not my friend now.

Quick interlude as it’s 7.49 now and I’ve been awake since 6.15… I can hear the dogs barking and I should head in to see who’s up. However, the wonderful silence of the Campervan is quite addictive. Despite my freezing fingers typing this, I’m reluctant to leave my newly found solitude…. 😆

I head in to the house at about 8.30am and Craig starts cooking the breakfast of champions. It soooo cosy in here.

So we had a family with a few friends for Afternoon Tea at 2pm with the rest of friends turning up at 5pm.

With Mum and Dad ♥️♥️
With Craigie

The afternoon tea was amazing. Check these cakes.

It was a good chance for me to relax into my new look, surrounded by family. It was great to catch up with everyone.

With Claire
With Ruth, Moyra and Lorna sooo great to catch up after so long! I’ve missed you!

We’d no sooner finished eating than the 5pm wave arrived. Lots of hugging and kissing and chatting.

The Tartan Campervan Company and the little gift shop were very well represented!

Tartan always try to hand make a birthday card…. They excelled themselves this year and made one like a table top with a big 50 on it. It’s in the back of this lovely photo of the Crochet Hookers.

I was completely overwhelmed by the amount of people who turned up…. And the gifts that people brought…… the generosity was very humbling.

With my wee cousin Rachel, she’s my god-daughter ♥️
Elly, Kate and Michelle from the village
With Rachel two doors down!

Not gonna lie there’s a few photos there that make me cringe soooo badly. I feel huge in them. There were old photos all over the pub and I honestly remember feeling huge as they were taken too. What a bad self image.

I had a lovely amazing red velvet birthday cake.

Everyone sang happy birthday and I tried to give a wee speech but didn’t get far without the tears creeping in. I was trying to talk about how much I appreciated their support. I’m not sure I got that point across?!

He’s awfy chuffed with himself!

Everyone was so very kind. So thoughtful.

Thank you to everyone who helped make it so very special and shared my day with me. ♥️

We ended up back in our house dancing (SOBER DANCING for me I might add….. 😳😆)

50th birthday party done and dusted!

So back to the generosity….. here are some of the flowers. Stunningly beautiful.

Look at all the gifts we brought back from the pub.

Here’s a very small selection of the lovely gifts I got.

I will not stop thanking everyone for a long time to come.

Thankfully we have a few days off now to recuperate. You’d think I’d realised I’d be shattered.

Christmas onesie on in front of the tv for the night. A far cry from last night.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 955 normal service is resumed!

Well that interloper did well. I’ve had more likes and comments on his blog than any I have done 🤦🏻‍♀️😂😘

I may not hear the end of that. 😂

In all honesty, his words were amazing and it was so lovely to have a day off and listen to him stressing about “I have a blog to write” which sometimes seems to be my cracked record!!

I have had the loveliest of 50th birthdays.

I have been blown away by the kind words, posts, cards and gifts I have received. There have been floods of tears at times but then w you would expect nothing less. 😂

It all started on Wednesday night when the Crochet Hookers threw a surprise party for me in the pub! They had balloons and banners and a sloth cake!

They gave me a box of 50 gifts…. I honestly couldn’t believe it. I felt the bottom lip go early on. 😂

Here we all are. They are a very special bunch. I got a crocheted cushion, a crocheted sloth and so many other practical gifts including vitamin D and ibuprofen gel!!

They know me so well… I have already used so many of the gifts, that’s when you know it hit the mark. I don’t know I can ever thank them for such a special start to my big birthday.

I had the best day yesterday with Craig. His generosity knows no bounds, he’s so thoughtful and caring and he hasn’t actually annoyed me once in the last few days. That’s always a bonus. 😂

Mum and Dad sent some lovely messages and I definitely cried!

My brother sent a couple of pics too….

Awwwww bless….

Craig and I had a lovely lunch and I got a gingerbread latte with cream to finish. I forgot to ask for decaf 😂

He gave me a row for never looking at the camera. So I did….

Wee selfie on the way back to the car.

If you’d have told me I would have spent my 50th birthday not drinking, I would NEVER have believed you…. And yet I did…

We went to Holly’s next door for pre theatre drinks as we were heading to see the Beith Young Farmers Show. I got more lovely and generous gifts!

It was so lovely to see Holly’s daughter in the show. She was so vibrant, she was beaming and so focused on her every move. She did so well.

I was late in bed but woke up at 6.33pm having missed the Farm. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’ve been at the little gift shop today and got another lovely gift from the girls!

The shop had no heating today as there was a gas leak in the flat upstairs so I was prewarned. I wore my scarf and gloves a lot of the day. The heating came back on about 3.30 and it felt amazing.

Abbie the camper van has been back in the garage. She’s not fixed yet but I have her back until Monday. The on going saga!

I am shattered tonight. It’s 7.30pm already and so I won’t be late in bed tonight. I have my 50th party on the pub tomorrow. I am super apprehensive. I am worried there will be more tears.

On the other hand I am looking forward to seeing some people I haven’t see for a very long time.

Making special memories.

I might just need my big girl pants on. 😂

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️