Day 100 of COVID-19 lockdown… what have we learned so far? 🌍❤️🌈

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💯days eh?! Which means I have written a blog every day for 92 days as I only started on what we recorded as our day 8. I see others saying we’re already up to 103/104 etc but this is when we calculated it at the time and rather than stress that my whole blog is worthless and rubbish the new me is choosing to keep going as is. It’s our day 100. Mine and Craigie’s and Calaidh’s and Bhruic’s and Freya’s….. forgive the poor English 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😬 but you know what I mean.

If anyone had told you, 100 days ago, that our lives were going to change in a way we could never begin to imagine, we just wouldn’t have believed it. A world where we could stand right next to anyone and touch anyone (with reason obvs!) and we literally hugged people we didn’t even know. We didn’t have a care in the world when it came to that kind of stuff. Yeah we turned out noses up at folk not washing their hands after going to the loo etc but we screwed up our face and moved on. We survived.

Now we have an unseen killer. A virus that can spread among us through touch, can survive on surfaces and pass to others and we can’t see it. We have no idea where it’s lurking and worst of all, people can have it and not even know they are infected. It’s the stuff of horror movies!!

We watched every virus movie while we’ve been stuck home and the truth is actually terrifying. We watched these in the past thinking they were just that… far fetched thrillers. We had no idea.

So 100 days ago, we finally realised how serious this was and Craig stopped work and we stayed home to save lives, to help stop the transmission of COVID-19. We “sheltered in place” as they said in America. We only left the house for dog walks and food shopping for months.

It feels like a time for reflection…. what have we learned in this 100 days? Apart from the fact that the rainbow is a sign of hope 🌈❤️

We’ve learned that family and being together is everything. We’ve been given a special gift to spend time with each other but we’ve also been told that we can’t see other family members or friends that have been a part of our daily lives. We’ve seen a community spirit that was always there in Gateside but growing in a way we would never have imagined. That old war time share and share alike. I’ve bartered with rice and milk and sugar… there’s been a lot of sugar passing over fences. We’ve made the best of the lockdown life we’ve been given. Generations ago our grandparents etc were sent to war, we were told to stay home and watch tv, I mean how lucky are we?

The material things in life have become irrelevant. Even with all the money and possessions in the world you still had to stay home. Businesses are realising people can work from home without the world ending and it will reduce their overheads and the carbon footprint of their staff.

We have learned to appreciate the present. To live in the moment as everything else is too uncertain. Everyone is living on the same terms. 🌍

Personally we’ve learned to appreciate each other again and communicate clearly as we have had time to spend together. We can see what makes the other tick, what triggers and argument and we can stop it in its tracks with a laugh or a shrug of the shoulders saying here we go again. Through writing this I have expressed my daily feelings in a way that shows how erratic they are, how quick they are to flare up to anxious, fever pitch but most importantly how virtually none of it is Craig’s fault. He doesn’t have to second guess everything. He can just read it if he didn’t already know it. 🤣🤣🤣

I have learned to slow down, to watch the world move on through different eyes. To watch my handsome husband and smile realising he’s mine, to walk 3 Border Collies without them pulling on the lead, to value the endless movie nights, the takeaways and the connections with others. I hope that the world will be a better place as a result.

However, we have to remember that we have been untouched by this deadly virus. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. We are very lucky.

Worldwide stats

The UK have lost 44,131 souls to COVID-19 officially but there is evidence that the number of excess deaths for this year far exceeds that. Scotland stands at 2,488 people so far.

England is seeing a surge in new cases, particularly in London where the R rate is creeping above 1. For everyone one person infected at least one other person catches it. There seemed no doubt this would be the case as the amount of protests and large gatherings threw people together at a time when we were still meant to be 2m apart. It’s easy for me to sit here smugly and be happy that our lockdown isn’t as loose as England’s, that our government is being more strict.

Localised restrictions in Dumfries and Galloway now too
I’ve read today that Boris has urged people not to think of Saturday as Super Saturday as we need to still be careful and make sure that we protect each other by not spreading the virus. Yet apparently pubs can open at 6am….. several chains are planning to open just after this. Maybe it just because I don’t drink anymore that this seems so crazy to me?!?

I am nervous of normal returning as I had stepped back from normal for a good year or so. This is my new normal and I love it!!

I did not love the weather today!! It has stoated down all day… absolutely soaked on the dog walk again.
This is where the dogs usually play and Craig day over the other side of the burn. Bhru stuck her tongue in it to take a drink but didn’t go any closer.
Same at this but! It’s like they are on a life raft together 🤣
Phone got soaked every time I took a pic!
Drookit pup #1 wouldn’t stop playing with the stick long enough! Check the coos behind her under that tree… miserable!
Drookit pup #2
Drookit pup #3 always happy regardless of the weather… 😬😆
Bhru’s telling Calaidh Reek St is flooded
Did manage to see some beauty in the dreich day!
Thistles in the rain

It’s all about how you look at it… I was walking along thinking this is miserable, cold and wet, must be crazy being out in this when I saw a neighbour in Reek Street and he said “good weather for ducks!” 🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆 that really made me smile as I’ve not heard that in years!! Splashed through all the puddles in my wellies from then on! 😆

And I wonder why my house isn’t a palace?!? Check these 3…. how many sopping wet dogs can you fit on a couch?! Least I put their dog robes on!! Unlike some people 😬🤣

Came home from dog walk and did a poop scoop as I was soaked anyway…. thought it would be a good idea to do it before the bins go out. Got the grey bin ready and took it round the front…. it’s Friday…. grey bin doesn’t go out until Tuesday……. wtf 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣🤣 my brain is frazzled today as it’s been such a busy week. Not busy in the sense of how busy I used to be… but very busy for me. I did another 2 Pawsitive Solution calls today… the first was dreadful… it was like putting the wheelie bin out 4 days early! Nothing flowed…. but the second was great.

This is what I have to put up with…. 🥰😆🎾🐶

So now I am wrapped in my crocheted blanket with my feet up in front of the fire. I plan not to move until bedtime!

Thanks again to everyone for sticking with this everyday. It means a lot!

Stay safe everyone ❤️💜❤️ here’s to the next 100 days and who knows what they might bring?!? X

Day 659 1111 days without alcohol since January 2019 ☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️

These sober days just keep racking up. I say sober and cringe a wee bit as that implies I must have been a drunk. As many of you will know by reading my blog…. I just hated the drinking version of me.

Wonder where all this money went?!?

I’ve now surpassed my longest streak and had a total of 552 days in a row without a drop. I honestly still can’t quite believe it.

I hated the person I had become. I hated the hangovers. The morning after. The fear.

I don’t have any of that now. Just a completely clear head to face all my s*** head on. That’s always a joy to behold as my head also generates a whole lot of s*** 🤣🤣

First things first… pretty skies at Tartan HQ this morning. I try to make my photos picturesque but I don’t have much to work on down there… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

♥️💜🧡
One whole extra hour of daylight since winter solstice woo hoo! Bring

My anxiety was really bad this morning before work. Stomach churning, nerve racking. I threw my arms up in the air at one question I was asked. Complete and utter despair being asked a simple question.

I’ve written out 3 full pages of A4 with the worries and thoughts that are floating round on my head. I only stopped there because I didn’t have any more time. I’m sure I could add to the list.

I’m sitting in a car park in Abbie the campervan waiting for Kinesiology. The one thing that seems to make sense to me just now. I hope Shelagh will figure out what my body is trying to tell me.

Well… wow. I will never be able to explain kinesiology but my body chose all the words from my list, that were causing me particular stress. We then went through each word to determine what the word meant to me.

To clear the stress of all of that we worked on a baby fear… something that’s been with me since birth. A fear of needing other people. This is huge for me. When I feel bad I feel like I need everyone else to fix it for me. I’m so caught up in feeling rotten just now that I need someone else to tell me what to do. Or at least I think I do.

My mind was fighting everything. Telling me that trying to fix it was a waste of time. Telling me I deserve to feel like this as I’m no use anyway.

It’s never a waste of time.

I go into Shelagh’s room tonight feeling so desperately sad. Tears not far away, anger at feeling that sad, frustration at the anxiety building back up again, not seeing a clear way out. I come back out with calm mind. A rational mind. This is a blip. I’ll get through it like I always do, it’s ok not to be ok 100% of the time.

I realise that the above reads like Swahili to most of us… 🤣🤣

Tonight I’ll do a meditation before bed as my “homework” and I will sleep like a log.

And relax……

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 658 basketball before 7am 🧺 🏀 🤣

Not many people can say that…. Well 21 folk can that were at the Fit Body Farm.

We had a great challenge this morning. One half of the team scores as many baskets as possible while the other team reaches 100m on the rowing machine, the ski-erg and 2500m on the assault bike.

There’s a great spirit to get through the metres as fast as possible so the other team score the fewer number of baskets. Who said I’m not competitive?!

The sky when I left
Strange line of light in the clouds ⛅️

I really enjoyed it. I still don’t feel the best but the anxiety has gone. I think the routine through the week helps as I can’t do anything other than the Farm and work. At least that’s what I tell myself.

Sunrise over Tartan HQ….

I spotted a CHRISTMAS TREE tonight on my way home….. I thought there was a law that said you have to have your Christmas lights down by 6th January?!?

I guess they have the right idea as lights are nice and make you smile on dark winter days.

Not much else to report from here….. ooh other than Craig made a lovely veggie curry. Super healthy and super tasty. how could I forget that. Just what I needed.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 657 a beautiful day and a wee trip to Largs ⛴🌊☀️

Well I slept the sleep of kings…. I don’t even know what that means but it sounds dramatic. 🤣🤣 I was out for the count until 9am! Was in one of those really deep sleeps you don’t ever want to wake up from. That’s a whole lot of sleep I’ve had this weekend. I’m trying not to have a nap today otherwise I’ll want one tomorrow too. 🤣🤣

I knew my head wasn’t good again. It felt better just to keep on sleeping. As least then I can try to control the chatter. It’s been incessant again all day today.

It’s a beautiful morning!

I feel really sad. The tears are never far away and honestly there is no reason that I can put my finger on. My head is calm now but it’s questioned my every waking move today.

I know that I do this to myself and no have all the tools to get me out of it yet sometimes I just really struggle to move on from it.

I drove to Largs to finally get my glasses tightened. They’ve been hanging off my nose for months!

Abbie at the famous Nardinis Ice Cream café
Largs on a cold, bright summers day
Fairly choppy
MV Catriona on loan for the Largs-Cumbrae route
Largs around the coast

Now in all the time I’ve visited Largs I have NEVER noticed this wall was a Viking ship.

One of our neighbours posted photos a while back with her kids on it!! Who knew?!?! I hunted it out today…. 🤣

St Columba’s Parish Church looking imposing next to Nardinis

I went into the pound shop to look for red wool as the Crochet Hookers are aiming to crochet poppies for Remembrance Day this year…. This bucket made me laugh.

I stopped for a Coconut Milk Latte and Vegan Breakfast in Costa Coffee. I’m not even feeling like eating meat just now either.

I guess looking back I didn’t really appreciate being in Largs. I didn’t relax like I usually do. I felt uncomfortable as if everyone was watching me. Abbie the campervan felt huge. Where would I park? (The usual place) I had my new hiking boots on… they felt huge, I questioned whether I should be driving in them…. (course I could) just a tiny wee snippet of some of the things going on in my mind.

I headed for Morrisons for a food shop. (Never been to this shop, can’t find anything, should have gone to one you know)

I tried not to buy meat and just wittered away to myself all the way round. Stupid idea trying not to eat meat. How would I get protein? What would I eat? Craig would take one look and wonder where all the real food was (he didn’t).

So I decided to head back home as I was too… nervous (?!?!?!) to drive down to Portencross Beach for some photos…..

Had a wee play with the dogs in the garden when I got back.

I decided to take Calaidh for a walk as I couldn’t cope with all 3 dogs at once. (I’m useless don’t you know…)

Sunshine over Gateside.

It’s a beautiful day today. I try to breathe in the fresh air. Appreciate the beauty.

It’s amazing the way the light changes in the winter sun. Bright with the sun behind me and dark when you take photos into the sun.

That’s the same tree as the pic before!!
Such an old tree!
Coos through the hedge
So atmospheric
Some vitamin D
Cutesie pie Calaidh
I’m sure I see something in this cloud I’m just not sure what?!? And Angel with wings maybe?! 👼🏼
Coos having a drink

I may or may not have given the pups some treats when I got home. Safe to say they were all up for it!

So that was my weekend. I’ve had a nice big rest again… but my overthinking has been out of control. I feel nervous, jittery, like I’m waiting for the worst to happen.

I have Kinesiology on Tuesday I think (I hope) so maybe get to the root cause of it all. I usually write this and have some eureka moment but not this weekend.

I’m looking forward to some exercise tomorrow morning back at FBF. I know that will help.

So yeah… Sunday night again.

So very true.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 656 housework, dog walk and a lovely cuppa ☕️ and a wee bit anxiety 😟

Awake at 7.30 this morning… almost a lie in! We’ve been watching The Handmaids Tale… Rachel tow doors down has been telling us to watch it for ages and we finally got to it! She’s right!

I’ve had bad anxiety today. I’ve felt really tearful and overwhelmed for absolutely no reason as all other than my head is lying to me.

I was about to say here that I’m sure you’re as sick of reading it as I am of writing it but that’s my head telling me I’m not good enough. This is not enough….

In an effort to calm the noise I went out with the dogs. It’s a funny day, not a breath of wind but super cloudy. Very still.

My fav trees
Here we go
Didn’t let the dogs in this fuel like as used to as they’ve been using it for sheep 🐑
The trees from behind
Arty moss dry stane dyke
All the bushes are covered in moss too

Claire came in for a cuppa late morning and she got it all….. it’s hard for me when there really is nothing bothering me other than all this noise in my head. I seem to put real pressure on myself to “perform” at weekends and I only relax when I finally let myself believe that it’s ok to rest.

She brought me these lovely flowers as she knew I wasn’t feeling full of the joys.

They’re so lovely and so lovely of her to do that 💐

It’s 2pm and I’m in bed writing this. I’ve tried to concentrate on other things, I got showered to go out then figured that the shops would be too busy so best wait until tomorrow. I went upstairs to sort through stuff to put up for sale and took some photos then decided no one would want to buy it.

Jeezo…. Will it just stop already.

I managed a good 2 hours. Me and the puppers…. We woke up just in time for Craig coming home.

Thats been me today. I feel soooooo much better after a sleep. My mind is calm.

We’ve ordered Chinese for tonight and I’m trying a veggie Satay for a change. Could be a hit or a miss but we’ll see.

A wee Scottish funny to end with…. I remember people saying this!! To be fair… they probably still do.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 655 FBF, spare room clear out, lunch in the pub then lovely nap!

FBF was amazing this morning. I was really tired. Not often do I wake up with the alarm, I’m usually awake earlier. I felt drugged and the first half of the session felt really tough.

Everyone is so friendly and it’s great to get a good bit of banter at 6am!

I always seem to find more energy towards the end of the session. Almost as if my body settles into it.

This was the view that met us when we got back… some sneaky puppies somehow got out of their bedroom while we were away.

I had to put ice on my shins when we got back. Enjoyed the ice with a lovely coffee.

I spent the morning clearing out the spare room. It’s not finished by any matter of means but I have about 5 bags for charity already.

I do find it difficult as I’m overwhelmed by stuff…. Even despite our huge clearout a few years back… I feel we have stuff everywhere and not all of it can go to charity or be sold.

As a society we create so much rubbish on a daily basis that I hate to add to it with things that just don’t have a use for anymore.

In this day and age it just feels so wrong to be throwing things out.

I kept going until about 11.30 until I needed another coffee 😬

We had lunch booked in the pub next door at 2pm…. My stomach was rumbling before we end in and it’s certainly not after that meal we had.

Chilli cheese nachos and chicken tempura
Cajun chicken salad

I was desperate to have Macaroni Cheese 🧀 but I know that the portions are huge and I still wanted to have my protein and veg 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 the best part was they brought me out a tiny ramekin of Mac n’cheese!! I scoffed the lot and then wondered why I couldn’t finish my salad 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Holly had bought me this to try….

It’s lovely! I’m so lucky that they get different alcohol free drinks for me to try. I even recommended it to a guy who came in later who was driving and he had one too. I

And then back home, electric blanket on and into bed for a few hours. My legs are sore…. I needed recuperation.

This wee face when I woke up….

Love it when her wee tongue sticks out!

So a quiet night for me in front of the tv. Might have an alcohol free gin and caffeine free Diet Coke. It makes me laugh to type that. When did life get so specific…. 😆🥳

Yet thankfully so full of peace.

Stay safe everyone ♥️🧡💜

Day 654 later than a late thing!!

Wow it’s 8.49pm and I am just home. Check me, gallivanting. She who couldn’t lift her backside off the couch last night, full of beans to meet my friend Lea for coffee tonight!

I woke at 4.45am with anxiety bubbling away. I tried every breathing exercise I could think of to stop it…. Then I picked up my phone. Not ideal but it does divert the attention. I felt like I had drunk about 4 cups of coffee.

I just got up and got lunch ready and headed into work early. Ended up not getting there very early as I faffed about leaving the house. Nothing came easily.

I could not remember the code to get into our portacabin….. which I use almost on a daily basis. I tried everything apart from THE actual code….. I had to ask one of the boys to remind me. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Work was really busy again and passed by quickly. I reckon by mid day the anxiety had passed and I settle back down but I’m not really aware of when it faded away. I felt more in control this afternoon than I have all week.

I had to come home straight after work tonight to let the dogs out and feed them as Craig was working. Then I headed up to Silverburn Shopping Centre.

Doesn’t matter how tired I am, the time passed in a flash and we’d been talking in Starbucks for over two hours!!

Had a Five cheese toastie as a treat…. Well there’s a contradiction in terms…. Not sure it has ever seen real cheese. There was a thin layer of what looked like a cheesey butter. It was rotten. The vegan brownie was deeeelicious though.

Was so great to catch up.

It’s funny as the drive there and home actually scared me a bit in the dark! I don’t drive much in the dark and that’s a long, winding road. I have these visions of someone jumping out in front of me or peaking out through the trees… active imagination or what?!?

And now I’m home…. And I sit down and realise I’ve been wearing my leggings inside out the whole time….

The best of it is the label sticking out at the back… thank god I wore a long top.

Growing older gracefully….

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 653 anxiety flare without tears… that’s got to be a plus, right?!

Fit Body Farm was great this morning. It was busy too! Shot some basketball hoops, getting better at that and managed some other exercises that I’ve not been able to do before now… the side plank raising one knee towards your chest then the other. The first time I tried that a few weeks ago, I crumpled into a giggling heap on the ground!

The shower I was in flooded right around the toilet and almost out the door and this time I managed to remove the cap over the top of the plug and remove the (let’s face it… mostly my…) hair. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 Water flowed freely. Job well done!

So you can tell I’m faffing around a story. I’m super tired tonight. It’s 8.28pm and my creative juices are not flowing at all. I cancelled meeting the Crochet Hookers tonight as the minute I sat down on the couch, I felt I couldn’t move.

I think that’s Freya underneath me?!? 🤣🤣

My anxiety bubbled over this morning as if I had drunk some strong caffeine…. My head emptied and I couldn’t think straight at all. I became breathless and antsy.

Works been a challenge this week and on the grand scheme of things, for very simple reasons. I feel I have lost my control.

We moved the office around to accommodate a new desk for the new girl and I got a new laptop. Very simple things. Yet nothing I go to do has been that easy this week. Everything’s moved, new passwords for everything I try to log into, files to be moved from the old laptop and trying to determine the best training plan. All the while the day job is still needing done.

In my old life I’d have moaned the face off everyone but got on with it… now I seem to fall apart a bit more easily. Panic maybe that it’s all going to come back and spoil my good run.

That panic sentence finally brought the tears. I hit the nail on the head again. The fear that I might let everyone down by not being in control.

That’s the other reason I write this blog, to make sense of everyday things in my head.

When you suffer from anxiety you need all sorts of fail safes so you can fall back on something if your mind empties. I’ve not been able to manage these fail safe mechanisms properly as I’ve not had the same access to them.

So I was able to quietly explain to my boss that the anxiety wasn’t great, no tears, no breakdown, just the facts. Got back to my desk and got on with the list of things that need doing. By lunchtime I was back feeling more in control again.

I didn’t want to face a blog about negative chat tonight yet actually I need to take the positives from it. I now know what todays trigger was and maybe next time I’ll be able to stop it happening.

I’ve eaten a wee bit more junk than normal, comfort junk to try and make myself feel better…. 8 Quality Street are about 400 calories and they weren’t even that nice!!

There was a lovely sky outside tonight when I left… I dragged the boss man out to see it. I told him not to roll his eyes 🤣🤣

So early night for me. I’ve not moved off the couch wrapped in a blanket.

Tomorrow is another day and I will keep on going as I always do. Oooh more tears there. Big softie.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 652 My Octopus Teacher 🐙 what a beautiful film ♥️

Not much to say about my day today other than it was busy. I finally managed to read my emails which I haven’t done since we went back on 5th January though so that’s something!

It’s also been so lovely to leave work in the daylight again. So much hope for some warmth of summer… hey still a long way to go for that mind you. Ahhhh flip flops…. 🩴

5.15pm!

So….I’ve been wanting to watch My Octopus Teacher for a while now and never quite got round to it. i think you make time for something when you know that you need it. so I’ve watched it tonight as poor Craig is working late.

What a beautiful story. 🐙 Its a film about about a guy who suffered from burnout and couldn’t function at his job anymore. He started cold water swimming in the sea next to his house and he starts filming this octopus that he comes across. He decides to go back down there every day to watch her progress.

Wow.

It’s such a calming and heartwarming story to follow. A naturally sad ending but Bhruic was lying on my leg and she turned to give me extra cuddles when the tears fell at the end.

I would never have slowed down enough in the past to watch something like this. Nature is overwhelmingly beautiful and amazing. He learned so much from the Octopus in the ocean. I’ve learned so much from watching it.

She (the octopus!) taught him that everyone is very important and to sense how vulnerable all our lives on this planet. She taught him that we are part of this place and not just a visitor.

I’ve just had a big cuddle with Freya and really felt present when I cuddled her. I know how crazy I sound but it’s really calmed my head.

I was a bit frazzled today… I knew I needed something to calm that completely.

We got this lovely pot of hyacinths when Lorna came for a meeting with Craig a week or so back. They are starting to bloom and I was so pleased to see there are mini daffodils in there!

This face ♥️

I’m never that fussed about cooking when Craig’s not here yet tonight I made green lentil and cauliflower curry. From scratch, without planning it and using food we had in the house.

What is the world coming to?

Check me!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 651 crazy Monday!

Ooooh I’ve just had one of those days where all things electronic seemed too much like hard work….. 🤬🤬🤬

I have been in password looping hell 🤣 got a new laptop at work which asked WAY too many questions at startup….. we are a small business, it’s a business laptop…. But we don’t have an IT department or help desk. The laptop set up could not compute that.

I tried the personal set up route… wouldn’t have that.

Anyway I’m not gonna bore you with that, tomorrow is a new day and I’m going tackle it with a fresh head. I do now have a number to call so hope someone can help me and maybe the same password will work twice?!? Too much to ask?!

The printer ran out of toner last week…. I never allow that to happen… until now…. Makes everything a nightmare as you suddenly need to print everything to be able to function…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Turns out the toner is not due until next Thursday…. How is that even possible on Amazon Prime?!? (Ok I know it’s possible… i just don’t want it to be!)

So I manage to source it elsewhere for delivery tomorrow… not having another day faffing about. Two minutes later, next Thursday’s toner arrives!!!! I mean…. Come on…. Give a girl a break. Actually so chuffed to have it I’m not even angry!

We’ve been busy at work but it’s been a great buzz…. All things computer and printer related aside. 🤣

The Fit Body Farm was hard work this morning. Loads of running as we hadn’t managed any with the snow on Friday. All good though, I managed it and even felt like I kept up!

I feel so much better for working out. I’m really enjoying my meals and no craving junk food at all… it’s taken me so long to get back to this.

So that’s all for Monday… as Mondays go it was no half bad.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 650 a dreary but restful January day☔️☔️☔️

It rained all day until about 3pm and even then there have been showers. It’s funny how snow creates so much beauty where the rain after the snow makes everything look so soggy and dirty.

I’m not sure where the day has disappeared to. I’m tired today… I feel exhausted and sooooo ready for a Nana nap. Maybe I just need a wee bit more weekend recuperation after working so hard at the Fit Body Farm these days. Maybe it’s the weather.

The dogs were barking on and off from 6am do I got up at 8 and let them out. Settled into Gran’s chair and put the wood stove on. It was so super toasty it’s no wonder I’d felt tired. I sat and read a book for the first time in ages.

I’m back in Grans chair just now writing this. I’m in recline. What’s not to love. 💕

We finished the Netflix Stay Close last night, it was really good. I think I called it Stay Calm in my blog yesterday. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 Freudian slip?!?

The dogs were posing in pairs yesterday.

Bhruic & Calaidh
Bhruic & Freya
Calaidh & Freya

I’ve been to Tesco for a super healthy food shop today… got soaked even just to and from the van. When I got back I thought it had stopped so headed out with the dogs. Still managed to get soaked.

I even saw the sun in the sky!

Nowhere near as nice as Friday!
This is the only snow I could find!
Sun trying to come through
Spooky trees

The sun was really bright when it came out. Had a real glare and warmth to it.

This tree will be spooky when it grows up!
Love this wee row of cottages
Sun reflections in a puddle
Can we paddle?!?
Bhruic doing her bit for litter picking
Tree reflections

Actually now I come to think of it…. I took the same photo on Friday in the snow.

Looks so different in snow

I got chatting to a lady who lives just past the tree and was there for about 45 minutes! Craig wondered what had happened to me… not enough to send out a search party though… 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

So feet up…. And not moving for the rest of the day. I managed to get nothing up for sale but hey… I’m tired and that takes priority.

When I think about how I used to fly through life…. Never stopping to breathe, always on the go.

Now I take all the time I need… when I can. Some days it feels like I should do more but it’s not happening today.

Day 650 of the blog feels like another milestone. 650 days of doing anything daily is a commitment and a half. 😆 ooooh I almost forgot my Clean Company “Rum”…. I treated myself!!

I’ve bought Caffeine Free Diet Coke to have with this tonight and I’m really looking forward to it!

Life can be tough when you don’t drink AND try to avoid caffeine…. But needs must to keep the anxiety wobbles at bay.

Fact!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️