Day 100 of COVID-19 lockdown… what have we learned so far? 🌍❤️🌈

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💯days eh?! Which means I have written a blog every day for 92 days as I only started on what we recorded as our day 8. I see others saying we’re already up to 103/104 etc but this is when we calculated it at the time and rather than stress that my whole blog is worthless and rubbish the new me is choosing to keep going as is. It’s our day 100. Mine and Craigie’s and Calaidh’s and Bhruic’s and Freya’s….. forgive the poor English 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😬 but you know what I mean.

If anyone had told you, 100 days ago, that our lives were going to change in a way we could never begin to imagine, we just wouldn’t have believed it. A world where we could stand right next to anyone and touch anyone (with reason obvs!) and we literally hugged people we didn’t even know. We didn’t have a care in the world when it came to that kind of stuff. Yeah we turned out noses up at folk not washing their hands after going to the loo etc but we screwed up our face and moved on. We survived.

Now we have an unseen killer. A virus that can spread among us through touch, can survive on surfaces and pass to others and we can’t see it. We have no idea where it’s lurking and worst of all, people can have it and not even know they are infected. It’s the stuff of horror movies!!

We watched every virus movie while we’ve been stuck home and the truth is actually terrifying. We watched these in the past thinking they were just that… far fetched thrillers. We had no idea.

So 100 days ago, we finally realised how serious this was and Craig stopped work and we stayed home to save lives, to help stop the transmission of COVID-19. We “sheltered in place” as they said in America. We only left the house for dog walks and food shopping for months.

It feels like a time for reflection…. what have we learned in this 100 days? Apart from the fact that the rainbow is a sign of hope 🌈❤️

We’ve learned that family and being together is everything. We’ve been given a special gift to spend time with each other but we’ve also been told that we can’t see other family members or friends that have been a part of our daily lives. We’ve seen a community spirit that was always there in Gateside but growing in a way we would never have imagined. That old war time share and share alike. I’ve bartered with rice and milk and sugar… there’s been a lot of sugar passing over fences. We’ve made the best of the lockdown life we’ve been given. Generations ago our grandparents etc were sent to war, we were told to stay home and watch tv, I mean how lucky are we?

The material things in life have become irrelevant. Even with all the money and possessions in the world you still had to stay home. Businesses are realising people can work from home without the world ending and it will reduce their overheads and the carbon footprint of their staff.

We have learned to appreciate the present. To live in the moment as everything else is too uncertain. Everyone is living on the same terms. 🌍

Personally we’ve learned to appreciate each other again and communicate clearly as we have had time to spend together. We can see what makes the other tick, what triggers and argument and we can stop it in its tracks with a laugh or a shrug of the shoulders saying here we go again. Through writing this I have expressed my daily feelings in a way that shows how erratic they are, how quick they are to flare up to anxious, fever pitch but most importantly how virtually none of it is Craig’s fault. He doesn’t have to second guess everything. He can just read it if he didn’t already know it. 🤣🤣🤣

I have learned to slow down, to watch the world move on through different eyes. To watch my handsome husband and smile realising he’s mine, to walk 3 Border Collies without them pulling on the lead, to value the endless movie nights, the takeaways and the connections with others. I hope that the world will be a better place as a result.

However, we have to remember that we have been untouched by this deadly virus. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. We are very lucky.

Worldwide stats

The UK have lost 44,131 souls to COVID-19 officially but there is evidence that the number of excess deaths for this year far exceeds that. Scotland stands at 2,488 people so far.

England is seeing a surge in new cases, particularly in London where the R rate is creeping above 1. For everyone one person infected at least one other person catches it. There seemed no doubt this would be the case as the amount of protests and large gatherings threw people together at a time when we were still meant to be 2m apart. It’s easy for me to sit here smugly and be happy that our lockdown isn’t as loose as England’s, that our government is being more strict.

Localised restrictions in Dumfries and Galloway now too
I’ve read today that Boris has urged people not to think of Saturday as Super Saturday as we need to still be careful and make sure that we protect each other by not spreading the virus. Yet apparently pubs can open at 6am….. several chains are planning to open just after this. Maybe it just because I don’t drink anymore that this seems so crazy to me?!?

I am nervous of normal returning as I had stepped back from normal for a good year or so. This is my new normal and I love it!!

I did not love the weather today!! It has stoated down all day… absolutely soaked on the dog walk again.
This is where the dogs usually play and Craig day over the other side of the burn. Bhru stuck her tongue in it to take a drink but didn’t go any closer.
Same at this but! It’s like they are on a life raft together 🤣
Phone got soaked every time I took a pic!
Drookit pup #1 wouldn’t stop playing with the stick long enough! Check the coos behind her under that tree… miserable!
Drookit pup #2
Drookit pup #3 always happy regardless of the weather… 😬😆
Bhru’s telling Calaidh Reek St is flooded
Did manage to see some beauty in the dreich day!
Thistles in the rain

It’s all about how you look at it… I was walking along thinking this is miserable, cold and wet, must be crazy being out in this when I saw a neighbour in Reek Street and he said “good weather for ducks!” 🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆🦆 that really made me smile as I’ve not heard that in years!! Splashed through all the puddles in my wellies from then on! 😆

And I wonder why my house isn’t a palace?!? Check these 3…. how many sopping wet dogs can you fit on a couch?! Least I put their dog robes on!! Unlike some people 😬🤣

Came home from dog walk and did a poop scoop as I was soaked anyway…. thought it would be a good idea to do it before the bins go out. Got the grey bin ready and took it round the front…. it’s Friday…. grey bin doesn’t go out until Tuesday……. wtf 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣🤣 my brain is frazzled today as it’s been such a busy week. Not busy in the sense of how busy I used to be… but very busy for me. I did another 2 Pawsitive Solution calls today… the first was dreadful… it was like putting the wheelie bin out 4 days early! Nothing flowed…. but the second was great.

This is what I have to put up with…. 🥰😆🎾🐶

So now I am wrapped in my crocheted blanket with my feet up in front of the fire. I plan not to move until bedtime!

Thanks again to everyone for sticking with this everyday. It means a lot!

Stay safe everyone ❤️💜❤️ here’s to the next 100 days and who knows what they might bring?!? X

Day 403 UK Vote 2021 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿and the day just ran away from me!

So yes it’s polling day in Scotland but we vote by postal vote so it doesn’t feel like a thing today….. but it is. Thought it important to show how COVID will obviously effect voting as it effects everything else. This strange new world we live in.

It’s been a busy day today, it’s 17.34 and I don’t feel like I’ve drawn breath. I had a lie in until 6.45am. Felt wonderful. My muscle pain has eased off a lot today but I do still feel pretty tired. I think this is a legit tired tired rather than anxiety/depression exhaustion tired though.

5 hours at Tartan Campers followed by lunch then an hour of dog behavioural calls, followed by the lovely Tapping Group that I attend online monthly.

So lovely to connect with like minded folks. Most of us have never met but we share a common purpose in taking time out to care for ourselves.

So very true for me, first with wine and now junk food

I say I didn’t draw breath but tapping is a great way of changing your energy levels and allowing you to breath more deeply…. it also makes me want a nap!

Don’t worry I won’t take photos of my meals all the time but here is lunch, it’s a huge part of my journey as she who’d rather shove a pizza in the oven is following salad recipes. 😲

This had fresh basil and parsley 🌿 among lots of other things…. with a squeeze of lemon juice 🍋 oooooh.

After tapping I did another few hours of dog calls and then I’m off for the weekend! I love that Thursday is my new Friday!

I know this is true ♥️
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It’s a lovely sunny evening by the looks of things so will get the dogs out for a walk after dinner I reckon.

6am Fit Body Farm training tomorrow again then hopefully off to meet mum for some shopping! Finally!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 402 a very action filled day with a built in sloth nap!

What a difference a day makes getting up early. My days seem to have so much time in them. A chance to do so many things. Yet today I had to have a nap…. but that is ok…. I really needed it.

Alarm was set for 4.45am. I was up straight away making a porridge concoction for breakfast which was really lovely and had lots of nutrition in it.

It was a cold and frosty morning. Abbie needed a good ice scrape…. on the 5th May?!? Usually our summer by now.
Sunrise over the van at Fit Body Farm
The walk from the car park…. it’s a lovely place
This is the rig where lots of the outdoor work is done
We did a basketball challenge this morning

We split into two teams of 9 and while one team tried to scored points sinking baskets, the other team had to complete challenges on bikes, rowing machine and ski machine. I did 500m on the bike, 500m on the skier and 250m on the rowing machine…. and sunk loads of baskets all before 7am!!

I secretly congratulate my 12 year old self for enjoying basketball.

It was amazing. I really enjoyed it and didn’t feel for a minute like we were exercising…. ok I lie I was bloody knackered but I was enjoying every minute of it and it didn’t feel like a chore. The hardest part is getting out of bed. Once you’ve done that it all just flows from there.

So I got a shower at the Farm and then drove on a completely new route to work, it was a beautiful drive but I hit a bone shaker of a pot hole at one point.

I drove past the most beautiful row of cottages called Perceton Row they were all pure white and the sun was shining. There is a red telephone box in the middle of the row which just adds to the quaintness of it all. I would have loved to stop and take a photo!!

I got to Tartan Campers at 7.45am and spent the first half hour blitzing the bathroom…. fully cleaned and swept and bleached.

By the time I sat down at my desk I actually could have slept but it’s no wonder really.

It’s a beautiful morning and only stayed to cloud over as I drove home. Got out with the dogs.

Lovely clouds
Gnasher Calaidh found a very big stick!
There’s an abundance of wild garlic growing in Spiers School Grounds
The puppers are showing that the giant potholes on the Gielsland Road have finally been filled for local readers!!
So beautiful in the country
Bhru checking out the coos
This big guy was having a snooze

I came back home to study the Fit Body Farm Nutrition and started reading then woke up an hour and a half later. Nana nap!!

Musta needed it!!!

Claire messaged about a walk and I thought of a million reasons why I was too tired… then thought bugger it, I’ll go another walk!!

Same route as I did earlier with the dogs but a whole lot more fun with your chat buddy

Now for the pièce de résistance…. I followed a recipe and cooked dinner.

My, myself and I.

Butterfly chicken pizza with onions, peppers and goats cheese, with parsnip and sweet potato fries with Pak Choi 🥬 and broccoli 🥦. It tasted so good.

Check me.

Now I’m tired again… and to be fair it’s almost our new bedtime. I get a lie in tomorrow morning! 6.30am….. yay!

Stay safe everyone 🏀⛹🏻‍♀️🏀

Day 401 May the Fourth be with you!

Star Wars!

It’s a standing joke on the Avery side of the family to see who can be first to say this on the 4th May. Of course mother in law wins again…. think that’s two or three years in a row!! I swear she sets an alarm….. 😆

I asked a lot of questions… but I watched every single film over and over and he loves showing off his knowledge 😆 he really is quite geeky…and I have to try and look past that 😬

I slept like a log last night, really out for the count. Shows what an early rise and going to a Fit Body Farm class can do.

I have struggled to move as the day has gone on.

I had a great day at Tartan Campers today. I have to say that I feel like I’m in a very good mood altogether.

I was listening to Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast today where she interviews the football Ian Wright. I didn’t think I would be that interested as he was a footballer but turns out he suffered from domestic abuse when he was around the age of 9 onwards, sadly at the hands of his mum and step dad. It was a really interesting listen.

Happy Place – Ian Wright

I had no abuse in my life whatsoever and yet really struggled with my mental health so I commend anyone who is able to rise above something like that.

The reason it struck a chord with me is that he talked about returning to that dark place or anger and rejection when someone showed him love, as if he was waiting for it to fail. He felt safe thinking all the bad thoughts and sinking into that bad place as if it’s a comfortable, easy place to be.

I have felt that at times. Felt that it’s safer to be down and be sad as no one expects anything from me when I’m like that. It’s lovely to be able to admit to myself and everyone else that I actually feel pretty goddam good just now. I couldn’t have done this before. There would always have been something.

Check me…….. 🥰

So after work I stopped in past Primark to take stuff back (that was WAY too small!) and popped into Asda to pick up some bits and pieces before heading home.

There are a lot of people not wearing masks in the shops just now. I know we are meant to show compassion to those who can’t wear masks but I do find myself wondering why so many people can’t wear masks. It’s hard not to judge and wonder if they just don’t want to. None of us want to but it’s part of our country’s COVID-19 recovery process…. still I’m trying to think positively that there’s a good reason for it.

Anyway not sure how I got on to that??? Off out with the dogs and it stayed dry. Every looks so much more green after the one day of heavy rain yesterday!

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This lovely blossom is growing on the hedges
The gorse is all in full bloom 💛💛💛 again the dark blue sky 🌌
Our village dog walking group (aptly named Dug Walk) gave names to these trees…. Treesa, Twiggy and Oakley. Sadly Oakley seems to have died in the last few years. Still look at them and smile and remember standing there trying to name them!!
The sky is very grey today
This gate is on its last legs and since I’ve lived here, Andy the Farmer had never used it! He is now. Must ask him what he’s up to!??
This is a very run down drystane dyke
And a much more together one which goes round the side of our village hall
The wall at the front of the village hall used to have wrought iron fencing. Most of this was used in the war so is no longer there
I’ve always loved this wee burn. It’s been dry for ages but fresh water now… we’ll probably not as it’s likely mixed with cow pee but let’s not dwell on that?!?

When I came back home I cleaned Abbie out. She was full of sand and Bhruic hair after our trip to Croy Beach on Sunday. She looks lovely now so everyone had to take their shoes off when they get in…. 🤣🤣 I wish!!

Also fitted my new sticker!!
And this one… it’s a great VW FB group.

So yeah, another lovely day. I’m now in agony and struggle to put one foot in front of the other but it’s all good. Bring on the gym again tomorrow morning and have my weight in booked for 5.45am! Alarm set!

I’m sitting writing this in Abbie, in the village hall car park and I really should go in the house. I love this space.

Life is good.

Stay safe everyone 🥰🥰🥰

Day 400 seems a great day to take the next big step in my recovery journey???!

Well if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em. 🏋🏻‍♀️🤸🏻‍♂️🤼‍♀️⛹🏻‍♀️🏊🏼‍♀️🤽🏼‍♀️🚣🏽‍♀️🏄🏼‍♀️🚴🏼‍♀️

So yeah I have decided to join Mr Sporty Spice in his early morning gym classes……. I mean……come on…….. check me???? The sloth goes to the gym?!? Will the real Julie Avery please stand up????

I decided last week that I am ready to face the challenge head on. Enough is enough. I feel ok until I see a photo of myself and I realise how big my weight gain has actually been. I’m no longer prepared to dress in baggy clothes as I’m uncomfortable showing my body. Then seeing it in a photo when I thought it was covered up?!?!?!

I have felt fat my whole life. There are so many photos I look at and think how bad I felt at the time. The only time I felt good is when I was dieting. I was taking control.

So I have joined the Fit Body Farm near Kilmaurs and am taking part in their 6 week challenge. The aim is to start on track to a healthier life. This is not a diet but a way of life. 3 workouts a week…… at 6am which is horrifying but makes complete sense at the same time. I prefer to get up early and get my exercise done for the day and I can go and have a shower before I head to work.

The village at 5.30am, a lovely sunrise
Hardly any cars on the road, obviously as everyone should be fast asleep at this time of day!!
Fit Body Farm is at the end of this road! Isn’t it an amazing place to go to the gym?!?
And this was the sight that greets you from the car park. Wow!

I can honestly say that this is meant to be. I am ready for this.

Awful selfie but it is before 6am!

Fit Body Farm is not your average gym…. it’s classes where you are given exercises to do that involve weight, heavy ropes, sleds with weighted bags on them… lots of weird and wonderful stuff.

The inside gym
With this on the wall
And this ♥️

All the work is done outside just now. (No photos…..!) With masks on to meet up with everyone and all equipment brought out of the gym to be cleaned on return.

Not gonna lie…. the workout was amazing but hard and I did actually feel dizzy and sick half way through. I had to lie down on the ground with my legs up on a step…. he said I’m not the first and I certainly won’t be the last. 🤔🤦🏻‍♀️😆

Today’s session was called Unbroken….. I’ve renamed it Broken…. obviously!

I only managed 7 out of the 8 reps we did of this as I lay down in the third or fourth!

We had a chat with Gavin Hogarth the owner after the session and I actually cried (ok I know, why would anyone be shocked at this?!?) when I told him that this is the next step in my journey and everything is falling into place to allow me to spend time working on my health and fitness.

I just need to unzip this protective fat suit I’ve been wearing and step back out.

If you achieve the 6 week challenge targets set (or he can see that you really bust a gut to try) then you get your money back or towards any future membership. The theory being that you get the bug and want to keep going. Obviously.

We got home at 8am, had coffee, listened to the promotional videos, filled out all the questionnaires and paperwork AND I’ve done an online food shop with information from the Fit Body Farm recipes…. PLANNING MY MEALS?!? Whatever next?!?!?!?

I can honestly say that I am soooooooo chuffed with myself right now and I never say that. This is a huge step for me and I am honestly excited to take it. I was even excited taking the before photos as I know I will never look that size again. I haven’t felt hungry at all today because my head is finally in the zone. After all these years of talking about it and realising I was emotionally eating. Trying to stop and never managing it. Deep breath and move on.

Today is Bank Holiday Monday so I’m not working at Tartan Campers today but I did have some dog behavioural calls to make.

Had a few hours in the bedroom office and then came downstairs to our bedroom and have swapped all the clothes around in the wardrobes. Since we moved the room around Craig was always at my side getting his stuff…. can’t be having that now!

I bet it will never be this tidy again!
Mine is almost always tidy though these are all BiG clothes so hope they will get the heave-ho soon!!!

I’ve got my feet up and think I’m done for the day. It’s been torrential rain this afternoon which is our first consistent rain in over a month. Typical for a Bank Holidau Monday to be fair. However, the garden looks happier already. It just needed some water.

I also called the COVID-19 vaccination helpline today as so many people in my age group have had their jab and I haven’t. Just wanted to check that I’ve not been missed. They told me I’m booked in for 26th May at 9.05am! Great news!

I also read that there’s a chance we may not need to social distance for too much longer. Is it really possible that we might be getting back to normal soon? I hope so but will all the life lessons we have learned.

People are important. Family, friends and health are all we need. And hugs…. we definitely need hugs again.

Stay safe everyone ⛹🏻‍♀️🚴🏼‍♀️🤽🏼‍♀️

Day 399 road trip to Croy Beach, South Ayrshire!

I am out of my local council area for the first time in forever. I decided to drive down to Croy Beach (you can click the link to find out more!).

It’s about an hours drive and a better idea than driving to Oban which I was thinking of doing.

I brought Bhruic with me and she’s been so good. It’s so quiet here. I can count 9 groups of people on the whole beach and it’s pretty big. I was awake at 6am and set off for Croy just before 9am. After coffee of course!

Here is middle dub dog ready to go all strapped in and on her new bed

Never heard a peep from Bhru the whole trip, she’s a great traveller.

To get there you have to drive up Electric Brae.

The tide is out but these 2 swans are waddling out to the sea

From Croy Beach you can clearly see Culzean Castle perched on the cliff edge and across to Alisa Craig.

The light wasn’t the best this morning for my photography…. (in my head I said that in a awfy posh voice with my wee finger sticking out 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣)

We walked right along under the cliff
Low tide… there lots of rocks and seaweed further out although the beach is lovely sand
Bhru loving the frisbee
Abbie set up in the car park
Lovin’ this mumma ♥️
Fascinated by all that’s going on and the EXTREMELY BARKY DOG on the beach (didn’t annoy me in the slightest at all…. much…. )
Looking left
Looking right

It’s only 12.15pm. I’m sitting here crocheting. Watching 2 folk out sea kayaking now. Hmmmmm awfy tempted to try that. Bobbing about on the waves. Sounds ideal to me.

Don’t worry that poor Craigie is missing out. He’s all good but had to help his step dad this morning and is now watching another Rangers v Celtic derby! He’s quite happy!

Now having a wee nana nap! Look at her face… she wants out to play!!
Can we go now? Is nap done?!?
Loadsa sand
I love this picture ♥️
Dark cloud over Alisa Craig
Panorama from where I was sitting

I’ve had the loveliest weekend. Blitzing the house on Friday and two days of being out and about exploring and taking photos. I love being outdoors and appreciating nature.

Stay safe everyone 🏕🏕🏕

Day 398 and it’s May already?!? Where did this year go? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Shelagh from Enhanced Well-being shared this!

Well I had a rotten sleep in first night of new bedroom and she who does not drink anymore woke up with what can only be described as a hangover! That’s so unfair.

We woke at 4.30am (the one day he wasn’t getting up for the gym!!) and my throat was sore and my head was thumping. The day after I drank lots of water, ate a lovely healthy salad and did lots of housework?!?

I do wonder if it may have been the fresh paint in the bedroom though I can’t smell it?!

Anyway, I’ve not let that spoil the day.

Claire and I met at 8.20am for dog walk. It makes it so much easier when I meet someone to walk otherwise I’d have stayed in bed. There are no photos……. yes I am as shocked as you….. we had a cuppa in our garden afterwards. There wasn’t a breath of wind. So calm and peaceful and no one else seemed to be around.

Then I decided to head to the sea…. be rude not to?!? Housework is done, dogs are walked and Craig’s working. so fear not… here come the pics…. 😆

I’m back in my usual spot but the tide’s really far out
A deep seaweed pool
It’s really cloudy over Goat Fell on Arran

I got chatting to a couple with a small renovated van who had a 19 week old German Shepherd puppy. She was all fluffy. So puppy and campervan all in one chat. The guy said my wheels were rad. He said my van was the nicest he’s seen and the whole thing was rad. I showed him the interior build and he as away home to google stuff!! I think rad means lovely. 😬😆

I took a walk through the field and down to the main beach this time.

How lovely is this wee rock jutting up through the grass
Bluebells?!?
Spotted this guy! Then stalked him all over the beach… 😆
This was his second move… You can see his shadow in the pool more clearly than you can see him! look at the clouds too.
He keeps thinking he’s got away from me but I keep finding him!
Reflections
It’s a beautiful morning
Arty stone pic
Arty green seaweed
It’s really soft and slidy!

I did chose to walk all over it and almost lost my balance a few times.

It was cloudy over Arran the whole time
Beautiful real sand, the beach looked stunning
A panoramic
Walked back down a part of the road so I could get pics of the flowers
It’s a lovely wee road
Check this knobbly tree!
Spotted a wee butterfly in these lovely flowers 🌸
sat and had a cuppa in the back of the van
Saw this big ship heading out to sea
Suddenly noticed it had snowed on the mountains!! 🏔
And the wind has picked up and the sea is choppy
This wave hit me!!
Love this swirl!!

This photo above is the bit I usually stand on. It’s the first time I’ve seen it under water.

So I’ve had the loveliest day. I’m back home now for a wee quick nap before we head to the village pub for the first time in at least 6 months if not more.

I did not sleep. The dogs barked every time I almost nodded off. I got up and had a shower instead.

This was the main barking culprit!! She looks like butter wouldn’t melt

So then….. we went out, out! For the first time since before Christmas and albeit, only next door to the village pub.

Alcohol free Gordon’s gin for me!

I love that I can sit in the pub along with everyone else and not feel left out. I am no longer a drinker and that’s just how it is now. I’m actually very proud. Scotland is getting back to a new normal and it’s really nice to see people and chat. I think we are talking to strangers more than we did before and it’s nice!

We sat out in the bed garden for a few hours until we were frozen to a snotter….. to coin that old Scottish saying.

This huge cloud came over and took all the heat away!

Home now in front of the fire and starting to thaw out.

It’s been another lovely day.

Stay safe everyone 🔥🔥🔥

Day 397 day off spent in housework frenzy!!

I wrote that with the voice of a news anchor. Top headline…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤔🤣

I had plans today. Have to go to the bank as Post Office in Johnstone. Need to wash my hair before I do that as the Post Office will take a new photo for my driving licence which needs renewing. Can’t just turn up looking like I usually do. This requires some effort and planning. So it hasn’t happened!!

So despite Mr Sporty Spice waking me at 4.45am…. he had the gym at 6am 😳😱…. on my day off….. I managed to fall back to sleep until he came back in about 7.30am.

I got up just after 8am and had coffee. It was a lovely morning but the weather isn’t meant to be great for the rest of the weekend. Erm….. what’s wrong with this picture?!?!?

I broke one of the fancy mugs he bought before Christmas….. there are two… one is white bottomed. That one is mine. 😬

You should never spend money on anything breakable in a house with 3 Border Collies…. obviously. I could have blamed them but it was me…. hanging up the washing to dry and thought “ooh, should move that mug while I’m hanging the washing right next to it, I might knock it off…..”

Ta dah…….. 🤦🏻‍♀️😳😬

Moving on…… Craig decided to make up the new shutters for the bedroom today! He has to paint the surrounds first so it’s a big job.

Before
After

What a difference just like the living room, it’s so much brighter. I could not get my curtains to hang on the curtain poles that were in the house when we bought it. They drove me insane clattering metal rings across the wooden floors every time you opened or shut a curtain. The fleur-de-lis type ends were not removable so there’s a limit to the kind of curtains you could fit. Anyway. No more!!

So while this was all going on…. I snuck up on some housework. Genuinely had no plan to do anything although it badly needed done. I was like a wummin possessed. Did the whole house AND made a lovely salad for lunch…..

Days like today are so lovely. I’ve enjoyed my day, I feel accomplished, I feel decluttered. That’s great for the mind.

I am calm, relaxed and awfy chuffed with myself. I even wonder who I actually am. What planets aligned to allow this smooth and plain sailing day?!

Is it that simple…. I actually stop worrying, stressing and being anxious and just get on with things? I’m not feeling like I wasted a day…. it feels good!

So we also completely changed around the bedroom. We had an old disused fireplace in our bedroom and we’ve taken that away and covered it with the bed instead.

It feels like a new room. I’m lying on the bed after having a lovely chat with mum and my view is so different. Be interesting to get up for the loo in the middle of the night…. where will I end up?!?!?

And finally my new awning has arrived!! We ordered it back in at the end of February and knew it would be the end of April but it’s here finally. Far too tired to do anything with it today after housework-fest so will put it up tomorrow.

A very good day. I’m still in jammies and it’s after 5 but that’s ok. The world is back up and running and Craig and I still haven’t been out anywhere yet but that will come.

Right now I’m happy lying on the bed admiring my room from a new angle. Simple things in life.

♥️

Oh and just to add to it all…. Tartan sent a message to say take the day off on Monday as no one else will be in. Oh, ok then, if you’re sure?!? 🤔😬😆

Don’t have to tell me that twice…. woo hoo!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 396 last day of my working week!! Yay!

I want to start with this as it’s a lovely meme. I see so many but this one really touched me today. A message for us all.

The second point is that Primark cosy leggings are now a different formulation or whatever the word is!! The did not fit quite the same this morning and they feel a wee bit shiny….. was not impressed but still wore them and they are now covered in dog hair!!

Didn’t sleep well last night but feel surprisingly spritely today. It’s got to come crashing down at some point! 🤦🏻‍♀️😆🤔🤣Think I’m running on adrenaline.

Keep forgetting to mention that Mr Sporty Spice had been waking me up EVERY morning with his gym obsession…. if only I could get the bug too. He woke at the back of 5 this morning and I hadn’t got to sleep until 1.45am so it was a short night.

It’s a beautiful morning though

So Tartan went well again and got loads done and I’m all set for another long weekend.

I did a very strange thing when I left work today. I was talking to Craig on the phone and I thought I’d head to Home Bargains. As I got close to the car park I changed my mind as I felt that it was a bit too busy. I drove down to the Irvine seafront towards Gro Coffee…. I sussed there was no queue outside. Good thing. Could park up and get a coffee?!? Hmmmm bit of a waste when I could drive home and have a coffee, I was here at the coast yesterday. only then remembered that there was no queue in Gro as everyone would be inside it now! Doh….

Set the sat nav for home to try and find the quickest route and it took me EXACTLY the same way I’d just driven?!? Back almost past work…. 25 mins for nothing 🤦🏻‍♀️😳😬🤔😆🤣

I think because my week finished at Thursday lunchtime, I feel I should make the most of my Thursday afternoons.

Can’t imagine why else I’d drive around for no reason. Other than I finally flipped.

So I’ve spent the afternoon catching up with people on the phone then Claire suggested a walk.

Check her lovely new purple hair!!
Calaidh looking like the Sergeant Major!! AttenSHUN !!

Our friends Dave and Angela who are Polaris Overland posted this today which I didn’t know….

Hope you all enjoy your Friday!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 395 back to spring again today thankfully…. SHOPPING 🛍, EYEBROWS AND THE SEA! 🌊

What more do you need in a day?!? I’ve been humming the Pet Shop Boys….. “ we’re S H O P P I NG….. we’re shopping” all day. 🎶🎵🛍

I went to Primark and got two, yes two whole pairs of black cosy leggings. My life is complete. I also bought lots of other stuff which doesn’t fit. Sadly. Horrifyingly.

So let’s get back to the beginning…. a switched on Julie turned up today. Smiling, happy, bright, breezy, confident, cheeky. I mean seriously, how does that actually happen. My anxiety is silent.

Mum laughed and said I’d picked a better version of myself off the shelf this morning. Sometimes it really feels like that…. and I’m so glad I did. It’s such a relief after the last few days.

I’m still tired but the brain fog and panic surrounding it, has gone.

Thought I’d show one of the Tartan Camper rental vans getting a new canvas in her pop top roof. This is Lotty!
And here I am “on the tools” 🤭🤔🤣 for a whole 3 mins I think!

So after work today I decided to attempt the shops for the first time in just over 4 months. It was busy but it wasn’t unbearably busy.

I managed a selfie in the homeware section as it was the only area that was quiet!

I’m trying to look surprised and excited to be in the shops 👀 not sure that I achieved that?!?
The till area is all cordoned off with plastic dividers between each customer and each staff member and the staff all had masks on too

So yeah, nothing much I picked up fits me. I really need to motivate myself to get fit again and shed some pounds. I’m a completely stuffing my face these days and it’s just comfort eating. I don’t need half of it.

One day my healthy mojo might come back…. having stir fry for dinner tonight…. that’s a a start?!?

I got my monobrow threaded and had forgotten just how painful it was. The girl told me I was very brave which made me laugh but I was secretly very proud.

I then decided I’d take a wee drive past the beach as I was only a few minutes away. The tide was in which I’ve not seen in Irvine before!

Still very clear
There’s normally sand here!
Not sure what this wee statue was?!
Irvine beach looks tiny when the tide is in
Looking across to Ardheer
Arran in the distance
Right out on the point
Standing here
Looking back to the beach
I wanted to have the courage to tell them I took this photo but I couldn’t 🤭😬🤔
Alisa Craig
A two headed seagull…. they look quite angry 😤
Looking over to the Big Idea in Ardheer which has closed down. It was a science centre
Thought this was lovely, Isle of Arran in the distance

Back home and had a quick cuppa in the garden with Claire. She’s been to the hairdresser and her hair is purple again!! Looks amazing and I forgot to get a selfie of us… dammit.

So off to make the stir fry now. Here’s hoping that’s all I manage to scoff for the night. Might clean my teeth after it as that always stops me eating!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 394 it’s raining!!!!!

Auch ye gotta love Scotland. The rain today felt like ice needles hitting my skin. Only 3 days ago I was sunning it up the the Costa de la Garden and today I’ve got the ski jacket on!?!

Bedraggled much!!

It didn’t seem that wet when I headed out with the dogs. With the rain and wind behind me I was loving life. Appreciating all the greenery coming through, the smell of rain in the air. I met one man (who I have seen before but can’t remember for the life of me…. ) and shouted over the rain and wind…”lovely to walk in the rain for a change”…. his reply “eh… naw…” he looked at me like I had two heads!! His response was totally understandable when I turned to go back and was walking into the wind…. Hood wouldn’t stay up, jeans got soaked through and I couldn’t see a thing out my steamed up, rain soaked varifocals…. the only negative to these glasses is rain!

The dogs were quite happy!
Walk this way….. wait… we’re a “man” down?!? Freya is always in the field to the right waiting for Bhru to run with her
I love how bright green everything is suddenly after a few short showers of rain
The wild garlic is growing in abundance and smells amazing!

So I did have work this morning. Didn’t sleep well last night…. I’m fairly certain I got a kick or a nudge at some point and I found myself wide awake. I can only assume he will tell me that this was because I was snoring but I find that very hard to believe…. moi?!?!

It was still dark out and no traffic passing so it was the middle of the night. Wide awake thinking of campervan customers…. randomly.

So off into work and felt rising waves of anxiety throughout the morning. I kept telling myself I couldn’t remember things, my head was empty, how useless am I?!?!?

My perception of myself is still pretty dreadful. I made a point of deliberately thinking the opposite. “You have got this under control, your fully capable of handling all this, just be calm and breathe”

I love this above. I think I’m starting to cut myself some slack but I need to learn to bring myself back down from the anxiety. All to often I need other people to tell me my worth before I can breathe freely. we need to believe in ourselves.

I need to have that faith in myself. We all do. I still get frustrated with myself in a bad day but only looking back can see how much worse I made it for myself.

So I had some dog behavioural calls to make when I got home and then out with the puppers.

The house stinks of wet dog. Not missed they in the first 25 dry days of April.

But on a positive note the house is also full of sleeping dogs. Whoever coined the phrase “let sleeping dogs lie” was onto something!! I’m gonna join them.

This is Bhru’s sleepy tongue stuck out face from last night…. bless

Feet up and wee nana nap before Craig gets home!

I love this. ♥️♥️

Now don’t forget to bring me home that KFC Craigie… or else 😬😆

Stay safe everyone ☔️☔️☔️