We have a Jeep & a VW T5 and 3 Border Collies and like to go travelling with the Overland Bound guys. I’m recovering from anxiety and depression and we’re currently staying home due to the COVID-19 pandemic.
Oh you learn to love that 4.45am alarm…. NOT!!! I did not want to move this morning after that luxury of the 3 hour long lie yesterday. But I did. And boy was the Fit Body Farm a killer this morning?!?
Team Avery worked together in a challenge. 100m each on the Ski-erg machine, heavy sled 🛷 pushes and pulls and a whole lot of burpees followed by broad jumps.
The burpee is evil.
So back home, quick coffee and then snuck up on some of the housework. Bathrooms 🚽 🚽✅ stairs ✅ upstairs bedroom ✅ hallway ✅ and Craig did the living room, kitchen and sunroom. Every time we do this, I do say how much I love a clean house. Just in time for the weekend. By this time it’s only 10am and I took the dogs for a walk.
Now the Rambling Sloth has a newly appointed plant consultant, I messaged my neighbour Helen this morning to ask what the white hedgerow bushes were. She said they are Hawthorn blossoms. When she was a child she was told that an abundance of blossoms meant there was a hard winter to come. If this auld wives tale is to be believed then this winter is going to be shocking methinks…. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️😬😆
Winter is coming!
I had a lovely chat with my 80 year old friend as I walked around. 💜
I’m not sure where the rest of the day went?! I got Abbie the camper van back from the garage. The part was £3.01 and the labour was £240 😱😳🤷🏻♀️. Let’s hope it’s the last time that turbo is out for a few years at least.
So I’ve barely left the house and it’s been an expensive weekend and it’s only Friday!!
I’m very tired now, I needed a nap this afternoon and didn’t get one so will need to get an early night or I’ll be really grumpy.
If I warn Craig through the blog then he’ll know 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️😬😂🥰
Spending the evening in the village pub with some neighbours catching up on the week’s news. I will get that nap tomorrow…. Or there will be trouble. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️😬😆
Wow wow and wow! We got up at 7.45am and that’s a whole 3 hours of a lie in…. uh-mAz-in……
Abbie is booked back in to Van Hospital (I like the way WordPress made those capital letters like that’s a thing!) today so I’m working from home and there’s no Fit Body Farm to bound out of bed for on a Thursday.
Dropped the van off for 8.15am and have spent the morning working away back in the bedroom office just like the days of dog behaviour calls. This room sure needs a tidy and a freshen up. It’s been neglected for the last few weeks as it’s been abandoned for Tartan HQ!
There was a solar eclipse this morning…. don’t say I don’t keep you up to speed…. my pic below!
So the afternoon was also spreadsheet based and I finally got the Village hall accounts to balance. I was so ahead of the game all year then the job things happened and the Assistant Treasurer bit went out the window….. so pleased to say an afternoon well spent. It’s all submitted only 2 and half months after it’s due although I was told I had until December really so I was ok.
I’ve also done the accounts for this year so far so I’m feeling like I’m on a roll again!
I also taxed the van…. 10 days too late whoops and renewed my insurance. Those are tasks that just feel like too much adulting don’t they?!? I spent £760 today on what seems like nothing…. all the while she’s incurring high labour costs at the garage!! 😳😱
Took the puppers out for a walk when Claire finished work. Everything seems to be in full bloom just now…. especially the buttercups. 🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼
So a good day, lots achieved after the best lie in ever.
Was a wee bit groggy when the alarm went off at 4.45am but I soon got up and moving. The Farm was great again this morning but I had a pain in my right leg/knee during the warm up run so had to do some massage with a foam roller to try to ease the muscle.
The foam roller was sore but hit the spot and I managed to do the rest of the class.
The shower was cold again this morning but it was actually amazing. I really needed a cold shower after the amount of work we had done. 🚿 I was sweating buckets or perspiring profusely as us ladies do…. 🤦🏻♀️😬😆
I had big plans for work today and loads of things cropped up that needed attention instead. Best laid plans and all that…. 😆 I stayed till about 2.30 today as I had a massage booked in Dalry for 3.05pm and I went straight there…. I say straight there… avoiding all roadworks on the A71 in Irvine. The sat nav sent me to the coast and back in to Dalry…. was soooo close to the beach but just not close enough to be there.
So I’d had a call from the osteopath yesterday asking me if I would be interested in going for a deep tissue massage as there was a new lady starting at his therapy room.
Me?!? Interested in a massage?! Like hullo, have you met me, introductory offer 50% off eh yeah…. don’t have to ask me that twice! I did ask if the woman had a spare few hours to spare?!?!
So I booked for today and had a full hour of VERY deep tissue massage. Now I like a firm massage but this was super firm. It was amazing if not a bit eye opening at times.
By the end of it my muscles were actually buzzing. What a great feeling!! I walked out on air as if she’d just loosened everything up.
Of course after all that exertion I now need a nana nap.
So I am not getting a nap. I have the Gateside Hookers is less than 50 minutes. The crochet group that puts the world to tights in 2 hours every Wednesday night!
I did read somewhere that a nap should either be an hour and a half or just twenty minutes otherwise you wake up feeling awful. Could try for a wee 20 minuter?!?
Wow I had the best sleep ever…. I was in bed for about 8.30pm last night and finally fell asleep about 9.30pm.
Got a long lie until 6.30am…. Wow!! Love a morning when I don’t get up for the gym.
So a completely different Julie woke up today. Fresh and clear headed, ready to take on the world. I even washed and blow dried my hair before work and that like almost never happens.
I was working till 4pm today as there’s loads to do and Abbie the camper van is back in the garage on Thursday so I can’t get to work.
It means the day passes in a blur but it was another good day. Loads done. Mind fixed. 😁
When I got back home I took el doggos out for a walk and dragged Claire with me. I actually didn’t need to drag her…. Calaidh did that!
The field we spent most of lockdown 1.0 in has been closed over with barbed wire since the end of summer last year. It’s a sad day when your life is made because a field is open…… I’m getting old!
We thought about picking some cowslip but a quick google search says it’s toxic…. hmmm rethink that idea!
I made a hello fresh dinner tonight and it didn’t take me a hundred hours to do… check me!
It was really lovely and there are plenty left overs for lunch tomorrow. It’s probably more calories than I should have at the moment but hey… I can’t do it all…. 😆😁
Now this next one is something we should all take on board. How many people actually make time for themselves and do something they really want to do. Every single day? I bet a small handful. Something for us all to think about.
Wasn’t sure what to talk about today as I am tired. Awfy tired. Then I saw this.
So I’m not gonna turn this into a moan. I will get a very early night and catch up on my sleep.
Fit Body Farm was hard work this morning. After the weekend away I felt really sleepy but it soon woke me up. Once you get out of bed you are committed!
We did lots of upper body work this morning. It was really mild and we ended up sweating buckets 🥵 all good and felt great after it!
I had a shower at the gym and the water was freezing!!! Couldn’t wash my hair as there was no way on earth I was putting my head under that shower! 🥶
I headed off to work with dirty hair and thankfully no one noticed. Maybe they did and were just too polite to say. I finished about 1.30 and headed to the supermarket for a quick dither about shop and bought nothing of any use!
You’ll be pleased to know that I totally failed in my attempt to cancel Hello Fresh and another 3 meal arrived so we will not starve this week. I just need to take a week off work to prepare the meals…… 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️😬😆
This week we have:
Warm Mediterranean Style Pasta Salad with choirzo, roasted veg and feta
Beef Koftas with Couscous, Harrisa Yoghurt and tomato salad 🥗
Chicken and mushroom crumble with basmati rice
Watch this space……
It’s been another lovely day today. Really hot. The van got up to 38C inside between work and the supermarket! It’s a shame my AC button does sweet FA 😬😆
I decided today was going to be a nap day. I needed some extra rest to get rid of some grumpiness. Instead I spoke to mum on the phone, spent some time with wee Rachel from next door, had an early dinner with Craig and then a cuppa with Claire.
She’d asked me to go for a walk but I couldn’t today…. we managed to talk solidly for two hours!!! Love that there’s always so much to catch up on. I’m sure I moaned way too much.
Everything in the garden has bloomed in the weekend we’ve been away. All it takes is some heat and a wee bit of torrential rain!
We have so many weeds just now and I have no inclination to de-weed. Craig told the dogs today that it needed doing so I’m hoping they’ll pick it up. 😆
Pup tums all back in working order thankfully….
So to be grateful, a beautiful day with catch up with lovely people and a bit of work and shopping thrown in. The end. 😬😆
We had a lovely sunset again last night. Our friend Golf had to leave last night as she’s working today but Steve is still here. I learned last night that although Golf is her Thai nickname, her friends have been shortening her real name to Chamia which is think is lovely. That said it’s very hard to change someone’s name in your head when you’ve called her Golf for years!
We had another lovely sunset last night totally different colours fromFriday night. This one was pinks and purples.
So apparently it rained really heavily overnight and I never heard a thing. I was totally out for the count…. which is hardly surprising given the rotten sleeps I’ve had in the last few nights.
Craig got up with the dogs and thankfully that wasn’t too early but I couldn’t even wake up through that. Love it.
It seems poop gate is partially resolved!
The pond has filled back up after all that rain. It’s another beautiful day but more windy today. Hoody on hoody off. One of those kinds of days.
So the car show started at 11am but there have been cars and bikes arriving since last night!
The highlight for a non petrol head was the Heilan Brew Coffee Co! I got an oat latte!
It’s 1pm and we really need to get moving but it’s scorching hot again. The pups are having a wee lie down in the shade.
So we left after 2pm and made it back to get Calaidh by 5.30pm. She had a great time and Gran and Grampas and was very excited to see us. We had an amazing drive down, pure blue skies with wispy clouds all the way. it’s such a beautiful day and it’s lovely to see Scotland like that. It’s not every day we get a chance.
We’ve had the best weekend. Amazing weather, the most stunning sunsets and great company. Highly recommend the campsite!
The guy who owns it always sorts the sun too. 😬😆
Hope you all had a great weekend and this is your Sunday evening reminder that we can all face whatever is in store in the week ahead!
We had the most amazing sunset last night. It was breathtaking. The sky was purple and orange for a while but by about 10.10pm the sunset really came good!!
Didn’t get to bed until after midnight and the boys were up till after 3am. They had a great night catching up.
At 6.23am I got a cry from Bhruic to be let out. In the days before “pup poop gate” we didn’t respond to a cry, but since our trip to Loch Ness I am very wary of the dogs needing out. Lo and behold poop fest is on again. It was Bhru that cried to get out but Freya that had the dodgy tum. Bhru held on until 7.24am then asked out again and it was her turn. they’ve been at it on and off all morning. Needless to say I do not feel as fresh as a daisy today!
It is scorching today. We are camping and it is glorious! After all the weekends of rain this is so so lovely. We are so lucky!
Craig said it felt amazing. Cold but really refreshing. There are tadpoles in this pond. I didn’t bring anything to swim in so I will be staying firmly on dry land.
I feel so calm and relaxed sitting here. There are birds twittering and bees and insects buzzing and that is it. I’m away across the pond from the campsite.
My head feels calm in the silence. This is the life. I sat here for hours. I had sunscreen on but forgot my legs…. wee bit burnt.
We’ve had the loveliest day. Just chilling and relaxing, I’ve done a bit of crochet too.
The heavens opened just before 6pm and the rain was stotting down for about half an hour. There were loads of people putting tents up at the same time. We’re fully sheltered and Golf is cooking burgers for dinner!
A lovely day spent with lovely people in the sunshine. And a whole lot of pups!
I had a dreadful sleep again. The dogs were grumbling and barking even before it got dark again last night.
We randomly have pigs at the back of the garden and when I let the dogs outside it was just getting dark and the pigs were making some amount of noise. They must have heard them.
So I did manage to stomp about the bedroom and wake Craig this time which always helps! No point in suffering in silence!
It was another team challenge this morning with lots of running. But it was brilliant!! As usual. Really woke me up and got me going.
So we were heading away today to Barns Highland campsite in Nairn.
Calaidh has gone to stay with her Gran.
My copilot was not as good at photos as I would have been so there aren’t many of our trip. We left the house just after 10 and got to mum in laws in time for a late breakfast and the first hug for ages!! set off up north by 11.30.
I have no idea where these pics are taken except they somewhere on the road from Perth to Nairn!
Barns Highland campsite is opened by a guy Ewan that we know from our membership in Overland Bound. It’s a farm on the outskirts of Nairn and the campsite is brand new and stunning!
The view from our pitch!
We’re meeting up with Steve and Golf this weekend as Steve is heading away for 6 months with work and we’ve not seen them since Hogmanay 2020.
The have an Isuzu DMAX with a pup breather hole in the back!
Golf and I went to take Bahia and Loki into the field for a run around as they’d just arrived. They have extendable leads. I held onto Bahia…. until Bahia had other ideas. Got to the end of his lead extension at such a rate of knots that he pulled me flying off my feet and I mean flying!!! Thankfully on grass and with no cameras around. Golf was more worried about me lying spread eagled on the grass but I was so worried Bahia would run off! I kept shouting her to get the dog and I’d see to myself.
I’m now not sure which body aches are attributed to the killer gym session and which are doing to flying through the air and landing smack on my face and knees…. 🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️😬😆
More photos tomorrow, I can’t believe it’s after 9 and we’ve only just finished dinner AND I am still awake!!!
Lovely to meet up with good friends and get hugs and to chat. Sure we’ll be up a good while yet!
I didn’t have the best sleep last nights I felt like everything was amplified in my head and even cars driving past the house sounded like they were in the bedroom.
Now don’t get me wrong I was still asleep most of the night so I’m not complaining. I just felt a bit more alert, or switched on than I should have been.
The dogs were making strange noises when they first went upstairs. They have a wee mini door into the loft that may have been banging in the wind. Bhruic was moaning and quietly woo woo woo-ing which is her trying not to bark but grumbling at something.
I went up to them twice as they are in the room above us in the eaves. The second time I just brought them downstairs, let them outside and then left them in the living room. Never heard a peep the rest of the night. Job done ✅
Don’t know what that was all about but Craig was out for the count and never heard any of it. I was wired to the moon 🤦🏻♀️😬😆
Was super tired getting up this morning. Really drugged feeling and sleepy but was fine after my shower.
The drive to work was a bit more noisy than usual as the springs are “boinging” a bit….. who knew that was a word. There’s a noise like flint scraping about to ignite 😆😬
I’d made a smoothie before I left. Sat down at my desk to drink it. Sooooo there was kale, banana, coconut milk and blueberries. The kale was left over from last nights dinner….
The kale has been cooked on a baking tray with olive oil and salt….. take my advice and NEVER PUT THAT IN A SMOOTHIE!!!!!! ❌
Oh my actual god it was actually disgusting….. truly minging!
I then read an email. Now I’m not gonna write about my day to day work stuff but you know I love my job. Nothing prepared me for the reaction that came this morning.
I read an email and my anxiety hit the roof. The worst it’s been in a long time. Proper anxiety attack and it was only because I didn’t think I knew the answer.
So I start talking to myself…. bringing myself back down to earth. Reply to the email and job done. ✅
Then meet a colleague and started to explain my reaction.
And yeah… this is hard for me to write but the tears just streamed down my face. I have no idea where they came from, I had no indication of this being a bad day, the email wasn’t that bad, my reaction was totally overboard.
Something today or this week has triggered me for some reason and I can’t put my finger on it at all.
All I can say is that everyone at work was super lovely and supportive.
I am embarrassed. I just never wanted to be that person again. The one who cries. Again.
So I’m pretty disappointed in myself and the tears have been brewing all day.
I know I can justify everything. New job, new product to learn, new processes.
New gym and fitness regime. New cooking Hello Fresh that takes bloody hours 😆
It’s the tears that upset me. After all this time I still can’t control them.
I was gonna speak to the doctor about reducing my meds and it’s almost like my body wags it’s finger at me and says yeah not right now me darling, don’t think you’re ready for that yet.
That reminds me I actually ended last nights blog with watch me rise. There’s just a slight delay on that while I fumble about at this level obviously.
So I was lucky I had the Tapping group this afternoon where we discussed breathlessness. I always have shallow breathing when I’m anxious. By the end of the hour I’m really relaxed and breathe my more deeply. Of course I know that a nap is coming.
I did a Suzanne Robichaud meditation for deep healing. That was at 3.45pm and I woke up at 6.09pm. 😆 The phone was ringing quietly in my headphones.
It took me ages to wake up but the upshot was I got a hot and sour soup as Claire was getting a takeaway!! What a win! Took me bloody ages to figure out what Claire was talking about as I’d been in such a deep sleep!!
So tomorrow is a new day. I need to pick myself back up and forgive myself for the tears.
As I write that I just need to do it. Sometime. Soon.
Of course I decided today was going to be the hottest day of the year so far and wore my shorts to work. There’s a wee chill in the air this morning that we’ve not had for a few days. To be fair I have wet hair from the gym but I’m freezing!
There’s been such a lovely warmth to the sun we’re all dressing like Spanish summer and forgetting we live in Scotland. It could snow later?!
I put the heater on and stopped shivering by about 9am.
We had a team challenge today and Craig and I are members of Team Courage and our team colours are yellow. So I decided to be team mustard this morning which still distinguished me from the others. 💛🌭 (that’s mustard on a hot dog…. that was me by the end of the session!)
So one team had to burn 75 calories on the Assualt Bikes while the other team tries to score as many basketball baskets as possible in that time. The challenge is to burn up the calories on the machine to stop the other team scoring basket points. You then swap around. The next challenge is to burn 50 calories on the Ski-Erg machine while the other team score baskets.
Now burning calories sounds like a scoosh but honestly it took 5 of us about 5 minutes to complete those take. I’ll need to remember that next time I want to shove a 107 calorie Kit Kat in my mouth!!
We did really well coming second with 86 basket points scored.
I left the session telling the Coach that I was gonna be in the shower, remember I’m in the shower…. don’t lock me in!
I’m now making up for all that hard work by sitting in the sun writing this. It’s proper hot. There’s a stiff breeze today but even that has turned warm and is now just blowing the hot air around! It’s so lovely and us Scots just have to be outside when the weather’s good, we see it so rarely.
I make a lovely Greek salad for lunch when I got home. I used Turkey mince this time instead of lamb mince. It was lovely. Craig will be the first to say I came home incredibly hangrey…. moaned the face off him until I ate, then sat in silence munching away! Then he had to go back out to work.
I don’t suppose any of us really bare this in mind every day but it’s worth reflecting on. I was desperately unhappy in my old job. To the point it made me so ill but I had no idea that I was in control and I was doing that to myself. Ok I wasn’t doing it but I was allowing it. I let it take over everything, it was the be all and end all and the only thing that mattered was that I did my job well.
I felt like everything and everyone stood in my way.
Now that I’ve stepped out of that rat race I realise how much more rich life can be. As I jumped in and out of my portacabin today wearing my denim shorts and Tartan Campers T-shirt I realised that this was the kind of job I’d needed all along. It doesn’t feel like a job and I never thought I would be able to say that.
Of course I realise I have the luxury of still only being part time which definitely helps.
Oh and before I forget the Yellow Meatballs were amazing last night…. technically the meatballs are not yellow (🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🙄😬) but in a yellow curry sauce 💛😬😆 It tasted soooo good. really impressed with Hello Fresh so far. I took about 40 minutes to cook, which is longer than I would like and I messed up the rice (how is that even possible?!?) but it was a winner!
A few pics from the garden….
Im meeting Claire for a cuppa at 5 and I have crochet at 7 so I’m going to sit back and chill for a bit. Watch the clouds go by…..