I didn’t get out of bed until about 9.30am today. Slept until 8 and then read for a hour and a half!!! Craig kept the dogs away and I just enjoyed some me time.
Got up and had a lovely coffee then started on the spare room again!! Needed a bit of a rearrange and a sort out as it wasn’t quite working for me. I was pottering and enjoying it. Got a Pawsitive Solutions call and ended up almost being late for our lunch booking at the pub next door at 12.30.
Our neighbours Jim and Fiona had a table right next to us. Our neighbours Kenny and Louise were serving (Holly was obviously cooking!) and Harry from round the corner was at a wee table in the corner all by himself. All COVID-19 driven. No one is allowed to drink alcohol at the moment so I love it as we all had juice and I didn’t feel left out. We all ate and finished and went home. Normally we would have sat about for the afternoon as everyone got into rounds so I do see a difference and understand why alcohol is banned at the moment.
It was so lovely to see everyone and eat Steak Pie 🥧 obviously! May have had a Caramel Apple Pie too and I really didn’t need that but it had to be done.
I’m listening to Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast just now and a few of the interviews have really made me think about where I’ve come from and where I’m going.
I’ve also just cleared through the laptop bag I brought home when I had to empty my office at end end of January this year. It’s the first time I’ve looked at everything and it’s like it’s all from another world.
I used to be a senior manager with a team of staff. I used to manage Customers and know everything there was to know about them. I used to be the expert on one of our largest customers. I thrived on that at one time. I’ve found work polo shirts from training days. I remember the amazing feeling of being someone and being involved in major decisions.
Until it broke me.
I will never be that person again and that is the best decision for me. It does still hurt at times. I guess it’s just emptying the bag was like opening up a can of worms.
I’m not going to let it fester. It was what it was and it now is what it is and I wouldn’t be where I am now without it. I guess I’m grateful for the learning curve.
I’m so grateful that I am where I am now. It’s tough. Some days are worse than others but I’m more alive than I ever was.
I’m lying on the day bed writing this while Freya, my new shadow, cooried in. (In an effort to change cookies to cooried I just dropped the phone on her back!!!! Oops!)
It’s been a lovely day. Calm, quiet with lovely food and good friends.
Stay safe everyone 💕💕💕