Day 83 wide awake all night… go figure?!? 😳

Yes in total contrast to yesterday and maybe as a result of yesterday, I feel like I was awake all night. When you get up to the loo before 11.30pm you have an idea that things are not going to plan. Next time I got up it was dark so sometime between 12 and 4 but I didn’t look at the time and then again for the 3rd time when it was light. It was 5am, I was wide awake, making up for yesterday! (Or it could have been the Fanta zero Raspberry I drank before bed?? 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😬🤣)

So yeah wide awake. My friend Tracey who lived “over the back” from me I Cuikenburn, Penicuik, until I was about 5 or 6 now lives in Vancouver, Canada. She had sent me a YouTube link to a new meditation by her friend Suzanne Robichaud, a Hypnotherapist. I’ve done several of Suzanne’s meditations in the past and I love her voice. I thought I’d share it with you as you might like to try it. I’m not a huge meditation fan but I thought I’d try this at 5.30am…. it was so relaxing……… so calm….. AirPods in so as not to disturb Craig and I totally relaxed and switched off. I did fall back to sleep again until just before 8am.

It’s called Letting Go of What Others Think Say and Do which I think will apply to all of us at some point or another.

Suzanne Robichaud meditation

Now this is very hard to do as it’s not out natural reaction but it becomes necessary in order for you to move on. It can be very sad, sometimes heartbreaking but it needs doing to preserve your own energy.
Bhru trying to sit like a lady pup for a change while we made breakfast

So coffee and pancakes with butter and jam for breakfast… hmm this diet’s going well…. NOT! Of course in every spare minute that I have I’m looking for campervan equipment and accessories… it’s becoming a slight obsession. So I decided to do some crochet this morning too just to keep the mind calm as I had a Health Kinesiology appointment at 10am with Shelagh Cumming.

Over yesterday and today another 3 squares for Craigie’s blanket

I love a Kinesiology appointment. ❤️💜🧡

I haven’t mentioned in my blog but I’ve had lots of joint pain, elbows since I went to Curves, wrists for a long time, knees since I did couch to 5K and now my ankle, walking the dogs. As you can see my body is definitely telling me that exercise is not for me?!?! That’s what I take from that?!?

Actually there’s a very good chance that could be caused by a fear of the future and wondering what on earth will become of me… could be my body’s way of fighting everything that’s happening to me just now. So today we worked on “moving forward with ease”. The easiest way to explain it is by pasting the Health Kinesiology website info!

Let the experts explain it!

I know many of you (guys) will roll your eyes at this bit but it really does work for me. I find the online sessions even better than the face to face, though I miss Shelagh’s hug at the end. I wouldn’t get that on a face to face session now either. Wonder if we’ll ever get hugs back? 🤷🏻‍♀️😞

Next job WEEDS! 🌱☘️🍀🍃🌱Craig very kindly (😳🥴😆) stole my phone for some weeding action shots! Oh my god the weeds have taken over and it doesn’t seem that long since I did them. The weeds are my job…. I think I’ll have to try and find a way to change that. 😬🤣
It does look so much better. It’s super hot today, feels like it’s gonna thunder 🌩⚡️
Tomatoes are coming on great in the greenhouse
Just popped up to my lovely neighbour Michelle to drop off a wee pres for her 40th birthday!
Turns out they were out in the garden so went in to say hi and bump elbows with an air kiss!!
CHECK OUT THAT CAKE!!!!! It’s amazing!!! It actually looks even better in real life… so fresh! 🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂🎂
A lovely pic of Michelle and Keith. She had to cancel her 40th party last Saturday in the Gateside Inn due to lockdown so it’ll have to be her 41st instead next year.
A wee close up of her cool birthday shoes! Love ‘em.

Michelle is got to be one of the few people who gives YOU a present on her 40th birthday…. she saw this and thought of me!

My first thing for my new van!
Pups enjoying the shade in the garden, it’s too hot for them to run around today.
Check this gorgeous cheeky face! The petals are from flowers that were wilting in the house.
And look what she was hiding!!! She’s dug a huge hole under the bench at the sunroom window! The photo doesn’t do it justice….. huge!
X 3 🐶🐶🐶🙈
Socially distanced walk with Claire after her work decided at coffee this afternoon!
The sky was really mean and moody and it’s sooooo hot!
Lots of fun in the buttercups
Needed a drink and a paddle
Water baby
Action shot!
Bhru got filthy as usual
Bhru with her muddy stone
There’s a tree fallen down in Spiers
Ominous sky on the way home

And then the heavens opened! About half an hour after we got home, we were so lucky. Perfect watering for the garden…. jeez how old are we getting when we love the rain at the time of night to save us having to water everything?!?

Stoatin’ doon!!

So a better day today, more energy that yesterday and really enjoyed our walk and hit over 10k steps. I just need to keep taking one day at a time and realise that some days might be slower than others.

A huge thanks to you all for supporting me 💜

Stay safe everyone 🧡🧡🧡