Day 70 and you could be forgiven for thinking we went to Monaco ⛵️🚤🛥⛴☀️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

Last night after the girls finished on the slip and slide our neighbour Colin invited us to his new decking for socially distanced drinks. We took our own chairs and glasses and drink to make sure we didn’t cross contaminate anything and had a lovely wee catch up, first time in about 3 months. We came home just after 8 and sat out until about 10,30pm. It did get a wee bit chilly and I had to wrap up in my crochet blanket!

Lovely sunset last night
A high level plane flew right through the sunset!
It took 4 mins for it to fly over us…. lockdown fact!
I found the ideal place for the dying embers of the sun!
The hat was to keep my head warm when the sun went down….
While hammocking might look cool here’s the reality 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

Over drinks earlier Colin invited Craig to go and see his yacht in Ardrossan Harbour. I wasn’t going to go but decided I couldn’t miss the photo opportunity!

Socially distanced drive following Colin
Isle of Arran in the distance from the roundabout
Clyde Marina Ardrossan
Not a ripple in the water
Colin’s yacht Bacchus
She’s a beauty
Craig could even stand up downstairs!
Action shot….
Up front!
Being Kate Winslet backwards!
Wee cheeky Monaco selfie
Craig the photographer…. never thought to mention a side step to the left would help?
We really weren’t going for a Next catalogue photoshoot….
Cloudier today but still abroad heat hot!
Made Craig drive the Jeep into a photo opp on our way home!
Arran from the road
Beach and sea!!!!! So wanted to stop but all car parks are taped closed with police tape. Lots of cars pulled onto the grass but we weren’t going to do that. We were already stretching the rules already but didn’t do anything wrong by staying socially distanced and using hand gel before and after we went on it. I had to speak to my bladder nicely…….
Pups pleased to see us when we got back!!

It’s raining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😱😱😨

Sitting outside when we came home having a late bite of lunch and it’s started to rain so we are just gonna sit here and not move…. sitting through it!

Boy wonder in hammock and he doesn’t even need to try to get in it! It’s was built at his height so he could get a laugh!!

We had to give in and sit inside eventually… didn’t like indoors lockdown before!!

So I want to say something about all the photos I have posted so that you can understand a bit more about how bad our minds are and how we speak to ourselves. Unless I am on a diet and very thin which hasn’t been often in my life, I have a shocking self body image. I took one look at these photos and said to Craig “well I’ll not be posting any of them… they’re shocking” he apologised….. none of it is his fault… I have yet to embrace my size 16 shape. I’m not typing this for anyone to tell me otherwise but I feel I look awful this size. Yet I have posted loads of them…. my counselling has shown me that I need to learn to accept what is… accept the size I am to love myself before I can move on. That is sooooooooo difficult to do. Headshots I think…. hmmmmmmm yeah that’ll do but anything below that and I am horrified. I don’t feel this size so I’m shocked when I see myself. The hardest part of all this is that all through my life I have felt fat… what I wouldn’t give to be like that again!!! Yet I know how to do it and just can’t just now. For a million reasons I just don’t have the energy… I managed 15k steps for a good few days, others I’ve managed 10k and others I’ve been scared to look. My diet is pretty shocking, just laziness, but I have to just take one day at a time and know that whatever will be will be and it’s ok. It’s ok to be heavier, it’s not the end of the world… just so long as no one takes photos of me 🤦🏻‍♀️😱 all joking aside, I know it will come when the time is right, the weight will fall off as fast as it went on and until that day I need to deal with, sorry be proud of who I am. I thought this might be a wee step in that direction.

I hope this is true

Interesting to read that New Zealand are considering lifting lockdown next week after 11 days with no new cases of COVID-19z we have 436 new hospital admissions and I read somewhere that this was just for England… yet our lockdown is easing? Guess we just have to wait and see what that means for the UK.

Stay safe everyone 💜💜💜