Day 53 if there’s a rock blocking your path sit down on it and admire the view

I think the rock hit me today…. I can hardly keep my eyes open, when they are open they leak tears for no reason and I can hardly put one foot in front of the other. So I’m sitting down in Grans chair admiring the view. (When Gran died we got her recliner chair which sits in the sun room and it’s been my bolt hole on the tough days and an awfy comfy seat the rest of the time! It makes me think of her sitting here and she gives me a hug!)

This is not about compliments but I hope these darker days might help others understand what life can be like when it takes a wee step in the wrong direction for no real reason.
For so very long I was this person… I don’t think I understood it myself. It’s good to talk and get it out. Any confidence I’m building comes from the vulnerability of being totally honest in this blog
Now this takes a whole lot of courage to do…. 😱🤦🏻‍♀️🥴 this could be a new thing, a profile picture on fb when you feel at your worst?? Ye reckon it would work?? Eh naw!

So, some crochet and sleep for me today. Crochet always calms my head as it gives me something to concentrate on. Although I have to say my head is so calm it’s almost empty today already!! There is no reason that I should feel bad. Craig’s had his government COVID-19 earnings packaged confirmed so that’s great news! Just some days there’s a weight that comes down that will lift just as quickly.

Not posted a crochet pic in a while but slowly plodding on with Craig’s man blanket in man colours…. gonna let him decide how it goes together but only 30 squares to go 😳😬 still on track for Christmas completion 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣
Had a go at some rainbow hearts. Thinking of stringing these horizontally and vertically. They’re work in progress just now photographed next to our tree chunk wooden heart!

So it’s been a strange day today… I’ve really not moved off Grans chair… really only when to try to have coffee over the fence with Claire but it rained… there’s no Coronavirus stats on Sky News for the last two days… maybe the number of deaths is not headline news anymore? Craig said that as of midnight last night there was no one in Intensive Care in Ayrshire and Arran which is good news. I did read there were only 24 new cases in London so maybe that’s why there are no stats in the news. London’s ok now so they don’t need to talk about?!? Have to go find a new source!

The Mac n Cheese fairy rang the door bell and ran today leaving this behind… warm and ready to eat!!! It’s got mince at the bottom so I reckon a Mac n cheese lasagne! Lovely when I have no energy to move!

So lazy day and lazy night for me, up and at it again in the morning I hope! Will have thousands of steps to make up….. 🐾🐾🐾👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣👣❤️❤️❤️

Had plenty cuddles from these guys!
Guess it was a good day then!