Day 917 Tuesday flies by!

There are not enough hours in the day today…. I am shattered and slept like a log last night but most importantly I am still as cool as a cucumber. 😆 Long may it continue.

It was a STUNNING sunrise this morning.

That red vertical stripe was just out of this world. I drove to work trying to stop every few minutes for a photo.

I was bursting with gratitude this morning. For the things we take for granted. A warm bed and a great nights’ sleep. And then that sunrise. Wow.

My knee is feeling better after some rest so I’m going to try the exercise class in the village hall tonight. I can keep it low impact if I need to as we never localise on any one body part for long… that sounds wrong but you know what I mean. 😆

So yeah I’m in a rush. Ended up having coffee with a customer just as I was leaving so was a bit late getting away.

It’s Hollys birthday next door so I popped up with her present. My gift giving anxiety is still very much a thing. I’m pleased with what I got for her this time but actually convinced myself she will hate it… which is ridiculous. The stories my head tells me…

So I’ll leave this here now. I have dinner on for Craig and a washing that needs hung up and exercises to be doing!

I’ve not even had time to proof read so forgive any autocorrect doozies 😆

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 916 World Mental Health Day 2022 🌍🗺️

Lets normalise talking about mental health.

Let’s stop hiding behind closed doors saying “poor Mrs so-and-so has bother with her nerves”.

That’s one of the main reasons for my blog. To talk about the things we don’t talk about. If I can help one person who’s struggling with their mental health, to realise they are not alone, then it’s worth it.

If you have someone off sick from work just now, message them… it might just make their day to know you are thinking of them.

I’ll keep banging that drum!!

We were very saddened today to hear about the passing of one of Craig’s work colleagues.

He was super fit and healthy yet collapsed while out on a run.

Just a stark reminder of how short life is. What a shock to hear that today.

I didn’t go to the Farm this morning. My knee’s still sore and it was lovely to have the wee extra lie in.

I’m still very calm and relaxed and loving the lack or reaction to things. Long may this continue 😬😂

It’s funny how some days a simple thing can light the blue touch paper and yet other days there’s just nothing. I do feel tired after a busy weekend so looking forward to a quiet night tonight with some Biofreeze on my knee and maybe some foam rolling of the old leg muscles…. Just saying that makes me cringe. I hate foam rolling when I most need it 😂😂

I’ve been super healthy today and really need to make more effort to stop shovelling junk again. I don’t think that helps my knee at all.

We are very careful about what we feed our dogs and put a lot of research into that, to keep them healthy.… yet just eat anything we can get our hands on.

I should say that Craig has a code for free Butternut Box for dogs if anyone is interested in trying it? We’ve fed our dogs this for years and it’s great…. Maybe I should eat some of that?!? 😂😂

ButternutBox.com/Pawsitive

They’re worth a look. They get a great nutritional rating. While I just eat carbs and sugar and more carbs and sugar. I’m not giving my body a chance.

So I’m back on it…. Counting down the days in my 49th year…. 😱😱😱

This next one stuck at my heart strings ♥️😂

I made cauliflower cheese for dinner today… cauliflower and leek cheese…. It was super tasty and I enjoyed making it rather than just opening a bag of crisps or some chocolate.

Hug your loved ones a bit closer tonight ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 916 World Mental Health Day 2022 🌍🗺️

Lets normalise talking about mental health.

Let’s stop hiding behind closed doors saying “poor Mrs so-and-so has bother with her nerves”.

That’s one of the main reasons for my blog. To talk about the things we don’t talk about. If I can help one person who’s struggling with their mental health, to realise they are not alone, then it’s worth it.

If you have someone off sick from work just now, message them… it might just make their day to know you are thinking of them.

I’ll keep banging that drum!!

We were very saddened today to hear about the passing of one of Craig’s work colleagues.

He was super fit and healthy yet collapsed while out on a run.

Just a stark reminder of how short life is. What a shock to hear that today.

I didn’t go to the Farm this morning. My knee’s still sore and it was lovely to have the wee extra lie in.

I’m still very calm and relaxed and loving the lack or reaction to things. Long may this continue 😬😂

It’s funny how some days a simple thing can light the blue touch paper and yet other days there’s just nothing. I do feel tired after a busy weekend so looking forward to a quiet night tonight with some Biofreeze on my knee and maybe some foam rolling of the old leg muscles…. Just saying that makes me cringe. I hate foam rolling when I most need it 😂😂

I’ve been super healthy today and really need to make more effort to stop shovelling junk again. I don’t think that helps my knee at all.

We are very careful about what we feed our dogs and put a lot of research into that, to keep them healthy.… yet just eat anything we can get our hands on.

I should say that Craig has a code for free Butternut Box for dogs if anyone is interested in trying it? We’ve fed our dogs this for years and it’s great…. Maybe I should eat some of that?!? 😂😂

ButternutBox.com/Pawsitive

They’re worth a look. They get a great nutritional rating. While I just eat carbs and sugar and more carbs and sugar. I’m not giving my body a chance.

So I’m back on it…. Counting down the days in my 49th year…. 😱😱😱

This next one stuck at my heart strings ♥️😂

I made cauliflower cheese for dinner today… cauliflower and leek cheese…. It was super tasty and I enjoyed making it rather than just opening a bag of crisps or some chocolate.

Hug your loved ones a bit closer tonight ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 915 nothing else for it on a miserable Sunday but to coorie in ♥️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

It was super windy this morning when I woke up at 7am. I was late in bed last night. We had a lovely afternoon and evening and Mum and Dad’s and I’ve just realised we didn’t take one single photo!! Special family time together.

So back to this morning, I got the dogs up and outside early and I sat in the garden and watched the sky turn pink before sunrise. The photos look orange…. Honestly this was very pink!

The ivy looks beautiful with the pink sky reflecting on it.

We sat out for a bit then I went back to bed for an hour or so. I couldn’t get back to sleep though. I did a Morrisons food shop on the app as I there.

As you do.

Food shop done without leaving the bed. We had a £10 voucher if you spent over £50 so that was a bonus!

I think I mentioned before but I use an app called “Lucky Bitch” which allows you to log all the money and value that you receive in a month unexpectedly. The theory is that you focus I gain rather than lack of money. I’ll be adding that £10 off the Morrisons shop as free food! It’s a great way to focus on the positives.

I took the dogs up the hill for a good run around. There are no photos of that either as I was updating to iOS 16. Check me leaving my phone at home.

The weather just continued to get worse and it’s now driving rain and really dark outside.

I tried to eradicate some of the dog hair again….. hoovered up as much as I could.

I’ve spent the day crocheting and then Craig and I popped into the pub next door for Steak Pie. The food shop doesn’t get delivered until 8pm tonight and I couldn’t be bothered heading out to the shops.

I also did a face mask! Sorry for the scare 😂😂😂

Thought that would give you all a laugh. 😳😂😘

I’m now back in front of the fire all cooried in and don’t intend to move for the rest of the day. There are things that need doing but they will just have to wait.

Time flies when you keep busy and I’m not used to this. I’m enjoying it though and just need to remember to build in some time for me.

I hope you all have a great week!

I know this is a lot to ask but many of you know how special the little gift shop is. I’ve dragged so many of you too it. Well Gayle had already won The Best Independent Retailer in the Ayrshire Business Awards and now she is a finalist in the Scottish Business Awards. If you can spare a few minutes, please could your vote for the little gift shop in Beith.

Shameless plug over…. I hope you all have the best week. Remember we’ve all got this and can take anything the week throws at us. There will always be those things that hit us from left field…. It’s how we react to them that counts. Says she who is great with advice… just doesn’t always take it. We’ve got this!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 914 a very busy morning at the shop and Dad’s 70th party 🎉

I was awake at 5am but tried to sleep until 7. I didn’t drink enough yesterday so was really dehydrated and woke with a thumping headache.

I’ve also really hurt my right knee again. I reckon it has to be diet related as I’ve not been eating well and the lack of water yesterday must count for something. i also did walk a lot last night when I went to the shops.

I was out with the dogs for sunrise. It’s a beautiful morning.

Back home for coffee and a quick shower as I was working at the little gift shop this morning at 9.30am.

What a lovely busy morning we had. So much lovely chat. It’s really helping me get to know people that I recognise or know of but have never been introduced to.

It was super busy and at one point we even had a big queue! Gayle is a trained florist so her wrapping skills are second to none. I hope no-one asks me to wrap anything…. It’ll be like a dogs breakfast being served up! 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😂

So I only worked until 12.30 and Craig picked me up from work in Abbie the camper van as his car was still in the garage. We drove down there to get it and it’s still not fixed!! Picked it up, back to the house to get ready and I am stressed out my box. I knew I would be today as it’s a lot to fit in to one day already without the car being stuck in the garage. We’re on our way now but are going to be late. That never sits well with me but it is what it is.

We’re heading to Penicuik for Dad’s 70th. We’re having a wee get together with mum and dad, my brother, sister in law and nephew. Our lovely neighbours have the con with the 3 hairy hounds. They are moulting just now and honestly the dog hair is EVERYWHERE!

My leg after dog walk!!!

I actually think I’m going to put the blog out now so that I don’t have one other thing to have to do today other than relax and enjoy time with family.

Happy Saturday!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 913 a busy day at the shop and then shopping!

I’m not making the same mistake as yesterday where all my good blogging ideas flew out my ears before I came to write it. 😆

I have a FB page for The Rambling Sloth 🦥 where I have THE most positive newsfeed. On the days where I do pick up the phone before I do anything else, it’s a great way to set your stall out for the day.

This next one is something f that I’ve been very aware of over the last few years on my healing journey. This….

I used to be soooo judegy it almost consumed me. I used to criticise anyone who wasn’t like me, who did things differently, who dressed differently, spoke differently and of course those who did wrong in my eyes.

I love that I am able to see past this now. If someone hurts me, cuts me up on the road or doesn’t do as I might expect in a situation, I am very quick to think why this might have happened. Why did that person seem angry…. What factors in their life have led them to this moment? Is it me? Of course it’s not. It’s the million things going on in their head today. The voices they hear inside of them making them angry.

Live and let live. I wish we could all be a bit more like this. The world might be a bit less judgey.

I should say here that I am not a saint. That someone’s direct anger to me will send me off in a rocket at times but that’s no longer my normal reaction and I’m proud of my ability to see past it.

We did not go to the Farm this morning. I’m tired.

I was working at the little gift shop today and it flew in! We had another really good day… there’s new scarf stock in this week that I’m just seeing and I love them all. I managed to price them up and love looking at them but not buy one 😬😂 it was not that easy 😂

It’s been such a strange weather day today. We had hailstones when we dropped Craig’s car off at the garage this morning and then when I went to work the sun was warm against the blue sky.

After work I headed up to Braehead Shopping Centre and it’s half 8 now and I just sat down! I am shattered!!

I’m trying to buy birthday presents and post being off sick for so long and covid lockdowns, I have no clue what to get anyone! I dither around the shops. I talk to myself (😳) I suffer a bit of anxiety. The shops are busy, there are lots of people all buying lots of stuff. I have waves of dizziness. That could be a lack of food and water today… 😬

I’m being so careful with money these days that I found it difficult seeing so many people shopping. There were loads of people with loads of bags. I’ve never been shopping on a Friday night before so maybe it’s always this busy but I felt like an outsider in a different world. I used to LIVE in shopping centres…. Funny how things change when you have a different focus in life.

The sky is stunning when I leave. The moon is huge but disappears behind the cloud when I try to take a photo.

I love this next one. It reminds how much there is to be grateful for in the world. I see beauty everywhere I look. Wow.

Anyway, I’m sooooo tired. Looking forward to a good sleep before work in the morning and Dad’ 70th family get together.

Happy weekend to you all!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 912 will it ever stop raining?!?

I slept ALL night last night…. I didn’t wake up once and just woke up with the 6.30am alarm. Such a great feeling. A long nights sleep. ♥️

I bounded out of bed like Heidi the mountain goat…. Not 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

It’s so dark in the mornings here now and the weather has been atrocious today. Torrential rain on and off all day.

I had a layer of damp over me all day. (just had to go outside for wood for the fire and got wet again!)

I got my toes done after work today. A lovely autumnal dark winey red. I miss my bright orange summery colour but this one will do just fine.

I’ve come home from work and got into my jammies, put the fire on and have my feet up. All cosy and lovely to be home on this wild evening.

There’s no really crazy mood issue for me this week which is great. I am calm.

Though I am really struggling to find the right words to say just now though. Even writing this feels like I’m pulling teeth. I thought of loads of things to write about during the day and yet none of them are flowing freely tonight. I just can’t think of the words when I’m half way through a sentence. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

I’ll leave you with someone else’s wise words and get back to my crochet! Loving it just now.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 911 hump day and crochet 🧶

The alarm went off at 4.45am. I scan my body and mind. I’ve been awake since 3.21am…..

I’m tired. I settle back down, I not going to the Fit Body Farm this morning. I need to rest….

Then Craig comes back to the bedroom and realises I’m still in bed…… I sense the hesitation in his stance. He wants to stay home too…. He’s thinking about cancelling. I literally bound out of bed and that’s me…. Off to the Farm! Out the door in under 10 minutes!!

The class was really good and I enjoyed it… so glad I went…..despite getting my thumb stuck between two kettlebells…. 🏋🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😬

It rained on and off all day today again. It didn’t seem as torrential as yesterday but it still didn’t stop for long. It’s dark most of the day…. I’m so not ready for winter. I want my flip flops back.

So there’s nothing to report from today really. Clear head…. Not a lot of words coming out in the correct order though…. I know what I mean but I say something completely different. The main thing is that I know what I mean. 😆

Craig made dinner again tonight. Lovely to come home and not have to cook…. I’ve just been next door to the pub for the Wednesday Crochet Hookers. Only 3 of us tonight and the time passed really quickly as I’m actually crocheting again and have a purpose.

I’ll take some more photos of it at the weekend, in the daylight. I’m shattered now so planning a very early night.

I love this next one…. The Farm are encouraging us all to consider random acts of kindness during the month of October. I thought it would be a lovely idea to suggest to you all.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 910 pouring with rain and exercise class to finish the day!

It’s been pouring with rain all day today, it hardly stopped. It’s grey, dull and dreary…. This was my view on the way to the toilet today 😬😂.

At least the Tartan Camper vans are bright and cheery. This is Lockie. Lockie is up for sale if anyone’ interested 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 hey a girl can try eh?!?

I’ve had another good day at work today…. Heavily spreadsheet based both yesterday and today, gotta love it! The hours pass quickly.

I got a call at 4pm today from the company that we have life insurance…. Looking to help us reduce our payment in these difficult times. The guy was so lovely and reckoned we were overpaying so fingers crossed we might save a wee bit on our monthly payments. He’s calling back again tomorrow after I’ve got some of the info he was looking for. There are some who might think he’s trying to sell us something but I’m going with the premise that he IS trying to save us money.

I’ve just been over to the village hall for my new exercise class. It was really good again tonight. The girl who takes it is just so smiley! You can’t help grinning from ear to ear all the way through.

So I’m struggling to write any more tonight as the dogs seems obsessed with me tonight….. I can’t get a minute’s peace.

The minute I wrote that, all 3 of them have disappeared…. Typical. 😂

I had to hoover when I came home from work tonight as their hair is everywhere!!!

This is what Bhruic does AFTER the hoovering….. you can’t win eh?!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 909 a good, productive, clear headed day!

I didn’t feel great when I woke at 2.41am this morning…. Even less great when Craig’s alarm went off at 4.45am.

I didn’t want to go to the Farm this morning at all, but I booked at the last minute and went as I knew it would do me good.

It was a great class with 20 seconds effort and 10 seconds rest the whole time so it was pretty constant and I was a happier but sweaty mess by the end of it!

Work flew in today. I was focussed, clear headed and in control. I honestly just never know what I’m gonna get from one day to the next. This was a good one.

Even Peanut, The Tartan Dog, 😆 had a good day and was out for the count when I turned round. He won’t sleep in his bed but right behind my seat…. Bless.

I went to Home Bargains after work for some emergency supplies….. toilet roll and snacks 😬 and now I’m home.

Had 3rd day amazing lasagne for dinner and I’m now sitting on the couch with my feet up about to start crocheting. I’m tired tonight but it’s a good tired.

I’ve been listening to Davina McCall’s book Menopausing……. I’m only on chapter one but wow… very interesting. Could it be that all of this may be peri-menopause? Even in the early stage of this book, the women that have written to her sound just like me. I’m enjoying listening to it. She explains things well and if this is not what is yet then it will help me to know what may come. It’s good to keep my mind occupied and I’m learning as I go.

Ok I’m off to crochet and watch a cheesy movie to let my mind rest.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 908 a dry, sunny Sunday!

Today could have so easily gone one of two ways. I felt very shaky this morning. Hanging by a thread, trying to keep it together. Trying to be normal, trying to focus on the positives. Trying to be grateful for all that I have. Craig says I should tell him when I feel bad but I didn’t own up to it today (like he can’t guess 😳😬) and I find it makes things a bit better for us both if I can find the strength to turn it around.

I feel like the minute I have a good day something comes along and whaps me between the eyes. Just when you think you’ve got it all together the universe will shows me that it’s not done with me yet.

I woke up yesterday morning full of the joys of autumn (ok I know that’s not quite the saying) … took the dogs out and got into an altercation with a dog that ran up to us not on a lead. None of it my fault but hey, you know me, adrenaline had me buzzing for about 20 minutes after it…. Almost in tears, shaking…..

Come home and try to relax. Then find out we have some other financial commitment over the next few months that we weren’t expecting. COME ON, GIMME (us) A BREAK!

I had a relaxing and thoughtful afternoon, trying to be present in the moment as worrying doesn’t change anything. I watched Meet Joe Black on Netflix and I howled!!!!! Proper sobbed…… it wasn’t just about Meet Joe Black. That film pandered to my “life is short, live it to the max” fear….. maybe not the best choice.

At least I slept well. Almost 10 hours.

So back to this morning, I’m shaky. The whole day stretches in front of me with no plans. A dream for so many of us, yet fraught with danger for me. What to do for the best. I need to rest but I need to not be bored and I need to get “stuff” done.

I start to potter after my bacon roll. I clean things that haven’t been cleaned for a while and it feels good. It helps clear my head. The porcelain white kitchen sink is gleaming.

It’s actually a really nice day outside. We open the windows, I sit and have a coffee, feel that wobble come back, get back up and get on with some more cleaning. I start throwing stuff out that we no longer use. It feels good.

Craig’s been down in the big shed most of the day clearing it out so we’ve both made the best of the day.

I have actually recorded my mood, for the last few days, in the Balance menopause app. One of my lovely friends recommended I start recording it just to see if there’s any pattern to it. Watch this space.

Check this pair…. The two headed dog!

I sat outside and crocheted at one point and despite being Scotland on the 2nd October, it was actually very warm.

I’ve joined the first row of my new blanket and I’m really pleased with it. It’s a new stitch (for me) that raises the join between the colours. It makes me smile as it starts to come together.

So yeah, a good day but I definitely had to work at it. I could so easily have slipped into self pity and wallow mode.

Craig made a lasagne yesterday and it’s honestly the best one he’s ever made. We’re having that for dinner again tonight. It’s in the oven just now and my mouth is watering.

These are difficult times for us all just now. It’s hard not to look at others and compare. At least tomorrow, I know I head to a job without aggression, without management by fear and I haven’t spent all weekend dreading it. That’s something to be very grateful for.

So I hope you all have a great week ahead. Just take each moment as it comes. Nothing more, nothing less. Be present in the moment.

Oh and try not to cry when you least expect it. That always helps.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 907 a busy morning in the shop and a crochet afternoon!

I was awake before 6am this morning and tried to sleep but finally took the dogs out at 7am. It’s another wet and slightly windy day but I was lucky not to get totally soaked!

I love this next picture. Growing despite adversity.

There was a red sky this morning. I took a photo of this Garnock Valley painted bench, these are dotted around the valley to boost mental health.

The rain was torrential just before I left for work. Absolutely stotting down…. Bouncing back up to meet itself coming down. Thankfully it stopped before I had to leave. So lucky!

I took some photos of the inside of the little gift shop before customers came in this morning. It’s such a lovely, positive place to be. 💕

We were busy, the customers were pretty constant. Me being there let Gayle sort out the back shop in time for a big delivery on Monday, and I kept the shop going. There was a constant stream of customers so it was the best way for me to learn!

It boosted my confidence in a big way. I had to run to ask her quite a few questions but it was the best way to do it.

I met some lovely people and had some great chats. Met a lady who has crocheted the most stunning things. I had huge crochet envy!!! Her work is stunning.

It was a quick morning!

My desk on a Friday and Saturday!

I got home at half one and wheeched around the house with the hoover as Craig had Kenny from next door coming round to watch the football and he was still not home from work. The dogs are moulting and there is dog hair everywhere. I emptied the hoover 3 times!

So I spent the rest of the afternoon crocheting…. Of course I did! Practice makes perfect.

I working on joining my next blanket. That will take me some amount of time!!

Hope you all have a lovely Saturday evening!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️