I slept really well again last night, that sleep of the exhausted. I had Calaidh and Freya in with me and Freya snored something shocking at times. 🤣

Must have been all the excitement from yesterday. I caught her guarding a dead rat in the garden yesterday….. I can’t believe I forgot to mention it.

My l’il puppy baby may have killed a rat….. breaks my heart!

Something caught my eye at her paws and I couldn’t place what it was….. you can imagine the dance I did when I realised…. The heebie jeebie dance.

It would appear it takes a dead rat to give me the heebie jeebies. Even just typing these words I feel it all over again!

So I call my neighbour Holly who kept rats as a kid apparently. She has no fear. She suggested I got it onto a shovel and into a bin bag.

Ok just give me a minute…… to compose myself.

Her daughter watched me through their window and gave them all a running commentary on the disposal… happy to provide the humour. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I am not gonna lie…. It was horrific. Honestly just everything you can imagine… but I did it all by myself and I didn’t even scream… I just shivered and danced from foot to foot on several occasions.

By the time I was done my heart rate was up at 80 and I was so breathless.

I had to have a seat. 🤣

So, I tested positive again this morning.

We’re back to the throat and nose swabs again today and it almost made me sick. not sure why North Ayrshire only have a stock of the throat ones? The nose ones are way les offensive!!

I then messaged work, mum & dad, in-laws etc and told them I was still negative! 🤔🥴🙄

I told work I was feeling a bit better and the reply was “that’s positive”….. yeah I thought it was a step in the right direction too….

Then I clicked. The test is positive…. Not “still negative”…. Yup do not take my word for anything much today. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Craig and I had breakfast in the garden again…. Garlic mushrooms on toast a la Craigie before 7.30am. The sky was lovely. so were the garlic mushrooms!

It’s milder today too. There was no frost on the grass.

I’ve had the desk and laptop set up outside as I can’t bring myself to work in that dark, stuffy bedroom. I add jumpers and blankets when I’m cold and remove them when the sun comes out.

I reach a point where I just need to shut my eyes and lie down. I did it this morning and again this afternoon but I’ve managed more than I did yesterday so every day is an improvement.

I do have a real lethargy today. I’m tired and want to sleep but I’m bored of feeling tired but too tired to bother doing anything. The struggle is real.

I will look back on this and think of all the things I could have done instead of sit here whinging about being tired.

I think I’ll shake it up a bit tomorrow and try a bit less of the self pity and lethargy… but for now I’m sitting in the sun with my blanket wrapped round me, drinking alcohol free gin and tonic.

That sounds not too bad at all.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️