First of all the sky was amazing last night when I let the dogs out before bed. So clear and Orion’s Belt was beaming out the sky!

Which meant I shouldn’t have been surprised that Abbie the camper van was super frosty this morning. I had to leave her running for a good bit but it gave a lovely sunrise, frosty windscreen photo!

Morning on St Patrick’s Day ☘️

This makes me laugh every year…. We’re still Scottish!

Oh wow now if only I was waking up to that sunshine and beach…. Now that would be nice!

Anyhow, back to reality…

I was in work for 7.15am to meet with a customer at 7.30…. I was frozen to the bone after we’d spoken for an hour. I couldn’t get my hands to work to write the notes!! I was still wearing a woolly buff and fingerless gloves at 10am!

We had good day at work and we got through everything as planned. There were a few hiccups which made me wobble a bit.

By huiccups I mean things that didn’t go according to the law of Julie of course. And that is some law…… 🤦🏻‍♀️

Now one thing I want to talk about was raised by a fellow blogger recently and I’ve not had time to reply to her blog… since something similar happened to me today it’s made me really think about it.

Why is it that people can cut you with their words. She had a blog reply that belittled the issue she discussed. Shocking and I can only say that comes from a very negative person that wallows in her own self pity and doesn’t support others. Keep your blogging chin up Bossy Babe ♥️

I received an email from a supplier that I can only describe as a “nippy sweetie”.

Most definitely the 2nd definition….

You call to place an order and you get told you have to email it… fair enough but in a very sharp-tongued/peevish way.

I email and then get a reply that says they can’t get it to us until Monday or Tuesday next week (usually deliver same day) and by the way, despite my (her) explanation on the call, we paid the wrong account recently, transferred payment to the wrong account that is. She gives me the correct bank details and says ensure you use these in the future. All fine despite her sharp tongue which came across in her email.

I grit my teeth and reply saying apologies for getting the wrong account but the emails I receive have the following (incorrect) account details on and that’s what I paid. Could she arrange to send me the correct invoice requests directly to me and I would ensure it was right moving forward.

Her reply was that my boss knows what to do and has done it right in the past so just do it right the next time!!!!

Except Mrs Nippy McNipperson… that we just paid it into the wrong account and you just gave me a row for it!!!!!

Now as I read all that back the sting is all gone and I realise it’s nothing but I am incensed when people just can’t be nice. She’s customer facing and yet everything is too much trouble for her.

She was stroppy on the phone about payment then we got it wrong so I try to rectify it and she basically says it doesn’t need fixing coz we know how to do it????

So my anxiety starts to build. My mind keeps coming back to her, I type several replies and delete them. I decide I’m going to call her….. I decide I probably shouldn’t.

Meanwhile it’s 3pm… I’m finishing in a hour and I have a huge workload to complete before 4pm. I can’t just walk away and “take a day off tomorrow”…

I’m so annoyed that I haven’t planned it better and yet as I type that I know that I have never stopped. There are so many customers in that just been a busy week.

I really struggle to type this but I did burst into tears when someone asked came to say goodbye as they were leaving. I’m so embarrassed by that. I’m angry at myself for letting it get to me that much. I hoped that girl had gone with the last job. She was a nightmare for a long time in the last one and cried at something every day. Is she back? Is this what I’ve become again? (Maybe talking about myself in the third person, I’m trying to distance myself from it).

Anyway, once I get over it and make the decision I’m working tomorrow I calm down. As quickly as that.

I can only describe what happened as an eruption of anxiety.

So I’m feeling ok this evening but I am beginning to question my progress. There seem to be a whole lot of tears these days over things that are not worthy of them.

Food for thought….

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️