Day 540 8.22pm and I’m in my bed already!

Wow, poor Calaidh was up every hour or two last night…. Poor us.

She has a dodgy tum and just gives a little woof to be let out so we took it in turns. Strange thing is she’s super excited when she comes in and full of what seems like happy energy. she’s not flat like we would be if we were ill.

I then lie and think about random customers and jobs from work….. fall asleep then

This was the moon at 2.34am this morning.

It was even better at 1.22am but I did t have my phone…. To be fair…. Why would I?!? it annoyed me I didn’t hence the next time I was up I grabbed it…. I love that I’m thinking of blog content 24/7. 🤣

So back to Calaidh, not sure what’s wrong. Not fed her too much today and will be in with us again tonight so she can

Whenever she needs to. Sadly I came home to an accident tonight so it’s still a thing…. Poor pupper.

So this was the sun when I got to work. It was lovely this morning with kind of watery clouds making it very atmospheric.

Still… a sunrise over and industrial estate eh?!? What’s not to love.

Work was busy today. I wasn’t my effervescent yesterday self but I wasn’t bad either. I realised at lunchtime that I was actually just pretty shattered and after 2 nights of broken sleep I think that’s fairly understandable. (Wonder how many people read this that have had kids and think I have nothing to complain about?!?🤣🤣)

So…. I have to say here that I have the best boss in the world. (Seems he may be reading the blog………… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🙈😂)

In all honesty I have realised just how lucky I am this last few days, to be able to have a job that I enjoy so much, feel appreciated and want to do as much as I can to help build into an even more successful business. These poor guys have listened to me bumble my way through informal interviews where I didn’t want to say the words that yes I’d give up my “off sick” status and at first commit to 20 hours a week and then 30…. When the thoroughly terrified me. They’ve given me a chance when I didn’t believe in myself. I still don’t at times but I’m working on that.

Anyway, enough rambling. I’m tired. I’m praying Calaidh feels better through the night. We have the Fit Body Farm in the morning and I’m already struggling to move from Monday’s session… getting out of bed in the middle of the night will be painful mentally and physically 🙈🙊🤣🤣🤣 and even worse by 5am!

Oh I had Kinesiology with Shelagh after work tonight. It was another great session exploring my reactions to triggers in daily life. Honestly I go in there like some whirlwind and come out calm every single time. I don’t know where I would be on my recovery without Kinesiology. I recommend it… and Shelagh of course… to anyone wanting to make some changes in life. 💜💙

The old me would have come home, had a glass or two of wine slumped in front of the tv.

The new me came in… cleaned up after Calaidh……………. (Yes the old me couldn’t have ignored that either!) Put washing away, cleaned the sink in the bathroom, fluffed up all the bedding…. An most importantly lit a Mojito scented candle (I am aware of the irony… a virgin mojito scented candle obvs…) and lay down to write this. There’s not a sound. Just me tapping into my phone.

Calm. Goodnight. already almost sleep.

Stay safe everyone 🕯🕯🕯