Wow what a long and busy day! It’s 19.08 and I’m ready to crash!
The Fit Body Farm was soooo good this morning. I’d been awake on and off through the night worrying about parts that needed ordered for work. Nothing I can do about it at 3am but I couldn’t get it out my head! I really tried.
So I was tired when the alarm went off but the Farm was exactly what I needed!
I loved it. We were indoors this morning as it was torrential rain. I felt invigorated with every exercise. I was aware that I started off unable to do some of them properly and got stronger at them as time went on. Apart from throwing a wall ball at a guy next to me on pretty much 75% of the time I was throwing it… I loved the feeling of getting it right. Upping the weights I was usually do and enjoying the present moment rather than waiting for it all to be over!
Seriously check me. I was all kinds of proud of myself!
I got to work and mum sent me this…. It brought a wee tear to my eye.
There weren’t many of us in work today so I had big plans to get lots of things done that I didn’t manage last week….
T’was not to be.
I seem to be a bit of a martyr when it comes to being busy and having lots to do. Even after all this time. I should know better. I have a million reasons why I can’t take lunch. I have a million reasons why I need to stay late for a customer sign off….
I feel really bad if I haven’t done something I feel I should have. Read those words carefully. It’s all me being hard on me. Still.
I feel really bad if I feel I’ve let someone down. I still have this level of perfection that I can never quite achieve. I’m a hard taskmaster. Thankfully I have a great team around me that tell me to “go take a walk in the field”…… 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣 when they can tell it might be taking over.
I actually made myself some dinner tonight. Pesto pasta. I’m watching Grace and Frankie as I write this… it helps me relax and gives me a good giggle.
I am calm now. I need to try harder to remain calm when things don’t go my perfect way.
I’m looking forward to my bed already and I’ve only been home for an hour and a half!
Tomorrow’s a new day and another chance to chill the “heck” out. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️