Day 978 finally I get the reason for low mood… 🙄

Yup it’s here. My wonderful monthly cycle has arrived about a week or two late but hey, explains the tearfulness and the winter nesting.

I woke up a niggling cramp first thing this morning. It went away once I got up and started on the housework.

It’s another beautiful day and the sun is shining. I got most rooms cleared out and all the “junk” put back to where it belongs. It felt really good to be cleaning in my Christmas onesie. 😂

I cleaned the windows in the low winter sun. They were filthy! We can see out again!

Of all the flowers I got for my birthday, the white roses are still going strong. Thats 3 weeks now.

I had one bouquet of only white roses and some in another white and pink bouquet. The pink ones have died but I’ve joined the white ones together. They are beautiful.

I also finally disposed of my 50th birthday balloons.

At about 2pm I took Calaidh a walk up the hill. The sun is stunning.

She’s running around up there while I take photos and suddenly Rachel, two doors down, appears at wound the bend.

Calaidh and Nacho had lots of fun running around.

Calaidh always does this… jumps the wall and is waiting for basically…. nothing! She obviously expects me to throw something…. S’no happenin’ 😂

I stopped back in the house and picked up Freya. We went for another walk around the Gateside loop.

The setting sun was stunning.

I wanted to go to the beach for sunset but just not enough to actually do it. Plus the dogs needed walked.

As we headed home we saw Craig walking towards us with Bhruic! We got a wee pic!

I started typing…. So, if that was the weekend then we’ve had it….. what a negative thing to say, I’ve had a lovely relaxing weekend.

It may not have been what it was meant to be but it was lovely nonetheless. I missed the Tartan Christmas night out on Friday and the Fit Body Farm Christmas night out yesterday.

Both of them were at Golf Fang in Glasgow and I never got there yet. It was my choice. I’m not over the moon with my choice but it felt right at the time.

So here’s to a lovely week for you all…. Oh and Craig put our outside lights up!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 977 a snow flurry today… for all of 5 minutes 😆❄️

I fell asleep on the couch last night at 7.30pm and woke up after 9pm. Couldn’t keep my eyes open. I drifted off again and finally went through to bed about 9.35pm. Rock n’ roll huh!

I am still sad that I missed out but I glad that I did what felt right at the time.

I slept like a log u til 5.18am.

I was up, showered and out with Calaidh by 8am.

There was a super heavy frost overnight and it was bitterly cold… again!

The sun wasn’t due to rise until 8.37am.

Here comes my girl. I love waking her on her own. She’s so good, has a good run around but always comes back when I call her.

The farm looks lovely in the morning sky and frost… this is not THE farm. Just A farm. 😂

It’s so peaceful. Not a sound. I’m so glad I came out.

The moon is still huge in the sky.

Here she comes again.

There’s a really heavy frost but it’s beautiful.

Here’s Calaidh with Beith in the background, and Goat Fell on the Isle of Arran peaking up over the hills in the distance.

I had Gavin from Smith Sounds coming to the house, before work, to fix the reversing camera in Abbie the camper van.

So another £188 thrown at her and I can now reverse without hitting lampposts…. Ok correct that… I can still hit lampposts but at least I might see them before I hit them. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

Craig had to drop me at work so Gavin could work on the van.

Work was really busy which is always lovely. That shop really is therapy for my soul. I love chatting away to the customers.

Then it happened…. I don’t know why we make such a big thing about it…. But it snowed!!! Like about 10 flakes… but we all got a wee bit excited! 😂

Mum and dad live an hour and half away, and they have snow already.

Pinched from my mum!

Ours literally lasted like 5 minutes, if that!

So Gayle very kindly gave me a lift home.

No rest for the wicked… back out with the gruesome twosome!

It’s much cloudier now and raining.

And then finally I can relax. It’s my weekend… it used to be 3 full days and now it’s 1 and a half but I think I’m so much better for it. Keeping busy has really helped me and yet there are times when I just know I need to rest. This weekend is one of them.

There have been no tears today which is a huge bonus. I’m calm, relaxed and have sat in front of the fire watching movies… 17 Dresses and I’m now on The Wedding Daye…. Cheesy love films. ♥️

I can’t find anything Christmassy so have gone with cheese instead!

Craig’s out with the village woodcutters and I’m going to start looking through my meagre purchases to see what I have and start thinking about what I actually need.

I’m hearing joyful shouts all over from those who have “finished their wrapping and are ✅“…. You know who you are. 😆😘 I’m nowhere near done but that’s ok. I still have a whole lot of days to get organised and plenty time for wrapping.

NO NEED TO PANIC!!!!!! 😂

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 977 a snow flurry today… for all of 5 minutes 😆❄️

I fell asleep on the couch last night at 7.30pm and woke up after 9pm. Couldn’t keep my eyes open. I drifted off again and finally went through to bed about 9.35pm. Rock n’ roll huh!

I am still sad that I missed out but I glad that I did what felt right at the time.

I slept like a log u til 5.18am.

I was up, showered and out with Calaidh by 8am.

There was a super heavy frost overnight and it was bitterly cold… again!

The sun wasn’t due to rise until 8.37am.

Here comes my girl. I love waking her on her own. She’s so good, has a good run around but always comes back when I call her.

The farm looks lovely in the morning sky and frost… this is not THE farm. Just A farm. 😂

It’s so peaceful. Not a sound. I’m so glad I came out.

The moon is still huge in the sky.

Here she comes again.

There’s a really heavy frost but it’s beautiful.

Here’s Calaidh with Beith in the background, and Goat Fell on the Isle of Arran peaking up over the hills in the distance.

I had Gavin from Smith Sounds coming to the house, before work, to fix the reversing camera in Abbie the camper van.

So another £188 thrown at her and I can now reverse without hitting lampposts…. Ok correct that… I can still hit lampposts but at least I might see them before I hit them. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

Craig had to drop me at work so Gavin could work on the van.

Work was really busy which is always lovely. That shop really is therapy for my soul. I love chatting away to the customers.

Then it happened…. I don’t know why we make such a big thing about it…. But it snowed!!! Like about 10 flakes… but we all got a wee bit excited! 😂

Mum and dad live an hour and half away, and they have snow already.

Pinched from my mum!

Ours literally lasted like 5 minutes, if that!

So Gayle very kindly gave me a lift home.

No rest for the wicked… back out with the gruesome twosome!

It’s much cloudier now and raining.

And then finally I can relax. It’s my weekend… it used to be 3 full days and now it’s 1 and a half but I think I’m so much better for it. Keeping busy has really helped me and yet there are times when I just know I need to rest. This weekend is one of them.

There have been no tears today which is a huge bonus. I’m calm, relaxed and have sat in front of the fire watching movies… 17 Dresses and I’m now on The Wedding Daye…. Cheesy love films. ♥️

I can’t find anything Christmassy so have gone with cheese instead!

Craig’s out with the village woodcutters and I’m going to start looking through my meagre purchases to see what I have and start thinking about what I actually need.

I’m hearing joyful shouts all over from those who have “finished their wrapping and are ✅“…. You know who you are. 😆😘 I’m nowhere near done but that’s ok. I still have a whole lot of days to get organised and plenty time for wrapping.

NO NEED TO PANIC!!!!!! 😂

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 976 another beautifully freezing cold day 🥶 ☀️🥶 but not the best headspace so cancelled my Christmas night out

Wow it’s 9.43am and I feel I may have peaked already. I woke at 4am so only had 6 hours sleep.

This was the first thing I saw…

I needed to see that. Did as I was told. 😬😂

It’s a beautiful day now the sun is up. It feels like we never get a run of blue skies and sun like this in the summer! I guess we do. We just forget.

I had 4 layers on at the Farm and we were outside for a lot of it…. Running. 😳

Hat on, hat off, gloves on, gloves off.

There was no sunrise by the time I left, it was still dark.

I was fighting a negative head. My inner voice was trying to belittle me, make me nervous of driving in the dark, listening for every noise in the van, squinting in the poor headlights…. I felt a bit of a wobble.

At the same time I watched a bird fly across the road in front of me. A bird of prey. Wow. As it landed on a fence post by the side of the road it turned its big white OWL head towards me!!! I have never seen an owl in the wild.

I exclaimed all kinds of gratitude to anyone that would listen. 😂 That’ll teach you inner voice. You put me down, I give you an owl.

Yeah ok…. That made no sense but you know what I’m getting at!

When I got home I had to sit around for a bit before dog walk as it was still dark then too. Sadly we’ve had reports of a guy walking around our local area, taking photos of folk walking their dogs, so I didn’t want to go in the dark as I might have done last week.

As soon as it started getting light, I headed up the hill with Bhruic and Freya.

By this time I have 5 layers on as I’ve put by Dry Robe on on top of everything else. I look massive and it’s still freezing!

I got some beautiful shots though. the colours were amazing.

If you zoom in on this next one you’ll see Freya is a tiny dot on the horizon!

Back home to swap for Calaidh and by this time the sun has risen.

Check the shadow of me in my dry robe! I actually met one of my neighbours as he came round the bed at the top! Hope he never saw my ridiculous posing. 😂

Calaidh pupper posing in the sun.

Loved the next dew frosty scenes.

And these next two were taken on separate dog walks!

By the time I got back home, I had an hour to get ready for the little gift shop… AND I had to pack for my Christmas night out with Tartan Campers. No pressure. Finally figured out what I was going to wear, had my shower, did my hair and extra make up and set off.

I’ve been pretty tearful today. My eyes have been welling up on and off all day.

The shop was really busy, which was great…. But I knew deep down that I wasn’t feeling up to a night out.

They were all meeting at 2.45 and I wouldn’t have got there until 5. I’d have to drive into Glasgow. I’d not be drinking. Then we’d move from the first place into the city and what would I do with the van (with no reversing camera?) I was upset at the bought of going and I was more upset at the thought of cancelling.

We were so busy that Gayle said I’d I wasn’t going she could use me to stay on for the last hour. Decision made.

So I’m back home in a very cosy Christmas onesie. I feel sad that everyone’s out enjoying themselves and I’m not there. But, I am very cosy and tired sitting here now. I’m glad I did what felt right.

So to end with a smile. Scotland’s gritters are out in force tonight. They are all named. You can follow them on a map to see where they all are!!

Only in Scotland 😂😂😂

Stay safe everyone 🥶☀️🥶

Day 975 another freezing day, finally Christmas shopping and I bumped into a lamppost! 😳😆

Day 975 feels like a bit of a milestone. Only 25 days to the big 1000. 😳

Who’d a thunk it?!

It was -1.5°c when I got out to Abbie the camper van this morning. The guys at work said it was -5°C when they left the house. It’s super cold but the days are stunning. I’m looking forward to a sunny Sunday as the forecast is lovely for the next few weeks at the moment. I say lovely…. Very cold and crisp but sunny!

I slept right through to 6.19am which felt really good. I’m off the progesterone for the next fortnight now. I have reminders in my phone but I’m surprising myself with the clarity of it. I still have brain fog and forgetfulness but it’s definitely improving. I feel way more in control of the terror I used to find myself in.

All of that said….. I opened number 9 on my M&S Advent Calendar this morning.

Today is only the 8th. 😳

Ellison had asked if I could keep the boxes for her sister to use at school next year, but I knew I’d already burned some in the fire. Never thought to keep it and make an advent for someone next year.

This morning I went to retrieve some boxes to see what I could salvage.

Lo and behold I find empty box number 13. 😳 It’s still only the 8th…. Goodness only knows what I thought I was opening when I picked up 13?!?!? So far I’ve had some lovely gifts.

I guess day 13 must have been the exceptional mini Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturiser mini… today I also got a lovely Autograph lip tint. (none of these are in the pic!)

I’ve decided to try and up my fluid intake at work but drinking some flavoured teas. Now I’m not a fan of a herbal tea but it’s too cold to drink lots of cold water and I only have caffeine coffee in the office just now. I took Super Green Tea and Peppermint out the cupboard this morning. Also a Pukka Chai Tea bag.

They kept me warm and stopped me feeling hungry.

So I wrote this as lunchtime and since then I’ve have a couple of great van handovers today AND finally started my Christmas shopping. Check me. It felt right.

Now don’t get me wrong…. I’ve done Tesco, Primark and Aldi…. For those of you in the UK you will realise it wasn’t the most salubrious and expensive Christmas shopping but things are tight this year so I am going to adapt. I love a Christmas gift made up of bits and bobs.

The cashier in Tesco told me she would be totally panicking if she hadn’t started her shopping until today. No need to panic… 😆

It’s still very cold, so the windscreen washers on the van are frozen….. so I’m trying to peer through a salted up windscreen. It’s dark, the headlights are all glaring and I’m trying hard to see….. snd then there’s the reversing camera not working…. It works when I least need it and doesn’t work when I do need it the most.

I really enjoyed my wee trip… despite all that.

Until I tried to reverse in the Aldi car park…. The camera screen completely black and someone desperately waiting to get past me.

I felt the bump and my heart plummeted. I pulled forward and looked around. The guy next to me had his window down and didn’t even look at me, so I figured I hadn’t hit a car. … it was a lamppost.

The adrenaline left me shaking like a leaf. That must have been about 6pm. It’s now 8.10pm and I just don’t feel right. My heart is racing and I’m tearful as soon as I write these words. I feel so very overwhelmed. Tears spilled over now.

What the hell is wrong with me. I’m very hard on myself, I know.

I got a fright. A big fright. I thought I’d hit someone’s car and someone was gonna go nuts at me. I thought it was gonna cost me a fortune. Catastrphizing at its best.

As I drove home, I hear a few noises that I think are dogs barking outside the van, I feel like I’m skidding in the road. I’m already going slow but I slow down even more. I hear the noise again. It still sounds like dogs barking in the distance. By the time I get home I’m feel all over the place.

It’s actually a physical pain. My heart is beating out my chest and I feel very sad.

Watch this space, I’ll wake up in the morning and my period will have started…. And all will be well with the world 😆

Anyway… I’ll head to bed soon as sleep it off!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 974 Fit Body Farm Workout of the Year 2022

What an amazing start to the day. The FBF Workout of the year. It encourages people back to the Farm, across today and tomorrow, to take part in this challenge.

The dualling Avery’s but on the same team. Craig was cycling like mad here!

I cannot stress this enough. I LOVE these team workouts. I felt on top of the world at the end of it. Helped out by the fact that me shooting a basket, literally 2 seconds before the lovely Linda next to me, meant my team won this morning!

The winning basket!!!

The other guys had done all the hard work. Cathy was amazing on the battle ropes just before me. The teams were neck and neck all the way. That feeling of everyone watching you, your team routing for you and you hit your basket, is amazing. ♥️

I should also point out that there are icy puddles outside and we’re outside shooting hoops before 7am. I hear myself, it’s crazy.

I’m must admit that I don’t really feel that kind of excitement much in my new, calm and chilled out life.

Even after my amazing 50th birthday I reckon the last time I had that much fun was the day out on the Waverley Paddle Steamer. The high is addictive.

That’s not to belittle my birthday at all. I think there’s a different pressure there, not wanting to turn 50 and being a nervous centre of attention is very different.

I don’t drink anymore so I don’t have that longing for a night out like I used to have.

Snapshot this nugget from a video clip!

Here’s the team photo Gavin from FBF shared on FB , a good turnout from the 6am crew!!

I’m rambling now but you get the drift.

I was awfy happy after that workout 🏋🏻‍♀️ 😂

The sunrise was amazing again this morning. I know you just be sick of seeing it by now. 😂

Love the reflections in the van.

I’ve said it before but will never stop being grateful for the beautiful surroundings that we get to work out in. I love that it’s all over before I’ve even had time to think about it!

It was still lovely when I got to Tartan HQ. The vans were all super frosty.

It’s been another good day at work. Cold, but I was ready for it!

Ellison brought me in lentil soup for lunch! How lovely was that. I heated it up in the van.

Unfortunately the diesel heater didn’t work so I was freezing, apart from the soup! It was 9°C inside the van today as there was no sun. I’m back on the diesel heater FB forum to see what else I can do with it.

Was a weeeeeee bit miffed that my new found diesel heater knowledge was no damn use to me today!!

Anyway, it’s another chance to learn something else about them, she says, through gritted teeth.

I’m home having dinner before the Crochet Hookers meet at 6.30. I have the back door open for the dogs and the cold is really creeping into my bones. It’s a full moon tonight. It was huge in the sky when I left work.

Todays been another good day. I’m off out to try the diesel heater again. Wish me luck.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 973 a good bit warmer today though it was my first frosty day!

I set about everything with a much warmer outlook today. 😆

I wore a thicker jumper, a hat, scarf and gloves from the outset and it seems to have done the trick. I was ready for anything the cold threw at me.

I set my alarm for 15 minutes earlier today, so I could drive to a cheap petrol station on the way to work. I realise the irony of that. Drive further to save a few pence….

I had to scrape Abbie the Campervan for the first time this year.

She has her big boy wheels back on

Now remembering I am only 5ft 4 inches, this is about as much of the windscreen as I can clear.

Did I remember Craig had given me a homemade de-icer to try??

No, I did not… I whapped my lunch bag down on top of it and completely forgot it was on my passenger seat.

Just as well I got up early. I had to sit for about 10 minutes until I could see enough to drive.

So ALL the way to the petrol station and the nice lady said I had enough Nectar points to save 5p a litre. Thank you very much lovely lady. (Yes I know probably still not worth the extra 10 mile drive but hey….)

The office was warmer as boss man left the heating on low last night which took the edge off the metal portacabin chill… and of course I was dressed like Nanook of the North (whoever that is?!)

I headed out to Abbie for lunch today as the sun was splitting the cold skies. Abbie was toasty warm in the sun, so I made soup and toasted my wrap.

By 3.50pm the sun was almost down.

As I ooohed and aaahed at the sunset, boss man sarcastically pointed out how lovely the moon was…. Methinks he was making fun of me 🤣🤣🤣 little does he realise I took s photo of it as it was stunning! Full moon tomorrow!

The van was all misted up again, when I left work, so I decided to try and fix my diesel heater as the boys are so busy, I am determined to get it going.

I tried to get the top off it to change the temperature sensor and it didn’t work. Only because I couldn’t actually get the top off, of course. 🤣

So I took this photo and posted on a FB forum where they gave me options to try and it worked straight away!!!!

I am soooo chuffed. The forum is great and has loads of experts on it… I may be using them again. I’ve been sitting outside the house in my jammies, hat, gloves and jacket and the diesel heater is pumping away nicely!!

I also came home to a lovely 50th birthday gift from my friend Aileen. We met about 1995 when we worked in Panasonic together. That’s nearly 30 years…. Wow!

I tried to take a photo, it’s the middle one! I love having a couple of necklaces on at once and these sit perfectly together.

So I’ve had a really good day today. I’m feeling quite excitable for some reason, which is quite rare. I did have a caffeine coffee at about 10.30am. Could be that 😂😂

It’s so nice to feel confident and happy. No tears on the progesterone this month and I stop it again tomorrow for 2 weeks.

Back in the house now. Fire on, candles lit and the puppers looking for a tennis ball to be thrown, as usual. Watching The Handmaid’s Tale again.

All is well.

AND MY DIESEL HEATER IS WORKING!!!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 972 I got chills, they’re multiplying… 🥶

I’ve been soooooo cold today, I’ve not been able to get a heat.

I say that, all wrapped up in Christmas jammies and a crochet blanket and I feel pretty cosy now.

Its only been about 5°C which is not as cold as it’s going to be for the rest of this week. I just had such a chill that my 4 layers of clothes didn’t touch it. Must look out my thermals for tomorrow and see if that helps. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

It was very dark when I left the Farm this morning but still really atmospheric.

This is a selfie I took…..

I am in here!!!!!

That’s how dark it was!!

Ellison and I were both dressed in Christmas penguin jumpers today.

I put my hat on about 10.30 and it made such a difference. I wore it the rest of the day!

It’s 5th December already. I have lovely foamy face wash, hair volumising shampoo, nail varnish and a couple of other things from my lovely birthday gift advent calendar.

I used the foamy face wash at the Farm this morning. I didn’t take my shower gel with me. As the foamy face wash foamed up like a foamy thing, I gave it a quick wheech round in place of shower gel.

It is Eucalyptus and Pine. 😳

Eucalyptus is minty. 😳

Never washed anything off so fast!!!! what a fright! 🤣

On a lighter note, Wonder Doodles is a lovely page on FB. They are posting lovely advent messages, I don’t often see them until I’ve already published the blog.

It was a lovely night when I left Tartan but dark by the time I got home.

I’ve been a machine since I got home… I say that, a machine by own on terms, not anyone else’s. I put together lasagne that Craig had started.

Then I hoovered the house. Been meaning to do it for a few days now and it felt good to get it down.

I’ve sat down and got wrapped up, and am watching The Handmaid’s Tale. I never got through season 5 so I’m starting it again, now that my heads in a better place. It’s very intense! 😂

So I know it’s early days, about 6 weeks since I’ve been on HRT, but I have to say that I am feeling pretty good these days.

Other then the overeating (which I’m very aware of, and trying to stop) I really have no adverse reactions to it.

I’m not going to count my chickens just yet but it feels good to be finding my way back.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 971 when life gives you burst zips, make the best of it ♥️

First things first…. Wild sea swimming this morning with Ellison and Eileen…. Did not happen because my wetsuit zip burst only 2nd time of wearing!!! I was gutted…

I took it all off again… no mean feat, and tried everything I could to get it zipped back up. Short of cutting the material and stitching it back up, there was nothing I could do.

There’s no way I could go in without it, remembering the freezing cold feet on Tuesday.

I sat about in my swimming costume for about 5 or 10 minutes trying to decide what to do. My alarm had gone off at 7.15am and I had read this when I woke up…..

Seriously… people often ask me how I can manage to write a blog on a daily basis…. The content just throws itself at me. As upset as I am at not being able to go swimming, it doesn’t need to ruin my day. I could have gone and sat with a coffee and watched them, but I though I might find that harder. I jumped back into bed for a bit… and put the electric blanket on as I had just been sitting around in a swimming cozzie and it’s very cold and frosty today! 😂

We finally got up and had coffee. We decided to use some of my birthday vouchers and head out to Mocha Jak’s, a coffee shop near us for breakfast. Thanks to Claire’s mum and dad for them! We took Calaidh.

I had Avocado Toast with tattie scones, halloumi and a fried egg with siracha sauce and Craig had the Mama Mocha breakfast.

Calaidh was a good girl.

She had doggy sausages. She then posed perfectly while I was paying at the till.

We both noticed that the staff were not very welcoming this morning. There weren’t many smiles which seemed a bit sad but maybe they were just tired after a very busy day yesterday. There was a Craft Fayre that may have had the run off their feet…. Then FB threw me this….

So very true. I thanked them profusely for lovely food with big smiles!!

We went for a walk around Spiers Old School Grounds, having been there in ages. Got a photo of my favourite gate.

The better photo is really the wall next to my favourite gate 😂

Back home and dropped Calaidh off and picked up Bhru and Freya and took the for a good run.

There are no photos, other than this lovely sky.

It’s really cold out there today so I’m in leggings and a Christmas jumper wrapped up in a blanket on the couch. I may have a nap.

Just have to tell you about our wreath making last night. The little gift shop girls went wreath making at McConnells florist in Beith.

I love my wreath…. it’s on the front door already!

The girls all made stunning wreaths.

Aren’t they beautiful?!?

I found it surprisingly easy to do and I really enjoyed it. We had a lovely wee snack in the middle too with sandwiches and cakes.

I left the florist about 9pm to drive back to Kilmarnock to pick Craig up… saved me going home first.

I really don’t like driving in the dark anymore. I used to hear people say that and couldn’t understand it. I do now.

Other than not being able to see well , I was even scared waiting for him in the van. It’s ridiculous really.

We were home by about 10.15 and I went straight to bed as ho early for sea swimming…. Aka fighting with a wetsuit.

Rachel two doors down is working on the village Christmas tree today. It’s such a beautiful tree from the Gateside Plant Centre, but sadly a huge section of the lights are not working. She’s having to order new lights…. It still looks lovely.

So not much else to report from here. Other than putting the washing away I will be ignoring the rest of the housework needing done.

It’s not long now until more holidays. Woop woop!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 970 Abbie the Campervan herded some sheep and other stories 🐏😆

It’s only 3.30pm and I’m having a lovely day. I had an amazing sleep. Woke up just after 4am and hadn’t even moved since 10pm. Managed to get back to sleep until 7.30am. Bliss.

I got stress get up andninto dog walking gear to walking the terrible trio before work.

It’s a lovely morning, it’s cool but not cold and dry. This is the sky at the bottom of the garden when we headed out.

The street was really quiet. I love being up and out when everyone else is still asleep.

It just got better.

The colours were just out of this world. I felt so lucky to be out there instead of stressing about waking all three dogs at once.

I never met a soul. Just me and the three degrees. 😂 These markings in the sky were really interesting. Wondered what caused it?

The road was really super muddy for some reason, so the dogs were filthy. I let them have a paddle in the burn. No meant dear down a hill on their leads. I did stay standing up straight 😂

The photos look fake but honestly there was no filter used. A morning like this fills me with so much joy. I feel bursting with excitement just looking at the sky.

I “think” this one shows the moon and two plane trails which seemed very close together.

Now in true Julie fashion, I bring you back down to earth with a bump, to tell you that through all this beauty the pups were pooping like no tomorrow and my poo bags kept splitting… I had to try and wrap each one as best I could, an honestly I do think I do pretty well in the circumstances. So many people seem to leave them out on the country roads. I ended up having to put them wrapped up in my pocket… 🤦🏻‍♀️😆 I was lucky that no poop escaped but still… brings some reality to the beautiful moment 💩😆

The little gift shop was great today…. Super busy. I love it when it’s so busy. So many lovely people buying Christmas cards and gifts. Lots of chat which you know I love.

There was also cake! (Bought from Gro Coffee last night!)

Back up the road and had to take Craig to Kilmarnock as he had an afternoon/night out with the boys.

I made him take this photo as I drove. It doesn’t do it justice. The clouds looked like they were pouring down out of that circle shape. Unusual.

As I drove home there were loads of sheep on the road in front of me! The sound of Abbie grumbling along the road sent them charging back into the field any way they could. It felt quite powerful to watch them all find their way. 🐏🐏🐏😂

I’m now sitting watching The Grinch as I write this. Bhruic is watching the tv!

I had a lovely time at Gro with the Menopause Mates group, now aptly renamed as the menopause maniacs!

I picked up Kirstin, who lives nearby so at least we weren’t arriving alone, but there was no need to worry. It was so lovely to meet everyone we’ve been chatting to on Messenger. We all go to the Fit Body Farm, but different classes, so might not ever meet up. It was so lovely to meet with girls who are all going through the same things and have a good old chat about the menopause.

I had a huge peppermint slice. It was exquisite!

Pic doesn’t do it justice!

We sat next to this beautiful tree.

I only have about 2 hours before I head back out Christmas Wreath making with the little gift shop girls! Really looking forward to it.

I have to go back and retrieve Craigie (or Merlin the happy pig 🙄) whenever he’s ready for collection…. after my wreath making. He’s under strict instructions not to be too late as I have wild sea swimming at 9am tomorrow!

It’s all go but I am smiling. A lot!

Stay safe everyone 🎄🎅🏼🤶🏼

Day 969 the Fit Body Farm, the little gift shop and meeting a lovely group of Menopause Mates!

I cried aloud when the alarm went off at 5am. I’d had such a great sleep, I didn’t want to get up but I bounded out of bed and got ready for the Farm. (It was a bit of a big effort “bound” if I’m honest 😆)

And boy, the Farm was hard work this morning. We were in pairs and had to work while our partner rested. We did 2 lengths of the gym pushing a heavy sled then a 250m run before our partner took over, we rested while they did theirs stint and then we did it all over again….for 12 minutes.

Then 20 x 4kg wall ball target throws followed by a 250m run, for 12 minutes and then 8 burpees followed by a 250m run for 12 minutes. 😳😆

I was knackered!!

Andrena and I barely spoke during it, other then to give the odd word of encouragement as we got our breath back. Hard work but a great workout with a great buddy!

I went out into the garden with the dogs when I got back. It’s a cold but lovely morning.

Throw the ball mum.

I’m not giving her the ball back….

I don’t care about the ball, just wanna play with Bhruic!

Me and my shadow….. Freya always follows Bhru around.

I jumped in the shower to get ready for work and headed to get my Christmas nails done before work this morning.

Back home for 15 minutes and then off to work at the little gift shop. (yeah I know, I’m knackered just writing it!)

Had another lovely day, with lots of lovely chat, but forgot to wear a Christmas jumper today! 😂

I was about to say that I came home for a quick bite to eat but that reminded me….. I need to draw a line again. I’ve said a few times this week that I’ve been gorging on food.

Shovelling it in.

It has to stop.

My good jeans are tight today. “No wonder” my inner voice screamed at me this morning!

Anyway, it has stopped a bit today. I am aware of it. I haven’t eaten the best of food but I have chewed it slowly and savoured it, rather than scoffing it without breathing. I feel fuller than I would have yesterday.

All of that said… I’m off to Gro Coffee in Irvine tonight with a lovely group of ladies from the Fit Body Farm…. Some of whom I’ve never even met as they got to classes at different times.

I posted on our FBF Members page one day… I was saying how amazing it was to work out there on a beautiful sunrise morning, when I’d felt so bad the day before, having just started HRT.

So many girls replied to my post and we got “chatting” and one of them set up a Messenger chat group where we can all talk about our symptoms and generally provide support to each other. It’s been a great group to be a part of.

So tonight we’re having a coffee catch up in Gro in Irvine….. there will be cakes…. Yeah I know….

I better go and get ready as I have to be out in 20 minutes… the blog took up all of my rest time but I do feel much better!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 968 first day of advent… hello December, already!

I am trying to be in the Christmas spirit this year as it’s not usually my thing. I have chosen to ignore the magic of Christmas for years now.

I have the most amazing M&S advent calendar which I got from my Aunt & Uncle for my 50th…. That really was the birthday that keeps on giving.

It has loads of M&S beauty products in it. I’ve never had anything quite like it and I was so excited to open it this morning.

I even looked out the Christmas jumpers this morning and wore one to work. I mean come on….. could I be any more Christmassy?!?

I’ve had a really good day at work today. I wasn’t in the best headspace but turned it all around. Managed to think straight through the confusion and ended up thinking it was a great day.

I didn’t think I slept well last night, was up a few times in the night and was clenching my jaw so much I couldn’t move it when I first woke up.

I woke with a thumping headache but it passed after my first lemsip of the day! Seems I actually got 8.5 hours which is pretty amazing. Funny how I thought exactly the opposite.

I’m sitting watching a very cheesy Christmas movie as I write this and Craig is out at work.

Bhruic is cuddled into my Christmas jumper and check the Christmas jammies too… I’m really trying!

One thing I did want to talk about…. Is anyone else in the UK wondering what had happened to the size of our toilet rolls?!?

They are double the thickness that they used to be and they are all over the shops now. The ones in work have grown too!!! 😂

The latest thing in our world to change I guess…. Toilet roll is now as thick as kitchen roll. Who knew?!

I’m still stuffing my face with any food I can get my hands on. I’ve put on so much weight this week… but I can’t do everything at once. It is what it is.

So not much else to report. Have a busy weekend so will no doubt have a really early night again tonight.

Stay safe everyone 🎄🎅🏼🤶🏼