It’s 8.09am. We did not go to the Farm this morning as I didn’t get to bed until after 11 last night….. oh no you didn’t?!? Oh yes I did… panto…. See what I did there?!?

Can I just start by saying…… oh my actual god, I have been lying here in bed, listening to the incessant blog writer inside my head….. wittering away at me for the last 2 and a half hours. I don’t feel rested at all!!! I’ve woken up raging!!

I needed to sleep so badly, I’m shattered.

Craig said in the calmest voice, “when you get like that you should focus on something else……. “ 😳 The lion roared!!!! “Focus on something else?!?! Focus on something else?!! Do you not think I haven’t tried that for the last few hours?!??”

Morning 😱😳🙄😀😂😘

I thought it was best to write this to shut that, now very tired voice, up.

I’ve also realised I’ve been clenching my jaw as I’ve got up with a thumping head. I guess maybe I have slept, in between the incessant chatter.

Anyway, let’s go back to last night. Our niece, Marianna was amazing!!! The cast were exceptional, so professional. Pace Youth Theatre are doing the pantomime, Cinderella, this Christmas.

The energy, the costumes and the set were amazing and it’s all done inside a shop that they have taken over in Paisley.

They make amazing use of constricted space to create a small theatre.

We were so proud to see Marianna as for so many years we haven’t gone to the see the things she has done.

Incredible performance by all… the wicked stepmother was brilliant. That girl uses her face to tell the story.

I think so many of them will go far in life. The ugly sisters were hysterical too.

The lines they came out with……. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😂😂😂

So let’s go back and read what a pantomime actually is and then stop a minute and think about who I am these days….

I dressed up, I sat among hundreds of people, there were lots of young children and I sat like I had a neon flashing sign over my head that screamed “please don’t look at me”…. As if they would…. I was like a fish out of water….. as one of the ugly sisters looked for a “target” of “her” affections in the audience, I WILLED Craig to grow shorter than his 6ft 3ins seated self!!!!

When we’re asked to participate, the words won’t come out of my mouth….. 😂 honestly looking back my reaction is hysterical. I literally froze the whole way through until the finale. I was a contorted, uncomfortable mess…. 😂😂

With hindsight it was just another step in the evolution of the new me. Something to think about and understand about myself.

So all of that said and done, I’m so glad that we got to see her perform and watch the wonderful, confident and clever girl that she has grown up to be. We aren’t a very hands on Auntie & Uncle and we need to change that.

So back to today. Wow. Record day in the shop today!

I worked from 9.30 until 5pm. By the back of 4 our “cheery hellos” to customers were waning but we had a laugh and apologised for how tired we were sounding. It’s been a really busy day. My busiest yet. Everyone asked if we were finished our Christmas shopping yet and were we ready…. I changed my answer every time.

Truth is I am kind of there but operating on a reduced service this year so I am reluctant to admit to anyone that I am ready. 😂

So many people in for last minute, wee mindings…. So many men finally getting around to shopping too.

It has been a really good day. That place is good for me!!

Now I’m home. I have an hour between work and a wee village get together in the pub. We do get a two course Christmas meal “leftover” buffet so it’s great I don’t need to cook!

I actually only have 25 minutes left so I best go and make myself presentable.

Hope you have a lovely Christmas Eve Eve evening…. Had to think about that?!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️