Awake at 7.30 this morning⦠almost a lie in! Weāve been watching The Handmaids Tale⦠Rachel tow doors down has been telling us to watch it for ages and we finally got to it! Sheās right!
Iāve had bad anxiety today. Iāve felt really tearful and overwhelmed for absolutely no reason as all other than my head is lying to me.
I was about to say here that Iām sure youāre as sick of reading it as I am of writing it but thatās my head telling me Iām not good enough. This is not enoughā¦.

In an effort to calm the noise I went out with the dogs. Itās a funny day, not a breath of wind but super cloudy. Very still.






Claire came in for a cuppa late morning and she got it allā¦.. itās hard for me when there really is nothing bothering me other than all this noise in my head. I seem to put real pressure on myself to āperformā at weekends and I only relax when I finally let myself believe that itās ok to rest.
She brought me these lovely flowers as she knew I wasnāt feeling full of the joys.

Theyāre so lovely and so lovely of her to do that š
Itās 2pm and Iām in bed writing this. Iāve tried to concentrate on other things, I got showered to go out then figured that the shops would be too busy so best wait until tomorrow. I went upstairs to sort through stuff to put up for sale and took some photos then decided no one would want to buy it.
Jeezoā¦. Will it just stop already.

I managed a good 2 hours. Me and the puppersā¦. We woke up just in time for Craig coming home.

Thats been me today. I feel soooooo much better after a sleep. My mind is calm.

Weāve ordered Chinese for tonight and Iām trying a veggie Satay for a change. Could be a hit or a miss but weāll see.


A wee Scottish funny to end withā¦. I remember people saying this!! To be fair⦠they probably still do.

Stay safe everyone ā„ļøā„ļøā„ļø