I didn’t when I woke up and my mind started whirring at 4.45am, but the Fit Body Farm changed all that.
We did a fun challenge this morning and the highlight for me was racing on a Space Hopper! I mean who does that AND before 7am?!?!
It was so much fun. Exercising without even thinking you’re exercising! We did the following “exercises” for 40 seconds each…
Slamming battle ropes
Skipping (now that was so much fun! I even managed to cross over the skipping ropes!)
Space Hopper bouncing!
Walking across a balance beam
Dribbling basketballs and shooting baskets
Large water bottle carry
Lifting 12kg wall ball over a wooden wall and then climbing over to the other side
Walloping a tractor tyre with a sledgehammer
Three times in total!
I mean wow. I list that and it sounds so crazy but it’s so much fun. Mr A is 6ft 3 inches tall and was pretty huge on a wee Space Hopper!
The red one ♥️ was by way the faster than the blue one 💙…. Ok maybe that’s not actually true… He was on the blue one and I was flying along on the red one! 🤣🤣
I did slide right off the back of it on my first bounce! What a giggle! Soggy bottom on the soaking wet grass!
I’ve felt so much better today. I would almost say no anxiety.
Work is crazy busy just now. I know I always says it’s busy but this feels like another level. We have lots of customers with small jobs over the next few weeks so it’s taking lots of coordination…. What could possibly go wrong?! Hmmmm….. like everything!
I could double book them, have too much work for the worshop on any one day or not have ordered the correct parts for the jobs.
When you suffer from anxiety you have to do so much more work to feel under control. I have plans with dates and times to help me remember who’s in when. I keep revising it and checking it. I feel calm… so far. There are a lot more very busy days to come in the next week.
A lot of customers means a lot of chat. I may have to sit in silence for the whole weekend. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣
But yeah, it felt good at work today. I didn’t actually switch the laptop on until 11.30am.
Amazing how bad I have felt over the last few days and today it’s just gone.
I always forget that other people can feel the same. I get angry at my nervousness, my fears, my insecurities and yet I’ve felt like this all of my life. I’ve just never been so in tune with it, so aware of it.
I used to cry the night before a big exam at school and then usually sailed through it. The more I think back over my life, the more I realise it’s always been a part of me. It’s who I am.
I need to stop fighting with it and accept on the bad days that it will pass. It’s helped me to plan better at work this week.
That’s very easy for me to say and way harder for me to do.
I’m meeting the Crochet Hookers tonight and looking forward to and chat and a giggle with the ladies.
Oh and am very proud to say that I now have 101 other bloggers following my ramblings! That means a lot!
Welcome to Happy Panda who sent me a lovely message today…. but I should say thank you again to anyone who takes the time to read this and sticks with me.
The darker days fade and the sun comes back out. It did today and I hope it stays around for a bit.
I woke at 5am and my resting heartbeat was up at 72…. I only know that as I consulted my FitBit Curve…. 🤦🏻♀️🤣
It’s lunchtime and it’s now down at 60 so something is going my way… it didn’t feel like it first thing. My mind was like a tornado🌪 everything crashing around at once, dramatising, catastrophizing… that sounds like a made up word but it really sums up how it felt.
It was making me feel sick this morning, my stomach was churning. What a state to get into over nothing. It really is nothing. There isn’t even an IT….
I’m so tired of the energy it takes to fight the overthinking.
You might need your specs on to read that but it says it all.
I wish I could just “switch off”, “just stop overthinking”, “just stop worrying”, just stop.
Oh ok then… let me try…. 🤔🤨
If only it was that easy then surely I’d have thought of that.
I feel very vulnerable just now. Very small, very fragile. I’m not even watching the news at all so it’s not even that.
Anyway the main thing is that the anxiety zapped a few hours after I got into work and the practicalities took over.
I got plenty done again so I’m focussed enough which is good… and now I’m really shattered.
It’s funny as I started the blog at lunchtime today and when I read what I wrote, I think… it wasn’t that bad surely, I’ve even deleted some of it… but it’s obviously how I felt at the time.
The sunrise was spectacular this morning. I ran out to the garden to take these before my shower.
I left early to stop for fuel on the way…. £110 for 3/4 of a tank. 😳
That was enough of a shock to start the day!
When I came home from work I took Bhruic out for a walk. I’m trying some mother and middle pup bonding. She was good on the walk…. It’s so much easier to walk one of them rather than all 3 at once, to be fair, so I’ll try to do that more often.
For now I have my feet up, wrapped in a blanket in front of the fire and I will get an early night. If I can stay awake for a bit longer.
Tomorrow is a new day and I’m positive it will be better.
As hard as I try I cannot get a decent photo of this little monkey!
Freya is 5 today. It feels like yesterday she was like this…..
She was the runt of her litter and had to be hand reared from about a day old.
These photos don’t even really do her justice. She was minuscule and had virtually no ears.
This is her first poo in the garden…. Too much?!?
Very soon the ears started to grow and never stopped!
How tiny?!?!?
Think this was the last time she got into bed with her big sister…. 🤣🤣
She has a great life. She’s a dogs dog and is always more worried about where Calaidh and Bhruic are. She gives the best puppy cuddles though and there’s nothing better than cuddling on the couch with her.
So all that said and done…. Todays not been the best.
I had a huge feeling of dread this morning. I couldn’t face the Farm or work but I knew I couldn’t get out of either. I just wanted to stay in bed and hide. It really does take all my strength sometimes to get up and get on with it.
Now I know full well that there is nothing going on that’s the end of the world. I am very lucky to be able to say that. I have friends and family going through so much worse and yet I’m so sad and angry.
I obviously went to the Farm and I struggled with the workout this morning. I felt a sense of lethargy and unfairness that I had to even do it.
So far removed from the girl who was buzzing after Friday’s workout.
In work I was very irritable, I had no patience and everything that happened seemed like some huge drama.
Of course it was not.
If you’d heard how awful my inner voice was…. I really hate myself at times like this. Hate is a very strong word.
I felt restless, tense, with a feeling of dread. My heart was beating so fast and at times I felt a bit dizzy. I also had the runs (sorry!) it just shows I was creating a huge churn of anxiety inside me.
I’m useless, a failure, can’t do, rubbish, blah blah blah. Why is this happening to me, why can’t I control it?
I get a sense of calm just before 3pm and finally managed to think straight.
I’d checked my to do list and I had done everything on it…. So I’m in control, I just don’t think that I am.
I came home to a lovely dinner as Craig was home before me. I’d only eaten shortbread all day so it was lovely to eat a home cooked meal… I was also handed a glass of Nosecco!
Maybe get some Freya cuddles tonight and they always help.
I could actually have sat still all day and stared into space and that would have done me nicely. It’s like I’m asleep inside my head.
I’m definitely in the green this weekend. Not that I would say I have a mental illness anymore, I would just call it my mental health. An’ it’s no been the best the day again…. She says in her broad Scottish accent.
I’ve still been out and got some fresh air. We took the dogs out this morning.
Spotted these lovely mini daffies blooming in Spiers School Grounds.
Then came home and Craig moved loads of soil while I raked it out and supervised him 🤦🏻♀️🤣
It looks amazing!!
My meadow garden is no more….. wonder how many of the weeds will still find a way this year?!? 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣
Calaidh hiding out in this mini wood shed!
It was forecast to rain today but it’s not come to anything yet. It’s 15.27 and I’m wrapped up in a blanket on the couch.
I hate days like this. I hate that I’m wasting so much of life wallowing in what feels like some fake self pity. I’m angry with myself for letting it take over.
And yet the tears are just bubbling under the surface ready to spring out at any moment.
It’s so tiring to keep fighting through these feelings and emotions. yet I would tell everyone else that it’s ok to have a low mood day, to take a rest day, to relax.
I have Craig feeding me Mac n’ cheese and puppers number 1 & 3 cooried into my legs.
What a miserable morning. It was torrential rain when I woke up. I could hear it.
So of course I got soaked on the dog walk!! Totally drenched.
I tried to get a photo of the rain but Bhru photobombed it.
That’s how heavy it was!!
The daffies are starting to come through…. Bhru photobombed that too!
There were 3 dogs on my walk…. Just one getting in the way!
This next photo almost shows a raindrop….. almost! I only took another 8 photos to try and get one of the rain dropping onto the wee puddle on top of this wall. It was fascinating to watch….
All the while I’m still getting soaked….. but the photo is way more important. Naturally!
I wore my painting clothes out to walk the dogs which was a big mistake. What are you meant to paint in when your painting clothes are soaking wet!?!? Nope… don’t go there! So I need to invent some new painting clothes and sharpish….
Just before I got started, I decided to work on the Memorial Hall accounts to try to figure out how much last nights fundraiser made.
I took an hour or so plodding through all the instalments but really enjoyed it. I reckon we’ve made over £1,000 for the Hall which is amazing. They all had such a great time at Bouncing Bingo. I can’t believe that 80 odd folk left at midnight last night, right outside my front door…. and I slept through it!!! I’ve been shattered this week.
So I finally started painting the kitchen doors…. Couldn’t really be bothered with it much. I’d had a good morning though so it was time for the chores….
And that’s exactly where my mood take a downturn.
I don’t enjoy the painting. I see everything else around about me not being right. I see dog hair in the floor, I see dirty marks on some of my freshly painted cupboards, I see the dishwasher needing a good clean. The dogs fly past as I paint, I see dirty floor tiles, I see a messy kitchen and I start to get angry.
I’m angry that I have so much to do and it feels like a burden. I’m angry because I stand between the mess and it being back to my perfectionist standards. I’m angry that my painting is not what it should be and I’m slap dashing it about. If I want it fixed, I only need to do it…. To get it done…. but I don’t want to.
So I start washing the brushes and decide to start cleaning up instead…. The hoover won’t sook up properly. It’s a Shark for animals except it only works if you have one hamster and not 3 Border Collies.
I get angry at the hoover, I start poking and prodding it but can’t clear the blockage. I decide to take it all apart and wash it out. You should do that quite often and I really don’t do it enough. So now it’s all wet and may still be blocked buy hey… I couldn’t hoover anymore.
So then I go to bed. I decide maybe I’m just tired and that’s where I need to be. I try to sleep… I’ve left the dogs in the other room. Calaidh barks and keeps waking me up. I come through and scream blue murder until she stops. I’d also left my phone volume on and it binged and bonged what felt like a million times and eventually I woke up enough to be angry at that too.
I then sat to watch Sweet Magnolias and that started buffering. I mean COME ON!!!!!
So I’ve had one of those days… but once again entirely manufactured by my own head. I really thought I had the morning sussed…. Then I paddy whacked all the way through the afternoon… like a spoiled kid.
I didn’t want to write the blog tonight as I read what I’m writing and get angry at myself. Why do I overthink everything. Overreact at nothing. I visualise you all reading this rolling your eyes thinking “here she goes again….”.
The anger has all gone after writing about it. Guess that’s the whole point of speaking my truth. Also everything seems a lot calmer as evening comes. It’s never as bleak as it seems midday when there is still time….. time to do “stuff”.
I guess you can’t always be 100% all of the time and tomorrow is another day.
I’ll maybe stay away from the painting. I only managed a wry smile at my own joke! I laughed more at that last comment.
Wow I’ve had the best day! I didn’t get to sleep until about half 10 last night but was bouncing out of bed at 5am for the Fit Body Farm.
We did a Hyrox time trial this morning and I was paired up with Kirstin and we had to get around the following as fast as possible.
1000m run
50 burpee broad jumps
100 forward lunges
1000m ski-erg
30 hand release press-ups
100 wall ball target throws.
We just took turn about and got through all that in 30 minutes but I was really buzzing and fired up by it. It was one of those loving life workouts.
I came home on fire and decided to take the dogs straight out… I had a tight time schedule this morning!
Sooooooo… I decided to run around the dog walk…. Yep you heard me. 😳😆 I ran the dog walk loop after everything we had done at the Farm…. I couldn’t believe it either.
It was a lovely morning despite a bit of rain at the Farm.
I took blogging to a new level here. I am jogging and taking a photo at the same time. What the hell has happened to me?!?
I only stopped to let them sniff and take photos… of course.
So all of this by 8.30am!
Then hopped into the shower and got ready to head out.
The most important bit of news is that I managed to easily get into a pair of size 14 jeans that I had in the “too wee clothes drawer”…. I decided to go up there and see what I had. I’m so chuffed…. Sadly the jeans are ripped at both knees… obviously trendy at some point in my thinner life but hey they did up so I am wearing them…. To death, most likely. 🤷🏻♀️🤣
Next stop was to Viv’s Nails in Glengarnock to change my toes from red to green! Random. They’re a kind of turquoise blue-green. Very different.
Straight out of there to The Little Coffee Caravan and picked up a Coconut Milk Latte…. And forgot to get decaf again…. Uh oh… buzzin’ even more and then headed I through Glasgow to Falkirk and crossed the Upper Forth Crossing at Kincardine as it’s officially known. I did not know that until I looked it up!
Had a long chat with my mother in law on the way. Great to catch up as I hadn’t spoke to her for ages.
I was off to visit my Auntie Jac and Uncle Ewen.
I’ve not mentioned this before but my uncle was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer at the end of last year.
Throughout February he underwent radiotherapy at the Beatson Institute in Glasgow every day for 4 weeks. This is a 50 minute drive through the worst traffic in Glasgow there… and back. They drove through all the February storms including the snow, strong gales and sideways rain. The second fortnight was pretty rough on him.
He’s been home for a week now and struggled to get the correct pain relief… until today… it would seem!
It was so lovely to see them both and he actually seemed really bright and jovial. He even came out for lunch with us which was a really nice surprise.
We went to the Saline Shaw Farm Shop & Cafe and it was soooooo good. Click on that link to have a shifty…. It’s just such a lovely rustic place and the food was amazing. I had the Croque Monsieur. Highly recommended!
It’s 7pm and I am still stuffed! So full. It was lovely.
Even the table flowers were super cute.
It was just so lovely to get to speak to them both and to see him smiling. Fingers crossed this is him on the up. They both deserve it.
I left at 2.30 to drive back down the road and had a long chat with mum on the way back!
When I got back I started on the housework… hoovering and tidying done!
And then…. I went over to the Village Hall to help set up for the Bongo Bingo event to raise money for the Hall.
Think they are all gonna have an amazing night!! The guy asked if any of the neighbours are likely to complain about the noise…… eh naw…. As all of us that live across the road have been involved in it.
I want to want to go as I think it will be a great night but I am not going because it’s just not my thing. Complicated huh?!? I’m nothing if I’m not complicated. 🤣🤣🤣
So a movie night for us I think.
So hope all the bingo gals have the best night and shake those glow sticks…..and hope you all have a great weekend.
I’ve had a lovely, busy day…. And now I’m in my comfies.
I’m listening to Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast again and she’s interviewing Tuppence Middleton the actress in the new ITV drama, Our House (which I’ve not seen yet..) and Downton Abbey.
They talk about craving solitude and not enjoying social occasions and it really resonates with me.
It’s not that I don’t like people, I’m usually spending time with people I love but it’s the effort required for a social occasion that’s overwhelming for me. Ask me to dress up?!? Oh my actual word….. that’s the worst thing ever in my mind.
We have a village Bongo Bingo fundraiser, tomorrow night, for the village hall and I just can’t do it. Everyone who’s going will have such a blast… I know they will and yet I just can’t. I guess the not drinking makes it a bit harder. I can’t lose my inhibitions. And I have many!!! i have to carry them all around with me!
So it’s nice to listen to something and hear them say that it’s ok not to be the life and soul of the party. Here’s the podcast for you.
I’ve never liked it. I tried to pretend I did… pretend to myself that is…. But I know now that I never have.
When I was a kid and was a flower girl or bridesmaid I lasted for so long and then burst into tears, the attention always got too much for me.
It’s funny because I really thought I wanted to be in the centre of everything all of my life and yet actually the opposite is true. It’s nice to embrace the real me and accept me for who I am. Oh man come on… this is a moment! 🤣🤣🤣
So I’m very late today. Work was really busy again and it didn’t go my way at various times in the day…. I felt like I was swimming in treacle. I just want it all to go to plan and be perfect and of course it never will do. I need to learn that’s ok too and just deal with it.
Then I drove to Silverburn to meet one of my oldest friends, Lea (she’s very young actually but been around and there for me for a LONG time!) for a cuppa and give her a birthday pres in time for her birthday next week.
We had such a good chat. It was so lovely to catch up and we had a good giggle too. It was the quickest 3 hours ever! Good for the soul.
Starbucks for dinner. What’s not to love. Oh and I had caffeine too…… uh oh. Buzzin’ 🤣🤣
So it’s now 10pm and I have the 5am alarm set so I better try and sleep.
Jeez that’s the rain and wind back on…. The beautiful clear skies of the weekend are long gone. The Tartan HQ portacabin took a pummelling today. The door was rattling something shocking 🤣🤣
With everything that’s going on in the world, this next one means a lot.
I went back to the Fit Body Farm this morning. It was dry way back then at 5.30am when I left the house.
It was a great workout this morning though I struggled to dry my hair at the end of it! Thin my shoulders will be feeling it in the morning.
The rest of the day has been a blur! It’s been really busy and I never even stopped for lunch. There just didn’t seem quite enough hours in the day today. That’s what comes when you work a 3 day week!!
Not complaining….. only one more day until my weekend.
I’ve got the Crochet Hookers tonight…. We’ll in 20 minutes actually… I’ve come home and cleaned the kitchen, made dinner (check me!) and have been watching Sweet Magnolias…. What a sweet but cheesy show!
Sorry it’s a quickie tonight but there’s really nothing much to report on. That’s a good thing… no anxiety. Calm and in control… check me again.
Back to work today. No stunning views today… just a portacabin in a yard in an industrial estate 🤣
I slept with the electric blanket on…. Didn’t actually realise until 5.30am when I woke up in a total lather. Will change the bed tonight methinks.
Today is International Women’s Day.
The day flew in at work. I spent lunch out in the van which was a nice wee change. The sun was shining at that point so the van felt nice and warm.
The wind has been gusting all day and it finally started to rain when I left to come home from work.
Ooooh now I love this next one about the ego. I have learned this a lot over the last year or so listening to Eckhart Tolle.
So much of what we say and how we react to people is our ego talking… being defensive.
I was the most defensive person ever. It’s how I functioned. I worked in a world where you had to defend your actions every minute of the day…..or so I thought. I even did that at home. Took every comment or criticism as an attack… when it wasn’t.
We need to realise that so much can actually be left unsaid. There’s no need to attack defensively with words when someone says something you disagree with.
This next one is so true… I held on to the old me for so long. I thought I was defined by my career. I took so much pride in what I did but never in who I was or who I am.
I never lost anything leaving my old job. I fought so hard to keep it when it was the one thing I really needed to move on from.
I have lost that defensive ego and it’s a huge weight lifted. I don’t need to prove anything anymore and that’s a wonderful feeling.
Two road trips in one weekend?!? Cos that’s how I roll…. Honestly it’s been such beautiful weather this weekend that I couldn’t resist it.
Claire was off today too so came with me in the Loch Lomond adventure.
I didn’t go to the Farm this morning as we were late to bed. Of course I was wide awake at 6.05am….. should have just gone. Craig and I had coffee out in the white and frosty garden before Claire and I left at 10am.
We headed for Rowardennan on the east shore of Loch Lomond. It was freezing cold and partly cloudy when we got there and pretty chilly when we got there.
This is the car park you would use to climb Ben Lomond. It’s the end of the road.
Lovely view right up Loch Lomond.
This photo made us giggle so much as Claire sat so perfectly on the bench!
The water is so crystal clear. It was beautiful.
We headed back down the road to Balmaha and had lunch in St Mocha.
What an a amazing coffee shop! Honestly the food was sooooo good.
I had a haggis, cheese and chutney toastie it was super tasty. The oat latte was one of the best I’ve ever had.
The interior of the café is so rustic it’s lovely, light shades are colanders. So simple but effective!
Claire then bought us some cakes to take away! More about them later!
Right next to the cafe, shop and restaurant there’s a lovely wee memorial garden dedicated to Tom Weir the famous Scottish climber, author and broadcaster… he presented Weir’s Way.
Balmaha bay isn’t the prettiest but it was lovely to watch the ducks and the swans!
Check the colours on this duck…. Wow!
Actually the bay looks really good in these pics…. Just had to look past some long grasses and some rubbish….
Then on to Milarrochy Bay and to see the famous tree!
It’s such a beautiful place. it was so special today as it was so very still when we got there.
I wanted another arty shot of the bobble hat!
It was so calm… the wind dropped and the Loch was so clear. It was hard to tell where the sky stopped and the Loch started!
We got the deckchairs and crotchet blanket out the van and took a walk round the bay.
We parked ourselves here.
We had our cake!
The view just kept on coming…..
Then as the sun starts to come out it feels much warmer…. Then the breeze picks up… the water starts to ripple very gently… you can see it coming across the water.
Now almost at the shore.
And now its beautiful but freezing!!!
Toooooo cold!!! Back on the road again….
This time to Helensburgh for sunset and a wee bag of chips!
We were too cold after about 5 minutes that we ended up back in the van!
What a perfect end to a perfect day. Great company and a great wee road trip for the day.
We are so blessed to have all of this on our doorstep.
Back to work tomorrow. The weather is due to turn. Here comes second winter….. 🤣
I’m feeling reflective this lovely Sunday morning. Didn’t wake up until 6.38am which if no half bad for me. 🤦🏻♀️😆
My first thoughts turned to yesterday and as usual my Sunday morning FB feed gives me everything I needed to hear.
I often get asked how I find all the wee images and quotes I put in the blog. I have my FB feed set up to fill me with positivity now. No more trying to keep up with the Joneses… I don’t want what others have, I don’t see any feed that triggers me in any em way and if it does, it’s gone… so I digress…. This morning FB is the gift that keeps on giving.
Oh ok then…. New beginnings you say? Could this be the turning point in my daily blog where I actually realise that writing about my travels cheer people up rather than me my whinging when I have a bad day. (don’t worry I’ll always be honest and if it’s bad I’ll say as I have to speak my truth.
Well no-one can accuse me of not being real. You get it warts and all. 🤦🏻♀️🤣
Now that’s an interesting one. I felt very alone yesterday but I wasn’t lonely. I felt conspicuous, I felt awkward.
Well yes… Brené Brown…. That summed up exactly how I felt yesterday. Extremely awkward, like I was being watched, judged… the negative committee that meets inside my head had a 3 line whip for attendance yesterday and they were all waiting for me to fail, to embarrass myself. What if I blew a tyre, what if Abbie wouldn’t start, what if I drove off the ferry ramp (ok this one’s a stretch even for me) but you get the jist….
I have been bored by my lack of activity at weekends recently. Yet not enough to actually plan anything in case I am tired and need a nap. This weekend I’m pushing past the boredom and fear of tiredness. Yet so many times yesterday I panicked thinking how crazy my decision was.
There was a tiny spark yesterday that showed me how to change. I pretty much talked to myself all the way round the island.. you’ve got this girl… and despite it all… I did have it.
It’s ok to be me again….. strong words.
When I look back over the years, Uni, Business degree, Receptionist, Buyer, Senior Buyer, Account Manager, Contract Manager, Commercial Manager, Group Commercial Manager….. none of that was me.
I went to Uni as all my friends were going. I didn’t know what to do so I chose Business as my dad had worked his way up through the Bank of Scotland and Business seemed as good a degree as any. I couldn’t speak up as I didn’t have my own opinion at the time, just did what I thought people expected me to do. No more.
This makes me laugh a bit too hard. Functionally no different from a big leaf. 🤣🤣🤣
I’m always running to others to help me make sense and “fix” what I think are my problems. It feels like now is the time to start taking responsibility for them myself. No one else is going to change things for me, only me.
So that said… I’m off out into the freezing cold but beautifully sunny garden to tackle the weeds in my meadow garden.
There is not a cloud in the sky. (Zoom in to see the British Airways coming in to land in Glasgow!)
It’s really cold but weeding helps and soon I’m in a T-shirt…. It’s maybe not quite that warm but I’m determined. Remember the big leaf needs it’s sunlight to flourish! 🤣
I don’t last long…. Weeding that is…. My sudden burst of enthusiasm is taken over by a desire to sit and to just enough the warmth on my face. The dose of vitamin D. Plus there’s always an ball to be thrown!
I was then hit by the ball and the phone as I took this photo…
So I’ve pretty much given up and am sitting outside in the sun…. I realise this is Fool’s Spring and second winter will be here next week so I’m enjoying so relaxation time.
I have literally sat in the sun all morning…. I finally went in at 2pm to have my shower as we have party in the pub at 3pm.
We sat out on the beer garden when we first got there, it was lovely. At about 4.30 it turned chilly and we headed in for some lovely buffet! It was great to get a wee catch up with a lot of the neighbours.
We headed home after 6 to feed the dogs and are now sitting outside by the fire that we started earlier. We can hear the band playing in the background.
There are loads of birds tweeting and the moon is the tiniest sliver of white in the sky behind a very spooky tree!
Amen to that.
I’m so lucky to have tomorrow off work and it’s going to be another lovely cold but sunny day.
I’ve another wee day trip planned. The forecast is to be horrific again by Wednesday… that’s when second winter kicks in!
I must start with the beautiful clear skies last night…. Wow.
My iPhone actually captured the clarity of Orion’s Belt.
It was really cold!
Back to today…..What a truly beautiful day. I don’t think words can describe how lovely it is. It’s warm in the sun and freezing in the shade. It was super frosty this morning but it melted pretty quickly.
There’s not a breath of wind. The sea is very clear and calm. The sky is very blue. It’s a crystal clear day.
I woke up at 5.38am and had the usual weekend anxiety. I have 3 full days off work with no plans apart from tomorrow and the forecast is beautiful all weekend.
My mind starts whirring with everything that I should and could be doing.
As with every weekend there is nothing I actually need to do. The world will not stop spinning if I don’t do the housework or a food shop.
I feel an overwhelming urge to make the most of the weather. I’m at my happiest when I’m out in the sunshine taking beautiful photos…. The sun makes everything seem better.
I did a Rambling Sloth FB post this morning to try and make some sense of my thoughts and to help focus on the present moment. It really helped.
So I get up and have coffee with Craig and take the 3 pupper amigos out for a walk. It’s beautiful but I forget my phone. Probably just as well or there would be a million dog photos to sift through. 🤣
I then got to the car wash to get Abbie the camper van washed and then a wee drive up to the Little Coffee Caravan at Lochwinnoch. I have not been here is ages!!
I love that I try to take photos without anyone seeing. 😆 My anxiety has kicked in big time when I get here. I want an Iced Latte and a roll with egg and tattie scone….
I get a lovely welcome when they see me as I’ve not been for so long. We get chatting. I talk about the FB post they did yesterday advertising the iced coffee and they get on to making that. I overthink that there’s no time for the roll to be made now and I (wait for it) don’t want to put them out….so I don’t ask for it…. I mean honestly?!?! I also forget to ask for decaf. Not the worst thing in the world but for the next few hours the caffeine is belting round my veins and making feel soooooo anxious it’s unreal. I’ve only drunk half of it as well….
So… in my head I have this wild idea to get the ferry over to the Isle of Bute and drive around the island exploring.
I drive over to Largs and up the coast to Wemyss Bay. It’s a stunning drive up the west coast.
I’m aiming for the 12.05 sailing but when I get there I find the 12.05 and 2.05 are cancelled due to COVID.
So I drive up to the actual Wemyss Bay and have a think. The caffeine and anxiety are pumping telling me not to be ridiculous. Why would you go to an island on your own for a day trip?!?
Weymss Bay is so beautiful.
I speak to Craig and he talks me into it.
As I sit here in the ferry queue I cannot tell you how awkward I feel, how exposed, how anxious and how very much out of my comfort zone I feel. I feel like everyone is looking at me. Waiting for me to make some mistake.
The Isle of Arran in the distance has snow on the top of Goat Fell.
Wemyss Bay train station and ferry terminal are so Victorian and ornate.
And yet I am here.
And here she comes in time for the 12.05 sailing. ⛴
My heart is beating out of my chest. Yet I have NOTHING to be afraid of. Just my own insecurities.
Then just like that I’m on and the first one upstairs!
The day looks even more beautiful from up here. I LOVE a CalMac ferry.
We set sail pretty quickly and although it gets colder as there is a chilly breeze, the sea still barely moves as we seem to glide over it. We are Rothesay bound.
Looking back over to Weymss Bay. (I should say here that this is pronounced Weems… if like me, every time I type it I think Y-miss 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣)
It’s only a 45-50 minute sailing so we’re sailing into Rothesay before we know it.
The view is spectacular. There’s a good describing word!
I park Abbie in Rothesay and have a wee wander round the town. Mostly to buy food in the Co-op! I buy two packs of sandwiches just in case some disaster happens and I can’t get home and the shops are shut. The ever thinking brain. Over thinking as usual.
I loved this wee blue boat in the harbour… matching the railings!
This next view is looking back over to the Scottish mainland.
I decided that I would drive round the whole island. Why not….. this next map isn’t entirely accurate as I didn’t wait on a ferry to take me to Colintraive on the mainland but drove up to where it sails from on Bute. Rhubodach.
Looking over to Colintraive.
I had to stop to take photos of this beach field of cows!!
I drove over to the west of the island to Ettrick Bay next. It’s a lovely big expanse of shingle beach. The sun had gone behind the clouds for the first time today.
I then carried round through Straad and couldn’t seem to get stopped anywhere at Straad beach. I felt like I was driving up someone’s drive…. My anxiety went into overdrive…. I felt like I was trespassing… yet in Scotland we have legal right of way anywhere (within reason!)
So I carried on round to Seal view point which was lovely but never saw any seals 🦭!! The view point looks over to Arran.
The gorse is flowering already. It felt very spring like.
Next stop on the tour is Kilchatten Bay. I loved it here. The bay itself faces east while the sun was behind it but it was lovely course sand and quite red compared to the whiter west coast.
Look at that sea!
Final stop before the ferry is Kerrycroy Village. No cars allowed other than residents.
Finally back along the coast and past some very big houses. Bute was once “the beach resort of choice for fashionable Glaswegians” back in the day and much of Rothesay resembles Glasgow. You could be forgiven for thinking you were on the mainland at times! But then if houses are very big and plush looking.
Zoom in on the name of this next boat!
It’s 4.30pm now and still a bit cloudier but very still and calm. I join the ferry queue expecting the Argyle to sail at 6.05pm but am happy to find CalMac’s Bute is now back in service and sailing at 5.05pm.
It’s a beautiful sunset cruise back to Wemyss Bay….. I have to think how to spell that every time 🤣🤣
Bang on time back on the mainland.
As I headed back south down the coast i had to pull over to watch sunset. It was less tranquil than Portencross, as there were passing cars, but still very beautiful.
The perfect end to a lovely day. I
Have to say it’s not been the easiest of days as I have battled with “my nerves” on and off all day today but I did it!
I got on a ferry, drove around a Scottish island and caught the ferry back… while fighting my anxiety.
I may have to sleep for the rest of the weekend now!
It was a beautiful morning! There was a slight dusting of ice on the van when I left for the Fit Body Farm at 5.30am. For the first time in about 4 months we actually did some of our workout in almost daylight.
I really enjoyed the workout today. I was buzzing and worked hard. It feels great.
The sky was lovely again this morning and it got quite warm when the sun came out. I say warm, it was Scotland warm. 6C or something like that!
So we’re heading over to Lauder today to deliver a customers van. It’s a 2 hour drive and 100 miles. For the first time today I joined the zero club and “almost” ran out of fuel. 😱😱😱
The fuel light came on at Harthill on the M8 which was only halfway and as soon as we turned off the Edinburgh city bypass, the fuel just plummeted. I got to the point when the fuel was down to 5 miles and we still had 15 to go. I was free wheeling down the hill from Soutra. I’ve never been so glad to see a Co-op petrol station!!!! I was sitting at 0 miles for at least the last 5 miles of the drive and I was actually shaking by the time I got to the petrol station. Adrenaline is a funny thing.
Our customer had a small herd of heilan’ coos…… and I couldn’t get a photo of them!!!! They were beautiful.
So here’s a photo of one I took in Nairn just so you know what they looked like 🤣🤣🤣
We hit heavy traffic on the way back so didn’t get back to Tartan HQ until 4pm. A quick day.
It was a beautiful day when I got home. Cold but very sunny so I took the dogs up the hill for a good run. They had lovely Auntie Claire let them out again today.
My anxiety didn’t allow me to ask her to do it twice in one week but worried she would be offended if I asked someone else… this is how my mind works.. so I gave her first refusal. 🤣🤣 so grateful for her help.
They posed beautifully for her.
So back to the walk….. beeeee-U-tiful!
Our lovely villageAndy’s farmBhruic FreyaCalaidhThese branches have fallen at the side of the road I love the colours in the evening light Going Going Now what could be more romantic than walking into the sunset….. shame it’s just with 3 dogs 🤣🤣Close up Loved these almost kissing sheepSun sets over our street
So a good day…. And I have the day off on Monday woo hoo!
Hope you all have a great weekend. I say that and hope that I can manage not to freak out in some way, as I seem to do when I have some time off and no plans…. I feel positive so fingers crossed I can keep it that way.
After a fairly dreich and miserable day we’re getting a lovely sunset tonight.
These are the various views from our garden!
Of course it keeps changing!
I was so close to turning left instead of right, after work and heading to the coast but it looked cloudy and I didn’t think it would be very spectacular. I think I may have been wrong!
It’s calm and still again tonight, the wind has died right back down.
I was later home. I worked until 5. Gone are the days when 5pm would have been an early finish for me. 🥳🎉
This is the view behind me. The whole sky is lit up.
I’m kicking balls for the pups.
They’re having a wee rest in between!
I had another very busy day today… yup I just said that. I’m actually working tomorrow as we’re taking a van down to a customer in Lauder.
I am now standing up on our wee table to get a better view. If anyone looks out the pub window they’ll think I’m off my head.
Wow!
Calaidh just wants the ball!
So back to work… so yeah working tomorrow and then off on Monday instead. Got so much to do that I felt like I was trying to finish up for a fortnight off tonight.
Look at these colours! 🧡💛🧡
It’s all good. I had a few internal revelations over yesterday and today. I realise I get very stressed out by delegating work. This is more because of the way I work. I can’t always explain it and I need to be sitting in front of the thing thinking how best to tackle it to get it done as quickly and as accurately as possible. I get anxious when I can’t explain what I mean or change my mind frequently as I look like I don’t know what I’m doing. The more anxious I behave the more flustered I get. Then I start to really look like I have no idea. Or at least that’s how I see it.
Craig can talk someone through how to work our tv remote…. Remotely. 🤣🤣 Now many of you might laugh here and think, big deal, but I can’t do that. I need the remote in my hand to be able to explain it. I need to see and feel the buttons to be able to work them.
Ok so I’m now heading back in the house as I’m standing on a table in the dark, writing this and the sunset show is over. 🤣🤣🤣
My head is very quick to baulk at certain mental tasks… mental arithmetic just sends it in chaos.
So half of the battle is identifying it… the next step is how to negotiate my way around it.
How ironic is it that so many of my little quotes are in sunset colours today. That is a 100% coincidence…. Funny that eh?!
Let’s start by saying that the doorbell went about 8.30pm last night and it was Louise from next door with 4 hot pancakes as she’d made too many!!! How amazing was that… I hoped for pancakes and they came!
I mean….. wow!
It was fur-eeeeeeeezing this morning. I was cold through to my bones. I spent most of the morning with my shoulders up around my ears… why do we think that makes us warmer?!
The van was frosty at 5.30am when we left for the Farm. By the time I went out, super hubby had already scraped my windscreen. Brownie points there.
I could already see the start of the sunrise when our 6am session kicked off and it was almost light by the time we finished.
5.50am
I really need to watch my power lines in my lovely sunrise photos… 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣
The sun was up by the time I came out the shower.
There are loads of crocuses (or croci) and snowdrops growing at the Farm.
Such a lovely venue and the morning light gives such a warm glow.
There are clouds forming already.
As I drove off down the drive I had to stop and take one last photo.
Now I only work about 20 minutes away from here… it was a lovely drive down but by the time I got there it was all clouded over and within an hour it was raining.
I had the busiest day. I never stopped for breakfast until lunchtime!
A lot of chat again at work today so I took myself round to our local wee takeaway for lunch and had a cheese and ham toastie….. and crisps…. And a cake….. it needed doing!
The day flew in.
We were very lucky to have Claire, next door, letting the puppers out today as Craig couldn’t get home. She sent me a lovely wee clip of her opening the door to them coming running out. So soeakcila.
I rushed home tonight to take them out for a walk in the rain and wind… again!
How many birds are there?!?
It’s really a very spooky tree! I saw my first daffodil this year!
It’s not the prettiest of daffies but it’s a start…. There are sooooo many more to come!
The old lime kilns looked amazing today with all the tree foliage gone before this years grow.
Such a difference from last nights sunset.
The Gateside Hookers are meeting tonight which feels like the first time in ages. We have poppies to concentrate on if we’re going to get anything done in time for November! Let’s see how we get on tonight. I haven’t crocheted in ages!
So no much else to report. I’m still not jumping through hoops of joy this week but I’m managing.
I’m sitting on a large barnacled rock, beside the calmest sea I have seen in a very long time.
The 1st March 2022 has been a beautiful day. Almost warm. The first very welcome sign of spring for sure.
I’m sitting right here. The hustle and bustle of the day far behind me. All I can hear are birds twittering, the sea gently lapping on the rocks, the odd seagull and the low hum of a fishing boat sailing up between Portencross and the Isle of Arran.
The tide is very low. I can’t get down to it as the rocks are so rugged. I have to perch as close as I can and zoom in!
Not. A. Breath.
It’s not often I do this. These photos are all real time and I’m taking them as I go.
I needed this today. I’m ok but I’ve been on the go all day. I’ve had lots of customers in and my chat has all gone. I realise the irony sitting writing all this but it’s so calming and peaceful. Just me, the sea and my thoughts.
That’s the fishing boat. 🎣 🛥
I breathe in deeply and all I can smell is the sea. This is what life is all about. Living in the moment and appreciating it for what it is.
That’s Ailsa Craig in the distance. It’s really clear today. It’s cool but I have my trusty crochet blanket from the van in case it gets too cold.
Craig called the minute I tried to line up this shot… the fishing boat in the sun shimmer… multitasking!
I go for a little wander and manage to get closer to the sea… I may never find my way back up over the rocks…. 🤣🤣
I’m now sitting here!
The seaweed is huge down here. This is so often under water that it’s fascinating to see how different the rocks are from down here. This was all under cover the last day I was here and it was so stormy.
The saying is that if March comes in like a lion, it will go out like a lamb. February was a lion the whole way through. More winds and gales than we’ve seen in a long time. It’s not only the sun but the calm that’s so welcome.
Here’s hoping that March continues just like this.
Sadly from this point on, a giggling couple come out onto the rocks and swear and laugh all the way through sunset. They didn’t even stop to look at it.
A plane takes off from Prestwick right out over the sea.
The giggles have gone now thankfully and it’s back to the peace I had at the start.
My hands are freezing but I don’t want to move from here.
These geese or swans made a right racket!
What an unusual rock! I’m managing to find my way out and still take photos!
Portencross Castle 🏰
Might have been warmer if I just sat in the van. I’m freezing now but it was so worth it.
I’ve had the most lovely time. So very good for the soul.
I’ve impressed myself. I never really thought for one minute I might get this far and collected so many sloth toys!
To recap for those of you who are new to this… very roughly it’s 700 days since we went into lockdown in Scotland. I can’t believe that either…. Now there is some poetic license here as in the olden days I double dunted some day numbers in error… so it’s actually more than that but for the purposes of the Rambling Sloth it’s 700 days.
The Beith Trust asked for people to keep a diary of life in lockdown for future generations to see what we went through.
I’d been off sick with anxiety and depression since September 2018 and had just been made redundant as a result. I had already written a few FB posts about my struggles and realised that writing came naturally to me and I enjoyed it. It also gave me a chance to think about how I am feeling. Journaling is a great tool for mental health. I also hoped that in speaking up that I might help someone else. From the outside I had and have it all. I just really struggle with anxiety and that in turn led to depression.
So here I am…. 🦥
For those of you who have been with me since the beginning. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. God love you ♥️ listening to my ramblings every day for that length of time.
It’s become a part of my daily life now. It’s just what I do.
I’m sitting in the Gateside Inn, drinking a Menobrea 0% beer and quietly writing this in the corner as everyone chats round about me.
So back to today… I slept really well and was up putting washing away at 4.45am this morning in time for the Fit Body Farm.
I take that for granted these days but really should stop to think sometimes that it’s pretty amazing to get up at that time to exercise.
I know I wouldn’t do it at all if I didn’t go first thing. I exercise before I’ve had any time to think about it.
Of course today I was still feeling a little bit sad… I worried about everything on the drive to the Farm and by the time I got there, had tears in my eyes. I should say that these things I’m worrying about are completely irrational. There’s nothing that’s worth worrying about. Anxiety at its best.
I really struggled with my emotions this morning. I was almost in tears 3 times throughout the workout. For no real reason other than I felt overwhelmed and sad.
Yet I kept on going and by the time I had my shower….. (flooding out the door and into the hallway 🤦🏻♀️🥴) I felt better. I also had very sore and heavy arms after the workout but that’s what’s meant to happen!
I still feel very quiet, trying to shrink into the background… but I also had some good level of concentration and focus today.
I was able to delegate tasks at work without worrying about them. I was in control. I laugh at that as I mean I was in control of myself… not everything that was going on around me. 😆
I’m very proud of my journey so far. I do have some difficult days, some where I am so concerned that I’m going to slip back. We make our own happiness and by writing on a daily basis, I try to remember that.
I want to add some more about the very sad situation in Ukraine 🇺🇦 I think it’s affected me more than I realised. My heart breaks for what these people are going through. I’m sad for the world but I have to limit myself to it. I’m very lucky that I can as those poor people cannot.
Take charge of your happiness ♥️
Thank you once again to everyone who takes the time to read my blog. Thanks for all your support.
A very early night last night… and a very quiet start to the day. I feel like a tortoise who’s retracted back into its shell for protection.
Protection from what? I have no idea.
I feel very quiet. I’ve felt a bit like that all week. A reluctance to chat. A desire to merge into the background. At one FBF workout I actually stood behind everyone. It’s funny as I knew I was doing it but quiet and hiding feels safe.
When I woke this morning I felt a profound sense of sadness. I still don’t know why but that’s ok. It is what it is.
Yesterday I wrote down all the bad stuff that was going round in my head. I went back to it this morning and I realise I have actually written some fairly positive things in that diatribe. I know what to do to get out of it. Yesterday I just had to sit with the sadness.
Today feels different. Today I’m taking action.
Instead of being sad at the state of the house I am cleaning. To be fair, I had let it get pretty bad, rather than staying on top of it but even then it only took a couple of hours.
The intense tornado-like rush of feelings from yesterday is nowhere to be seen once it’s done. Only calm.
This next one makes me laugh… be private… and I tell you guys everything. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣
My self care is talking about it, talking it through and making sense of it and maybe my ramblings will help someone else.
Craig is out in the garden pressure washing the back grass so I decided to go out and weed my meadow garden.
Those of you who have followed my blog since lockdown, may remember that I planted lovely meadow flowers right down the back of our garden. My vision…
The reality…..
Now that photo isn’t actually that bad… it looks like I almost made it but the reality was huge, big, tall, gangly weeds that got way out of control and Mr A hated it…. and he was right to.
So today I have weeded out as much as I could and I enjoyed it. Ignore the wheelie bin!
The grass and decking look amazing!
Maybe bows the time to tell him the rest of it needs doing again?!? 🤣
The dogs loved being out with us all day.
Craig was up in this tree cutting down some branches that were overhanging the shed.
He’ll be in agony at the gym tomorrow! He could only reach the branch with his left arm. I was on ground support and did a grand job if I say so myself. 🙄🤭🤣
How true is that. If only the world was as peaceful as my back garden is now.
💙💛
I’m sitting outside in the sun. I have a big jumper on but the sun is warm on my face. It’s been hidden for so long that it’s so lovely to feel it’s warmth.
It’s only forecast to be 7C here but to us Scots, any sign of sunshine can be considered spring or summer!
I’m drinking a lovely alcohol free Cider. Only 50 calories.
I’ve always said that the calm after the anxiety is the best feeling in the world. The calm after the storm.
I think I’m gonna have a bath and a wee pamper afternoon while Craig watches the football. Be kind to myself.
Oooooh I’m sorry as this one won’t be all smart arsed and wise cracks today… it’s not been the best day…. 😢
I had a great sleep but have just been feeling really emotional all day. I have been in tears on and off all day.
Yet today I really do think I’m bad at life.
I took the dogs out earlier and was all over the place. I put my wellies on to take them up the hill into the field, as a woman walked a horse past my front door and headed up the hill…. Well that’s my plan up the swanny… that’s my anxiety talking as I can still walk up the same hill as a woman on a horse. Today… it would appear not.
The walk was fine but I am literally scanning the roads in front and behind me looking for other dogs…. So I can be prepared in case something happens…. I am panicking. Overthinking everything.
I clamber under a fence into this field so I can let them run. Hands and knees into the mud 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
You know… as I write all this I realise how little sense it makes. I don’t need to ramble on about all this.
This next photo says it all to me today. Despite everything you can still grow.
My anxiety has been very unkind to me today. It has questioned everything.
I sat to write it all down as is recommended in the anxiety app that I use. It’s called worry time. It starts with “Jesus, god what the actual hell is wrong with you now”. Scuse the language. No one else would speak to me like that.
I don’t understand myself today. I am fighting an internal battle…. Why can’t you just be happy? Why do you have to make everything so difficult.
These are hard times to live in. Try as I might I cannot miss the dreadful situation in Ukraine. Social media is full of it just now and quite rightly so. I am devastated for these poor people.
I feel very vulnerable.
Yet compared to so many I have nothing to worry about.
I called mum this morning and she answered asking what’s wrong… she knew and and she got it all…… 🙄
Then I threw myself in to painting the kitchen cupboards…. Quite badly to be honest but hey… it helped take my mind off it.
I am very tired of always having to handle it but handle it I will. Again.
I am the only one who invalidates how I feel. My own worst enemy.
A few funnies to finish off so I don’t drag you all down….
The whole point of this daily blog is to let you all see that things may not always be what they seem when you meet someone.
I could just leave that here and end the blog with that. I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.
So this happened…. Almost 6 hours locked out the house today….. all because I went for a dog walk while my wonderful husband was getting ready to go to work. I come home and the house is like Fort Knox and he’s not due home until 4pm.
Calaidh is equally as sad as she is locked in the house while we are outside.
Now…. It’s hardly oh woe is me…. As I do live next door to a pub which opens at 12.30pm and I discover I’m locked out just after 12pm. It’s hardly the end of the world. It’s also dry and warmish in the sun so Bhruic and Freya will survive outside.
I should say here that yes… it would be a really good idea to get an extra key cut. Yes, I’ve been meaning to for ages. We had one in the pub and the guy who tiled our bathroom had it and it’s never been seen since. Hindsight eh?!
I started gardening … i actually did think I’d have to stay in the garden the whole time… maybe I was being a bit dramatic but didn’t want to leave the dogs out by themselves… but then was rescued by my lovely pub owning next door neighbour!
I got cuddles from Leo the pub dog! I had coffee and a bowl of Tomato and Chilli soup.
So this is my view for the next few hours. I’m really very lucky.
So let’s go back a bit…. I had another great sleep and was in bed from 9pm trying to ignore the screams from the living room as Rangers put Borussia Dortmund out of the UEFA Europa League 6-4 on aggregate. Suffice to say Mr A was over the actual moon last night and he was very vocal about it. Rightly so. they did really well.
The moon was a perfect crescent this morning.
The Fit Body Farm was great this morning. I was buzzing today. It was very hard work and I worked really hard at it too. The sky was stunning again this morning.
It’s amazing how much the ground froze between 5.30am and 7am…. It was wet when I got to the Farm and pretty icy when I left.
I watched a young guy, walking down a path in Stewarton, do a comedy skid on the ice!! He really made me laugh as he caught my eye driving past… he couldn’t believe he stayed standing. His eyes were so wide open with shock! He was looking at me as if to say “did you see that?!”
Then a wee fox ran out in front of me right across the road.
It felt like a great morning to be alive. Check me.
I came home and took Calaidh out for a walk with Holly and Leo next door.
I would like to note here that I did not have a shower at this point as it made sense to walk the dogs in the same gear I wore to the gym. Hindsight…. huh…
The sun was HUGE in the sky. It’s a beautiful morning.
So all good… I come home from the Calaidh dog walk and decide not to shower until I’ve walk the other two…. Again hindsight….. great thing, so I’ve heard.
I spent a couple of hours working on the Gateside Memorial Hall Accounts upstairs in my bedroom office. It was lovely and warm with the sun streaming in the windows. I just needed the ice to melt before I walked puppers 2 and 3.
By 11am the ice had gone and set off out with Bhruic and Freya…. Logically still in the same clothes ready for a lovely warm shower on my return.
It was very muddy now that the ice has melted….
Dirty dogs!
It’s starting to cloud over.
And then we got home and tried to walk through the front door… as locked as a locked thing.
Back doors ditto…… so I decided to start gardening…. And the rest is history.
Here we are now…. Sad and homeless. it started to rain so had to bring the dogs inside.. I’d left my muddy boots at the back door of the pub so they are wet inside. My feet are like blocks of ice 🧊
Most folk would just drink the afternoon away…. Not me, Mrs Choose to be Sober when you could have just got sozzled. 🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️🤣🤣
Chips?!?!? Did someone say chips! 🍟
Is dad ever coming home?!?
It’s now 4.31pm and we’re all having a nap now….
At 4.45pm he walked through the door. Hallelujah!
At 4.49pm I was in the shower…. 🚿🧽🧼
I’ve finally thawed out and am recovering on the couch 🤣🤣🤣 such a drama queen.
Happy Friday night to you all. I am super appreciative of my lovely warm house.
The Rambling Sloth 🦥 