Is unsettlement even a word? It seems a bit cumbersome to me…. Anyway, I’m using it as it describes how I feel today.
So yeah, another day’s holiday, another day where Craig’s car doesn’t come out of the garage and another day where I feel ridiculously ungrateful for having a lovely holiday from work AND it’s sunny and not truly appreciating it because it’s not the way I expected it to be.
I am super antsy. Nervous even. My stomach is churning a fair bit today. Now that could be the Indian meal last night but I know it’s not that. I feel uncertain. At a loose end. Bored, yet unable to fill the time with anything useful. I seem to get pleasure in the uncomfortableness. Jeez I’m just making up words now!!
I’m not quite sure what to do with myself. Remind me that next week when I’m back at work and would kill for some time off. Some people are just never happy eh?!?
Kinesiology was good last night and I thought it would make me feel calmer today but I’m not sure if it has. Normally I see instant changes but I think this time it’s more subtle. We covered some new stuff…. My life balance over the last 6 weeks has been at 71%. To be fair I think that is pretty good. That covers spiritual, emotional, mental and physical well-being. I need to look at lifting this by 20% over the next 4 weeks with some mental stimulation.
Don’t know if you remember but I LOVED the puzzles in the magazines I was given when I had COVID that’s second time. So I’ve homework to spend 10 minutes a day for the next 6 weeks doing some puzzles. I’ve don’t it today and I enjoyed it. Use it or lose it as they say!
My general immune system was 7/10, my energy immunity was only 6/10 which means I allow intrusive energies to change how I feel in a day. I do that…. I pick up on so many energies around me and I inhale them right in. My physiological age was 54 (too old!) and my emotional stress index was 51%.
Now I don’t really know what all of that means but the most important thing was my emotional stress index went back up to 88% as a result of the work that we did last night. Oh, that and my physiological age went down to 51. Now there’s still a LONG way to go to get my physiological age to my real age….. ok, like a WHOLE two years… 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️😆 that’s gotta take some work? Right?! 🥴😂
So all in all it’s a positive to work on your mental health. No bad can come of it.
I decided I was going to go to Arran on the ferry today yet when I woke up, I knew I wasn’t in the mood. I figured a lazy day would be just the ticket.
My neighbour Holly asked me out for breakfast and we went to Mocha Jaks (sorry you missed it Mum!). I had Avocado smashed toast with tattie scones.
We took Calaidh and Leo with us. They had doggy sausages!
We had a lovely wee breakfast and bumped into 2 other neighbours, Anne and Brian. Had a lovely wee chat!
We came home and I took Bhruic and Freya out for a good run in the fields. I appreciate how green this is when much of southern England is burnt from the relentless summer sun this year.
This little monkey got stuck in a field and took her ages to figure out she could get through this gap!
The changing faces of Bhruic as she munches on grass!
Then I spotted some more lovely butterflies again.
She who used to be terrified of bees and wasps spent ages trying to get a decent shot of this bee!
Actually I’ve just realised that I’m the most relaxed I’ve been as I sit here and write this as I have some purpose. Honestly I could scream at how difficult I make everything.
This next one is the story of my life….
I have actually done a lot today. As I sit here I’m angry that I’ve not achieved much but I have started a lot. I’ve tried to look into a logo for The Rambling Sloth. Didn’t get very far but it’s a start. I’ve tried to load more photos onto Shutterstock this time. Over half of them wouldn’t load as they weren’t the correct size and now the other half are sitting waiting on tags to allow people to find them in a search.
I’ve tried to start copying the blog over into word with a view to writing it up as a book to sell on Amazon Kindle Digital Printing. It was hard going, I managed 4 days but none of the photos copied over so I might need to rethink that. Take the positives rather than seeing what didn’t go right.
It’s all a start.
And then I get a text….. my Health Kinesiologist has been on a training course today and has been “using” me as a surrogate. She wants to speak to me as she has some updates from where we left it last night…. I have a half hour call with her and everything calms right down and I suddenly feel SOOOO MUCH BETTER.
I know you might think this sounds crazy but it works for me and I trust it. What a relief. I’ll sleep tonight.
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️