I’ve had a headache since Sunday night. It’s never gone away. I was drinking plenty water… tablets didn’t touch it. At 5.50pm tonight it just went away…..

Of course I was at Kinesiology and Shelagh put her healing hands on my head to help me balance and it was gone within minutes. Honestly Kinesiology is addictive.

I’m so much more in tune with energies now that I know when something is out of balance and I need some work done to fix it.

I didn’t sleep that well last night, my headache was keeping me awake… my head was full of noise. My throat was sore.

There were a few tears of frustration at work today.

To manage my anxiety I have been determined to try and stay in control. That means that all my ducks need to be in a perfect row…. The planets need to be aligned….. and anything the interrupts my idea of perfection, which is pretty much absolutely everything, is a huge stress to me. My inner anxious person throws her hands up in the air and you’d think the world was ending. 🤷🏻‍♀️😤

No one else is bothered. Only me. I should have done better, should have remembered to do that, should have, should have…. What if…. What if… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ it’s no wonder my head hurts.

I then get upset at my upset at the situation. When will I ever be able not to stress and worry about the day I never saw.

So kinesiology tonight was all about my fear of the future and control… surprise, surprise. 😬

I’ve mentioned my fear of the future before. I’m trying the big 5…0 this year and I’m terrified that life is passing me by. I see so many things telling me that life is short and I must live it to the full.

On the other hand I know I should be truly grateful to have made it to this age when so many others have not.

There are still so many places I want to visit. I want to travel and write about it while taking beautiful pictures. (I may blow up my iCloud storage if that were actually the case!!)

So we worked tonight to take the stress out of those feelings. Mine is not to reason what my future holds, merely to believe that whatever it is will be right for me. The present moment is contributing to any future I will have. To be grateful for the present is the best way to attract a grateful future.

Then onto control…. I believe that I need to be in full control of everything in order to remain calm. This control means I can’t have any excitement in my life as excitement can be synonymous with anxiety… that’s s big word…. Not even sure I used it in the right context. I’m sticking with it though. 😂

I’m looking forward to seeing how this pans out over the next few days as it’s always lovely to see the changes that this energy work brings. I know how off the wall this all sounds. But trust me, it’s the best.

The calm after anxiety is always such a welcome relief. It’s only 8.30pm and I’m watching Pride and Prejudice on Netflix. That’s not usually my cup of tea but I’m enjoying the fanciful nature of it.

I want to watch The Handmaid’s Tale on Plex but Craig’s laptop needs to be working for that and I don’t know the password. He’s at work. Plex is hard work in our house. Or that might be me that’s hard work. 😬🤣

Yes that is more likely. 😂

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️