Day 1816 Happy Mother’s Day (UK)

Isn’t it funny how the world is so much smaller now that I feel the need to say Mother’s Day UK as my title…. 😆 I know how much I panic when I see the worldwide Mother’s Day and think I’ve missed it!!

Our clocks went back last night so I woke at 6.30 which was actually 7.30am. We will do this for months now, won’t we?!

I’m nnot going to see Mum today. We cancelled yesterday as I hadn’t been well.

I have to be honest and say my poor, lovely Mum had to invite me in the first place. I’ve been so low in energy that I’d bought a card and a gift, weeks back, but I hadn’t finalised my plans to go through. I’d had a busy weekend planned and I knew I’d stress having to commit to the Sunday as well. It feels so very selfish. I had planned to get up early and go through for church, to surprise Mum, as I’ve done before, but I hadn’t committed it fully, even in my own head. I felt like the worst daughter when she asked me to come over. How awful after everything she does for me, to have to ask me to come. Maybe me just looking for another stick to hit myself with.

Truth is, I’ve been exhausted for weeks.

Running on empty.

I do what I have to do.

The bare minimum.

I have no drive or enthusiasm. I actually feel as zoned out as I did when I was on a high dose of Setroline antidepressants.

So one way or another I’m going to get to the bottom of this as I need to wake up and get my energy back.

Anyway back to Mother’s Day. I’ve said here before we were never able to have kids… for no real reason. We tried for a long time. I had 6 sessions of IUI which was incredibly hard alongside the most stressful job. Imagine leaving a meeting where you are being shouted and screamed at, to inject your tummy, in the toilets, bang on midday… with hindsight it was never going to happen. We made peace with that a long time ago.

Hence the millions of dogs we have collected 😆

Craig did a lovely post on Scottish Dog Behaviourist today. Click the link to see it. He is very good with words.

So back to my Mum. She puts up with everything and listens to it all. I’m really enjoying our mini adventures that we’ve been having over the last few years. Making lovely memories.

So here’s to many more of these. The smiles say it all.

Thinking of the lovely ladies in my life, who are no longer with us.

This is my lovely Nana. ♥️

And my lovely Gran. 💜

And my lovely mother in law, Helen.

She’ll kill me for this photo but I love it and it will always make me smile!!! Can you hear the sound of the sea in a glass?!?!

There are so many women in my life that have helped shape me. I am grateful for them all.

Thinking of everyone who is sad today… it’s a tough one to navigate for lots of reasons.

The sun is shining here. I’m alternating between sitting on the couch and going outside to throw balls for the dogs.

Craig is away with Calaidh and Khaleesi to see his Mum today. Rumour has it there may be a wee food parcel coming my way when he comes home.

I hope you’ve all had a lovely day.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️