Day 1809 don’t try to fix a tent zip when your head’s not in the right place.. and other stories 😆

I didn’t feel great as soon as I opened my eyes this morning.

I’d had a straight 8/9 hour sleep and woke up feeling exhausted.

I can’t think straight.

My head feels full of cotton wool.

It feels like nothing else matters except rest.

I feel so bad because Craig is so busy with work right now I feel like I should be more alert.

It’s ridiculous but I’m so tired. I’ve actually taken to dictating this through voice notes. Who knew that was a thing?!? I suppose smiling at that!

The dogs were great this morning and let us sleep and it was about 830 before I got up.

I came downstairs, let them outside and started to build a fire in the wood burner. I got the coffee on. I had the room all cosy for Craig getting up.

We have coffee and lots of puppy cuddles. All 4 of them get a check to come up and sit in between us.

Calaidh is particularly happy about her turn 😆

There are lots of tennis balls 🎾 and then the fun ends when Bhruic steals the ball that Calaidh wants.

It’s under Bhru’s chin… don’t let her little sweetness and light look fool you.

Meanwhile Calaidh is sitting on Khaleesi as she gives Bhru the death stare.

I didn’t move until 10.45 when I started the dog walks.

I listened to the sound of the birds. I watch the single deer 🦌 try to decide which way to go, to get away from us.

It’s cloudy and overcast but it’s a lovely morning. Very peaceful.

I’m really sorry that I feel like I’m moaning all the time these days. There is no real reason for it, there is nothing particularly bad happening.

I just can’t seem to be content.

Speaking of tents…. See what I did there?!

We have a small 4 man tent that we keep as a spare that I’d like to use it to go away camping…. It’s got a broken zip so I thought I’d escape my head and go and fix it.

I get the tent up in the back garden and I fix the zip…. It takes some time but I get it back on the runners.

I am so pleased.

It’s not running perfectly so I get the zip wax.

I wax the zip.

I go for the pliers to tighten the actual zip head.

There’s a satisfying SNIP.

I didn’t want a satisfying snip.

My pliers are snips.

It sliced through the zip.

Right in the middle.

And it gets so much worse.

It was the outside zip that was broken.

I snipped the inside zip.

That was the one that still worked.

I cried for our lovely tent.

Never try to fix a tent zip when your heads not the best.

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I stuff the tent back in the bag.

And sat down to face Donna Ashworth’s question today…. 5 ways in which you are beautiful written from the point of view of your fiercest admirer. I’d run a mile when I saw it this morning.

I opened up Donna’s book To The Women, at this page.

I put Spotify on, got my pen ready and James blunt belted out You’re Beautiful.

Wonderful synchronicity.

We have to take the small moments. The small wins, the small joys.

They all build up into something bigger and one day sadness will be gone.

Thanks for getting this far…

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️