It’s 8°C so there’s no longer any black ice but the rain is causing flooding all over.
I’ve not felt 100% today…. I’m fine, I’m just not on my A game.
Everything has been screaming at me to rest as I tried to push on through.
I really wanted to work on Her Travel Circle today but my head wouldn’t clear enough to concentrate on anything.
Nothing was working. “you need to rest”
I need Craig for this but “you need to rest”
I cannot login to this “you need to rest”
Why am I so useless “you’re not, you need to rest”
Nothing is going to work today “yes it is, you just need to rest”
How often do we fight that compassionate voice in our head?
It’s 4.10pm and I’m still fighting it… though in writing it down like this, I may actually accept I “need to rest”.
Her Travel Circle is doing so well. It’s been full on since one of my TikTok posts went a bit wild on Thursday. It’s sitting at 46.3k views which is nowhere near viral, but it’s viral for me!!!
Sober Fish posted this, she’s a great follow
I’m not complaining at all, I just have to make sure I still get a bit of downtime. That said, businesses do not build themselves!!
We had to go out about 2pm and the roads are so flooded…. And still the rain teems down.
My head is buzzing with so many things I need to do, want to do, would like to do, think I should do but I’m going to try and switch off this evening. It’s giving me a headache. 🫣😆
In all that time I’ve only grown about 750 followers but I seem to get so much out of sitting down and reviewing my day.
As things get busier with Her Travel Circle I might not have as much time but I should really make the time.
It calms me.
I take a step out of whatever reality I’m living and just breathe.
It’s that simple.
There are days when things happen to me that I cannot share, mostly as they may have a huge impact on me, but it is not my story to tell. I find those days difficult as there is something bursting inside of me to get out.
I got into trouble in primary 1 at school for always wanting to be part of show and tell… even when I’ve nothing to show or tell…. I’ve always wanted to talk! I know, I know…. Some of you are shocked….
So on a round number day I usually share my stats but life has changed so much this year now that I’m back on antidepressants.
I am so much calmer, so much less anxious, so much more in control.
Life with anxiety is so hard and I think more women suffer from it than not. Mine just broke me, back in 2018, but I see now, it was because I needed to break to be reborn.
Yes that sounds corny and dramatic but that’s really what happened.
I have never really been ME until now. I was always who YOU wanted me to be or the person I thought everyone expected me to be.
I’ve said before that Craig married a Manager in the Scottish manufacturing industry, who went to conferences and customer visits all suited and in high heels and look at me now…
So back to today.
I was up at 5.45 and on the train to Glasgow by 7.10am.
It’s a stunning train ride from Glasgow up to Oban but it started in the dark!
Once out of Glasgow, the train hugs the Firth of Clyde estuary then Loch Goil, Loch Long and Loch Lomond!
I match the Christmas tree in Queen Street Station!
It was stunning. It’s cloudy but high level cloud.
Dirty windows but this is the Cobbler, Ben Arthur.
The train is FREEZING!!!! The first carriage is completely empty.
This was the lovely sight that greeted me as I got off the train! Awwwww 🩵🩵
We went for brunch and then for a wander around the sights and the shops.
Check the seagull !!!
This is the view from mum and dad’s room!!! Said hi to dad and left them to rest and I went off out again.
I climbed the stairs to McCaigs Folly.
Just in time for sunset.
This wee robin was right at my feet for ages.
Back down to the sea looking up at the Folly in the skyline.
My soup was like plaster for the walls… you could stand the spoon up in it but it tasted so good despite the grated finger!
It wouldn’t stop bleeding again this morning so I’ve now got a plaster on it, it’s just where it is! It turns out I use my right thumb for almost everything… who knew?!
I am shattered today… really dog tired. I didn’t sleep great last night and woke at 4.40am wide awake and head buzzing about my Her Travel Circle TikTok reaching 38,854 people so far!!
I’ve gained 1,149 followers on TikTok as a result of that one post!
Her Travel Circle now had 117 active members and 17 hosts. It’s exciting!!!
Here they all are!
Women can travel solo and stay in all of these homes for free! if the other woman likes you enough that is….. obviously!!
So yeah. I am knackered and I need to shut my phone down for a bit this evening.
I’m off to Oban at 7am tomorrow to meet Mum and Dad up there for a lovely wee night away. Poor Craigie has to work so can’t come. It was last minute and he’s fully booked!
So I’m off to my favourite Scottish town with my favourite Scottish parents for a wee gallivant.
I’m taking the train which I’m very glad about now.
We might get snow!!
I am hoping that the clouds clear for some blue sky….. 🤞🏼
I woke at 5am this morning as we were meant to be running. I was to check the weather outside when my alarm went off and by the time I woke up the girls had already agreed it was too icy to run.
I was actually gutted as I really wanted to run this morning, but a TikTok post that I had done for her travel Circle, last night, was going viral and I was getting millions of comments that I had to try and reply to, so actually I was able to do that before I went to work and then had to catch up with loads of them at lunchtime and then again after work I feel like I’ve been on my phone every spare minute of the day! That was a very long sentence, but I’m actually dictating this as I’m so tired I don’t want to type. It’s very hard to dictate the blog when you are used to typing it.
The lovely Coffee & Quotes
I also sliced my thumb on a grater, grating carrots so I’m struggling to type as well.
So back to my morning, before I went to work I I put a washing in the machine and hung that washing up. I cleaned the bathroom. I even cleaned the tiles right up to the ceiling which I haven’t done for years, shamed to admit.
It’s been a good day. I got loads done at work, my head’s been clear and focused. I took bags to the charity shop on the way home from work!
Anna Grace Taylor
I came home and made lentil soup to take to work so that Ellison and I can have it for lunch tomorrow. Check me.. I’ve been eating hers all week…, this is like taking soup to the SOUP MASTER!!! I wonder what she’ll think of it?!
I’m really tired now though, so I’m gonna put this out and I think I might have a very early night….. not like me I know.
I won’t be dictating the blog very often as it feels very strange.
On the positive side today, not that there weren’t any negative sides, Her Travel Circle has 15 hosts and over 100 members now which is great news!
Hope you all have a great Wednesday night!
Wonder if Ellison will notice my slice of finger in the soup?!?! 😆
It was -7°C when I left fhe house this morning and I couldn’t get into the drivers side of the car. I managed to get the passenger door open and I squeezed across the centre console to start the car. I then had to squeeze across the centre console to get back out of the car and start trying to defrost it. 😆
The de-icer was freezing on the car. I tried the hot water in a ziploc bag but it melted the frost on the windows which then iced straight back up again.
It took me 20 minutes and I even had help from Claire.
It was a beautiful drive into work.
The land is dark and the sky is navy blue with a dark orange band along the horizon. Every tree and structure is the perfect silhouette.
I want to take photos all the way in…. Instead I take deep breaths and appreciate the beauty.
Apart from the climbing in the car and scraping it was a beautiful start to the day.
It was equally lovely on the way home.
Craig had the wood burning stove on for me so I’ve had dinner (which, like lunch, involved green salad and fresh veg…. Check me!) and I’m now in my comfies cuddling with the dogs.
I had the best morning taking photos of the Wolf Moon and the sunrise this morning.
This was the mon at 6.30am when I first woke up. It’s way bigger or brighter than it looks in the photos.
I feel much brighter today. We had a lovely evening with Claire & Graeme last night.
My head is clearer today. I’m not angry or irritable. I’m tired but that’s ok.
I harnessed up the puppers and set off about 8.30am.
It was so cold until the sun came up!
We stopped a lot for photos.
And then the sun started to rise.
Our wolves and the wolf moon.
And then I started to play with the setting moon.
It’s tiny on the horizon now.
Unless you zoom in.
These are the flowers that Claire brought me last night, aren’t they beautiful?!
So for the rest of the day I’ve tidied the house, put washing away and done new washing, we took the Christmas tree down and tidied up after that. I had a lovely lunch with last nights leftovers. This was last nights food….
And I got my jammies on and sat under a crochet blanket to write this and watch Absentia on Netflix.
The fire’s on so it’s super cosy in here.
I go back to work tomorrow.
Reality kicks back in.
It’s been an amazing holiday.
I’ve loved every minute of it apart from yesterday’s irritation.
Look at how much money I have saved by not drinking….. £19,700.
I have not drank 17,500 units of alcohol, that’s gotta be a good thing, right?!
7 years since I started dry January.
7 years since I started one of the most difficult challenges of my life, but I hated the person I had become.
I had been off sick from work for 3 months. I’d actually just gone back to work but that only lasted another 5 months…. And then I was done for good.
I was cast aside by the industry that had made me ill.
Actually let’s be clear here…. I was working for a few men that were far too political and far too aggressive or my people pleasing personality. They tied me up in knots. The spoke to me like shit but I tried to be kind to my team and I just got crushed in the middle.
It was never the career for me, never the industry for me…. I just didn’t know any better.
I did well in school, went to Uni like a good girl, got a good job and worked very hard at it. Only to be slapped in the face over and over and over.
I was a shadow of my former self and wine was the only thing that made me smile… until it didn’t.
It was never just one glass.
I started to black out. I appeared to be the life and soul of the party but inside I was breaking.
Stopping drinking was so very hard in culture that uses alcohol to celebrate everything.
It was especially hard as our life revolved around the village pub but I was determined.
I only had a couple of wobbles and felt like death afterwards. The second one strengthened my resolve.
I am a much better version of myself since I stopped.
My life is completely different but I put my needs first now.
I might seem dull to some but I’ve finally found peace. No more trying to fit in.
I have to face everything head on without any numbing… except as I say that, I realise my antidepressants numb me more than anything but you know what I mean.
I still find it really hard at times, it feels unfair and I can feel left out but honestly, this is right path for me.
100% present in the moment.
I woke at 5.30 and got out of bed…. Determined to spend some time on Donna Ashworth’s journal for 2026.
I headed out the front door to marvel at the almost full moon.
Everything was so bright.
I settled down next to the Christmas tree which is very dry, despite being full of water.
Then I got the dogs to pose!
I started the journal and chose the word RIPPLES for the year. I want to see the ripples flow from me, positivity, kindness around the world. Dramatic eh?!
I chose DREAM for January as it will allow me to manifest and focus on abundance but also to rest and relax.
And that’s what’s I did all day.
I tried to go outside and cut up kindling with Craig’s wood cutting thing…. But it scared me a wee bit as a few bits bounced back to hit me…. Think it was a bit above my pay grade that machine!
It was a beautiful but very cold day and I chose to sit under a blanket and watch Broadchurch on tv.
I was cuddled up with the pups.
I felt bad then I felt relaxed and then I felt guilt and then I relaxed.
I needed a rest after all the busy-ness of the last week or so.
Broadchurch was amazing and that’s it done so I can get on with my life now!
Craig’s not stopped all day, he’s been building a woodshed!
We were in bed by 9.30pm last night and never saw the bells!!
I had the best sleep though!
I have never liked Hogmanay or New Year for some reason.
It turns out I was never a big party girl and it always felt like the one day of the year I was forced to celebrate. Jeez I sound like a barrel of laughs don’t I?!?
I woke about 5.30 for an hour or so and then again about 8.30am.
It was lovely to be up that early on New Year’s Day.
I have to be honest and say this doesn’t feel like a new year at all. Not sure why, maybe missing the bells has a lot to do with it.
This holiday is going way too fast!
I did have a lovely morning not having to be anywhere at a set time.
We had bacon rolls and coffee for breakfast then took the dogs out for a black ice walk!
It was a lovely morning. Quite unexpected as I thought it was going to be wet and windy!
Craig’s mum and stepdad came down to give me my Christmas present as they’d left it at home Christmas Day! I got a fantastic head torch, among other things. Can’t wait to use it.
We then got ready and headed into the village pub for the big village New Year’s Day!
The sunset was lovely too.
The moon is huge.
It’s lighting up the roof of the house at the end.
This holiday has gone so quickly, probably because of all the running!!
I’ve now ran 45kms since Christmas Eve.
I can’t believe it.
I don’t know where it came from.
I don’t know why I chose to do it.
Yet I have loved it.
Not every minute of it…..obviously… but it’s become a bit on an addiction!
I’m done now.
Until Saturday anyway.
This is my current reality.
This morning I woke at 6 and dozed on and off until 7.45am.
We were meeting to complete our last run of the year and heading to Irvine Beach.
There were 4 of us today. Caryn, Elly, Lynsey and myself.
The weather wasn’t as good as we hoped. It was damp and very windy. But beautiful. 🤩
The reflections are lovely.
Now this is Lynsey…… you all think I’m crazy with all this running but this is her completing 750 miles running for 2025!
How amazing is that?!? What an achievement.
I am so grateful to Lynsey, Rachel and Claire for always being available to help with my running. There is always one of us running a Wednesday and a Saturday.
They make it easy for me. They meet outside my house.
Running isn’t easy but the feeling afterwards is just the best feeling in the world.
I am very proud of myself for running at a time when it would be easy to lounge about and just keep eating.
The lovely weather has definitely helped.
And we are done for 2025… another 6.15kms.
We went to Gro Coffee for a takeaway latte to celebrate!
I took photos of the cakes but, after all that exercise, I didn’t fancy one.
This was the lovely fireplace in Gro!
Congratulations Lynsey!!
A well deserved cuppa!
Craig is making bacon rolls for us.
Today will be a lazy day I think.
I’ve hit the wall… 😆
I want to take this opportunity to thank everyone who reads my blog.
I know most people dip in and out but the ere are some people are there every single day.
That’s commitment!
I’m coming up to 6 years of writing this on the daily.
I’m still not certain how The Rambling Sloth fits with Her Travel Circle but I’m sure that will come.
For now I’d like to wish you all a calm and peaceful New Year.
2026 won’t be better than 2025. There will be highs and lows, we accept that now.
I didn’t sleep well last night. Maybe too much caffeine…. Not sure but my mind was on alert all night and I felt like I never slept and yet I actually know I must have.
I headed out with the dogs at 6.3am.
It was so dark. It was so calm. So lovely. So special. So very cold.
I feel like I could feel the calm just looking back at those photos.
Then I got home… emptied the dishwasher and picked up the Pirex jug and it EXPLODED in my hand. Literally into a million pieces.
It was everywhere. Shattered glass.
In the dog water bowl, the cupboard, ALL over the floor and thankfully only two tiny pieces in my hand.
It was 7.15am and I was meeting Lynsey at 7.30am and I had to scrape the very frozen car first….. so I was late. 🫣😆
Lynsey and I started our run about 7.40am and the sky was just starting to get light.
It was cold and beautiful. Just the plod of our feet on the tarmac.
These were just logs but it looks like a cat I. The sunrise.
I love this one.
This is us half way.
The clouds were amazing and all along we pointed things out to each other… different colours, shapes and patterns.
And just as the sun is rising, we are done.
I ran 10kms for the first time in a year and a half and it wasn’t hard. I loved almost every minute of it.
So proud of my running just now and I love it.
My hi vis jacket looks pink…. I am so glad of the rest.
It’s now 9.04am.
I’m meeting Lea at 9.30am….. I have to drive home… showe, dry my hair, dress and drive 30 minutes to get to Silverburn Shopping Centre.
I was going to be late.
I got ready in under 15 minutes…. It’s amazing what you can do when you set your mind to it.
We had a lovely Starbucks and catch up.
I got home at 1 ish, made 4 dog behaviour calls and booked two.
Played with the dogs outside and settled back down to watch Broadchurch.
We woke early and both feel back to sleep. This is the first day I haven’t run since Christmas Eve…. I missed it but I was very glad of the rest. Gayle says she is going to have to unfollow me as I’m far too energetic. 😆😆
I picked Gayle up at 8.50 and we headed out to Largs as I had the Optician at 9.35.
I need new glasses…. I knew that was coming.
I didn’t try any glasses on but Gayle and I went for breakfast at Perk Largs. I had a lovely veggie haggis and tattie scone roll with a coconut milk latte. It was really good.
We then went back into SpecSavers and met Evelyn and another lovely couple all from near us! It was like a Beith day out!!
I’ve narrowed down the glasses, I took photos of the ones I prefer although the pics don’t do them justice at all. I’ll head back with Craig sometime to pick some. I have varifocals so they are not cheap. 🫣
I have photos of me wearing them but I look like a convict 🫣😆
It was a lovely calm and clear morning!
We had to head home at the back of 12 and I got to see Gayle’s lovely new house!
I came home and don’t know where the afternoon went…. I stuck my comfies on and Craig and I watched The Women in Cabin 10 on Netflix which was really good.
We’re having a roast beef dinner tonight, I put the beef in the slow cooker before I left this morning… check me!
Love this pic of Bhru lying in her bed watching tv. Cutie.
After 3 full days of socialising, my social battery is drained.
I’ve had a lovely Christmas.
I’ve not felt Christmassy at all really, that’s part of if has passed on a bit of a blur, but I have loved catching up with family and friends. I’ve loved getting as dressed up as I manage to get these days. I’ve loved wearing a bit of makeup and making an effort with my hair. I’ve loved it all.
I’ve loved all the running that I’ve done. I’m now up at 29kms since Christmas Eve! I seem obsessed.
And now I have hit a wall.
I sit here next to the Christmas tree in my new tartan jammies .
I have Christmas wax melts in all the burners and the house smells lovely.
I’ve put all my presents away.
The dogs are shattered after their walk.
The house is cleaner after I’ve cleared out my clothes and got two bags for charity.
So I woke at 6.50 and was running at 7.15am with Blair and Lynsey today. Lynsey wanted to run a 10k and Blair’s is more than capable of doing that too. I planned to turn at 2.5k and head back to Lynsey’s house…. And yet it kept going.
I slowed and hung back for a bit which meant I could take photos…. Obviously.
Those wee lights are the girls running back to me!
I ran for 4.5kms so that I could get a breather before they turned back around.
The cloud is my breath!!!
Running along the main road.
A beautiful sunrise.
And we’re done. 10kms for the girls and 9kms for me.
I honestly can’t believe how much I have run these holidays. I’m so proud of myself for doing it.
I did lose one of my running gloves though. I was gutted!
I came home and did a poo pick in the garden (🤮) then took the puppers up the hill…. The sun was just coming up.
Scotland 🏴 flag in the sky!
It was a lovely walk.
I then did some stretching I. The garden and spotted this little robin….. we always say that it’s Khaleesi come to play.
After my shower I decided to drive the running route and look for my glove!!! I found it!!
I’m so chuffed!!
I cleared out all my clothes again, tidied up the house and sat down or collapsed in a heap more like.
We had a lovely day yesterday at Craig’s bother and sister in laws up in Alloa.
The have 3 lovely Shelties and my in laws Chihuahua was also there so we left ours and home being let out by our neighbours.
Willow.
Astrid.
Cassie.
Cookie!
With my lovely mother in law!
Craig with her brother, sister and mum. I got some lovely family photos!
The two sis in laws!
Another lovely day out. We’ve been so very lucky being waited on hand and foot by all our lovely family and friends.
I hope you’ve enjoyed the festive season and if you haven’t, I hope you’ve enjoyed find some peace now that this part is over. I’m cuddled up with Freya now and all is well with the world.
Didn’t sleep quite as well last night, it’s all this high living!
We were running again today at 8.30am and this is the best photo of sunrise that I got.
Turns out I’m not as bouncy a runner under the dark grey as I am under a bright blue sky!
Rachel and I show off our new running jackets!
I had heavy legs but it was a great run this morning. That’s 20kms in the last 4 days!!
I forgot to talk about one of my favourite Christmas pressies this year.
The lovely Aileen, who reads this blog, was going to Iceland 🇮🇸, at the start of December, and I asked if she would pick up some of my favourite socks, ever, in the history of favourite socks.
I hummed and hawed about asking her as I didn’t want anyone to have to go out their way but I’m so glad I asked her. 🥳🥳🥳
I can’t wait to wear them.
These are a pair I had previously!
I’m sitting under Craig’s blanket. I’ve had a shower and washed my hair but I’m tired.
We’re back out at 2pm to go to Craig’s brother’s today!
So let me tell you about yesterday.
I had a really lovely day with my side of the family. We don’t get together often enough and we were able to take the puppers with us too!
Watching dad to get the car ready for a roadtrip!
And we’re all secured and on our way!
Just before we let them out…. Bless them! 😆
Getting their pep talk about being good girls!
After a bit of excitement, all is calm. The Christmas tree is lovely!
Couldn’t resist a wee pose!
We had canapés and did presents . Mum and dad are unwrapping a joint present.
Christmas hat selfie with mum.
The girls having their dinner.
While we had ours.
With a wee pose in the garden!
I love this one!
Me and my wee bro!
Table selfie!
Dinner was amazing! My brother and sis in law are both excellent cooks. This limoncello and raspberry trifle was exquisite.
Tired girls!
I took so many photos of the men….. dad has a bottle of whisky he got when he was 50!! They planned a video of opening it so they could send it to Dad’s friends, the ones who bought it.
It was lovely to watch.
My clever nephew plays the bagpipes. He was the music backdrop to the whisky opening. It was magical! I’m so very proud of the person he has become. I’ve not spent enough time with any of them over the last few years. Ten or twenty years even.
I watched on with so much love. (Jeez that brought tears…. Lovely tears!)
We had laughs, we had giggles, we shared the most lovely day…. Yeah I know I hear myself. Where has the other Julie gone?!?
I took so many photos of them. I don’t normally share them on here but I hope they don’t mind.
So the very old Balvenie whisky had corked!!
Craig looked up the internet and this is dad blowing into a plastic bag to try and and pull the cork out of the bottle. He got wee bits out but not the main cork!
Next step operation draining into a jug and cleaning out the bottle, and refilling. That worked.
And just like that it’s time to head home.
My word for December is Happiness and all of these lovely get togethers are bringing me lots of happiness this year. Normally I’d be so stressed having to pack everything and feeling like I’d HAD to go somewhere and having to take the dogs was next level.
I’m so happy that this year has been different.
However this is the reality right now.
I’m so sleepy…..
Only another hour and a half and we’re off out again!
I’m not massively Christmassy as, despite helping in the little gift shop, it’s crept up on me!
I am definitely feeling the love.
I slept like a log and was so grateful to wake at 7.10am!!!
We did have a strange thing in the night where we thought someone was trying to get into our house and Craig got dressed and headed downstairs with a baseball bat!! Do not mess with Craig on a dark night. We’ve no idea what it was but thankfully we both fell back to sleep.
We had the most beautiful Christmas Eve sunrise run this morning.
There were 5 of us to start but poor Blair brought one of her trainers and her husband’s trainers so had to miss out. We got a photo at the start.
Three runners on the brow of the hill!!
Shoogly action shot!
I love this last one. Honestly had the loveliest run and told the girls how much it meant that we all ran together so consistently.
Quick shower and ready for the little gift shop!
It was so busy and I was so happy for Gayle. It honestly never stopped. Lovely people coming in right up until 3pm!!
Gayle brought me in a Curiosity Hot Chocolate… lovey!
The sun is lovely when we leave the shop!
Merry Christmas from our house to yours.
We’re having a lovely roast chicken dinner tonight, just the two of us.
Thank you to everyone who follows my daily blog. It means the world to me.