Day 1986 out of the office!!

I have to say one thing…..

Today was my last day at work and it doesn’t feel like an out of office at my old work.

I used to be crawling to the finish line in my old job.

I was desperate for rest.

Desperate for the break.

Desperate to be away from the negativity.

I think I have finally created a life that I don’t have to run away from.

Let’s read that again….. wow.

It could be the antidepressants affecting me but I honestly have managed to find some peace in every day just now.

I don’t crave it because I have it.

I don’t kick off inside my head when things don’t go my way.

I smile inwardly and get on with the thing I wasn’t expecting and am proud of myself for achieving it.

There was no panic today.

Just control.

I won’t have done everything right.

It won’t all be perfect.

But something really clicked with me today….. I finally don’t feel like everything is my fault.

That’s huge.

I have lived my life thinking that everything WAS my fault.

I took ownership of all failure, all mistakes. What could I have done better?

Now it just is.

Oopsie.

Yup I said Oopsie 😆😆😆

How good is that?!?

I’m not naive enough to think this may always be the case but it’s lovely to realise.

So yeah…. We’ve just had dinner. Craig has finally stopped working after about 20 days on the trot…. Probably more. We need this time to enjoy each other’s company. 10 whole days…. What on earth will we talk about?!?

Good thing Rachel two doors down has given me about 20 books!!!

So final packing tonight.

Running at 5.45am.

Dog walks

Housework.

Lift to the airport from my lovely father in law!

And relax.

I’ll not make any rules about the blog…. I know if I say I won’t post, I will, so let’s just see how it goes.

See you abroad!! 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 🛫🇬🇷

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️