Day 1858 swimming in the sea, in Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 (!) AND bathing 3 Border Collies 🛁

I’ve had a lovely day today.

I thought long and hard about my decision to go back onto antidepressants, which I mentioned in last night’s blog.

I don’t have to share a personal decision I have had to make, but for some reason I always feel compelled to tell the truth…. In the hope it will help someone else.

I am just really struggling just now.

There were tears when I woke this morning as I approached the day with dread.

It’s a sunny Sunday, a lovely day off and yet it filled me with sadness.

My mood is just running dark.

That doesn’t mean I hate my life…. It just the dread of having to put a brave face on…. It’s hard work sometimes but you can’t be miserable all the time.

And yet I still have to. I can’t drag everyone else into it all…. So I tell you instead 😆

I decided to head up to Home Bargains for it opening. We had run out of everything and I hate to pay full price so love a wee home bargains.

I spent £106…. That’s a lot of stuff… but we are back stocked up with everything and I can breathe a sigh of relief.

I stress when we run out but I stress at having to go get them too. No wonder I’m always tired.

Ellison messaged early but I didn’t see it until after 11am. Her and her sister were at the beach.

🤔😬

I wanted a quiet day but I decided to go as I knew I’d really enjoy it. Craig was watching the football at 12 so perfect timing.

It was soooooooooooo lovely.

It was cloudier but hotter than it’s been, and I just loved it.

I sat and had a wee picnic lunch.

Then went for a paddle as the girls sat on the beach.

Seamill Beach in West Kilbride is just the best for paddling. It’s all sandy and shallow quite far out.

The sea was really calm. I love the reflection of the sun on the water and the patterns on the sand underneath.

The Isle of Arran looking mean and moody in the distance.

The sea was cold but you soon get used to it.

I went back to the girls and said that I really thought I could go in for a swim.

Eileen had been in already but they were both keen….. so off we went.

It’s Scotland on 11th May and I swam in the sea… in only a swimming cozzie for over 20 minutes.

Well I didn’t really swim to be honest, I just bobbed around but it was just the best feeling.

Like the paddling, it’s cold but you get used it. The nether regions are always the worst but I once they’re numb, you’re fine 😆😆😆

We were really far out. West Kilbride looks lovely in the sun. ☀️

I took my camera out in its waterproof pouch. I could t see a thing without my glasses but the photos came out ok.

Some lovely girls on a paddle board asked if we wanted our photos taken! They were so nice. We all watched a seal for a while. They were scared it would “get them!” I was quick to remind them that the 3 of them were on a paddle board and we were the ones “in” the sea!! We’d be getting “got” first if anyone was!

We came out when we were cold and sat by these lovely sad dunes to warm up.

The warmth in the sun was so welcome. It’s been about 19°C here which is pretty much a summers day for us.

I was back home for after 3pm.

Craig had been washing the car and there was a bit of an accident with the pressure washer…. The hose came off and had been flooding the garden. In the mud. Bhruic was in the middle of it.

Right in the middle of it.

This is what she usually looks like.

Freya was close by.

Khaleesi got her paws in it too.

Calaidh had been playing with a bit of charcoaled wood…. Her paws were black.

Next stop bath time for 3 Border Collies…. I put my swimming costume back on and got in the shower with them. No photos. It was stressful enough 😆

But they are clean and it’s hot enough for them to dry before it gets dark.

Hope you all had a lovely weekend.

Stay safe everyone ☀️☀️☀️