Day 1845 not my best day 🥴🫣

I’m not in a great headspace today.

I’m still so tired and I have the cold.

In true Julie fashion, I fight it all of the way….

Why am I so tired?

Why am I always tired?

Why does it affect me so much?

Why can’t I stop yawning?

There’s a kid inside of me throwing a right strop….

I’m not fasting, I’m eating regular meals… maybe still not the best of nutrition all the time but certainly, no worse than most people and yet I am exhausted. (Of course I’ve put on most 9lbs already….)

I get plenty of sleep. I’m dead to the world.

I’m close to tears all morning as I get ready.

The voice inside my head is not kind at all.

What’s wrong now?!?

It’s raging with me.

I’m raging with myself. (You’re such a drama queen).

The tears started as soon as I told Craig I wasn’t feeling great and I was a half hour late to work as a result.

I’m tired and sad all day at work. The tears are never far away.

I had to stay late for a campervan rental return tonight and then had to go for a food shop.

I felt a bit better later on in the day…

Hmmmm…..

I’m nothing if I’m not authentic.

I haven’t done a morning FB positivity post for a few days as I haven’t felt positive enough… I sat with it for a while this morning but just couldn’t.

I don’t want to drag other people down yet here I am…. Dragging you all….

I did a 3 minute breath work meditation which helped calm the incessant chatter a bit.

I feel like I make life very hard for myself at times.

I never cut myself any slack… I want nothing less than perfection.

I want to be a woman whose heart is at peace and I know I am in control of that.

I am in control of how I respond to things, how I respond to others, yet I still can’t cut myself some slack when I just feel off.

Food for thought.

I feel better for writing this down… so that’s got to count for something.

Thanks for reading if you got this far without rolling your eyes 👀

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️