Day 1574 pouring rain, lots of thoughts and Curiosity coffee’s first birthday!

I couldn’t wake up this morning, I felt dead to the world.

I coughed a fair bit through the night, unfortunately once was right in Craig’s face! 🫣

I’ve just got a dry and scratchy throat. I don’t feel ill. I just don’t feel great.

I read my book and finished it before I got up. It was a good one, thanks Evelyn for lending me it.

I got dressed to head out with the dogs and the heavens opened…. Again!!!

We got soaked but the dogs don’t care.

The sky looks so mean and moody.

The rain does start to clear. The weather’s a bit like April just now.

I spotted 3 deer in the field next to us… calmly called the dogs and pretended it was just time to head home… little did they know!! This is not the best photo! Two of them ran off.

Then the last one stared at me for ages!

The others were long gone!

This photo doesn’t do it justice, the sky was dark navy blue….

The sun felt hot when it came through.

And we are back home soaked…. Thought this angle of the garden looked lovely!

Poor Khaleesi still can’t get walked at the moment.

So, I didn’t feel great when I got home…. My head was starting to make the same noise it did when I was off on holiday with nothing to do.

I decided to put a stop to it.

I sat and wrote down how I was feeling.

Physically….. tired, weak, headache, dry and scratchy throat, jaw tight, teeth sore, tense, anxious, breathless, if I shut my eyes I could sleep.

But….. I have a day off.

How lucky am I to have a day off when I feel like this?!? Very!!

Then why do I feel so bad? Why is my head trying to fight it?

I have a huge list of things I think I should be doing. I need to sort my road tax, my car insurance, home insurance, food shopping, poo pick, paint the spare room, clean and tidy the whole house…..

It feels good to write it down.

Why does that give me physical pain?

Because it feels like a chore and I don’t want to do any of it.

What do I want to do instead?

Be out somewhere exploring in the sunshine.

I’ve looked for mini breaks and can’t nail one down. I think I’m scared that I feel nervous again…. Like I did when I was travelling to Rome. I can’t find a flight that is the right price, the right time, to the right place.

I yawn……. Big time. In kinesiology that is a sign of energy moving, of stress being released… for me, anyway.

All I want to do is rest…… the weather hasn’t been what we expect for our summer so maybe it’s ok that I just want to rest and relax. I’ve been like that for much of July and August.

So…. From that point on I feel a lot better. I sat with it, I wrote it out, I felt it.

I know it’s all a bit crazy but that is what goes on in my head at times.

I sat and picked up the home and car insurance… and tried to tax the car. I looked for mini breaks and narrowed it down. Potentially Milan at the end of October.

I had a productive few hours and it felt good.

I jumped in the shower and even washed my hair. On a day off…. Check me.

I headed down to Curiosity coffee shop in Beith as it celebrates its first birthday today!!

Here are the girls with their celebratory Prosecco while I ate my mint aero brownie and drank my mint, oat milk, decaf latte!

I had such a lovely time chatting. It’s just food for the soul…. I love chatting!

I ended up staying for ANOTHER coffee and cake…. How shocking is that?!?

One wasn’t enough but two was definitely too much 😆😘

It was lovely though.

I then went for the food shopping!

A few chores done and it didn’t feel bad doing it.

Craig and I then nipped into the pub next door for one.

I’ve actually had a really good day.

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️