Well it must have been calmer last night as “Julie with ear plugs” was out for the count…. In my actual bed. Check me.

What a great rejuvenating sleep. I felt so refreshed! (as I read that back it sounds like I woke up 20 years younger which was absolutely NOT the case 😂😂 )

Storm Jocelyn has been picking up throughout day.

It’s rained ALL day and the wind has been gusting on and off all afternoon but she really hits tonight.

The Tartan portacabin has been buffeted about… I said thank goodness I was there for the ballast 😂😂😂

I was really lucky that the last deluge stopped about 5 minutes before I left work so my drive home wasn’t massively different from normal. Except for the tree down at the top of the road. This is not my photo so credit to Edward McWilliams.

Our house is literally just around that bend. I had to take the detour on the back roads and had a van follow me as he didn’t know where to go.

We have lost the top of our wood shed unfortunately. It’s done well mind you. It’s an old bus windscreen box from my old job.

The sky was stunning when I got home.

So once again I’ve watched myself have better reactions to previous triggers. When we try to finish a van there are always last minute parts required, for a variety of reasons.

My thought process was always as follows: immediate panic, defensive, high pitched whiny voice, why do you need that, why didn’t I know about it, did I buy the wrong thing, I’m sure I had that in stock, where do ok I get it, I’ve never bought one of them before, how do I even know where to look, how come we need it when I’ve never bought it before, will it get here in time, tears, panic, anxiety, anxiety, anxiety. You usually have to peel me off the ceiling when this happens.

The last time this happened I skyrocketed and came back down to earth pretty quickly, having seen my over-reaction from the outside looking in if that makes sense?

Today….

No problem.

Look part up.

Send screenshot… does this look ok?

Buy it.

Add to list of parts to buy in future.

Smile to myself.

That….. is how it should be done.

When you live with anxiety, you don’t just calmly stop and think. You catapult into the anxious oblivion.

Today I calmly thought and acted. No drama.

I love that I’m so aware of it too.

So that’s us both home safe tonight and hopefully by tomorrow the storm is over.

Hope you’re all safe and warm.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️