Day 1309 an angry monster day 😡😤 then calm 😌

She who lives in the present moment, appreciates the smaller things in life, is calm and chilled out these days, showed a whole lot of ugly today…

I woke with the alarm at 6.15 which is unusual… but I was aware of feeling strange before the alarm went off. I know how ridiculous that sounds…. I felt breathless and antsy… nervous…. There is nothing to be nervous of today.

I just felt off.

I got up and found that wonderful time of the month had arrived. I believe this was on account of me missing 3 progesterone pills this month…. I forgot to take them one night and yesterday I found one floating at the bottom of my water bottle. To my terror. I thought it was a wasp?! Go figure.

Anyway…. I have a reason for my grouchiness….. but I’m like a volcano of irritability…. Sparking off at anything and everything…. Not actually keeping it inside. Even my boss mentioned how I piled on the heat firing questions at him before he even got into work.

I was incensed and yet nothing was any different today than it was yesterday. Except my reactions.

We can choose how we respond to day to day life. I wasn’t present enough in the moment to respond properly today. I was kicking off as if everyone was out to get me.

I heard myself say… “everything is going wrong”… “everything needs done 2 or 3 times”… “this is too hard”. I gave myself a difficult day. My inner child threw her tantrum arms up in the air all day.

The truth was it was a beautiful day. I took these photos at 7am out in the garden with the dogs.

The moon was a perfect crescent although it’s more of a dot in this photo. 😬

My lilies are beautiful.

And, despite having a thumping angry headache all day, I came home and went over to the hall for Kinisi-flow and I loved it. It would have been so easy not to bother.

I worked hard, I felt strong and the headache finally left.

I love it when the calm finally breaks through the noise.

I appreciate the calm even more.

Here’s the sky at 4pm.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️