Day 1287 I dot the told! 🤧😷

I woke up with the cold this morning. Actually that’s not entirely true as I woke up at 12.30 and about 5ish with the cold.

I was about to say I felt totally fine yesterday but then remembered that technically that wasn’t true. Least said about that the better. The minute I jumped in the shower yesterday, I felt better.

I had such a lovely drive over to Edinburgh. What a difference a Bertie Beetle makes. I’ve been meaning to talk about that for a while… Craig must be sick of me saying it. 😂 I LOVE driving again. I’m able to pull away from junctions without being terrified. I’m able to skip out in front of people rather than waiting for a completely clear road. I was driving at 70 miles an hour the whole way to Edinburgh and it felt like a dawdle. I am brave enough to move lanes again. Despite how awful I felt yesterday morning I had a really lovely drive over. I did have the car at 26°C to keep me cosy. maybe that was a sign?!?

We had a lovely family get together. I still seem to struggle with small talk. I know that I used to drink to cover that but not any more. I overthink things and can’t always think what to say. I hear myself and think “urgh why on earth did I say that?”. I cringe at some of the words that come out of my mouth…. Yet I LOVE the real deep and meaningful meaty conversations.

My mum’s cousin Pam and her husband were over from Colorado… we all met in Duddingston, Edinburgh at mum’s cousin Joyce’s…. There’s a mouthful and a half.

Here we all are yesterday.

My brother set up this great timer photo and I seemed to pick the forefront and massive spot!!

So back to today…. I went into work early as we are skeleton Tartan this week, and I wanted to let the guys know what they were working on…. As the day went on I just got more and more blocked up. I had chills shivering through me. I had the heating up on full in the portacabin!

Quite early on in the day I realised I had to stay until 5pm to receive a rental van back. The thought of it was awful…. The day dragged on and I felt so knackered. Actually I just focused on what needed doing and actually had a really good afternoon. The time passed quickly and I got lots done. I didn’t even feel like I’d stayed late. I have literally talked to myself all day and it’s worked. There have been no tears.

I have this lovely gift, from Evelyn, hanging from my rear view mirror.

Stay true to yourself ♥️

Oh and a little bit of mint choc chip ice cream makes you feel a bit better too.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️