I had nothing to write about today. Been putting off putting “pen” to “paper” as I’m a bit bored writing that I had a busy day at work!! I did and I slept really well again… I love a great nights sleep!!
So maybe on day 1234 it’s time for a stat update. You know how I love a stat!
- The biggest stat of all 1694 days without alcohol
- 1244 days since I lost my job due to my anxiety and depression (legally position made redundant)
- 878 days since I started work at Tartan Campers
- 740 days without anti-depressants
- 301 days since I started HRT
- 247 days since I started daily fasting
The not drinking and lack of anti depressants still blow me away.
If you had ever told me 1695 days ago, that I would stop drinking AND not be managing life without strong antidepressants, I would never have believed you.
I was so unhappy back then. I was busy trying so hard to live a life that was destroying me. I would have changed so much, if I knew then, what I know now. I can’t regret any of that because it gave me the chance to see what I can see now. That life doesn’t have to be lived at 100 miles an hour. That’s you don’t have to make everyone else happy to the detriment of yourself. That I matter.
My opinion matters.
My needs matter.
I count.
I love that I know that now.
I love that I think that.
I love that I really mean that.
I know that I hide from reality sometimes.
I crave alone time and peace.
I love deep and meaningful conversations but since I stopped drinking I just can’t seem to manage small talk.
I have to avoid any subjects that steal my peace.
The news is a complete no-no.
I can’t cope with any drama.
I like life to be simple and calm and peaceful.
It might seem boring to some but I love my new reality.
Craig married a Senior Manager in a suit, makeup and high heels and stood by my side as I made huge decisions that would change our lives forever. I’m so very grateful for his love and support.
I now walk out the door in jeans or tartan joggers and a T-shirt and I’ve never been more comfortable. I mostly don’t care what I look like and hardly ever wear make up.
I can breathe.
I still have bad days.
My anxiety can scream at me at fever pitch when something doesn’t sit right with me.
My fight or flight reflex is still really hard to ignore at times.
I can be the one who says the wrong thing at times. I can overreact. I can snap.
I love exploring all of this through writing The Rambling Sloth. It really helps to try and understand my thoughts, feelings and mood swings.
I also LOVE taking photos and sharing them on my Just Jules Photgraphy page.
I am desperate to see more of the world. I’ve always said I want to see every country. I love exploring!
So yeah, it’s been a journey and a half.
I’d like to thank everyone who takes the time to read this. I can’t tell you how much that means. Until you quote it back to me… then I cringe. 🤦🏻♀️😂😂
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️
The Rambling Sloth 🦥 