Day 1212 eh?! Who’d a thunk it!
Talking to mum on the way home tonight and I told her that writing this blog is a form of meditation for me. It allows me to review my day and assess my feelings and emotions…. And boy have I been angry today. Like lighting the blue touch paper all the time.
My ego has been a pain in the ass today. It feels so hard done to for no reason and kicks off every time something doesn’t go my planned way.
Life can’t always be straightforward, it can’t always be planned. I need to be able to adapt but I seem, sorry my ego seems, to find this so hard to do sometimes.
I try to have everything planned to the nth degree. I have to do this to keep my anxiety in check, it’s the way I work. I struggle feeling out of control. It blows up like a volcano that way over exaggerates the actual thing. I either need to be in control of it all or none of it. I need to find away to be in control of some things at some times and other things at other times and not being sure what things when. 😂
I have to be honest and say I’m actually laughing at that now. Honestly I can be a complex soul at times.
I walked in to a bike rack on the back door of a van today. I was walking round the back of the van when the door was open and the bike rack sticks out…. I followed boss man but didn’t obviously take as wide a berth as he did. He heard the whack and came running!! I was actually really lucky that it hit square across my forehead and not my glasses or the top of my head. I only have a very slight dent that wasn’t there earlier!
It knocked a bit of sense into me!!
So I’m just back from crochet and we had a good blether tonight. Births, marriages and despatches!!
We took a wee walk to a new meadow garden that’s been planted at the end of the village…. It’s so lovely and EXACTLY the look I was going for with my meadow garden last year. Mine did not work AT ALL!!
So pretty!! Thanks to Rachel two doors down for the good shout. She spotted it walking the dog this morning.
So yeah, not that proud of my reactions today, just another learning curve. The joys 😂😘
There’s always tomorrow!
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️
The Rambling Sloth 🦥 