I didn’t sleep that well last night. I was awake for a full hour from about 1.15…. just wide awake listening to some insane noise I’m my head. I’m not sure what it was… what caused it. but it was like a caffeine boost. My heart was thumping so loudly I could hear it in my head. I assumed the gentle roar of snore next to me, had wakened me but I honestly think it was all my own doing. I felt really shattered when I got up.

As I know fine well, life is what you make it so I sat and had a lovely caffeine black coffee with Craig before getting ready for work. Yup… the irony is not lost on me. 🙄

Some of his birthday gifts were coffee based. We now have beans and a grinder… Auntie Jac will be awfy impressed… she’s the snobbiest coffee buff I know 😂😘 this stuff is pretty good but considering I probably usually drink the coffee from the coffee factory floor…. It’s easy to be impressed.

Work was good but I wasn’t quite as fancy free as yesterday. The voice was back and fighting with the calm head. Not badly, just enough not to be sitting here smugly tonight.

I know what is wrong…. I’m all ready to sell the van, was so excited, raring to go, then stalled. Let’s think this through….

I just need to pluck up the courage… face all my anxiety and fears and put Abbie the Campervan actually up for sale…. And sell it.

Being a people pleaser, the transaction between seller and buyer of a vehicle is a wary one and therefore, not my favourite. I win people over with my honesty and personality and not everyone buying a car (or van) from you, will respond to this. I feel their approach is to try and catch you out, to highlight the things you’re not saying. That makes me very nervous, so much so, I’d happily let anyone sell her to save me doing it.

I know that this is just the next uncomfortable learning curve that I need to hop on. I know that it will probably be fine and that I will probably do a great job. All that said I’d rather just put it off and get into my comfies and hide. 🤭🙄

So I’m just going to do it.

I don’t have to sell her to someone who thinks she’s overpriced.

I don’t have to sell her to someone who picks holes in her or tells me everything that’s wrong.

If the worst comes to the worst and something goes wrong with her during the sale, I can get her fixed and resell.

Nothing is insurmountable.

I just have to pull up my big girl pants, step RIGHT OUT of my comfort zone and put myself out there.

Dramatic eh?! You’d expect nothing less.

In other news, Facebook actually phoned me yesterday… can’t believe I forgot to share this revelation. Almost 3 weeks after the review that would take 24-48 hours…. It would appear my case was not a simple one.

The fake profiles on my account have been removed.

I’ve not been hacked in 3 weeks. My timezone still doesn’t feel right. I can open links on FB marketplace as it may not be accessible “in my country” hmmmm maybe not if you still think I’m in Western Indonesia!! They say I show as London, which would cover the whole of the UK but I’m still not certain.

I think I clicked a link that asks me to confirm all my logins… and effectively gave the hackers my login details. Life is just one long learning curve.

Won’t do that again!!

Ok enough hiding behind the blog… I’m off to write the advert. 🫣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️