Day 1676 a surprise 5k before work on a Monday, I’ll be thinking it’s Wednesday all day!

Lynsey messaged our Running group chat last night to see if anyone fancied a quick run this morning. I said yes straight away.

I don’t particularly enjoy it but I feel so great once it is done.

It’s hard to get out of bed and I’m sure I was awake for hours this morning, waiting for the alarm.

We meet right outside my front door. I can’t not go… it is literally handed to me on a plate.

We finish at my front door…. I mean sometimes we run further to Claire’s front door, but that’s hardly a reason not to go is it?

The universe has handed me this lovely group of girls that run from MY house!! What are the chances of that?!?

When I was off sick with my depression and the doc changed my meds… I could hardly put one foot in front of the other to walk the dogs. Every step was an effort.

My weight loss has been very gradual. Over years.

The first is me in 2021, the second is June 2023 and the last one was Sunday (Nov 2024)

The weight piled on in my depression. The only thing that made me happy was Cadbury’s chocolate buttons. 😆 I ate a lot of them.

I haven’t noticed the weight come off since last year but I can really see it there. Wow.

When things were bad I had no idea they could get better again. I was determined to work at it though and I don’t think it’s always an easy life to live. The harder I work at the things that make me feel better, the more peace I have.

I also have to live by all my rules… particularly the one about all the bad things being done early morning before I have time to think about them. I barely remember our run this morning, it was like someone else did it!

AND I got a 5k PB AGAIN, along with a 2 mile PB so I was really chuffed.

I found it hard today. It was colder, then roasting hot, then my legs felt like elastic bands with too much tension, then my breathing was all over the place.

But… I am so proud of myself for getting out of bed and doing it.

I needed to be ready mentally. I was ready to take the next step.

Never compare yourself to others. We have all lived completely different lives and are at different points in our lives.

I’d have looked at the running me and thought it wasn’t possible. I actually did. I was so envious of the girls who ran and seemed to be able to eat what they wanted and not put on weight. I truly believe you have to be there mentally to be able to do it. For it to be the next step.

My way, I’m rambling…

It was a lovely drive into work this morning on Remembrance Day 2024. The sky was so red… I had to stop to take photos.

Lest we forget.

It was also a lovely sunset tonight though I didn’t catch as much of it as wanted.

I went to the charity shop to drop off 4 big black bags and they couldn’t accept them as they are too full.

By the time I got home, it was still pretty.

As the sun sets on our day. may we remember all who have fought for us to give us the freedom that we have now. I can’t imagine what that was like. So many senseless deaths and it still happens in war today.

We will remember them.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1565 a 7k run before 7am on a beautiful morning!

First of all I captured a photo of a sun dog last night…. Who knew that was a thing?!?

I saw a few people posting photos of it on FB on the Aurora pages and someone said it was a sun dog. I sent them my photo and it was confirmed! I felt right proud of myself!

There was a lovely sunset last night too.

Then a beautiful start to the day. I woke at 5.20am and the alarm was due to go off at 5.30. I was meeting Lynsey for a run this morning.

It was only 4°C and felt really cold outside. The sky was beautiful.

It’s getting darker in the mornings already… the Village Hall looks lovely in the light.

We set off at 5.45am and could really feel the cold. A cyclist shouted behind us to warn us and then gave us the fright of our lives… 😆 that was us awake!

The sun rose as we ran and thankfully it got warmer… as it always does 😆

Look at the light as we ran into Spier’s Old School Grounds! It was so beautiful. It’s usually really dark in here due to the amount of overgrown trees.

My favourite gate.

I maybe should have lightened these ones up as they are very dark. I love the simplicity of this next one.

Bearing in mind these are all just point and press as we stop for a second while we are running.

And we’re done. I was a sweaty mess!! My glasses are steaming up!

I think this is my fastest pace so far. Strava doesn’t say that but I don’t think I’ve seen 7.09/km before? I think 7.27/km has been the fastest so far?

It’s 6.45am!

I went into a freezing cold shower for a few minutes to calm down! I love that feeling after a very hot run.

I love that we get to do all this before most people are awake. It’s a special time of the day for me.

The 10k we are signed up for on 21st August is in the evening…. I don’t know how I will ever stay awake or be motivated to run in the evening. I’m definitely a morning person!

It put me in good stead for the rest of the day.

My running has improved so much over the last 3 months. I’m really proud of my consistency… even thought some runs have been really hard. They have all taught me something. I’m so grateful to the girls for allowing me to run with them. It feels like we’ve got a lovely group.

Work has been good again today. We were really busy with lots of customers…. And it was quite hot. The weather has been lovely.

My friend Isy sent me this…

Wow that blew me away. It’s so very true. I am impatient.

Yes ♥️ Yes ♥️ Yes ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1517 up at 3.30am this morning and still going strong!!

Khaleesi and I did not have the best night… she was very restless, bless her (there I go again!).

I went to bed around 8.30 and never heard Craig or the 3 Borders go to bed, but at some point, it was just getting dark, Khal stood up and shook herself and I sat bolt upright in bed, still in a progesterone induced sleep. I got such a fright. She was standing over me!

I dozed off and heard Craig get up to the loo at the back of 2…. And Khaleesi then woke me me about 3am.

The alarm went off at 3.30am. 🤯😳

It’s 6.12pm and I am still awake. 😂

We left the house at 4am… here’s the boy.

All ready to join the Tartan Army in Munich for Euro 2024.

I drove Craig and Jim over to Edinburgh Airport for 5am. We all yawned the whole way over.

My trusty co-pilot caught some photos of the sunrise as we drove…. I have him well trained.

The photos don’t do it justice. It’s been a while since I’ve seen sunrise as it’s so early.

Love how the light reflects on the bonnet of the car.

Didn’t he do well with this one!

Shame the window is dirty as this would have been a great shot.

He hit this one bang on!

The roads are so empty, I love this time of day. Not after a bad nights sleep, mind you…

Blinded!

I couldn’t tell you the last time I drove through Edinburgh drop off. It cost mere £5 for the 10 minute privilege. Airports must make a fortune for drop offs.

I made them pose for airport photos when I dropped them off 😂

Edinburgh Airport was heaving… there were kilts and football tops everywhere. It was amazing to see just how many there were.

They are flying to Copenhagen then on to Berlin and at time of writing, they are still on the train to Munich. A long day. Craig said the Copenhagen flight was full of Scotland fans.

The drive back home was hard as I was on my own and super tired. When I got home I lay down with Khaleesi. I took her cone off and she cuddled in with her paws on my legs.

I could have slept for Scotland. I had the fear that I wouldn’t be able to stay awake for the rest of the day.

When I got back up at 7am, my black Tartan hoodie was COVERED in Khaleesi hairs…. Oops!

She loves having time without the cone. we sat outside in the fresh air. It’s cold again today.

So I have to say that I have managed the day just fine.

I gave up fasting at 11am as I needed some fuel.

It’s been a really busy day and I’m so chuffed with the work I got done. It felt like a really satisfying week this week.

My lovely in-laws pupper-sat today (I know that’s not even English!!)

They sat with K, walked the Borders and I had cuddles with Cookie the Chihuahua when I got home.

So very lovely of them to do that today and took a weight off my mind knowing they were here.

A happy smile.

So I’m home, waiting for the milkman to appear for money in half an hour then the jammies are going on.

The heating is on, it’s pouring outside, I’m tempted to light candles. All 4 dogs are asleep with me in the living room.

I do love my husband but I am looking forward to a weekend of nothing. Just dogs walks and housework and a whole lot of silence. I never thought I’d like silence so much.

My friend Anne just sent this. The perfect end to my blog and my plan for the weekend ahead. ♥️

Stay safe everyone 💤💤💤

Day 1400 a real family kinda day (usually do stats recap on a big number day but will do them tomorrow!)

I woke up in a some lovely pink floweriness!

My old room is way prettier than it ever was when it was mine. I had a lovely sleep, went to bed at 9pm, never even heard mum and dad come up to bed! Slept until 7am and decided to go for an early morning walk before everyone got up.

The sunrise sky looked lovely.

Could I find the key to the front door to get out?!? Eh naw?!? I was locked in. Thankfully mum got up just in time. I had the loveliest walk!!

Really sadly… where am I standing used to be a field. I’m looking down from the extension of mum and dad’s street which now goes up into the field. There are massive housing estates built in these fields now.

The sunrise was lovely.

Everything looks so bright on the morning sun.

I walked all the way up to the high road… we never used to be able to do that… new housing estates mean new paths. Silver lining I guess.

The Pentland Hills looked beautiful.

I took this photo to capture my mood… I was buzzing, I felt so alive. I NEVER listen to music while I walk but I have found a band called Hollow Coves, I use them for reels a lot and find their music really happy and uplifting. It was lovely to walk to.

There were lots of snowdrops.

My friend Helen grew up down this road but I didn’t have time to walk as far as her old house.

Back in a bit of field that still exists looking over to Turnhouse hill.

So mum had organised a wee surprise for me this morning… I was meeting some of my aunties and one of my cousins for coffee this morning. At such short notice, not everyone she asked could make it. We did some shopping first. Here’s mum outside Penicuik’s answer to the little gift shop. Love that I made her pose outside it! 😂

Here she is outside the Penicuik Storehouse where we end for coffee.

We met my Auntie Christine and Auntie Dy and my wee cousin Fee and her youngest son. It was soooo lovely to see them all. It’s been way too long! When I was a kid we spent every Sunday together and now we haven’t met up in over 5 years… maybe more.

We had the loveliest catch up.

Then we headed off to South Queensferry with Dad, to meet Craig and my brother, sis in law and my nephew, for Mum’s birthday lunch. It’s her actual birthday tomorrow. Of course pics first!

The iconic Forth Rail Bridge.

The three Forth crossings though you have to really squint to see the two road bridges!

The Forth Road Bridges.

A crow!

This is the view looking out the door of our restaurant today… Thirty Knots.

Mushroom tacos for me… still rocking this vegan thing….

That is… until I get to dessert. Then dairy all the way with a Salted Caramel and Scottish tablet Sunday. Unfortunately the Scottish tablet was just fudge pieces but it was still lovely.

We were back home by 5pm.

I’ve had a lovely time but I’m back in my comfies with my feet up sitting in silence 😂😂😂 actually yawning my head off. A great few days with lots of catching up!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1366 rail trip from Oban through Glasgow to Glengarnock 🚉

And relax.

The best wee overnight break.

Currently sitting on the 12.11 from Oban to Glasgow Queen Street… only typing when we go through a high banked section of the track. I’m not missing a minute.

I had a lovely sleep in my wee single bed. My knee was agony and woke me at 11.22pm. I’d been asleep since 9ish… but after that it really settled and has been fine ever since.

You’ll be pleased to know I’ve done my exercises twice and they really help strengthen my leg. Why is it though when we have exercises to do it seems like such a chore?!? A real “ugh” moment….They are designed to help the pain. Get over it Julesie.

I couldn’t decide exactly what to do this morning and was keen to get the ferry over to Mull and straight back but I was waiting to see if the conditions were right.

Do I stay in the hotel until 10am checkout? Do I get the ferry and risk missing the 12.11? Do I plan for the 16.11? So many decisions.

I decide to head back up to McCaigs Folly (Tower) for first light so that I could see sunrise…. As you do.

Up at 7 showered, packed up and ready for the off. Back up that huge hill almost in the dark!

As you can see I stood there for ages! It was bitterly cold and one guy came up during a run, said hi, stretched, said goodbye and ran off…. I had the place to myself.

Ok so… next decision… the ferry. Headed down to the terminal to ask their advice….

It appears that this ferry… the departing one…. was my only hope of a sail to Mull at back before 12.

That’s my decision made then. I’ll no be doing that! 🙄😆 I must have got it completely wrong when I looked up the ferry times this week. To be fair it was pretty choppy and the Loch Frisa doesn’t look like there is too much outer deck so it may not have done what I was hoping it would do.

As I walked aimlessly through the harbour, I met Luana, the Brazilian girl I’d met yesterday. She was heading for the bus to Fort William but suggested Pulpit Hill. I remembered mum and dad had climbed it before.

Now I should say here that Tracey, my Canadian (insomniac 😆) friend, was fully involved in my morning again. She obviously never sleeps! She told me it was a 23 minute walk… so off I go.

It’s a hike but what a view… looking directly over to McCaig’s Folly that I just left!

Looking over to Kerrera, with Mull in the distance to the left and Lismore in the distance to the right.

Zoomed in on the harbour and train station. The train is in already.

Then I met a lovely local couple walking their blind spaniel… which basically means, she who has not spoken much this weekend, chewed their ear off with chat! It was lovely to make them laugh. In that 10 minutes of chat, we really connected.

They suggested Hinba Coffee Shop… so off down the hill I go.

At the same time Tracey has already recommended Hinba, as it gets the best reviews online 😂😂😂 Tracey has also come up with another walk to Oban Hydropathic Santorium ruins 😂😂 but I need a heat up.

It’s lovely!! I have a Guatemalan coffee and a slice of Tiffan cake.

I chill, warm and charge my phone. Then order a decaf gingerbread latte. Heaven.

I still have time to kill so wander around taking even more photos before my crazy kind gets me first in the queue for the twins so I can pick my seat on the left side, get a window and a charger. I know, I know…. But it pays off. I’m first on the train 🚆 😂

Tracey must finally be asleep!

I’m on the other side on the way down so I can catch everything I missed on the way up! It’s also freezing… all the way!!

These next photos are all out the window of the train!

First glimpses of Loch Lomond.

Inveruglas power station.

Tarbert and Loch Lomond.

Think this river is in Dumbarton.

I have honestly had the best time.

I’m shattered but so grateful that Craig doesn’t mind me doing this. He had to work yesterday and he’s had some quality doggo time. I know I’ll go back to bed full of dog hair.

I get to do all the crazy things I want to do, I don’t have to worry about anyone else, I can just do my thing.

It’s 3.10pm and I’m still on the train, about 20 minutes out from Glasgow Queen Street station. I should be home for 5 at the latest.

What a lovely weekend.

This…my Sundays always used to be this… gut-wrenching stress…. Not any more ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1330 a beautifully cold, sunny day!

I have to admit that I am wrapping Khaleessi up like a baby when she goes to bed at night…. I never thought I would be that person. I’m worried she gets cold 😳😬😂 here’s Bhru trying to get some of the action last night 😂

She was gonna sleep over but decided to go to her own bed at the last minute!

I had a VERY hot night. I went to bed with straight hair and woke up like I’d been dragged through a hedge backwards!

The sheets were soaking wet! It’s obviously a hormonal thing. The house wasn’t warm at all.

While I’ve been having a lovely time of it these last few weeks, my hormones have been really playing up. Is it socially acceptable to have hold the weight of your chest every time you get up from your desk?!? Asking for a friend obviously….. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂 😂😂 honestly it’s been agony. I tried ibuprofen today and it didn’t touch it. It’s waking me up every time I move in bed… not for long just long enough to get comfy again. Hey ho… the trials of being peri-menopausal.

So for those of you who are squirming now… it’s just photos from here on in 😂

Scraping the heavy frost by the light of the moon this morning.

So thankful I’m not having to scrape the van anymore!

Team scraping Claire’s car!

It was another stunning drive to work.

Then all of a sudden I spotted this red sky.

Later on the sun came up and it was a beautiful day.

I had another lovely Tupperware tub salad for lunch today…. Rocket, Bavarian ham, Mexicana cheese, cracked black pepper cheese, tomato, celery, spring onions, pumpkin seeds and olive oil!

Unfortunately I then ate 4 of boss man’s chocolate digestives, in quick succession!

When I left tonight the sky was lovely again.

And the moon was just out of this world. NONE of these photos actually do it justice. I hope you’ve all been able to see it for yourself. It was a massive orange ball in the sky tonight. I stopped by the river in Drybridge on the way home from work.

This is the view of the sunset opposite where I stood.

I stopped again closer to home. 🌕

I could live life without wind and rain… very easily. This is lovely weather. Sunny cold and crisp during the day. Just perfect.

A lovely end to the day.

Have a lovely evening.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1326 eye test in Largs, shopping, housework & dog walks… I’m knackered!

Up at 6.30 to head over to Largs for my eye test at 8.30am. I booked the early morning one so that I could make the most of my day.

It was much more windy and choppy than I expected. It was also freezing!! The sunrise was lovely though.

Marvelled at how close these churches are.

My eye test at Specsavers went well. My prescription has only changed by one point so I don’t need to change my glasses just yet. I did go for a cheap pair of reading glasses, in the new prescription, for more intense reading, but my varifocals will do me just fine just now.

They did find a new freckle at the back of my right eye.

Who knew that was a thing?

They sent me back for a second “back of the eye” photo, so they could catch it specifically. The guy got a great capture of it.

I need to go back in 3 months for the same again so they can monitor the size of it. Any growth is bad.

I got out at 9.20am and found that hardly any of the shops were open.

I went into Costa Coffee and had a peppermint tea (who actually does that?!?) to heat up and use the loo…. Not necessarily in that order!!

I then had a wander around the charity shops. I found River Island jeans and a Fat Face top for £11 in total in the British Heart Foundation Charity shop.

I commented that they have some really lovely things in the Largs BHF shop… the lady told me they only put out the best of everything and try to display the brands as much as possible, in that particular store. I was really impressed with everything they had today.

I took more photos as I headed back to the car.

Next stop, Tesco, for a food shopping and came home and put it all away. Played with the dogs out the back, loaded the dishwasher, put away dry washing and put on a new load.

Then I took the two Cal’s…. Calaidh and Khaleesi out for a walk. It was beautiful but cold!

Khaleesi has lots of fun off the lead. I don’t keep her off for long.

You need to be standing steady when you shout come….. when she comes, she comes…. Wallop!!!!!

Craig was home by the time I got back. He still had work to do, so I set off out with a Freya and Bhru.

It’s already getting dark.

The same road on two separate dog walks.

The same tree at 3 separate times today.

The moon is massive.

It’s been a lovely day. I also fasted for just over 22 hours today which was a lot but I needed a wee fat burn after all the junk I’ve been eating since the weather turned colder.

Oh I also made more soup today which is really good again, great to break a fast with.

So yeah, a productive day off work!

Lovely to see sunrise and sunset. It’s the best part of this time of the year.

Have a great weekend!

Stay safe everyone 🌅🌅🌅

Day 1323 a beautiful sunrise 🌅

Wow I had a a AMAZING sleep. I was really out for the count until 1.22am when there was a snore incident and someone tapped me on the forehead….. oh my god what a fright. As I write this I realise I forgot to ask what happened.

I got up and went to the loo and by the time I came back, said someone was snoring so I lay there wondering if it was more likely his snore that woke me?!?

Hmmmm it would appear not… I just asked. I do think it was all a bit over dramatic if I’m honest, work me up from the best ever sleep. 😂 just wait till the next time I’m woken up 😂😘

I couldn’t wake up with the alarm at all… i was soooo tired.

That said, what a beautiful morning 🌅 I wish I could have taken a few hours off work and stopped all along the way to take photos. The sky was stripey red and orange all the way to work. Every bend I drove around brought a new wow moment.

By the time I got to work it had mostly passed….. although the photos turned out better than I thought.

It’s been a good day. I’ve been super busy, so a bit harrassed, it felt like everyone asked me for things I hadn’t done yet. I ended up staying an extra half hour today. It could so easily have been longer but that’s a trap I can so easily fall into.

So not much else to report today. I’ve been calm and not irritable at all which is nice.

Oh Craig made a lovely venison spaghetti bolgnese for dinner.

It was so lovely to come home to a cosy house, with fires lit and dinner ready….. I never made it out to Kinisi-flo…. I was too full!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1311 a lovely sunrise and sunset with work and a haircut in between!

It’s all in the title 😆

I woke up to torrential rain pummelling the window pane this morning. 5.30am.

By the time I left for work, the heavy rain cloud was moving on.

I suddenly noticed the bright star next to the moon…. I believe it was actually Venus.

I’ve never seen anything that bright, that close to the moon.

It was a lovely drive in this morning, no rain and pretty skies.

I was in work early again and got loads done. I love feeing organised when I finish on a Thursday.

It’s my weekend!

I rushed home to get my haircut in the garden room straight across the road from the house. It’s so cool to have your hairdresser over the road.

There are no pics as I just sat and watched the last episode of House season 4 and I cried….. 😂😂😂

The sunset was pretty too.

I saw this earlier and I really liked the sentiment of it. I’ve read it through a lot.

I’ve spent so long raging at the river that I am honestly say acceptance and being present in the moment if so freeing.

I’m listening the Diary of a CEO podcast at the moment. It’s fascinating me. Todays episode said we wear busy-ness like a badge of honour. We expect to be saluted for working all the hours god sends, for having the busiest social life and actually we all need to reward each other for taking time out and looking after ourselves. That needs to become the new norm.

I used to go in early and work late. I thought that’s what was expected of me.

I carried on doing it for most of my career… I began to resent it.

I told everyone how busy I was, how stressed I was, how hard I worked, I was proud of it all while despising it.

I LOVED my job title. It defined me.

I was never happy with what I had. I always wanted more.

I earned a lot of money and yet it was never enough.

When I finally broke and went off sick I felt like a failure. I felt like that for a very long time.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t get the occasional pang of failure at times when I left my mind overthink…. But mostly I am truly grateful at having the chance to really think about what it is important in my life. Sadly too many people only experience this after some kind of trauma. If you have felt experienced this without having rock bottom then bottle whatever that is and sell it.

I finally don’t worry about what people think of me (but if you don’t like me please don’t EVER tell me as I would carry that about for years… 😳😆) I don’t care about the job title, about the money, about the things. I just have to do what’s right for me now. Instead of putting everything else first.

It’s true freedom.

Until the next wobble.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1294 two drives to work before 9am and a very warm day in my new fleecy leggings 😂

I left my work phone at home today. I spent 15 minutes wandering around work thinking that should be able to manage without it… I message Craig to see if he’d be near Tartan HQ today… nope. Then realised that I can’t even log on to the Xero accounting system so would be as well driving home to get it.

It was a beautiful morning. It was freezing cold and Bertie Beetle was very frosty.

The sky was absolutely stunning on the way to work…. I only have a photo when I left….

And when I arrived…

But the colours I saw in between were just something else. It was bright red at one point. I just wanted to stop and take lots of photos along the way. It was a stunning start to the day.

So it wasn’t the end of the world to drive home and back again all before 9am. I called ahead and had Craig get the phone ready and a black coffee in a takeaway cup!!

So another laugh today was my new fleecy leggings…. I put them out without seeing a dog this morning… zero hair until I had to come back for my work phone of course!

They are a bit thicker than the ones I had last year so I want sure if it was cold enough… when I saw the frost I deduced that it was.

After my homemade soup for lunch I was ROASTING!!!!

This is not the best photo but I had bright red cheeks all afternoon until I finally took my long sleeved T-shirt off from under my T-shirt.

I sat outside for a bit after my soup as I clearly thought it was warm enough. Anything to try and calm the heat down in my face 😂😂 so I can highly recommend the leggings but I might have to wait a few weeks to really appreciate their warmth. To be fair it turned into a lovely sunny day.

After work I took another 3 bags to the charity shop and this time really struggled to leave some of the stuff. I’m at the point now where I’m giving away things that really do mean something to me but I just don’t have the space for anymore.

My sloth cushion was up for sale before I even left the shop… I wanted to buy it back!!

Here it is in Abbie the Campervan when I first got it converted….

It’s a lovely cushion but I just don’t have space for it in my life anymore. I was sad to let it go though.

Anyway that’s my day today. Sitting in front of the wood burning stove in our newly cleaned sunroom.

The kitchen and sunroom feel so good since they’ve been blitzed. I walk into the room and can breathe. I know that sounds daft but I say it like it is.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Day 1288 loaded with the cold but still functioning 😂

Jeezo man. Amazing how fast this came on. I was up at 1.30am and couldn’t breathe through my nose at all. My sinuses are solid.

That’s nothing to our new Rocket Fuel!

Oh my actual word. The first time I tried this I managed one drop on my tongue and it blew my head off.

At 1.30am I took 7 drops and all of a sudden I could breathe. What a relief. It’s great stuff. It would clear a blocked sink given half a chance. 😂

I took it again when I got up at 6.15am. It blasted my sinuses.

It was the first morning I’ve had to scrape the car too. It was a pretty heavy frost. Also a beautiful morning!

I forgot how long it took for a Beetle to clear it’s windscreen. The windscreen blower is no more than a puff. I scraped it clear and had to sit to wait for the demist.

I had to stop at the side of the road as the sky was stunning. This isn’t the best photo but it gives you the idea.

It was such a lovely drive to work. The sky was so red most of the way. By the time I got to Tartan, it was pink and purple. Boyed up by Rocket Fuel I had a good morning.

I didn’t take the Rocket Fuel to work with me though. By lunch I was all bunged up again so I ordered some comfort food for lunch instead of my salad. I had a cheese and ham panini and it was soooo good. (I did eat my salad for dinner so I didn’t waste it…. Almost saint-like!)

One minute I want to curl up in a ball and the next minute I’m getting loads done.

I ended up late getting away again as 3 customers phoned in a row, after 4pm! AND I had to go for diesel after work… isn’t that just the worst when you want to get home?!?

I got 514.2miles out of a £77 tank fill which is 15p a mile…. It also limits trips to the fuel station, which is a very good thing!!

This time I put in £78 to fill the tank. The van would have been over £120. It still makes me very happy. I love having this car! I can drive into supermarket car parks and do all sorts without not dreading the driving. I will live with the pathetic windscreen blower 😂

So comfies on and missing Kinisi-flo tonight. If I bend down my nose runs. 🤧😆

Stay safe everyone 🤧🤧🤧

Day 1150 too bright too early as my Gran would say and how can it actually be June?!?

How can it actually be June already? May seemed to pass in a blur, in fact life seems to pass in a blur these days!

My trying to live in the present moment isn’t slowing life down any.

I was up at 5.30am and straight out for dog jog.

It was a beautiful morning! Pure blue sky. T-shirt weather and very sleepy dogs.. not certain they were ready for dog jog at that time of the morning!

I’ve obviously looked through these photos again and feel the joy and peace I felt taking them!

This next one was taken in iPhone portrait mode.

And this next one just normal. Can’t decide which I like the best?

The singe track roads are just beautiful!

All the while jogging along!

I took a photo of me to send to Craig. Look at that face mid run. I am actually buzzing. Completely loving life to the max!

I used to smile like this all the time and I was hiding how sad I really felt, even from myself at times. Now when I smile, I really mean it and feel it.

These lovely poppies are I. Our garden. I can hear Craig shouting WEEDS in my ear 😂 I love them.

I got home and did some energy toning exercises in the garden for kinesiology (the things I have to do to keep my mental health in check) and THEN went to Tesco in Irvine for a healthy food shop to pop in the fridge in the van!! Even Tesco looked lovely in the sunshine.

Then I went to get diesel…. All before work at 8am!! Machine.

The too bright too early part is two fold. The weather turned cloudy and has been cooler and cloudy for a lot of the day. Ellison and I still sat out at lunch for a blether. It’s the first day this year that I’ve worn sandals. Not the best choice but hey…..

My mood also deteriorated through the day.

I have so many rules, processes and procedures that I have to follow to keep myself on the straight and narrow. I am not very tolerant of anything that doesn’t go the way I believe it should go. That needs nipped in the bud. A couple of things this afternoon didn’t seem to be that bad at the time but the combination of them hit me from left field and there were tears again.

I only have swear words to express my thoughts on this 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🥴

XXX why do I have to be that person?!?

I cannot cope with feeling out of control. It’s super dramatic and none of it is that big a deal. It’s never personal but I always take it between the eyes.

So luckily I had Kinesiology tonight and we worked on dealing with stress of tears in public, learning tolerance and cutting chords with beliefs that no longer serve me. I know how weird all that might sound but trust me it works. I feel much calmer already. I’m sad that I’ve lost the spring in my step from this morning but I know I will get that back after a good nights sleep.

All I ask is for true peace to be able to deal with everyday life. It will not always be easy and it will not always go my way and that needs to be ok too.

Bring on tomorrow!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️