I didnāt sleep that well last nightā¦. I tossed and turned on and off all night but we had Freya in with us, and sheās a lot more active through the night than Khaleesi.
She doesnāt look it here!!
Weād all had a lovely lazy evening too.
I was up and out for a run with Emma this morning at 7.30am. There was just the two of us.
It was a lovely morning!
We did a 4.3k but it seemed super hot so we ended up walking back. we decided to switch our trackers off at one point on the way home.
I came home and sat out and had coffee in the garden with Craig, before he went to work. No rest for the Scottish Dog Behaviourist.
When he went to get ready, I headed out with the 3 puppeteers.
They were really good this morning! Always weaving about from one side to the other.
I have to say that Iām really low energy again today. I feel good, my head is in a good place, but Iām really tired and I need to do absolutely nothing but rest.
The light was shining on this last night so I thought Iād take a photo. Craig bought this for me.
I am having the loveliest of days. The dogs and I had a sleep over lunchtime. Iāve read a book, chatted to the neighbours and sat out in the garden for a few minutes.
I do feel like Iām going through a rejuvenation of some sorts. I was so super excited at the start of the week that I feel like Iām resting to process everything Iāve taken on board. I feel calm and in control.
There is nothing wrongā¦ only a lack of oomph!
I have picked my crochet back up for the first time in a very long time and Iām sat watching Beverly Hills Cop!
Nice and bright and colourful!
So I hope youāre all having a great weekend. Thereās loads needing doing here but it wonāt be getting done today.
Iām sure we woke up with a new government too. Hey a change is as good as a rest they say.
I slept like a log. Again, yes I know if must be wearing for folks who cannot sleep but Iām so grateful for my sleep.
I do miss the Fitbit sleep trackerā¦ the Apple one is pretty basic in comparison.
Iāve been listening to the Diary of a CEO, a great episode about fasting, which also went on to explain so many other theories. I was thirsty for the knowledge, almost gulping it down. Towards the end Dr Mindy Pelz says we should think about a toolboxā¦ on certain days we need certain things. Some days we need vitamin D to supplement our food intake, some days we need cardio, some days resistance training, some days we need to feed our hormones, other days we need rest.
I need rest today and instead of panicking about a wasted day, Iām going to allow myself some rest.
She saysā¦. After having already done 12k steps in dog walks. š thatās me on a resting day?!?
So I dragged myself out of bed after 7.30, a nice wee lie in.
I had to drop Bertie Beetle at the garage this morning for a potential slow puncture and itās still creaking and groaning after having the passenger side spring replaced. So I took Calaidh with me and we had a lovely walk back up in the rain.
Itās honestly like November weather up here just now. Itās cold, wet and windy though the forecast shows this morning as the worst of the weather.
Everything is so green and overgrown just now. If you can brave the weather, itās really pretty.
This tree always makes me smileā¦. Thought funnily this morning I suddenly thought it could be two trees and just the angle Iām seeing it at.
Every time I drive passed this field the highland cows are near the fence and usually when I walk past they are nowhere to be seen. Today I changed tactā¦. Iām off to get a photo of the heilanā coosā¦. Determined!
Tah dah!
Now this is down to my 15x zoom on the iPhone 15 Pro so Iām taking it as a small victoryā¦. š
This one stared at me for a while.
The others were playing so seem quite young. Iād LOVE to see these guys up close if anyone nearby can help me arrange it?!?!
The colours are amazing. Even although itās such a dreich day.
So many lovely weeds along the way.
Did spot this colourful coo on the side of a trailer in JS Montgomery Tractorās yard.
This statue says Welcome to Beith. Itās carved of wood and I think sheās called Johannaā¦ sheās looking to the skies wondering when summer will come just like the rest of us. š
These nettles were massive!!!
Calaidh so happy off lead.
Geilsland Road just as we head in Spiers Old School Grounds. Iāve added some reels onto my instagram at The Rambling Sloth, today. Go take a look if youāre on Insta. It was beautiful in the woods.
In we go Cal!
SUNSHINE!!!!!!!!
QUAD VERUM TUTUM – safety in truth.
I walked into the Queenās Coronation garden for the first time in a while. This Dawn Redwood was planted from a seedling from Japan in 1953.
Itās a beautiful tree.
I love the old walls and gates.
The sun is hitting the brighter leaves in this photo.
Just walking alongā¦
My favourite gate looks really dark under all the trees.
Calaidh living her best life!
So back home and posted the insta reels then off up the hill with Bhruic and Freyaā¦. The rain came over so it was a soggy walk!
The inside of my glasses were as wet as the outside!
They had a good run about in the field before I realised that silage had been spread on themā¦. Thankfully they werenāt too smelly. š
So to be honest, I got home about 11 and Iāve allowed myself to rest.
Iāve done precious little, though I have listened to some Law of Attractions YouTube videos.
Andā¦. guess whatā¦ I had the longest napā¦. Craig came home from work and fell asleep so I did too. Just woke up when the garage rang to say the car is ready. Tried not to have a āyou just woke me upā voice. (Donāt think I said I woke two folk up on Wednesday morning first thing when I called them from workā¦ felt awful š«£š)
The car was only Ā£24 for the puncture.
So thatās been my self care day.
Iām still shattered but I needed a rest day from my toolbox today.
It feels good to have known that from the outset and not to have fought it.
On day 1359 I put out my blog as usualā¦ the next day I called it day 1400 and only a few people noticedā¦ I had NO idea why I had just jumped 40 days. Thanks to clever Rachel two doors down for making me realise I wasnāt crazyā¦ on the 24 hour clock 1400hours comes straight after 1359!! Duhā¦. š š
I usually do a stats roundup on the significant days of the blog. There was way too much to talk about yesterday. I still canāt get my head around the fact that I have written this for almost every single one of these 1401 daysā¦ give or take.
It helps my head so much.
It challenges my head on the days I canāt talk about something thatās really bothering me.
But most of all, itās a blessing to be able to think through my day and make sense of it.
Iām feeling so much calmer after Kinesiology last week. We have taken the sting out of the urgency for change. I am back in alignment for now.
I have a great life. I have a lovely husband and 4 lovely dogs. We have a lovely house and live in a lovely village and I have the luxury of only working 4 days a week. I used to dream of that kind of freedom.
I used to dream of the job I would have and now I have it.
There are days when all of that implodes on me and creates so much stress that I just want to run and hide.
I expect FAR too much of myself and yet Iām proud of that as that is what makes me, me.
I have done all of this with the help of counselling and Kinesiology and the support of everyone around me.
And most of all because I refuse to give into it.
1,871 days without alcohol
1,271 days without anti depressants although always consider them when it gets bad
467 on HRT, not really sure what this has done for me but hey, Iāll keep on.
413 fasting, my newest fad ( I say that and I recognise Iām pretty committed when I settle on something š)
So why have I learned in the last 100 daysā¦ hmmmm Iāve had some tough days but still nothing like I experienced before. I think thereās always the fear that I will head back down there. Maybe Iām really not a fan of winter.
Iām not missing the van at all, that surprises me but also helps me to know I made the right decision selling her. Iām super excited to explore again in 2024 and Iām so looking forward to some sunshine.
I will miss campsites randomlyā¦. Thereās a lovely camaraderie between campers. I will miss that, just not enough to keep running a van. Sure I can get a wee tent if I miss it too much. š
Iām feeling really good today. Positive about the future. Grateful for everything that I have and grateful to finally be calm and not want to head for the hills.
I want to explore the whole world and experience the cultures everywhere. I know that I will get to do this and will enjoy every minute of itā¦ it just doesnāt have to happen tomorrow.
So back to todayā¦ a run with Calaidh this morning in my new trainers. DRY FEET!!! Yay. Calaidh approves.
When I got home we went to Mocha Jakās for brunch.
I had the Honey, Pesto & Walnut Avocado Stack which is new! It was really lovely.
Back home and Craig watched the football while I had a wee rest and watched some episodes of Manifest on the iPad, lying on the bed.
I then took Freya out a walk. Sheās chuffed with the trainers too.
I did some training with her, sheās a good girl.
Itās been a lovely sunny day. It started to rain when I walked Freya but itās the first day Iāve been out with a sweatshirt and a bodywarmer and not felt frozen. āļø
