Tag: HRT

Day 1168 the fastest day!

I have no idea where today went! It was the fastest day. I got loads done but the time just flew by.

I finish up for a week on Thursday so Iā€™m trying to get all my ducks in a rowā€¦ today we added at least 4 more ducks šŸ¦† šŸ¦†šŸ¦†šŸ¦† they are definitely not in any kind of row just yet. Itā€™s great to be busy like that! It never stops!

We had torrential rain overnight and into this morning. I set my alarm for dog jog but just couldnā€™t wake up enough to take them out this morning. I only gave in because I knew Craig was around to take them out this morning. Instead I had a nice leisurely shower and even blow dried my hair which is fairly unusual these days. We even sat and had coffee together before I went out. Againā€¦. Fairly unusual on a ā€œschoolā€ day.

The rain was actually lovely this morning. It was so heavy and so fresh, it was good to see the yellow grass getting some water. It was dried up before about 10ish and had been pretty hot ever since. My weather app did not get that memo. I was roasting in jeans and trainers as I drove home in Abbie 38Ā°C heat!!! That was hot.

I had to pop into the pharmacy tonight to pick up my HRT prescription. Its the third time Iā€™ve gone in to ask for it. To be fair, I should wait for the text to say the script has arrived at the pharmacyā€¦. But noā€¦ I prefer to cancel my plans for a food shop and head there instead, not knowing whether itā€™s ready or not. Yup you guessed itā€¦. Not up from the surgery yet.

I had a little strop inside my headā€¦ how could they blah blah blahā€¦. and then I calmed right down. I sat in Abbie 33Ā°C heat and tracked it all down. After calls to the docs and calls between them and the pharmacyā€¦ it was indeed at the pharmacy. šŸ¤¦šŸ»ā€ā™€ļøšŸ˜† instead of getting annoyed, I felt relief walking back into the freezing air conditioning of the pharmacy.

So it appears that the progesterone, Utrogestan is not available at the moment. The doc needs to prescribe an alternative. Itā€™s not safe to take the oestrogen Evorel without taking the progesterone. I have enough to last me this week and I donā€™t need progesterone for another fortnight. Have to wait and see what they come up with.

Craig posted this today on his Scottish Dog Behaviourist FB page.

I like that. ā™„ļø

Iā€™m still adding photos onto my new photography pageā€¦. Just Jules Photography. I donā€™t have a lot of followers yet but thatā€™s ok. Iā€™m enjoying looking through my shots and posting them.

I sat outside for dinner but the sun went in and i was freezing. Now wrapped up on the couch in a blanket and itā€™s just started to rain again!!

Stay safe everyone ā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļø

Day 958 first real day of holidays

It nice to have a day off work. To have no plans.

We slept through the Fit Body Farm this morning. Think weā€™re both exhausted after such a busy weekend.

I didnā€™t have much voice this morning when I woke up after shouting over the noise at the party and singing at the top of my lungs and way to much talkingā€¦. But do not fear because it came back, Craigie hasnā€™t had the luxury of a silent day. šŸ˜¬šŸ˜†

We took Abbie the Campervan back to the garage at 9am and walked back home from Glengarnock.

Itā€™s a lovely morning but bitter. Hat and gloves for this first time.

I have Freya, Iā€™ve just hidden her šŸ˜‚ itā€™s more a photo of Craigieā€™s ass šŸ˜‚ and me wearing his hat. šŸ˜‚

This next one would have been amazing except for the power lines.

Gloves were off by the time we got home but it was a cold walk.

I got vouchers for Gro Coffee in Irvine from my Auntie Marion. Strike while the iron is hot, we have spent them already!

We had a lovely wee lunch. Look how pretty the food was.

It was super tasty too! I also had my custom coconut milk latte and Craig had posh diet coke!

We did not have a cake. Check us. We still have a house full of cake and regardless of what you might think when you might want cakeā€¦ you CAN actually have toooooo much cake šŸŽ‚ šŸ˜‚

Forgot to share a really cool card I got from Kate and Jamie who live in the village. I love it!

So Iā€™ve actually handled all this turning 50 malarkey, quite well. Age is just a number but this doesnā€™t feel as easy as 40 did.

I have had the best time despite wishing we were in the Maldives for a fortnight. Weā€™ve seen so many lovely people and Iā€™ve made some very special memories of my 50th.

The HRT is going fine despite losing a patch and having to plaster one down. Craig is the key to a plaster sticking. Any Iā€™ve applied end up falling off.

Iā€™m off the progesterone just now as itā€™s 2 weeks on and 2 weeks off, but I have to go back on it on Wednesday night.

Iā€™m a bit nervous as it made me feel so low a few weeks back, but I need to take it.

ā€œIf oestrogen is the feed you use to grow a lawn, progesterone is the lawn mower that keeps the grass in checkā€. So my eloquent Doctor put it.

Iā€™ve spoken to so many people this weekend about menopause. There are 34+ symptoms that are now attributed to peri-menopause or menopause.

All of these can be helped by replacing the hormones that we lose at this time of life.

Itā€™s no less natural than taking insulin when you are diabetic or even for humans to drive in a car. It doesnā€™t matter what age you are. There are benefits from taking HRT that will help on later life. If youā€™re not sure, read up on it. You might be surprised.

In a stark reminder of my new age bracket, Iā€™ve just received my bowel cancer screening kit. Craigā€™s lucky I wonā€™t get him to help with this. šŸ˜†šŸ˜‚

Itā€™s not even 3pm and I have my feet up, Iā€™m listening to my birthday playlist on Spotify as I write this. I never got much chance to listen on Saturday.

I may have a nap.

Yet the garage phone just as I settled downā€¦. Abbie is still wobbling despite having the passenger side drive shaft fitted. They need her overnight. Theyā€™ll drive her up on the ramp tomorrowā€¦.. the saga continues.

We are just watching the last ever episode of The Walking Dead. The end of a blood thirsty, zombie era. Whoā€™d have thunk the blog would ever say those words?!?

I actually criedā€¦. Way more than I should have. Iā€™m just tired šŸ„± šŸ˜‚

Hope Monday was ok for you.

Stay safe everyone ā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļø

Day 933 I am now ā€œonā€ HRT (hormone replacement therapy for anyone who doesnā€™t know)

Last night 26th October 2022 at 6.30pm precisely I started HRT.

Itā€™s funny that Iā€™ve been thinking about and investigating this for a month now and the actual act itself is pretty underwhelming.

I took what looks like a plaster, out of a box, and stuck it on my backā€¦. Well Craig stuck it on my back as Iā€™m not sure how Iā€™m meant to get round there and stick a plaster myself. Iā€™m sure that will come.

My HRT clear, square patch is in place.

(I should say here that I am so grateful that I did it have to fight my GRP for it as so many women donā€™t even get to this stage).

I scan my bodyā€¦ā€¦ well actually I donā€™t exactly, I grab my crochet as Iā€™m late and rush to the pub next doorā€¦.. I grab and alcohol free gin and slimline tonic from the bar and sit with the girls with the biggest grin on my face, scanning my insides for any sign.

Nopeā€¦. There is noneā€¦.. unless, can I feel the oestrogen flowing through my body?!? Nopeā€¦. but the more I think about it, the more I wonder what it might do the more oestrogen I get will I be ok will I feel funny oooh I feel a little dizzyā€¦. Oh do I feel faintā€¦. Keep smiling itā€™s totally fine, youā€™ve got this girl, you can do this, this is what your body needsā€¦ do I still feel faint, oh my god what if I pass out what if I canā€™t handle it then Iā€™m stuck with these awful feelings foreverā€¦.. keep smiling itā€™s ok keep breathing slowly calm down.

None of the ladies would have had a clue what was going on in my head, although I bet they read this and smile. I guess it sums me up at the moment and this is the next piece of the puzzle. This is the bit that needs to go. The overthinking, the anxiety, the nerves, the panic.

I manage to stay upright through crochet but I still feel nervous like Iā€™m waiting for somethingā€¦.. I pretty much get straight into bed after 8pm when Iā€™m home. Craig is watching the football.

I can feel this patch on my back like I have a china teapot stuck to the back of me. I lie against the pillow, should I lie on my side, my front, instead. Nope back is ok, will the electric blanket heat affect it, should I turn it offā€¦. (Thereā€™s no punctuation in these internal monologues so Iā€™m typing it like it comes outā€¦.. šŸ˜†)!

I relax a bitā€¦ā€¦ but now I have to negotiate the progesterone. I have to take two tablets before bed on an empty stomach and they will make me feel drowsy. The tablets are like tiny wee round balls. My first thoughtā€¦. Well what could go wrong with that? You drop one and it goes bouncing across the floor only to be followed by my ball obsessed border colliesā€¦. Tennis balls šŸŽ¾ tennis balls šŸŽ¾

I fumble them out of the pack to try and ensure thereā€™s no bouncing involved and swallow them both with water.

I lie there and go through pretty much the same dialogue as the above. Before it gets too crazy I switch out the light, pop my eye mask on and Iā€™m off. (I digress but if youā€™ve never tried an eye mask then I can highly recommend oneā€¦.. itā€™s transformed my sleep!)

6.20am I wake upā€¦ā€¦oblivious to Craig coming to bed last night and the fact he left Calaidh in with us. Not. A. Clue.

Quick scan. I still feel like me. Patch still in place. Now I have to have a shower with it on and make sure it stays there. Next ā€œhurdleā€.

As only I could, I overthink this to the nth degree and try to shower without getting my back wet. Iā€™m in the most awkward shapes and posturesā€¦. Until I snap at myself and just get turned around and shower as normal.

Itā€™s still there. I still feel like me. Iā€™m still aware of this flashing beacon on my back but I try to ignore it as much as I can.

Letā€™s say ignoring a potentially life altering moment is not my strong point. šŸ˜¬

Iā€™m still nervous driving in the dark, on edge again this morning on the way into work.

Yet work is really good. We have a good planning meeting and everything seems a bit more clear in the un up to Christmas.

I have both jobs today though as I am in the little gift shop tonight as there is a private Christmas shopping party booked in. One of my friends daughters has booked the party so Iā€™m chuffed I get to be there too!! Service with a big smile!

Iā€™m also managing to squeeze in a wee half hour massage with Norma in Harmony before I head into the shop.

Iā€™m tired just writing it all but despite it all, I feel good and still calm!

So have a lovely evening guys!

Stay safe everyone ā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļø