It’s all in the title 😆

I woke up to torrential rain pummelling the window pane this morning. 5.30am.

By the time I left for work, the heavy rain cloud was moving on.

I suddenly noticed the bright star next to the moon…. I believe it was actually Venus.

I’ve never seen anything that bright, that close to the moon.

It was a lovely drive in this morning, no rain and pretty skies.

I was in work early again and got loads done. I love feeing organised when I finish on a Thursday.

It’s my weekend!

I rushed home to get my haircut in the garden room straight across the road from the house. It’s so cool to have your hairdresser over the road.

There are no pics as I just sat and watched the last episode of House season 4 and I cried….. 😂😂😂

The sunset was pretty too.

I saw this earlier and I really liked the sentiment of it. I’ve read it through a lot.

I’ve spent so long raging at the river that I am honestly say acceptance and being present in the moment if so freeing.

I’m listening the Diary of a CEO podcast at the moment. It’s fascinating me. Todays episode said we wear busy-ness like a badge of honour. We expect to be saluted for working all the hours god sends, for having the busiest social life and actually we all need to reward each other for taking time out and looking after ourselves. That needs to become the new norm.

I used to go in early and work late. I thought that’s what was expected of me.

I carried on doing it for most of my career… I began to resent it.

I told everyone how busy I was, how stressed I was, how hard I worked, I was proud of it all while despising it.

I LOVED my job title. It defined me.

I was never happy with what I had. I always wanted more.

I earned a lot of money and yet it was never enough.

When I finally broke and went off sick I felt like a failure. I felt like that for a very long time.

I’d be lying if I said I didn’t get the occasional pang of failure at times when I left my mind overthink…. But mostly I am truly grateful at having the chance to really think about what it is important in my life. Sadly too many people only experience this after some kind of trauma. If you have felt experienced this without having rock bottom then bottle whatever that is and sell it.

I finally don’t worry about what people think of me (but if you don’t like me please don’t EVER tell me as I would carry that about for years… 😳😆) I don’t care about the job title, about the money, about the things. I just have to do what’s right for me now. Instead of putting everything else first.

It’s true freedom.

Until the next wobble.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️