Another lovely relaxing day here. I had so many plans this morning.

Wasn’t sure whether to head to Braehead shopping centre for a wander around?

Decided against that for COVID reasons. We’re away for Hogmanay so I didn’t want to risk catching it at the last minute.

My second plan was to head to Largs and get my glasses tightened… still not done that…. And head to Portencross beach but honestly just couldn’t be bothered with the drive.

I took the dogs out for a walk.

I’ve had another lovely lazy day. I’ve put Abbie the camper van on charge today, plugged her into the house. Written lists of things to take away and put a gammon joint into the slow cooker.

And I had another nap….. honestly, I’ve not slept this much since I started full days at work. I’m loving the rest. Loving settling down for a sleep in the middle of the day.

Life is short. I shouldn’t waste it sleeping but at the same time I need it!

I’ve had the Crown on in the background today. Not sure if I’m loving it or not. Well I know I’m not loving it but it is interesting.

I’m not sure that I need to know all of this, some of the decisions being made make me sad. I know that sounds ridiculous. I often prefer the naive option!

And finally… I love this.

All to often we focus on the negative. This has been another hard year and we all need to give ourselves credit for how we’ve dealt with it.

So another lazy night in front of the tv for us….. oh that reminds me we had a lovely night with Claire and Graeme last night.

Claire made Passionfruit Gin Fizz Cocktails. Mine 0% of course!

It was so refreshing! She also had a grazing board for us.

It was so good!! We had a good catch up and a good laugh. A great night!

Stay safe everyone 🧀🧀🧀

Oooh dare I say I actually feel a wee teensy tiny bit bored today?! There are so many things I could be doing but actually I can’t be bothered doing any of them.

However, in my lazy morning. I have still racked up 4,76 steps so far.

I’ve tidied out my wardrobe and chest of drawers, have clothes for charity, a couple of things to sell and a few things I’m reluctantly binning.

And just like that it’s 2pm.

I feel that funny way I get at weekends sometime where I feel like I “should” be doing more and niggle away at myself for not doing it. yet honestly, I have absolutely no intentions of doing any of it.

I wanted to go for a run when I got up this morning. I didn’t plan ahead so my stuff was all in the bedroom while Craig was having a lie in. I wanted to take my photos and measurements for the FBF challenge and couldn’t find the pad and tape measure so instead of letting it go a small child had a tantrum inside my head. By the time I found it I realised the sports gear was in the wash…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ It wasn’t the end of the world and everything was pointing towards me just having a rest.

I’ve done two washing loads and hung it up and had a good clear out so I guess that enough.

I finished watching the last episode of Suits. I’ve had that on in the background for months now as I tidy or write the blog. That’s a whole 9 seasons!! Hmmmmm what will be next?!

So I took Calaidh out for a walk and sadly left my phone at home. It’s been misty and murky for the last few days but there was a clearing in the clouds…. The sky was beautiful when I was out. Just after 3 it was very low in the sky and a huge orange ball.

So now I’ve done something I fee a bit better about doing nothing.

This is what my late lunch looks like…… a whole lot of eyes on me. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

And now it’s 6.30pm wow. Another nap. I’m watching the Crown now and maybe that’s made me fall asleep.

Going into Claire and Graeme’s in 45 minutes so better get moving!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It actually snowed here on Christmas Day…. I could leave it there…. Poetic license…. or I could tell you the truth…. it did but was only a few flakes blowing in the wind as we drove home!!

We woke up to a sprinkling though…. ☃️ hardly snowman material!

So Boxing Day today…. And we have ZERO plans.

So I’m really pleased to say that I have honestly had THE best Christmas. I’m not sure I can remember the last time I’ve said that.

Other than not knowing what to get for anyone at the start of December, I’ve really embraced the spirit of Christmas this year, whatever that is. I’ve worn Christmas jumpers, decorated my desk and watched so many Christmas movies 🎄🎅🏼🧑🏼‍🎄.

I’ve used Christmas emojis on almost every message I’ve sent, I mean that’s got to stand for something. 🎄🎅🏼🧑🏼‍🎄☃️🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Most of all I have felt a whole lot of love. I’ve spent the last two days with some of those I love the most. I’ve watched them interact with each other, shared laughs, old stories, memories and I’ve loved every minute of it.

There was no pressure, no rush, no drama, only great company, lovely food and the best few days.

I should say here that two years ago I dreaded the thought of Christmas. I felt like a burden to everyone and thought they’d Al be better off without me. It was the most dreadful time and was really all in my head. My illness telling me cruel lies. So many people will have struggled this year and my heart goes out to them.

I love that in this last year I’ve had lots of days where I just did whatever I wanted. I love being able to relax and have no pressure to do anything. I also love alone time. As much as I love my friends and family I now know I need alone time. Crave it actually.

We had our Christmas Day today. We didn’t take our presents with us so woke up at 8am to do pressies! Boxing Day is Christmas Day III 🥳🎊🎄🎅🏼🧑🏼‍🎄♥️

I’ve had such lovely, lovely, lovely gifts this Christmas. I’ve been so lucky.

I got a T-shirt from my favourite Christmas film!

I got a lovely hat and T-shirt from my next door neighbours.

A hat from Claire, scarf from Craig and gloves from my sis in law, Lisa which make a great combo!!

Craig and I had a £100 limit….. he is the king of gift giving so needs a limit 🤣🤣🤣

He did very well until my last gift…. He got me the Fitbit Sense which is a health smart watch. It tracks all health metrics and helps manage stress……. Well hullo…… know of anyone who might need that?!? He had a wee twinkle in his eye when he “tah-dahed” that one over!!

I love it of course and it couldn’t have come at a better time when I really want to track my workout progress and am starting to look into daily meditation practise.

I also got lots of mini alcohol free drinks with a Julie fizz glass.

Everyone has been so thoughtful and kind.

Calaidh made light work of this toy…. It was gone in 5 minutes.

We took the dogs out and it was pretty miserable and cold so came home and had showers and got into comfies for the rest of the day.

Craig watched the football while I got into bed and had a nap! Surprise!!

We watched Don’t Look Up on Netflix tonight with Leonardo di Caprio. Wow. Uncomfortably close to real life today but a great watch. We all need to take something away from that movie.

And these were just divine.

So yeah, a great few days. I’ve been very lucky and feel very loved. ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Merry Christmas everyone!

I’m writing this in bed after a lovely Christmas Eve meal with my lovely in-laws. Tools loads of photos… as usual!

Cookie the Chihuahua is bored of selfies already.

How stunning does the garden look?!

Christmas is also in every room of the house!

So… didn’t sleep that well as the dogs decided to use us as a trampoline pretty much all night, but didn’t actually get up until 8am.

We had the loveliest breakfast before we left.

And now we’re driving home for Christmas…. 🎄🎅🏼🧑🏼‍🎄♥️ to my mum and dads for the day.

First things first some treats for the pups!

Mum and dad’s tree!

Mum and I took Calaidh, Bhruic and Freya for a walk. The sun came out and it was really lovely for a wee while.

Mum had invited Nick, the Minister from their church, St James the Less, for dinner, so I drove around Penicuik to pick Nick up from church. It was a huge trip down memory lane.

I popped round to the Memorial garden at church to give my love to my Gran. my cousin Steven gave her a wee Christmas tree and some flowers.

So back to mums and we caught the Queen’s speech at 3, which always reminds me of my Gran 💜 as she always wanted to hear the speech and then we had dinner! Another amazing meal… think we’ll sleep for a week!!

And then I had Christmas pudding with brandy butter. I love brandy butter!!!! Love love love!

I hope you’ve all had a lovely day. Christmas is a hard time for many people, it’s a memory of loved ones lost. It brings up so many memories of Christmases past.

My Grandad died 37 years ago today. I will never forget that memory. I was allowed to go to the midnight service at St James church for the first time. I was 12. I could hardly stay awake but I was so excited to be there. I wanted to be so grown up.

We came out of church and I suddenly felt very small. There was lots of chat going on at adult height. My Grandpa who never came to church was outside in the car park, as was my Great Uncle. I had no idea what was wrong.

Grandad had a massive heart attack at 12.10am on Christmas morning.

This Christmas we have people isolating through COVID-19 just to add to everything.

I’ve really struggled with Christmas in past years but this year I’ve been the most relaxed by far. Good things come to those who work really hard at it to keep on going.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

First day of my holidays…. Due a lie in… 5.07am…. 😳

Wide awake!

So….. why not get up and at it and blitz the house. Now it’s been a weeeeeeee while since we’ve done a big clean. I don’t do one and not write about it. 🤣🤣

Christmas clean doesn’t have the same ring to it as spring clean does it?! 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I left the dogs in their room and started on the bedroom.

Now when you have 3 Border Collies… this….. is my idea of heaven.

A spotless bedroom, all excess dog hair obliterated…. There will always be some so I’m not gonna say there’s none, but it’s so lovely to have it all clean and tidy and everything in the right place.

So just wondering if anyone could take the dogs for the next few weeks while I enjoy our form of spotlessness?!? With a few dog hairs to remind me of their love 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😊🤣🥳

Craig was at the gym so we had coffee when he came home and then I did the bathrooms, the dogs room, the stairs and the hallway.

He took the dogs out so I could wash the floors and then moved I moved onto the sunroom and kitchen.

Craig took over when he came back and blitzed the fire, the living room and the rest of the kitchen while I wrapped the last of the Christmas presents. I set up a wrapping table in my clean bedroom. It’s the only clutter I will allow… 😬

The house is sparkling but we can’t have any visitors to stay over as everything is upstairs in the spare room. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

We headed out to Tesco early afternoon to pick up some supplies for Boxing Day when we are due back home. It’s been a miserable day up here today. My friend Helen, down in Exeter, had been posting stunning photos to their sunshine. I tried to tae a photo outside at 3pm today and it was so depressingly dark and grey I deleted it!

So we’re heading to Craig’s mums tomorrow for Christmas Eve, staying overnight, then to my mum for Christmas Day.

So my jammies are on and we’re in front of the fire watching Christmas movies.

And I am currently watching Die Hard as it most definitely IS a Christmas movie!

Just like Craig’s T-shirt says. ♥️

Happy Christmas Eve Eve to you all.

Stay safe everyone 🎅🏼🎄🧑🏼‍🎄

Ooooh I’m late tonight but I’ve had a lovely dinner and watched a movie before I got round to writing!

So the big surprise today was that we got our last van delivered this afternoon so we get tomorrow off. For nothing. Not a holiday. Not to be made back. What a difference a new job makes. Christmas is actually a thing rather than a hindrance to business.

So the day started with the Fit Body Farm and I even tinselled my pole!

The workout was the 12 days of Christmas and the soundtrack was jazzed up Christmas tunes to give us a decent beat to work to.

I was tired but I really enjoyed the runs round the garden…. Which is the bit I usually hate. The atmosphere was buzzing.

This guy had by far the best costume!

He did most of the workout with it all on as well 🎅🏼

I gave the Coach my phone to get some photos… they’re no braw though?!?

Work was good again today. Ended up being really busy.

Got a lovely bottle of 0% Tanqueray Gin and a Christmas bonus…. And the extra day off!

So a lovely lazy evening. There’s loads we need to do in the next few days but it can wait.

Right now… it is what it is!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s 8.05pm and I’ve not stopped since 4.45am! Until now obviously… Jammies on and feet up!

Busy day after all the drama and excitement at the weekend. Back to FBF this morning and we did a great stretching session which I really badly needed. There was one side plank with alternating feet that I couldn’t even remotely do… I got the giggles instead!

We ended with shuttle runs just to get the heart pumping!

Work was great today… I was on a roll matching invoices to the system and I couldn’t stop. I didn’t get breakfast till 11.30 and so never ate lunch! I realised at one point I was slightly addicted to the process…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

But at 4pm I was outta there to go to Silverburn Shopping Centre to meet Auntie Jac who had driven all the way over.

Silverburn was heaving when I got there after 5pm so we went straight to Nando’s and ordered a super healthy spicy chicken salad and a spicy chicken wrap to share between us. It was lovely!!

The decoration in Silverburn was beautiful.

Santa was right out in the middle of the mall…. Check me… mall… I sound American. 🤣 guess it must be due to COVID, Santa has to be in an open space?!

We went from Nando’s to Tom Horton’s for a decaf latte. May have had half an Apple fritter doughnut too. Was soooo good!

I have more mask than face!

Was so lovely to catch up as it’s been way too long! ♥️

Think I might be asleep pretty sharpish…. 🤣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I am so humbled to say that I won 2 awards last night at the Fit Body Farm Christmas outside party!

The Transformation of the Year and the 6 week challenge!

I got the cup for the transformation and £200 for winning the 6 week challenge. I can’t believe that I won one of them let alone both.

I’m using last night as a reason to keep on going.

I have worked very hard these last 8 weeks. I’ve really tried to change my nutrition as well as the exercise. The exercise comes easier now… the nutrition still doesn’t… especially around Christmas when there are so many temptations everywhere!

So a few photos from last night…

So after all of yesterdays excitement I’ve had a mare of a morning… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

We had the dogs in with us last night… until about 3am. Bhruic wouldn’t settle… so I was tired when we got up about 8.30am. We had coffee and then I went to get ready for church. I’m going to see the nativity this morning as we next door neighbour Holly, is taking the service.

I walk into the kitchen and decide to have a scoosh of our vitamin D spray. Not had it for a few days. …

It didn’t scoosh like it usually does… it’s usually a big scoosh all round your mouth. This was more of a straight line squirt. (stop it!!)

So I did another two…. Only then did I taste vanilla 😱😱😱😱😱

Scent Bomb right into my mouth…. Straight to the sink. 🤪 oh my actual god……

Craig took this……. He was laughing soooo hard. The only plus point here is my jammies match the towel. 🤷🏻‍♀️🙄🤣

So back to the point of the story. Church. I’m ready to go… I’ve given Craig a vanilla kiss…. And I hear an advert on tv…. Get your COVID booster as soon as possible…….

WE HAVE OUR BOOSTER VACCINATION BOOKED FOR 11.39AM!!!!!!

Quick call to Holly… drop her daughter at church and straight out to the Galleon Centre in Kilmarnock. how could we have forgotten?!?

There seem to be two queues so we join the shorter one. The other queue is massive. It snakes all the way around the building. There’s lots of confusion as to which queue is for bookings and which is for drop ins. After 5 minutes of standing in the wrong queue… we realise that the huge queue is for bookings.

What we can’t understand is why the drop ins queue was even allowed when the bookings queue was so massive. They were taking one drop in for every 10 bookings.

We were almost a whole hour from start to finish but we’ve got out booster jag so really that’s all that matters!

So after a morning of drama… everything finally calmed down.

We did a super expensive food shop, came home and I walked the dogs while Craig put everything away.

It’s freezing in the fog…..

My fingers and chin were so cold!

It’s almost like a crow owns every tree… maybe they do?!

I’ve got my comfies on and have had my feet up ever since. It’s taken me an hour and a half to write this.

I’ve had a very tough 3 years…. Longer probably. I still have some difficult days but on the whole I feel like I might just have this thing sussed. ♥️

I’m 1.081 days alcohol free.

I’m 129 days anti depressant free and that means more to me than anything.

I’ve had so much support from so many amazing people. I couldn’t have done this alone. I appreciate everyone who reads this. Everyone who’s listened and everyone who’s there for me.

I am truly blessed. Thank you all ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Let’s start with last night… the Gateside Woodcutters Christmas Night in the Gateside Inn.

We had a lovely wee night with the neighbours. It’s an annual tradition and we’re so lucky that we got to do it this year. We all took lateral flows in advance.

I forgot to take my Turkey dinner photos but it was very, very good!

Apparently wearing my hat was not cool….. I really was just checking to see how daft it looked…. and hey I think I’m actually rocking the look!

I came home at 11pm but couldn’t go to bed as the band were still playing and our bedroom is attached to the village pub. The band were playing just behind the headboard….. 😂

So I slept till 7am this morning and it felt like a huge lie in. I’ve had a lazy morning but set up the camping table in front of the fire and got wrapping!

My reluctance to plan and shop for Christmas means that I have far too much for so many people. However, that’s a good problem to have. I’m wrapping them all up and it just is what it is. It feels good to have more than rather than less than. I love giving gifts. I love watching people open presents that I bought them.

I’ve gone from can’t do this, don’t want to do this, this is too hard, this is a nightmare… to oh….. surprise, have too much. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I don’t know why Christmas causes me so much stress. I think it’s the pressure to “perform” when I just about manage that at work and not much else. Then all of a sudden you have to do presents and cards and guess what everyone else wants….. nightmare!

When I emerge from wrapping I realise it’s a beautiful day. We’re so lucky it is as we’re outside tonight for the Fit Body Farm Christmas axe throwing and awards ceremony.

I decided to do a wee photoshoot with the girls.

Now this next picture really makes me laugh. Calaidh is proudly sitting there showing off her scarf and the other two sum up the whole event….

They’re actually really good and know that the get to play as soon as we’re done.

Come get us Dad, we need rescued!

Least I had fun!

So we have to be at the Farm for 4.30pm. We have to send photos of our lateral flows before we go so I’m doing another one at 3pm before my shower!

So we’re both clear and good to go. The sunset on the way here was breathtaking. There’s low lying mist everywhere as it’s so clear but cold. The Isle of Arran looks stunning on the horizon and SO close. Makes me think of the lovely Anne again.

I took this photo over Craig while he was driving and out the window of the car. Imagine what you could capture if we had time to stop. We don’t… we’re running a weeeee bit late!

So I’m gonna stop this here tonight. I want to relax and enjoy the axe throwing without worrying about finishing the blog.

Transformation of the year will be announced tonight too. There’s very stiff competition so if I don’t win it will be very rightly deserved by someone who has lost way more than me.

The difference is that I have gained…. I have gained so much joining the Fit Body Farm.

I’ve gained a new level of self respect for myself. I’ve made some lovely friends who are all super supportive of each other and I’ve gained something that Craig and I can enjoy together and it’s not sitting in a pub drinking.

And that’s priceless.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I have just had THE longest nap. 2.5 hours. Wow. I needed it. Was shattered after this week and fighting with my evil twin most of yesterday.

I’m still really tired. Interesting that I drowned my sorrows in sugar yesterday. Wonder how much of an effect that has?

More updates on the Covid front…

I found the Farm REALLY hard this morning. My shins were sore, my legs heavy and I felt like I was dragging myself round the track. Everything was heavy and leaden. it got easier on the last run funnily enough. Like everything has loosened off.

I should say here that I’m actually in a good headspace today despite the previous few paragraphs…. I just knew I needed to rest.

I decided to go to Kilmarnock with Craig while he went to a job so I had an hour to shower and walk the dogs. We went on a super fast walk! I was really surprised to see that our village suddenly has road signs after all the years it managed without.

Who knew?!? Seems no-one!

So… fast walk then off to Kilmarnock. I had an hour and a half to wander round some shops and I needed up having a coffee in The Range.

Despite the Costa signs they only had decaf instant so I had to have that. Can’t risk the caffeine buzzing!! Wasn’t quite the same as it’s the same as I could have in the house but hey, it passed some time in shops that don’t have much to offer.

Social distancing is back. Tables in the coffee shop were taped off, 2m spacing at the till queues again, announcements about staying 2m apart. It’s funny how quickly we’ve forgotten what that was like.

We met up after his job and went to B&Q to get paint for the kitchen. It soooo badly needs painted. With an open fire, a wood burning stove and the hob & oven all in close vicinity, it doesn’t stand a chance. 3 dogs haring past every cupboard every minute of every day doesn’t help either.

So we picked our paint, headed home, had a bite of lunch as was in bed just after 1pm.

It was THE best nap!

I heard some sad news yesterday about a lady I’ve never actually met but felt like I knew.

Anne Curtis joined a zoom call I was on through lockdown. It was run by Shelagh who most of you know I go to for my health kinesiology.

She was always smiled and was very friendly on the call so I warmed to her immediately.

She lived on Arran and maybe that’s what made me feel connected to her. I never knew anyone that lived on Arran before. Every time I saw Arran I thought of her. She would never have known that.

Back in March I sent her a photo of Arran that I took from a dog walk… 34 miles away. She loved it.

So the moral of this story is…

You never know the impact that you might have on other people. Always be kind and you may be that person to someone.

Annie was only 55.

Life is short.

I think this next one is important too…. No one person is ever right all of the time.

My works Christmas night out was cancelled as we didn’t think it was a great idea to be out and about in Glasgow, in a big group with the new COVID regulations in place.

So we are off to the pub next door for the village woodcutters Christmas meal. I was originally going to miss it.

We’ve all to lateral flow before we go.

I’ve ordered smoked salmon and turkey with all the trimmings. Can’t wait. 😋

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s 8pm already and the day has raced away!

I had a wee blip at work this morning where something went wrong and I got upset as a result. Then I got upset at my getting upset. Go figure….

If you imagine my anxiety as an alter ego… it actually seems to relish when something goes wrong. It folds its arms, smiles a nasty, know-it-all smile and says “yep, you’re still rubbish, you think you have it all under control but you you don’t, huh that showed you”…. It’s evil.

Then I can’t seem to shake it.

I try to look at the thing objectively…. To learn the lesson it teaches me…. but anxiety snears and tries to drag me down further. It wallows in the bad feelings. “You should have done better, you should have done it this way, you shouldn’t have said that, you should have said this instead….” On and on and on.

This happened about 9.30 so it’s been a long day of hearing how awful I am from the devil inside my head. As a result I’ve eaten two huge chocolate chip cookies 🍪, a huge filled roll at lunch, about 8 Quality Street and 3 0% gins in the pub. Uneaten are my healthy eating plan breakfast and lunch. Self sabotage at its best.

So I’ve made it a tough day for myself. No-one else had an issue with it. Just me and my evil twin.

So…. Moving on. Scotland’s Covid regulations are changing again as a result of the Omicron variant spreading so quickly.

When we were in the pub, the news came on announcing that pubs have to put screens back up from midnight tonight. The rules are changing so fast that we really do have to try to keep up with what’s happening. Craig ran to get his electric screwdriver 🪛

I put a post out on the pub FB page to let everyone know. We sat at the bar for the last time for a while.

These are difficult times again as restrictions tighten so my closing line is even more important.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Jeez that was an inspiring title.🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 NOT!

I do find it difficult to wax lyrical on days where I feel like not much has happened.

I got up at 5am. Left for the Fit Body Farm at 5.30am and worked very hard from 6-7am! Halfway round on my run I did think how ridiculous it was to be running like a crazy wummin at 6.30am when most folks were in bed! It was PITCH BLACK when I left.

I tried to be very brave and not to get scared expecting the boogey man to jump out on me…. 🤦🏻‍♀️😬😳🤣

Work was good, we got loads done.

I had a huge stomach cramp late morning. I was with customers and it came on suddenly. I felt like I couldn’t stand up straight. By the time they left I was bent over double for about 20 minutes.

I took some paracetamol. Literally in 5 minutes it was gone. So strange. I was genuinely thinking I’d have to head home as the pain was so bad. Been fine the rest of the day.

How lovely is the next one… my friend In Canada sent it to me. I’m gonna try this.

I’m on dinner tonight.. just waiting on Craig to get home. I prefer nights when he’s in charge…. I’m still trying to be good. A lot less sugar than I’ve had before.

Customers brought cakes in yesterday and I’ve not eaten one two days in a row. I also avoided the chocolates! I don’t need them.

So there’s nothing more from me today. It feels a bit boring and I apologise. I would much prefer galavanting around taking lots of lovely photos of the countryside.

But it’s dark when I start work and dark when I leave. In the bleak midwinter 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Wow… I walked in the door and the most amazing smell reached my nostrils… it smelled like some warm apple pie sprinkled with cinnamon…. Actually it was the three candles we have… gingerbread, mint mojito and caramel apple…. So that’s the wonderful smell. Wow. It was honestly mouth watering!

So despite there not being apple pie.. there was a lovely dinner on.

I was late tonight. I had kinesiology after work… for the first time in 5 weeks and it feels like forever!

So as busy but great day at Tartan HQ…. It rained so hard today but I hardly saw any of it. the day passed quickly but I enjoyed it.

I left just after 4 and headed to Irvine as I had things to get from the shops. Got none of it…. Then had to leave after an hour to get to kinesiology.

It was so great to see Shelagh today and get a big hug! We did lots of good work today as usual I left very calm and ready for a good sleep. One of the things we worked on was my desire to please people. ALL. THE. TIME….. it causes me stress to peoples everyone all of the time and yet I’m conditioned by generations of my family to do that. Fascinating when you look into it all.

So home, dinner, write blog and it’s 20.28 already…. I’ve got to get my lunch prepared for tomorrow and I’ve just had my bedtime reminder…. Got the early 5am start tomorrow so that’s all folks…. That was plagiarism 🤣🤣

Stay safe everyone♥️♥️♥️

Honestly when I left work the sky was amazing. It was a deep vibrant red. ♥️

I have been known to head to the coast when the sunset looks that’s great but by the time I get there it’s gone…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 So tonight I decided just to head home.

So of course tonight….. the sky was stunning all the way and I couldn’t get a photo of it! Here’s the best I managed leaving work…

The photos don’t do the colour justice as it was a deep pinky red and not orange as it looks here.

Sadly sunset over and industrial estate doesn’t make for the best photo.

So it was a busy day. The Fit Body Farm was a good workout. It was PITCH BLACK when I left.

I had the fear this morning… convinced someone was gonna jump out and scare me. Convinced there was someone in the dark watching me. A horrible imagination!!

Work was really crazy first thing… a whole host of things being thrown at me. But hey… it’s just a question of working through it all and getting it done.

The village Christmas tree is all lit up! The Gateside Plant Centre donated it and Rachel two doors down decorated it. It looks amazing.

This is the view from my front door…. We’re very lucky. It’s so beautiful!

So not much else to say today. I’ve been calm-ish…. No dramas so I’ll take that any day.

Stay safe everyone 🌅🌅🌅

Can’t believe it’s 4pm already and the weekend is almost over. I’ve been up since 7.30am as woofy mcwooferson was woofing and grumbling away for hours… or so it seemed! 🐶🐶🐶

By the time I got them up and out I realised it might have been the owl hooting out the back that was keeping them awake. 🦉

I was out early to Asda, did the food shop and then had a wander around some of the other shops. Check these guys…. Full size Christmas gnomes!

I did wonder who buys these….. as much as I would love one. 🤣 £135!!!

And then I decided to treat myself to a Christmas Starbucks! Craig and I used to go to Starbucks all the time and I loved it when the Christmas red cups were released.

I had a…. Wait for it…… grande decaf coconut milk toffee nut latte with vegan whip. Wow…. I really had to think that through when I ordered it! I have become THAT person….. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

And it was soooo good!

Back home, shopping away, washing away and Claire messaged to see if I fancied a cuppa…. Did I?!? Damn right! Had a lovely Turkish Apple Tea.

So back home and had some more presents to wrap.

Of course I’ve realised that there so many things I don’t have for people…. I’ve not had the brain power to dedicate to shopping this Christmas. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ it’s been really bad as I stress about it but can’t actually think straight enough to fix it. Craig is picking up the slack….

I’ve decided to donate to charity this year instead of sending Christmas cards. In all honestly it’s another thing off the list and helps manage my anxiety and all for a good cause. We’ve donated up to 4 Christmas meals for the homeless.

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I also shared this…. It’s a touchy subject as when I drank I never understood a non drinker.

When you don’t drink you do feel a bit like an outsider in certain situations. It’s my choice and I’m sticking to it as I believe I’m a much better person without alcohol. It doesn’t mean it’s easy all the time but difficult decisions never are. It’s so much better when people just accept it.

So that’s my weekend. Very quiet, lots of chores but also lots of chill time.

Here’s hoping this is a good week for you all!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

What a miserable day up here, it’s rained all day. It’s very fine rain but I got soaked on the dog walk!

This next one sums up the day… autumn, nearly winter rain…. Rain… Rain…. Rain….

The dogs don’t care! They had lots of fun running around.

I actually stepped right in a big muddy bog half way round a field… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😱🤣 the joys of dog walking….

I had to dry the dogs off when I got home and all of a sudden it’s 11.30… just like that!

I’ve been wrapping Christmas presents today. The pups have been all cosy and sleeping after their big walk.

I did go out for a bit today. I went out to meet my sister-in-law for a quick coffee at 1.30pm. We went to a Mocha Jaks in Beith at the end of the road.

I had a Christmas panini and we halved a ginger blondie between us! Was lovely to get a good catch up.

She brought me a lovely wee Christmas basket!

So Craig’s brother and sister just arrived for dinner in the pub and the dogs went nuts as they were so excited!

I’m having a quiet night in. What’s new eh?! I love it. Jammies, fire on, feet up and maybe more wrapping or some crochet.

This next one rings true for me, particularly for last weekend when I cried so much for no real reason.

Thankfully I don’t feel like that at all this weekend. Such a relief!

And this made me laugh….. 🤣😘

Have a lovely Saturday evening!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Yeah…. Check me… did I actually have a day that was good… and I was working… and nothing special happened but I feel like I achieved stuff…. Even though I spent all day doing something that didn’t work until smarty pants boss man sauntered over and showed me how it’s done. In seconds. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I sooooo wanted it not to work 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣but it did. So I have next week to get it all squared up and it feels good to have a mission.

I love a good mission.

So I’ve not much to report today. It’s the end of my working week and I’m looking forward to my weekend.

Today would have been my Nana’s birthday. She would have been 91 today as she was born in 1930. She died on 23rd May 2014.

She lost my Grandad on Christmas Day 1984 so Nana was on her own for a long time.

There’s not a week goes by that I don’t think about phoning Nana on my way home from work. I used to call her and say “is that ma Nana” and she would say “yes ma darling”… I used to moan about work and travelling and she would always sympathise.

This is a big photo that was kept above the fireplace in their house until after Grandad died. Isn’t she beautiful. ♥️

Here she is with Grandad. I’m very lucky to be able to remember them both but sad that Grandad wasn’t around for her.

I never really stopped to think about that when she was alive. Nana had 4 kids, one of them my dad, and 8 grandkids. She was kept pretty busy. Here we are on my 18th birthday and only the baby of the family, Fee, hadn’t been born yet.

I’ve always loved this photo.

Here are all the girls (with our mums) the night we finished clearing Nana’s house back in 2014.

It was such a bittersweet night as we all sorted through her things but didn’t have her there to tell us what they were.

The night she died I went to visit her with Auntie Jac and we had a lovely time with her. We had a good giggle together despite how rotten she was feeling. It was almost as if she rallied a bit. By early morning she was gone.

Lovely memories today. ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️