Woke at 3am with the fear that I was going to be wide awake on my day off…. Not so it seems… back to sleep until a random 6.30 alarm went off and then back over until just before 8. Didn’t go to the Farm this morning… I should have but I didn’t.

I was determined to have a wee day out today but the sun has gone and it’s rowdy cloudy. Still makes for some dramatic photos.

I’ve been checking the forecast since yesterday and while I wanted to head north to Inveraray, the forecast showed better in the south.

I spent all night romanticising about a boat trip to Ailsa Craig…. But didn’t bother to call them to see if there would be any space as I just assumed not. It’s ok I hear myself…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

So I got up, sat with Craig while we had coffee before he want to work and then took the dogs out for a walk. We did a lead walk today I aced it. Took control no issues… none of this… I can’t manage my dogs malarkey…

I sat for a bit when I got back when I got back trying to figure out where to go for the day… love that Bhru sits on this bench outside… still near me about ready for action.

So I randomly decided to head for Girvan which is where the Ailsa Craig boat trip goes from…. Knowing I’m not going to go on the trip but thought I’d investigate anyway.

Here’s the trip I did.

I’m currently sitting at the big blue dot and can see right over to Campbeltown passed the south coast of Arran.

So Girvan was ok…. It’s pretty rundown to be honest, I think it might be a nice place to live as there are lots of lovely cottages but I walked through the town centre and, like most towns in Scotland now, the shops were all boarded up, charity shops or butchers. I had been looking forward to a wee rummage around some charity shops but there were none.

The harbour is pretty.

There were two lifeboats moored in the harbour. I have a wee donation in their collection tin… never know when you might need them!

The tidal estuary was particularly pretty.

The tulips were stunning!!

Ailsa Craig is the big rock in the distance. It’s where the rock comes for the curling 🥌 stones!

Wee rock pretending to be bigger than Ailsa Craig…

Ailsa Craig zoomed in 10 times!!

The sun is trying so hard to come out… have to say the forecast for today was not entirely accurate… the all day sunshine did not appear!

I then took a fascination for the old red mooring points….

The beach looked really moody under the cloud. We’ve had blue sky for 3 days now… not used to this… but very dramatic!

You can park motorhomes overnight for £10 now. It’s just a car park to be fair, so not best for the dogs but still great to see small towns offering this now.

I decided to head north via the coastal route up past Trump Turnberry which was truly beautiful but I couldn’t stop for photos… then onto Maidens.

I am now sitting right here. On my camper van stool…

I made a coffee in the van… first time in ages.

Watch out if you have Ailsa Craig in almost every photo today… 😬🤣

There is no one around. I’ve been here for just over an hour and have maybe see 10 people in total and they’ve all been walking dogs on the beach…. Except the young guy randomly crossing in a kilt… now I know you shouldn’t randomly photograph strangers but it needed doing….

Just going for a walk in my kilt… as you do! Culzean Castle is at the end of this beach so he maybe works there. I can’t get a photo from this distance as the light isn’t right…. Check me eh?!? I sound like I know what I’m talking about 🤣

A helicopter just flew over and landed further up the beach! 🚁

I found it further up the coast!

Not sure if it’s just an exercise as they just seem to be hovering. I sat here for about 5 minutes along with another 2 cars… it just kept hovering so I moved north.

Then drove off up the road through Dunure and didn’t stop at the castle 🏰 and carried on through Ayr, Prestwick and into Troon and stopped at South Beach.

There she is again…..

Troon Beach had loads of sand worms.

It’s really atmospheric.

The breeze has died and the water is like glsss.

Troon now has its very own big wheel 🛞

Sand worms everywhere!!

I love these next few shots.

So I’ve had a really lovely day. I’m home now and it’s sunnier than it’s been all day. 🤣

Back to work tomorrow but need to plan more travels soon I love exploring.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I had the best sleep last night. Properly out for the count. Slept really well… it could be the clean sheets I put on last night. That and the lack of caffeine I’ve been drinking and all that fresh sea air yesterday.

Today is a boring day blog wise I’m afraid. It consisted of housework before 11am…. I even mopped the floors!! I was on a roll though. It feels so good to blitz it and stop stressing about the mess. It also felt good to do it before it was a compete mess. Made it easier to do….

A quick shower and then out with hoddit, doddit and ploddit the 3 puppsketeers!

Spotted another Scotland flag in the sky! 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

Took some pupper close ups…

Watched the huge Emirates flight ✈️ start approach to land at Glasgow. It always looks like it’s hanging in the air.

Once I got back home the wind was really dying down. I got set up in the back garden with all my crochet and started adding a row onto my blanket.

I have spent all afternoon crocheting squares and adding a full new row….

I HAVE ADDED IT ONTO THE BLANKET BACK TO FRONT!!!!!!!

I am breathing very deeply because it’s not the end of the world. A huge waste of a few hours of crocheting but hey….. it’ll be easier second time around.

I’m taking tomorrow off work too as I really needed a wee 4 day break so I’m planning a wee day out. Not sure where yet…. Will be checking the weather and looking for ideas.

There’s a few people in my life that need to see this right now.

No matter what you are going through right now….it will get better. I’m my darkest hours I never believed that it would. I wanted the world to take me away. Now I want to live in it and see every single square inch of it… all by tomorrow of course. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I wish that for you all. ♥️

Remember that you can take anything this week throws at you.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s still sooooo windy but the sky is blue and that will just have to do.

I feel a lot less of life’s stresses and strains when the sun shines. Maybe we are all the same but a good dose of vitamin D really helps improve or maintain my mood.

I feel so full of gratitude on a sunny day. The vibrant colours, the warmth of the sun, everything is magnified. I can sit for hours just looking around and nothing runs through my head except the need to write it all down. 🤣🤣

I had a lovely walk with the dogs again this morning.

I didn’t feel anxious, I felt in control and in command of my little doggy family pack.

I took some arty shots…. 😬

They had a great time running around in the field. Calaidh went off exploring while the other two herd me and try to get me to through a stone for them…. Has never happened once so don’t know why they think I’ll change a habit of a lifetime. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Every year I’m surprised but these late bloomer daffodils and every year I think I’ve never seen them before….. then remember I’m surprised, every year. The first one looks like the inside of a cream egg!

I had to hold them steady as they were blowing in the wind.

I got home and pottered around and Claire messaged to see if I fancied a cuppa… not seen her in weeks so had a good catch up… on THE bench in the garden.

Then…. Check me… on a Saturday lunchtime… I went for an actual food shopping. I know…. no one is more shocked than me.

Auntie Jac said yesterday that I really needed to think about getting back into some nutrition and being kind to myself by eating the right things. She struck a chord as I know she is right. I’ve been very lazy since we had Norovirus and have been eating my preferred grab and go.

I did a lovely healthy shop and am determined to at least think about what I eat before scoffing.

So, I’m sitting right here as I write. I’ve rushed back to my happy place as Craig is working. It’s a jacket on, jacket off kind of day.

I have been down on the rocks for an hour and a half already.

I’m having a Lidl’s pretzel for lunch. Ok so my healthy eating starts after I’ve finished the pretzel 🥨 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I’m right out on the edge of the rocks. No one can get to me here. No one will walk out here when someone is sitting. I am alone but I am not lonely. I am at peace.

This time I sat for a bit then did some scrambling for some different angled photos and now I’ve found another place to sit over by the castle.

In all my time here I’ve never noticed this giant rock pool.

It’s lovely to get a different angle…

Every rock pool is different.

I love seeing the Scotland flag flying above Portencross Castle.

The tide is coming in fast.

The bit where I originally sat is now under water.

This next one is a panoramic… best viewed if you click in it and scroll through.

I had such a lovely time, I could have sat there all day.

Folk were actually starting to put up tents on the grass at the car park which I think is incredibly rude. It’s not a campsite. I don’t mind if people turn up late in the day but pitching a tent at 2pm in between two benches and one picnic bench seems a bit unfair. Watch out if you want to take over the whole place. A second tent pitched right in front of a couple as they sat reading papers. He took out some kind of chain saw to chop wood into small bits. I mean… come on.

That’s a negative end to my very positive blog. I’ve just been brought up to respect other people and not to start pumping up air beds when someone is sitting enjoying the peace and quiet…

I’m back home enjoying a Corona Cero…. Who knew that was a thing. It’s really nice. There are no tents here to spoil my view 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s been beautiful all day today but the wind is incessant…. It’s been so windy all day that the heat of the sun is literally blown away the next minute. This wind doesn’t seem to have a name so it can’t be anything to worry about… though the trees are blowing as much as they did in Storm Barra at the end of last year. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

I didn’t get a lot of sleep… trying to write the blog at 10pm definitely didn’t help… I woke before Craig’s alarm at 4.45am so I’ve been tired all day.

It was a stunning sunrise but we worked out through the best of it this morning!

Was lovely to be chauffeured by Craigie this morning, the first time in ages. I got to take photos on the drive!

The half moon was huge!

The drive way to the Fit Body Farm.

Looking back over sunrise.

It was a hard workout today with lots of running. It was really good though as we worked in pairs which always makes me work harder. I’d already done 7,000 steps by 7am.

The view when we left.

Auntie Jac and I took the puppers out for a big walk up the hill onto the old disused golf course. They were in their element.

Amazing views down over Beith.

I love the gorse or whim bush….. the yellow against the blue sky is just beautiful.

I took a few…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

We sat for a bit on one of the old stone bridges.

The colours just blow me away in the sunshine. It’s so beautiful. Nature makes everything calm for me.

Meanwhile back in the garden my forest flame is starting to bloom. I love this plant!

We took a quick run down to our local Mocha Jaks and had brunch.

I have a photo of the food but no pics of us!! Jac had French toast with bacon 🥓 and maple 🍁 syrup on the side while I had Avocado toast with a fried egg and Siracha… oh and some maple syrup obviously 🙄 🤣.

2 tattie scones dipped in maple syrup!! It’s the way forward.

It will catch on. I’m sure of it!!

So Jac left about 12.30 and I have done nothing for the rest of the day. I am really tired but couldn’t sleep, couldn’t read so just sat outside and allowed myself just to be.

It’s relaxing in itself.

The sun is hot but that breeze is cold so I’ve been in shorts and a jumper most of the day. It’s been lovely to have a good day off.

I had a wee Nozeco in my Julie glass too.

A quiet night now that I’m out of the wind. 💨💨💨 Dinner and a movie I think.

Hope you all have a great weekend and I’ll leave you with last nights sunset again.

And breathe….

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It 9.26pm…… I am only just started the blog now… how late can I be?!?

This was me crossing the road at 5.30am.… well not me but the road I crossed!

The Farm at 5.50am.

I was weighed this morning and have put on 2lbs… that’s what happens when you have a cake every single day for 3 weeks… I guess. Changes need to be made!

This was really sun when I left.

It’s been a lovely day all day. Cold this morning but got warmer as the day went on. I’ve not stopped all day!

It was busy at work as usual but I left sharp tonight as my Auntie Marion and Gordon had come over to a hotel in Irvine for a few nights.

It was so lovely to see them. I haven’t seen her for so long especially since COVID so it was lovely to get some quality time together.

We took a drive down Irvine Beach and it was beautiful…. It was so stunning.

The sea was calm and it was warm enough for a T-shirt. Positively tropical. We went for a walk and sat on a bench and had a good catch up.

It was just so calm and peaceful and a lovely way to spend a “school night”.

We went back to the Riverside Hotel and had dinner. I was super impressed with the meal. I had Tandoori Salmon for mains.

And the trio of desserts…. Not the best photo!!

Highly recommended for those of you who are local.

So apologies for the rushed blog but I need to get to bed before I turn into a pumpkin.

A lovely evening with a good catch up, stunning views and wonderful food.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I have absolutely no idea what to write about today. She who can’t shut up…. Has writers block. Had to happen sometime.

I’m antsy, narky, a bit irritated and I can’t really put my finger on it.

I said that with a grin though so it’s not all bad.

I think I’m just tired. I have the patience of a saint…. She said through gritted teeth.

It’s been a beautiful day but cold and as I get home it seems to warm up, which is lovely. I really wanted to go to the coast but I couldn’t muster the energy to drive there.

I think it will be a lovely calm sunset too but I might not make that today.

We’ve had dinner and are sitting outside now and I feel calmer than I have done all afternoon. Nature is amazing.

There’s a wee bat 🦇 flying about out here making that whirring noise that they do and we are comically scanning the sky for it every few minutes…. Yet never seeing it.

My antsy-ness has gone. An early night is on the cards.

I also feel calmer I’m not trying to create war and peace 😬

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I had no concept when I started writing this blog that I’d still be going after 750 days. The milestones seem to come around pretty quickly these days.

I’m surprised that even I can keep talking for that long…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣 here’s to many more.

We did an Easter Egg hunt at the Farm this morning…. And sadly no… they weren’t chocolate. We had to find the eggs which had a word on them and the worst equated to an exercise we had to do before we could go back out and find another egg. It was a good laugh which always makes exercising easier!

And yes… was I one of the only people that had to work on Easter Monday? We seemed to be the only people in our decimated industrial estate today and both local sandwich shops were closed. Catastrophe!!

We had to send out for emergency McDonalds….

I can’t tell you the last time I had a Mickey D’s but it’s been a very, very long time. Despite my initial excitement, I remember why it’s been a very, very long time. It may be quite a while till the next one. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

Work was actually really busy today and it flew by. We had a couple of people drop in so it was well worth being there. I also quite like working when everyone else is off… it means I get to be off when they are all at work!

When I got home we moved the sunroom around, as you do… then we had roast chicken, potatoes and veg for dinner followed by the most amazing chocolate trifle.

I’m ready for a sleep now and it’s only 7.15pm. Too much chocolate pud!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Those of you who know me will be amazed that I spent most of the day with 22 primary aged children. Me. Kids. 22 of them. And…. I actually enjoyed it once I stopped feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Holly who runs the village pub, has organised a Bear hunt for the village kids.

Now…. I’m not a particularly kiddie person, I’m shy with kids and never really know what to say…. When I was “asked” to help I honestly wanted to say no with every ounce of by being. The new me doesn’t agree to things I don’t want to do. Yet the new me cringed and screwed up my face and agreed with an “if I really have to” look about me but already dreading the day in advance.

And suddenly it’s here….

I look way happier than I feel…..

The kids arrive and I honestly feel like a fish out of water. I don’t know where to put myself, where to put my hands, what to say, where to look, I just feel so awkward.

Then it’s time where I’m announced as a team leader and 4 little gorgeous girls find their way over to me… and I’m tongue tied, get their names mixed up and yet I try to introduce myself. I try to relax.

We head to the park. There are hidden envelopes for the kids to find which make up a bear’s name which will be the name of our team. We are Team Paddington.

I slowly start to relax and look after my 4 lovely little girls. They are so polite, so sweet and so innocent and I am blown away by their excitement for the adventure. They are genuinely so excited to be looking for the bear that has gone missing in the village and to reunite it with Mummy and Daddy Bear.

The next clue takes us to the Village Hall where we do arts and crafts. They decorate Easter cards and paint eggs. One little girl bashes her painted egg and just eats it. So comical, she has the blue paint all over her face as she scoffed the egg 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

We then get a phone call to say the Bear has been spotted in the Gateside Plant Centre and we have to head up there to find it!

You know what… I actually had a really nice day. It was nowhere near as bad as I thought it might be, I relaxed and realised how lovely it is to spend time with wee ones. Something I never do.

One girl said she had “no idea I would have such a nice teacher”…. She may have been talking about her actual teacher but I decided I was taking that!!!!

One wee girl clung to her mummy at the very start, terrified to be looking for a bear.

She walked back down the road to the pub, hand in hand with said bear. 🐻 🤣 it’s lovely to see that.

So, I’ve had a lovely day and no one is more surprised than me. We also blitzed the housework this morning too so everything feels fresh and clean.

I have a strange reluctance to part with my ears…. 🐻

Hope you all had a lovely Easter Sunday!

Some of us are working on Easter Monday for some reason so hey… no rest for the wicked.

Except for tonight…. Jammies on, feet up… as usual!

Stay safe everyone 🐣🐰🐻

Jeez I have done almost less than nothing today…. But that’s ok. I needed a day to myself.

I had a great sleep and lounged around in bed until after 9 even though I wasn’t sleeping.

I say I’ve done nothing and then remember I had a shower, went for a quick food shop… check me, yeah it was painful 🤣 and then we went for lunch into the pub next door.

I ordered chicken tempura to start and then the Cajun Chicken Burger 🍔 check the size of them! I only cut Craig’s head out as he was making a funny face and wouldn’t have thanked me for the photo. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I only managed the onion rings, a few chips and the coleslaw and I was stuffed!! We brought the rest home in a box 😆

I’m back into the pub at 18.30 to help prep for the kids Easter party tomorrow so I’m sitting with my feet up looking back through old photos from New Zealand.

My photos are so different back then, there are more photos of me than any views…. That’s back in the days of a digital camera… when it took a million years to upload anything. I think I was less inclined to take photos as it took so much longer to do anything with them. Here are a selection from New Zealand.

This first one was particularly special for me…. There’s a brewery in Pahiatua called Tui Brewery. When I was wee I couldn’t say Julie so called myself Tui….. 😬 mum and dad have always called me Tu (which became the number 2 in the digital age) so it meant a lot to me to go here and send them a photo of me with a beer, back in my drinking days!

Apparently it rains in Milford Sound about 300 days a year… yet I got it in the scorching sunshine and it was absolutely stunning.

My friend Carla and I hired bikes and cycled around Milford Sound after we took a boat trip.

Carla was from Germany and we met when I arrived in New Zealand. We travelled the South Island together. We got on so well and had such a lovely time together. I left her in Wellington as I travelled up to the North Island.

I was unlucky that the weather turned on the day of my glacier visit and we were not allowed on the ice. I think it saved me hundreds of pounds to be fair and we only walked up to the front of it.

This next batch are from Waiotapu Thermal Park.

It was the most fascinating place to visit. It’s so different from anywhere I’ve ever been before or since.

This next photo actually has very bad memories…. I was violently sick the night before we took on a 7 mile trek in Abel Tasman National Park and I was determined to go ahead with it.

The view from up here was just so stunningly beautiful but I can only remember how dreadful I felt. I had to find a Ranger to radio in to get a speed boat to take us back to base as I didn’t have the energy to complete it. It took a few days to feel well again.

We had great weather in Queensland.

I had the 7 weeks in New Zealand 🇳🇿

Hope you’ve enjoyed some of the few photos I can find. I must have more elsewhere. I’m enjoying the reminisce and have itchy feet so see so much more of the world!

For now I’ll be content with Downton Abbey, sitting on the couch. 🤣🤣

Happy Easter Saturday.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It have started looking back on my Australian trip and have managed to find some of my photos online.

Back in those days…. 2004 -2005…. We didn’t have smart phones and it was difficult to be in touch with home. You bought phone cards and had to find a phone box and call at Ra some times in the day to try to get Scotland in the evening.

Then you found an internet cafe to send emails…. That part didn’t always come easily to me… they days of dial up!

I hope you enjoy some of my photos!

Have a great Easter weekend! Easter 🐣

Stay safe everyone 🐣🐣🐣

I had a great sleep again last night woken up at 5.30 by the village jogger who ran past the bedroom window 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 of course I couldn’t get back to sleep as I dramatised everything that might go wrong in the day….

I can’t believe how much these roadworks in our village have incensed me. I can’t seem to let it go. It’s not the roadworks but the human reaction to them. I spend most of my life hidden away in a wee Julie bubble, I don’t watch the news and I try to stay away from drama as much as possible.

This week we have seen people moving cones, driving through and now even driving around the cement bags that have been placed in the middle of the road up on the pavement or on the grass verge at the other side.

Who actually are these people? How have you been brought up to think that you have the right to do that? Why have I been brought up to be so incredulous at it. Why do I care so much?

I’m a people pleaser, I don’t break any rules… ever…. For fear of upsetting someone else. These folk don’t give a flying f about that. Somewhere in the middle I guess there is a common ground.

So I sets off to work this morning on the single track back roads. Noticing how the grass verges are becoming wrecked with the amount of traffic on the diversion. All the while my anxious brain is working overtime thinking I hope I’m not one of those people that gouges out a grass verge as I might get stuck. Always on the lookout, always catastrophising….. so I basically manifest exactly that a half mile down the road.

I have 3 cars behind me… already creating a level of overthinking in me, I’m I driving too slow blah blah blah…. I see a small white van bombing towards us.

If he knows the road, he has just passed the place where he should have stopped as he knows we don’t have any passing place where we are. He can also see I’m in a VW T5 so not the smallest of cars.

He flashes and pull in onto the grass in the only bit he can giving be centimetres to pass him. The tarmac is curved at my side as if the road is built up on top of the ground so I have a good rut to fall into if I get it wrong.

Now I should say here’s that I ALWAYS thank passing motorists for letting me go. Not so today, it seems….. I was worried that I could fit past him, panicking I didn’t fall off the road… next thing I know we are side by side and I catch his waving arms out the corner of my eye.

Sh*t what have I done or what am I about to do wrong…… I put the window down….

“Aye yer F****** welcome“ he shouts… what wait a minute…. I’m incredulous. I keep using that word today. I say “sorry I was trying not to let my van fall down the big hole at this side of the road…. Sorry” by this time his window is already up and more crazy gesticulating as he implies that I should hurry the f up and he’s in a hurry…. Pointing at his watch and waving me on….

I drive off thinking how dreadful I am for not thanking him for stopping.

Welcome to my world.

I then burst into tears as the adrenaline released.

I talk to myself as if there’s a voice at the back of my mind trying to speak up…. Wait a minute… you always wave, you always thank people, why didn’t you do that this time… and then the realisation that he was in the wrong all the way and I was actually annoyed at his careless driving as I passed him.

Did any of that come out of me. Did I wind down the window was I passed and say how inconsiderate he was for not reading the road…. No.

I just let some angry man have a go at me. Maybe he should have left the house earlier so he want in so much of a hurry.

As I get to work I’m shattered. It takes so much energy for me to negotiate the world some days that I think this morning that I just want to find a remote island for us to go and live on where we don’t see anyone else.

I need my life without drama. Drama is so draining.

I also had another “run in” with my nippy wee supplier lady but I put her straight after writing an email to her at least 4 times!

So a busy day and have come up to Auntie Jac’s for a wee impromtu visit and to stay the night.

We went for a drive to the Firth of Forth and sat on a log by the shoreline.

The tide went out soooo fast! They are mudflats so not the prettiest but it was stunning when the tide was in.

Just remembered my photos of the moon last night… it was a stunning night when I was out with the dogs before bed.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

That’s an unfair title as I’m actually ok but at 4.45 this morning I really could have cried.

I had the best sleep but I could have slept for hours longer. I swithered about going back to bed and cancelling the Farm but I was awake anyway so I may as well just go.

When I got there I did think about he opposite of full of the joys of spring. I felt tired and heavy, like a rock unable to move. A teensy weensy wee bit grumpy!

The Farm was great despite lots of running. I dragged myself around but really enjoyed the weights that we did. I upped them a few times!

We got some official photos from the Hyrox challenge at the weekend…. Here they are!

I feel like I’ve been full on all weekend and all week without my treasured “me” time. If I can just keep going for one more day then I’ll get the chance to relax.

Work is full on which is great as I’d hate to be bored. I find it hard leaving when I still have so much to do but actually the old me would never have left and just stayed on for hours.

Even as I write this I realise that I’m over dramatising my day. It’s time of the month which is a novelty for she who approaches menopause and the old me would have been a nightmare this week. I would have been so full of tears, I’d have cried at everything, been foggy headed and really lack lustre.

So my huffing and puffing this week is NOTHING compared to what used to be.

There’s something to be very grateful for.

And this….. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It sucks to be an adult sometimes…. I have way too much adulting to do today and I’m ready for a rest!

It’s 19.11 and I haven’t even thought about the blog… well of course I have… I’ve just started it so that’s a ridiculous statement. 🤣

I had an amazing sleep last night, hardly surprising after the night before, I was out for the count until just before the 6.30 alarm.

My anxiety was pretty active when I woke up and I would go so far as to say I felt really off kilter this morning.

I felt calm and in control but there was a mini panic attack taking place inside. I felt jittery and a real sense of doom as if something was going to go very badly wrong. Of course it didn’t.. nothing did.

I had a task at work that was going round in circles so I kept putting it off, maybe that was eating away at me. Today I “ate that frog” 🐸 and just concentrated on it to get it done.

That was a phrase Craig said to me with when I was struggling with anxiety in my old job. It stuck with me. Eat that Frog….Once it’s done, it’s done.

So another busy day and lots of customers in today which makes it go even faster.

I had to rush home tonight… ok leave on time… as we had a man coming to help us write our wills…. We are not getting any younger. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I had to talk him around the village road closure so he was a bit late arriving.

We finally have two large heavy bags in the middle of the roadworks to stop everyone from moving the cones and driving through our road closure. So many people ignore the signs and drive through…… not this time!!!

It’s funny how that bothers me so much… Mrs follow the rules watched a guy move the cones and drive through this morning and he then went and put them back?!? Should I have been less mad at that??

Anyway, the will guy was very lovely and helpful and we ended up organising Power of Attorney at the same time. We could have put that money towards a trip to the Maldives but hey…. We’ve been very sensible instead. It’s tough being a grown up at times. 🥴

No rest for the wicked as we had to go over to the Village hall to check the oil tank to see if we needed to order oil. Craig has very kindly agreed to check this for me as my short 5ft4ins is not conducive to sticking a bamboo cane into an oil tank while balancing up a step!!

We noticed an apparent issue with an overflowing septic tank…. Right next to the oil tank… another issue to be resolved… but definitely not tonight! 🤦🏻‍♀️ I will not share that photo….. 💩

Then….. home to stick some pizza in the oven for a quick dinner.

I feel frazzled but it’s only because I’ve not had that essential time to chill…. I need some down time or me time every day.

I have an hour before bed. Need to get out do these work clothes and watch some mindless tv!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

There’s been a lot of huffing, puffing and sighing today. I am tired but also in one of those really lethargic slumps.

Ever have one of those days? Everything is too much trouble. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

In all honesty, despite that, it’s been a good day. It was quiet in the office as it felt like everyone was on holiday apart from me (not entirely true!) yet I was very busy and got lots done.

I didn’t sleep well last night. I get like I was switched on all night.

My heart rate was above resting heart rate for most of the night. I felt every beat… ok so not quite, drama Queen… 😆

Our road is closed this week which means I needed to detour on the way home… and despite my lethargy I actually remembered! There are cars doing 3 point turns all over the place though as people try to get through them.

I’ve just watched two cars fly past the window which is ridiculous seeing as the closure isn’t far from the house… someone had opened the road?!? People just don’t follow any rules these days!!!

Anyway…. the Farm was great today though I really struggled to move my legs! When I left I caught these lovely daffies…

This is where we work out….

The sunrise was stunning this morning.

So I’ve been thinking about our lovely neighbours travelling through America to Australia, all day. I’m so envious but not in a bad way… I wish them an amazing journey.

It reminds me so much of my solo journey to Australia, New Zealand and Thailand in 2004-2005. It was the journey of a lifetime. At times I still can’t believe I did it. I was scared of my own shadow for most of my life yet a burning desire to travel consumed me in late 2003.

Great Uncle Ernie emigrated to Australia 🇦🇺 when he was 19 so we’ve always had a family connection and I’ve always had a fascination with the country. Gran and Grandpa went out, Mum and Dad went and then my brother went on a gap year. I was the only one that hadn’t been.

My previous marriage ended in September of 2002 and the Scottish electronics industry was in turmoil. I had lost 2 jobs already with the transfer of production from Scotland to either the Far East or the Czech Republic.

I was lucky enough to earn a years salary by the time of my third redundancy package. However, I couldn’t face trying to “sell myself” again. Pending divorce and losing 3 jobs left me feeling pretty despondent.

I was desperate to travel. I spoke to everyone I could think of but everyone had commitments that meant they couldn’t come with me. I had just bought my own flat which meant I had commitments that I couldn’t just run away from.

Yet I couldn’t put the idea out of my mind.

So…. On 24th January 2004 I flew out of Edinburgh Airport.. on my own… bound for Melbourne via Singapore. All by myself and I have never been more excited and more terrified in my life. My flat was let out for 6 months and yet I was certain I would only last 2 weeks.

In the early days of mobile phones, my dad and my brother actually navigated me around the airport in Singapore. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

I remember thinking I could actually manage that part myself but I know they were worried about me.

I went to stay with Great Uncle Ernie and Auntie Margot and they were the most amazing hosts and made me feel so very welcome.

I also spent a lot of time with my mums cousins Steve and Callum and in particular, Steve’s wife Linda. Looking back I lived with them all on and off for about 4 months. They were so accommodating and welcoming. They made it easy to be away from home on my own.

I worked for 3 the mobile phone company in Melbourne for 3 months and saved some more money before I started my tour.

I travelled from Melbourne in June 2004 through the Great Ocean Road to Adelaide. I visited Kangaroo Island before heading up through the centre of Australia on a Groovy Grape backpackers tour. We took in Coober Pedy, Uluru, Alice Springs, Katherine Gorge, Kakadu National Park and on to Darwin.

Then flew from Darwin to Cairns and travelled as much of the east coast as I could. The longest trip was a 12 hour bus journey from Brisbane to Newcastle, north of Sydney… by the time I got there my ankles were as big as my knees!!

I headed back to Melbourne then flew from Melbourne to Perth and toured around some of Western Australia. I worked as an Outback Barmaid in a place called Dowerin for a month before heading back to Melbourne for Christmas. That was an experience and a half.

I have so many photos of my trip that I really must get them off the computer and onto my phone…

Anyway, I’ve been reminiscing a lot. It was a very special time for me. I stepped massively out of my comfort zone. I did things I could never have even imagined. Sea kayaking with dolphins, whale watching, sand dune sledging (😳😬🤣) sleeping in a swag, driving a 4×4 across the beaches on a Fraser Island….. to name a few.

Yet I came back to hit the rat race because I felt I should….

I’m rambling big time now… but I’m smiling at the memories.

To be continued one day…

Stay safe everyone 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿♥️🇦🇺

I’m tired today but I guess that’s hardly surprising. It’s been sunny but pretty cold outside so I decided to sand down the kitchen worktops as I need to get the kitchen finished and it’s driving me mad.

There’s the trigger though…. I “need” to get the kitchen finished, I don’t particularly want to.

I’m at it by 9am. Don’t do anything by halves me.

Within about five minutes, my whole body is vibrating. Don’t you just love a job that you start and wish you’d never bothered.

It is in pretty bad nick so it takes a bit of work.

After about 3 hours it’s all sanded down and ready for the oil. I had to charge the sander battery 3 times during the job so to be fair, the actual sanding maybe didn’t take quite as long.

The oiling was fun. It was really quick and gave instant results.

Not sure the photos really do it much justice.

Really should have moved that orange cloth!!

So despite not really enjoying it, I am really chuffed with the outcome. It definitely needs another few coats so I’ll do one later on.

This is another one of these situations where I need to make myself be damn proud of what I’ve done. Read that sentence again… need to make myself… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

It’s been a productive Sunday morning. ♥️

Of course I had to go for a nap afterwards!! I was so cold and tired but I didn’t really sleep. It was still nice to have a rest.

I’ve started watching Downton Abbey… it still makes me laugh as I used to think I hated period dramas… I’m incredulous at the life people lived and not even that long ago…. Ironing the newspapers?!? And I think I have a hard life… eh naw!!!

So this afternoon we went to the pub next door for Caitlin and Scott’s leaving party. Caitlin lives two doors down. The daughter of Rachel two doors down 😬😘

They are heading off to Australia tomorrow morning to start a new football coaching job in Ballarat, Victoria, Australia.

We’ve known Caitlin since we moved here 6.5 years ago and she is such a lovely girl. She always has a smile for everyone. I really miss her when she’s not here.

She’s not been here a lot! She’s been out coaching football in the States on and off for years. I hardly see her when she’s home but when I do it’s always really nice to see her.

I’m so proud of her for following her dream and doing what she wants to do in life. She knows what she wants and she goes for it. I’m very envious as I wish I’d had carried on travelling when I was younger. She’s seeing so much of the world and experiencing things that so many people do not. I always say that travelling to Australia and New Zealand in 2004/5 is one of the most amazing experiences of my life. I came back and jumped back into the rat race because I thought I should.

They stood while Holly, who owns the pub, read out a fab poem she’d written for them and there were hundreds of photos taken.

I really have to rethink the horizontal stripe. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

We both felt really privileged to have been invited to share their last night with their family….. not last night ever…. At least for a good while.

Caitlin and Scott ♥️ you both have so many beautiful chapters left to write and we both wish you the most amazing journey. 🇦🇺⚽️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

Stay safe everyone 🇦🇺♥️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

What a day. It’s 15.30 and I haven’t sat down but I’ve had a lovely day so far.

I had no real plans for the day today but knew I had to carry on the housework as Mum, Dad, Mawlaw and Pawlaw are coming for dinner in the pub next door. This is Mothers Day lunch #3 where finally no-one has COVID-19!

I woke at 6.18 precisely and got up and dressed around 7.30 and got the kitchen into shape which was the only room that needed doing as I was so well organised last night.

We both had money to pay into a bank so I decided I’d head to Largs after I got my nails done. There are other towns with banks closer by but you know…. Needs must when it comes to Largs.

My toes are a lovely dark lilac with a gold shimmer. Not my usual AT ALL but I really like it for a change. I’ll spare you the feet pics!

So off to Largs I go.

The tide is quite far out.

Bank of Scotland then Royal Bank of Scotland and then Indigo Eats to a lovely late breakfast. All by myself.

It’s a lovely wee cafe right on the front.

When I walked in the girl looked at me and I asked for a table… she seemed surprised…. “Oh just you is it….” 😳 now that could be enough to send a solo diner over the edge but I beamed at her “yes just me!” And I thought to myself, I’m gonna enjoy every minute of it.

I had pancakes with berry compote, maple syrup and a Soya Milk Latte…. Forgot to ask for decaf 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Beautiful.

Back to the van and a quick drive down through Largs and Fairlie to West Kilbride and to Portencross Beach. It was so lovely I needed to see the sea.

These two wee seagull guys were there most of the time!!

There’s snow on the hills on Arran. I saw it while driving to Largs and that what made me think of Portencross to see it more closely.

Loved this reflection in a deep rock pool.

The water’s so crystal clear.

When I got home I took the dogs out to this field with a bath in it 🤣🤣 they had a good run with tennis balls.

Mawlaw asked if they could stay over…… 😱

Yes sure, the bedroom’s a big of a camping dumping ground…. Ta dah!

We all went out to dinner to the Gateside Inn. I got Cookie cuddles.

We had a lovely meal and I actually passed on dessert…. Check me! I had nachos to start and Cajun chicken salad for mains.

Got a more up to date Mother’s Day selfie with mum!!

We’ve had a lovely meal. I’m shattered now, trying to rush this out. 😬

Going to go and chill now, before I fall asleep…

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Another busy day today… I woke at 5.08am and couldn’t get back to sleep. I was calm though and wasn’t worrying about anything. That’s a first eh?!

It’s freezing today. The rain has finally stopped and there was a lovely sunrise until I drove 5 minutes up the road towards work.

It disappeared really quickly.

I was so pleased to see my little furry friend, Peanut, at work again today…. I have many photos….. 😁

He was much less wary today.

He came to sit under my desk at my feet first thing…. My heart melted a wee bit.

That underbite and those bottom teeth 😬♥️

We had another wee walk at lunchtime too.

The day went fast at work. I got loads done and once again I felt very calm and in control. Must be my new wee office companion. 🐶♥️

I came home and did housework which is unheard of for me on a Thursday night. I’ve got so much more energy this week. I sat down for a late dinner but it felt good to get most of the housework blitzed.

I’m very late posting the blog tonight as I had the Memorial Hall Committee meeting tonight. It was a good meeting and we talked about lots of future events. I usually can’t wait for these things to be over if I’m honest but tonight I was fine.

It’s 9pm and I’m tired now but I’m happy. I’m still smiling. I don’t have to get up at 5am tomorrow as I’m resting in time for the Fit Body Farm Hyrox event on Saturday. I’ve got my starting time now so will be very glad when it’s all over.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

This is Peanut… ♥️ he’s been The Tartan mascot for the day and has been at work with his dad but looked after by his newly found Auntie Julie. 💙

Honestly he is the sweetest little Peanut you could ever imagine.

I had to apologise for using my doggy voice all day. 😬

There has not been a peep out of him. He’s the most timid, shy wee thing.

I had big chats with him today, trying to get him out of his shell but his dad says he’s Romanian so he doesn’t speak English… well that was a waste of time then 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

This next pic is when I first met him and he was trying to understand me. 😆

“Nope…. Not getting you at all missus” he says…. 🤣🤣

He had lunch in the customer lounge and a wee rest up the couch.

It’s a hard life being the Tartan dog for the day. So much fussing.

It was so lovely to have him in. He never got in the way just sat or lay quietly all day. I took him to the wee takeaway sandwich shop at lunchtime and he had big zoomies on his extendable lead on the grass… loadsa fun!

Anyway, that was today’s excitement and the good news is he might be back tomorrow! Here’s hoping!

I had a great sleep last night and the Fit Body Farm was great again this morning. I felt amazing walking in as it was still dark but the birds were chirping so loudly, it’s lovely to hear. It felt like a good day to be alive. Check she who is having a good week!

I’m enjoying the workouts. They are hard but I’m enjoying trying to push myself even more. I’m boyed up by the words of encouragement I’m given.

I’ve just remembered that I was so knackered after todays’ workout that I went through to the shower rooms and I usually dump some stuff outside the door to save taking it all in. I actually undressed OUTSIDE the shower room.

What on earth was I thinking???? Thankfully there’s no one around, hence the reason I forget I’m not in the room, I guess…. But literally a few minutes after I realise and rush into the shower….. I hear our Coach come whistling through the back of the gym… Oh my actual god. How lucky was I? Can you imagine?!?!?!?!?

It made me chuckle as even when I feel good and think I have it under control, we can all make some stupid mistakes. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 moving on….

I am very busy at work but I’m in control. I’m not losing the plot, I know what I’m doing and I’m getting through it. I’m way calmer. I’d go so far as to say I feel very quiet inside if that makes any sense at all?

I could just sit here and breathe and I’m in my element.

I’m doing things after work rather than being so zonked I just need to sleep… and I’m sleeping a very deep sleep at nights.

What could possibly go wrong?!?

I do feel stronger, both physically and mentally.

I’m off to meet the Crochet Hookers in an hour and I may actually crochet a granny square for the first time in 3 weeks… looking forward to some good chat and chuckles 🤭

Stay safe everyone 🧶🧶🧶