I have no words of wisdom tonight. I’m tired. I woke really early and just lay and dozed until the alarm.

It was a busy day at work and I came straight home and got stuck into the housework. It had been neglected after our weekend away.

I did a quick run round and the house feels much better.

I just had Mini Cheddars and cheese for dinner… I know…. I’m still just self indulging. 🤣🤣 other call it being lazy!

I have to work tomorrow as we have a customer in and there as no one to cover. You know I hate a 5 day week but I need Friday and Monday next week for a weekend away. At least this gets my 2 day weekend out the way….. listen to me. I used to work 10-12 hour days and now I’m tired at the thought of a 5 day week. Funny how you change your mindset.

At least I have a 4 day weekend to look forward to next week!

That’s all from me! The washing’s ready to be hung up. Housework Thursday could become a thing. 😆

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I woke up at 23.37 last night and worried I’d be awake all night… not so… up at 6.30am with the alarm.

I’m punishing myself a bit by not going to the Farm. My knee has been sore and I feel a bit down so I can’t be bothered making the effort. i can’t be bothered shopping, eating and looking after myself.

I know exactly why all of this is happening and that it’s a vicious circle. I feel more lethargic as a result of my bad diet but my bad diet helps me feel better at the time and cheers me up…. I think feel more lethargic after the sugar rush crashes.

I need to allow myself to rest and it’s ok to stuff my face sometimes but I wish I had a bit more willpower.

Anyway.. I was all over the place this morning at work. Very anxious. Overreacting to everything.

I’m bothered by something at work. I feel I could have done something better and I experience intense guilt at anything like that. Irritated by what’s gone wrong and think of a million things that might have presents a different outcome. I should say this is far from the end of the world but I realised mid morning that it was eating away at me.

It created an irritability, a panic that was bubbling over into everything else. The work I was trying to do today got the brunt of it. I didn’t trust my instincts and mistrusted any answer I gave.

As soon as I realised what was causing it, I relaxed.

I had a lovely lunch in the van but this time with my feet up!

The afternoon went much more smoothly. Jeez I can be hard work at times and today was one of these days.

My knee has been a million times better today so maybe it’s on the mend.

I went to bed after 5 when I got home as I was so tired. I got the electric blanket on and cooried in…. With 3 (bloody) Border Collies…. Who’s ears pricked up at every sound… but I must have conked out! Mum called and we had a good chat and she told me it was 6.50pm…. 10 minutes to crochet!!!!

I jumped out of bed, shoved clothes on and picked up my phone… only to find it was cancelled. I must have slept through that 😆🤣😘

So, with encouragement from the crochet girls, I’ve decided it’s ok to be self indulgent.

So cheese and biscuits it is… and Downton… yeah maybe some Downton… again.

Hmmm we have no biscuits… so cheese it is 🤣🤣🤣

Stay safe everyone 🧀🧀🧀

The whole point of my blog was to let people see that you can appear like you have it all, but things might not always be as they appear.

I have always been a very bubbly, happy person. I was always there to help others, to make other people feel happy and feel good about themselves but unbeknown to me at the time, I was chipping away at the old block and making myself very unwell as a result.

The girl who goes into her first “real” job after Uni and makes polite small talk as she knows if she gets her boss chatting and talking about their weekend or evening the night before, then they will be less likely to be snippy during the day. Encourage conversation out of them to get them on side. Ask lots of questions. Let them slowly bring you into their confidence. They are way less likely to shout at you if you are “friends”…. I can’t even begin to explain how much work that was. It wasn’t just with bosses. It was the same story with everyone else. I was working away in the background of my mind ALL the time.

I just wanted people to like me. For them to be pleased with me. Happy with things I had done or the way I had treated them. If I could control how other people around me were feeling, then I could control their influence on me.

I mean seriously…. Read that back a minute… if I could control how other people around me were feeling?!?!? Why did I even remotely think I could do that and yet I seemed to see it as my life’s purpose.

All the while…. Literally breaking up inside as over the years it got harder and harder to do. Let’s face it, it was an impossible task!

I know that’s this is a lovely photo but inside my heart was breaking. There was nothing wrong with my marriage, nothing wrong with the lovely house I lived in or our lovely dogs….. everything was wrong inside me. I could barely hold it together. I was so very, very sad.

I’d spent so much time trying to keep the world happy that I had nothing left… an empty shell. I started to think that everyone would be better off without me whinging and whining and being sad all the time.

Anyway I am so pleased to say that I am far removed from that now. It’s taken years of baby steps to build my confidence back up, but I am one of the lucky ones. I can say that I am still learning every day and no matter how bad things seem at times, I do need some reflection to remember that nothing is as bad as it was.

I’ve had the chance to unlearn everything that I thought was important and relearn what actually is.

I just want everyone to realise that we have no idea what other people are really thinking. What you see is not always what is.

I was loud, I was chatty, I wanted to be in the centre of everything. I wanted to be seen, be heard.

Now the opposite is true. I am quiet… and I love it. Quiet is my new strong.

Claire sent me this and it makes me laugh a lot…. It’s so very true!!

I’ve had a lot of people reach out to me as a result of The Rambling Sloth. It’s very good to talk and share how we are all feeling…

We all need to learn to live in the present moment and enjoy each moment of life for what it is… even when you get your Camper van stuck in the mud… Especially then! 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

Stay safe everyone 💚💚💚

I actually had the best sleep. I only woke once at 4.21am with such a pain in my knee. I had to get up and take tablets it was so bad.

It ached all day yesterday. It seems to hurt more in bed, must be something to do with the way it bends when I’m lying down.

Anyway, up just before 8am to another lovely breakfast.

I walked down to the side of the River, this was under water yesterday!

The tent’s all gone!

I love this tree… took too many photos of it!

Craig tried to drive Abbie the camper van out of her spot and she was having none of it so I had to phone Willy the campsite owner again. 🤦🏻‍♀️

He had a sick Ewe to deal with and of course we told him we were in no rush. We took the dogs for a walk.

Up and over the bridge.

It’s a beautiful morning!

And all of a sudden Willy is back with his quad bike and he towed Craig straight out! The wheels spun all the way but they got there.

I woo hoo’d when they stopped! Willy said “come on now, you can’t say that wasn’t fun…” 🤦🏻‍♀️

🤣🤣🤣 “ok yeah… that wasn’t fun… at all!!”

Again so lovely of him to help us otherwise I’d be moving in there! Actually that sounds very lovely.

I scattered mud all over the road as I drove home.

Got everything unpacked and the van all cleaned out when we got back.

I’ve spent the WHOLE afternoon writing the blog and updating the photos from the previous few days.

I’m tired now. It’s been a testing weekend… emotionally… but we’ve had a great time other than that.

Highly recommend Catrine House Campsite. It’s truly beautiful and what a service!

It’s good to be home…. She says…. From bed… with an electric blanket on. Check me!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I was about to say I didn’t have the best sleep last night….

But given the angle of the van it’s hardly surprising. It’s on an incline to the passenger side and downhill so I spent the night sliding into the near side wall and off the bottom of the bed. I had to climb my way back up the bed several times starting at 3.21am precisely…

So all in all it was actually a great sleep as I never really surfaced until 7.30 and this was the view out my window.

I never even heard them get up! What a view though eh?!

So first of all a few photos from last night.

It’s lovely here. The dogs are loving the freedom.

The sun came out and it was a lovely evening.

The fire was super toasty!

I loved watching the smoke billow up into the trees.

It’s getting dark it’s been a lovely long evening.

So we had bacon 🥓 in soft pitta for breakfast with coffee in the Jet Boil and decided to take the dogs for a big walk on the River Ayr to the Ballochmyle Cup and Ring Marks.

They are fascinating!

Craig took sneaky pics….

This is the 1751 inscription… Craig spotted it!

These next couple even look like they have ink still showing.

This rock is the other side of it, back on the main River Ayr Walk. Sadly graffitied now.

We start off on the woodland walk. This part is not actually alongside the river but much higher. You can look down on it.

We came up to the Ballochmyle Viaduct which was built from 1847-1848. There are 7 arches but the centre arch is the largest masonry railway arch in the UK.

This is the view point and to be honest, you can’t even see the 7 arches, let alone the span of the centre arch!!

This is us walking under one of the smaller ones.

There are beautiful bluebells everywhere.

Just like a carpet!

This photo doesn’t do it justice but it’s a really deep ravine don’t to the river.

Looking uphill there are fallen trees right across it. I did say to Craig we could recreate the Dirty Dancing movie scene on that flat log up there. Imagine falling off that?!?

We walked down into this field and I got a lovely gate photo in the sun.

The walk continues on through the style but we decided to turn around and head back.

We decided to turn up to the left to look for Kinencleugh Castle. We knew where it should be… but never actually got to it. The map didn’t take into account that there was a huge ravine in between our path at the castle. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

It was a lovely walk trying to find it though. Came across these giant badger lairs… or that’s what we assume they were. We had to cross them!

We got back on the River Walk path and headed back to the campsite.

The Catrine Show 2022 was being held in the field just across from us. It was fun to see them setting up and as we walked past we had a good nosy in at the cows, sheep and horses on show.

This lovely beach is just around the corner.

They all went for a paddle.

The bridge is stunning. The dogs have caused these ripples in the water.

Back at camp and the river has gone down a fair bit overnight. The dogs love going down paddling and it feels safer today!

Spot the Collie!

She who watches.

So I have swapped my camping gear and 3 Border Collies for lovely warm house, Downton Abbey on TV and the most gorgeous Gordon Setter, Elsie, for company!

She belongs to my friend Evelyn and they are out tonight so I am Elsie sitting.

I’m having the loveliest time (not even sure if that is English!) We went out for a walk in the park across the road and she got a bit of a fright when she saw this stag painting. I had to talk her through it and tell her it was ok! She was a good girl!

I then met a lovely lady and her dog Charlie and we had a lovely chat while the dogs had a blast!!!

Look at the lovely spread that I have for the evening! I’ve had some AF Gordon’s and tonic, some Ritz crackers and cheese and I am not opening the Maltesers as I will eat them all 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Elsie was all worn out when we got back 😆🥰

She’s tired but a little bit sad when I leave.

It’s a good drive back to the campsite thought I’m scared to get there in the dark. Fear of getting stuck again. Craig walks

I’m back safe by 10.45pm and in front of the campfire again. It was a loverly interlude!

Off to sleep at a strange angle again!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

So the day starts well. To be fair it is pouring with rain but that doesn’t bother me in my van. I woke at 5.23am. Wide awake. I read for a bit then decided to go for an early shower.

I put the heater on to heat the van up for when I get back.

The campsite is lovely. There’s only one shower but it was lovely and warm and great to get in before everyone else gets up.

There are only 4 other vans on the site and no one is moving at 6.30am.

I get back to the van and there’s no heater working. I figure despite following all the “rules” around these heaters… maybe I didn’t actually switch it on so I try again. I make a coffee and sit down to enjoy it…. But it’s cold… the van that is, not the coffee.

I leave it because you shouldn’t be switching these heaters on and off loads….. they get very upset…. till about 15 minutes pass and I try again.

It’s 15C, I’m in my jammies and I’m cold. I have some cereal and decide since I’m still cold, just to pack up and head back home early. I was going to get my nails done today anyway as I couldn’t get another appointment. I have to be there for 10.30 so I went via the house to see if Craig needed anything brought down.

So toenails done and back down to the campsite. This is where it all goes a bit drastically wrong.

Now I may have said yesterday that Craig wanted to go to this site as they have a wild camping area down by the river. Willy who owns the campsite suggested we could have the tent on one half of the pitch with the van on the other. The pitch is right down on the River Ayr and it’s been raining heavily all night.

I reverse back down the small dirt track and I am so damn chuffed with myself… I don’t need Craig going left a bit, right a bit.. I get to where I want to be and reverse a bit further so I can pull up onto the spot I want to stop on.

Figured I’d be easier driving onto it than I would be reversing. How wrong could I be?!

Abbie the T5 heavy weight camper van slips about 10 inches to the left… towards the river and I am stuck. My cockiness comes back to bite me in the ass big time.

I took a photo after we both had a try but she just kept on slipping sideways.

We called Willy (the campsite owner) and he came down to save the day but honestly it took about 3 hours of hours. I was devastated I caused all that. At the time it seems like the most dramatic and terrifying thing in the world. Instead of staying calm, my anxiety had me in shock, half in tears, half shaking. Ridiculous looking back.

He basically dug her out…. With a shovel and bricks and complete patience.

He almost got her driven out completely when she slid sideways again and we were almost back to where we started.

The “leave no trace only footprints…. oh and loads of dug out gouges and tyre tracks” mantra ringing in my ears.

He decided that he was going to have to go use the quad bike to try and tow her out as digging wasn’t working.

Then starts the…. “Find the manual”…. “Where’s the front towing eye” …. All of which heightens my anxiety levels. You all know how well I react under pressure. We finally find it… a learning curve for us all… and thankfully I remember that I actually have the towing eye itself, in a bag in the back of the van.

So he threw some huge rocks on the front of the quad to give it weight and gently towed her out… Craig driving of course. I was far too scared to have that responsibility yet I felt dreadful for “making” Craig have to do it.

He then tried to tow her back into the correct position… by this time I just wanted to go back up to the main campsite. Or home maybe.

I was all over the place… just like the van.

Willy was so lovely all the time he worked on it. A calming influence telling me it would be ok and that he’d thought it might be worse when I called him…. He never complained.

This is where he left her and she’ll stay for the remainder of the weekend.

I’m puppy sitting tomorrow night so I’ll have to take Craig’s car for that… ain’t getting Abbie out now til Sunday.

So how do I feel…… absolutely shattered, exhausted, fearful, sad, you name any bad word and I’ll own it. I can’t take the “this could happen to anyone”…. I need to use it to beat myself up with.

Yet again I’ve proved that despite my love for camping… I struggle to cope with things that don’t go according to plan.

I’ve ruined the day. I’m stressed to the hilt, at the same time trying to soak up the atmosphere and breathe but I’m watching the dogs every move. Jumping at the slightest thing.

In a bid to get some kind of normality, Craig made a lovely dinner…

He had spicy wings and I had curried chicken breast on rocket.

The location is stunning. The river is much higher than it was last night. It’s dramatic and flowing like fizzing Coke due to the peat in the water.

I am trying to keep calm, trying not to worry, trying not to panic, trying not to snap at the slightest thing. This is meant to be fun….

I’m doing a lot of soul searching today. Questioning everything all because one thing happened that could have happened to anyone…. just not to anyone who would have had the common sense to reverse onto the pitch first. Hey you live and learn and today was a huge learning curve. If the road isn’t tarmac’d I ain’t driving it 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣

None of the photos are loading but I’m publishing anyway… maybe they’ll come through. Maybe not. It’s the words that matter.

(It didn’t publish so I’m back home adding to this now!)

We took a wee walk further down the track and found this lovely wee hut that he lets out. It’s at the end of the path and so very private with only the river in front of you.

The puppers are allowed off lead down here and they are in their element.

I am, of course, waiting for any possible thing that could go wrong, to go wrong… another dog to appear, people to pass who don’t like dogs, I invent every scenario I can in my head.

None of that happens and we have a lovely evening. Especially when the dogs go to bed and finally I can switch off the ridiculously high alert status.

I am calm though slightly shaken. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣🤣 and off to sleep at a 45degree angle!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Me again! Another lovely day camping but not enough signal to load any photos…

Home tomorrow so expect The Rambling Sloth camping spam to come soon…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Abbie the Campervan drama today so watch this space for when I get signal. Nothing every straightforward!!!

Stay safe everyone 🚐🚐🚐

Abbie the Campervan drama today so watch this space for when I get signal. Nothing every straightforward!!!

Stay safe everyone 🚐🚐🚐

I had the best sleep last night! Slept right until the 6.30am alarm. That’s only because I wanted to be up a bit earlier of course… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I had to finish packing the van AND drive to the Fit Body Farm to pick up my water bottle which I’d left yesterday…. Not the end of the world you might think but I do use it all the time and wanted it for my weekend away. Note to self…. Actually go and drink out of it now while you think about it so the trip seems worthwhile…. 🤣🤣

So I got to work at 8.04pm. It’s been a busy day but I finished bang on 4 and washed the van before I left on my wee overnight camping trip.

I’m in Catrine House campsite just outside Mauchline. Since I got here I have set up the van, been for a big explore….. cooked dinner, ate it and am now cooried up with an Alcohol Free Gin and tonic, some Dolly Moxtures and some Candied Stem Ginger shortbread… which is amazing. A present from Craig!

There are some stunning trees… all very different.

A wee exploring shelfie as Sean Connery would say…. 🙄😬🤣

The campsite is on the River Ayr Way which is a 44 mile path from Ayr to Glenbuck Loch.

I took this photo from a stunning old bridge that crosses the River Ayr but I don’t think I have any photos of the bridge itself!

The campsite also has wild camp pitches…. Craig will be staying in one of these tomorrow night. I may join him 🙄🥰

It would appear these are the on-site facilities down in the wild camp area…. 😬 maybe I’ll stay in the posh bit….

Wait till Calaidh, Bhruic and Freya meet this big guy tomorrow. He walked right over to me as I got the phone out to take a photo… no messing!!

Dinner was lemongrass and coconut prawn and noodle stir fry. I could have made this in the house all week but never fancied it. Yet it was so simple and very tasty.

And this is me now! At time of writing the Dolly mixtures and gin are gone and I’m two pieces of shortbread down.

I have my diesel heater on. A book to read and my crochet to work on but I am really content. It’s raining but that’s ok.

Getting up now to get some water to justify the fuel spent on the drive to get the water bottle 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

Stay safe everyone 🚐🏕♥️

Where on earth did that come from?! It was such a vivid dream last night. I honestly had a dream that my boss set up an explosion for a whole load of vans, hundreds of them and we decided to put Abbie the camper van in it and it ended up on its roof with the windows blown out and I was really sad…. I thought it was so true when I woke up! (Forgot to tell the boss that today… probably for the best.. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣🤣).

Thankfully she was sitting outside the house ready for me this morning.

I actually drove to the Farm this morning and then on to work, marvelling at the reflections in the puddles as I drove over them.…

Now.. I hear myself there and even I think WTF…. But it’s a lovely place to be. I love appreciating everything around me when I am calm enough to see it.

It was all misty and full this morning after some heavy overnight rain, but everything is so green and fresh. May is obviously the month that everything grows. The hedgerows at the side of the road are blooming. The grass in the fields is starting to grow, it’s like everything is coming alive.

I’ve had a great day at work and achieved things I’ve been meaning to do for ages. Check me!

I can’t stress this enough. Gratitude is the answer to everything.

I am grateful for my day.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Wide awake at 5.30am on my lie in morning… of course I was. 🤣 I got up through the night as my knee was sore and it woke me.

I’d had a sore head from about 3pm yesterday and had taken tablets to try and clear it but nothing touched it.

This morning I felt my eyes were blurred… I couldn’t see clearly. Like reading without glasses on but my glasses were on. They were so sore I looked it up and self diagnosed…. Wait for it….. tension and anxiety…. Like I could have written that down 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣🤣

I ended up eating my healthy lunch by mid morning and I did feel a bit better after that. I tried to drink some more water on the hope that would help.

It would seem the only real help was Mac n’cheese and chips that I ordered for lunch 🤦🏻‍♀️ it didn’t even taste great but I felt so much better after that!!

Needless to say my new size 14 jeans were less than impressed with 2 lunches and I felt like I was going to explode out of them all day…. It was such a relief to get home and into my jammies. 🫣🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I’ve been on my feet since I got in…. Getting clothes and stuff ready for our wee weekend away. Soooo looking forward to the break.

I’ve had a lovely dinner as Claire popped in with a portion of pasta bolognese for me! I had a cheek to eat dinner but it was very tasty!

So I’ve now got my feet up and I’m not moving for the rest of the evening.

My friend Anne sent me this today and I really, really love it. I wish I could fix the world but have to be content with continuing to fix myself first.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It was like pea soup this morning when I left for work…. I drove through fog on and off all the way there. At least the roads were quiet today as most people were off work for the Bank Holiday…. and fast asleep at that time or the morning. 🫣😬🤣

I was up at 5am and back to the Fit Body Farm…. There was a lot of running this morning. 🫣

Pleased to report that my knee held up and it hasn’t been sore today. Maybe foam rolling has helped it though I didn’t do enough of it…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Work was busy today but I got loads done.

I came home and went out with the dogs, gave them a good run. I’m amazed at how green everything is after the rain on Saturday. It’s so vibrant even under dark cloud.

I came home and made myself some dinner and I’ve actually logged my food on My Fitness Pal for the day….. Check me. How long will that last?!?

It will last as long as I fit into these size 14 skinny jeans. My whole body breathes a size of relief when they’re undone!!

Actually I just said that for the laugh…. I’m sitting watching Downton Abbey in them now so they can’t be that bad!

I did warn you that the blog would be dull today. All work and no play make blogging a dull…….. eh…. Can’t even think of a rhyme for it. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I’m actually really tired tonight. Early night I reckon with a good book!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I went shopping this morning…. Clothes shopping…. That’s pretty unusual for me these days.

I needed some new jeans (as you may be aware due to dog chewing damage!)

I thought I’d head up to our local Braehead Shopping Centre for 9am before anyone else could get there!

I love May, it’s my favourite month of the year and I remember when I was wee that more often than not, our Scottish summer was at its best in May.

That said it rained all day yesterday and it’s been cloudy all day today.

I wondered around for a good couple of hours. I wouldn’t say I enjoyed it. I kind of disappointingly didn’t… but I got a couple of pairs of cheap jeans which will do me for work and a really pretty linen vest too.

And drumroll…… I also bought a summer dress…… and summer sandals. I mean come on…. I haven’t been seen in a dress for a long time. I can’t actually remember how long…. Oh I can…… some event at my in-laws house and I was up to a size 18 and I had to wear a dress and I felt dreadful. There’s a photo that still haunts me. Thankfully I can’t find it. I feel like I’m now officially back into a size 14 which is a long time coming but I’m very grateful!!

Here I am in my new dress…… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣🤣🤔 ok maybe not me.

I’m not a fan of animal print but it’s got a really lovely cross over detail on the front and big pockets either side so it’s a casual dress but as dressy as I’m gonna get these days. Here are the sandals.

I’m chuffed with my purchases. 😍

I so need a clear out again but will get round to that soon.

I popped into Starbucks on the way home for a Coconut Cappuccino which was really lovely. But the time I got home the Glasgow Old Firm game was on. Poor Calaidh doesn’t like the football.

“I know you’re trying to crochet, mumma, but I need cuddles as the football’s too scary and dad gets very loud….” 😬😆🤣

“Now I need a big yawn”…. 🥱

So I sat and crocheted for a bit then had a bite of lunch before I went out to clean Abbie the camper van.

We’ve booked this weekend away and I thought I’d better get her all tidied and ready to go. I got the hoover out too but I’m all honesty it wasn’t too bad. Only need bedding and clothes now… oh and food!

I’m going to stay on the campsite on Thursday night by myself and then Craig will bring the dogs on Friday after work.

The forecast was great when we booked but not so much now. 🙄 hey ho…

So I’m back in Grans chair… writing the blog with my crochet on my knee… I should take it outside for a photo….

It’s coming on!

I love this next one. I always see a message in the mess now. I love that. I try to think why things happen and how others are feeling before making rash judgements. That’s a very important tool to have.

So that was the weekend, back to work tomorrow but I’m relishing the challenge. It’s going to be a busy week and tomorrow’s a busy day. The blog will revert to gym, work, eat, blog, sleep…. Until Thursday when I get away camping for the first time this year… and suss out the site for Craig and the dogs arriving.

So happy bank holiday Monday to those of you who are off.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s been a busy day!

I had to get up through the night to take painkillers for my knee but I fell straight back to sleep again. I woke up at 7am and got up before 8am to sit in the garden with coffee.

The forecast is for rain today… for the first time in a very long time, so we’re making the most of the early morning sun.

I love these mugs with my wee family on it. It’s warm this morning but the sun goes pretty quickly as it starts to cloud over.

We decided to go out for a late breakfast and went to Auchengree Farm Shop and met these lovely beauties!

This one is not for turning round… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

I should say here that poor Craigie has some form of man flu and is sniffing and sniggering away. In fact the cow’s breathing close up sounds just like him…. 😆😘

We had a lovely breakfast and it was lovely to spend some time together after a very busy few weeks.

When I got home Claire popped in for a cuppa and a chat. Was great to catch up and it’s been too long!

The jumped into Abbie the Campervan and came up to my in laws in East Kilbride to puppy sit for Cookie the Chihuahua!

She’s a wee cutie.

So I’m sitting on their couch crocheting a border around my blanket enjoying some peace and quiet away from Mr Man Flu 🤣🤣🤣 I have my mawlaw’s lovely lasagne in the oven and to be honest, Cookie doesn’t seem to care whether I’m here or not. She got most excited when I put Mr Man Flu on speaker and she was looking for her Uncle Craig!! I am slightly jealous. I usually get Cookie cuddles when I’m here.

I did pinch a few… 🤣

This next one is called…. “kisses on the nose”… 😆 it’s very hard to take a selfie while you’re being licked to death 🤣

Check the size of this lasagne!!

Do you think there’s enough?!? 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣🤣 to be fair Craig was meant to be here too so he’d have had a good sized portion.

It was really tasty. It really is her signature dish!

I meant to say a few things about my visit to Inveraray yesterday but got too carried away posting photos 😆. Not like me eh?!

There was very much a mask… no mask… mask… no mask… situation yesterday. I wore my mask when I went into shops and yet felt like I was very much the odd one out. No one in the shops or restaurant had them on so I wasn’t sure what to do.

It’s funny how at my age, I still wanted to know what everyone else thought rather than what I felt was right. Overthinking much!

I got chatting to a few lovely people as well… one lady who was at the end of a fortnight holiday and hasn’t had a spot of rain for two weeks. She was over the moon at the beauty she had seen in her fortnight in Scotland. We met in the ladies toilet and had such a lovely chat.

The man in the gift shop is coming to our local Gielsland Craft Fayre on 4th June and he couldn’t believe he’d met someone who knew where it was!

Also met a guy with a Bernese Mountain Dog and we ended up talking about camper van conversion… as you do.

I love chatting to strangers as it reminds me so much of my lovely Gran. She always had a smile for everyone.

Anyway I’m rambling now. Hope you all have a lovely Saturday night.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I’ve decided to make another ROADTRIP today and I love that autocorrect insists on putting it in capitals… 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣 even the blog is excited for me!

I woke at 3.45 am…. All ready for the Fit Body Farm at 6am…. Far too early…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

My knee really bothered me this morning. My whole leg has tightened right up and it made some of the movement painful. I had a good chat with Gavin, the owner and he talked me through foam roller exercises to do this weekend.

The session was great though, mainly because we got some space hopper action again. So much fun!

So, home and straight out with the dogs. It’s a stunningly beautiful morning.

I’d had to scrape the windscreen this morning so it was misty but it was clearing.

I decided to hit the road and head to Inveraray this time. The only downside to me driving is that I can’t take photos of the stunning scenery along the way.

It’s a beautiful drive up the side of Loch Lomond, turning left at Tarbert to Arrochar and then up the Rest and be Thankful.

If I can’t take photos I’ll have to quote the internet…

This was my first stop a few miles outside Inveraray.

There wasn’t a breath on the water.

The bridge to the right of the photo is the main road into Inveraray from the south and is called Aray Bridge.

It’s controlled by traffic lights so it’s single lane and I always have a wee moment as I drive up and over it. It’s very humpy to use a technical term 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣🤣

Inveraray is beautiful and all the buildings in the main town painted white. It’s very pretty, especially in the sunshine.

This is the view from the car park that I parked in to the north of the town.

This wee row of cottages is called Fisher Row. Aren’t they beautiful in the sun?

As you walk into Inveraray from the north, Inveraray Parish Church sits in a roundabout in the middle of the road. Obviously the road was built around the church… I know that!

I’ve now walked around the Parish Church and am looking down the other end of the street.

The street looks very similar approaching from the other end looking up to the Parish Church again… but this is the touristy bit. Lots of lovely wee gifts shops and not just full of what we call “tartan tat”… there are some lovely Scottish gifts on sale. I managed not to buy anything….. Craig will be impressed I didn’t come back with another cuddly toy for the camper van.

I had a late breakfast in Brambles Tearoom which I highly recommend. I had porridge with coconut milk and fresh berries. Check me with the healthy choice 🥰.

Looking back at Aray Bridge.

Tried to get this seagull posing in my pic but I spooked it… still made a good shot!

It’s a beautiful day.

Looking south on Loch Fyne and over to the Vital Spark.

This next building used to the the loveliest gift and curiosity type shop before lockdown… really sad to see it’s gone.

Inveraray is famous for the Inveraray Jail… obviously it wouldn’t be called after another town but I wanted to give it its full name. 🤣 It was a 19th Century prison and courthouse.

Craig and I have visited the jail before and it’s a fascinating tour. You see in the court room and into the cells and even see where they tortured people back in the day.

It also has the majestic Inveraray Castle but I didn’t walk out to that. It looks stunning from Aray Bridge but you can’t take photos when you’re driving!

Love this next building which might just be a house. 🤷🏻‍♀️😬

I took a walk out to Co-op and this is the view heading back into town. Just stunning. The breeze has picked up a bit but it’s still warm.

I’m currently sitting on the shore of Loch Fyne on this wall….. writing away.

This is my view…..

The water is crystal clear and as I sit here the tide is going out.

Looking back up to Fisher Row from the old stone jetty.

Not kidding this is the view in my rear view mirror as I leave! I parked in a layby to get it!

I left just before 2 and headed back down the Rest and Be Thankful Arrochar, back through Tarbert and stopped on the banks of Loch Lomond.

Pulled into a layby heading south and opened the sliding door to this. Wow!

I took my wee step with me and had a seat looking down on the water.

As I sat I noticed a few people down on a stony beach next to the water… went to investigate.

It’s actually a “wild camp” site with permits.

It looks positively tropical.

There’s no one else here now, just me. i love that solitude.

Alone but not lonely. Just at peace.

Looking right across the water to Ben Lomond. It’s clouding over a bit now but still really warm in the sun.

So before the blog actually explodes with far too many photos… I’m done now. There are hundreds more to share but you get the gist.

It’s been a lovely day. I’ve had a really nice time wandering around but I am really tired now I’m home.

Restful evening but more happy memories made.

Happy weekend to you all!

Stay safe everyone ☀️☀️☀️

First of all I need to share an amazing plus about writing a daily blog….

Last night I published the blog just before 7pm as I was meeting the Crochet Hookers in the village pub. I mentioned my rage at Calaidh sooking a hole in my favourite jeans. At precisely 7.03pm my neighbour Anne, walked into the pub with a new pair of jeans for me!!!

She lives at the other end of the village, which is not the end of the world, but I couldn’t comprehend how she had time to read it, digest it, find the jeans and get to the pub in under 5 minutes. Now that’s impressive!

So I can only suggest that my lovely wee day has been attributed to my jeans. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤣🤣 see what I did there?! 🤣

I’m sitting out the back again having felt in control all day. I managed to finish up everything I planned to do, was sitting for about 10 minutes before I left work with a calm mind and a clear head. I mean…. Come on…. Those days are what dreams are made of.

We were busy but things went well. I didn’t have the same irritability that I’ve had for the last few days. I dealt with things as they came up and moved on.

I should say here that I just smiled to myself and said “you do know you’ve missed a huge clanger… something that you forgot to do that will come back and bite you”… but I smiled at that voice and shut it up.

Tonight is my Friday night AND I’ve already had a back, neck and shoulder massage in Harmony in Beith. Norma worked her magic, as usual!

For the first time I think I fell asleep on the bed….. but it was one of those where your arm falls off the bed and wakes you up with a fright!

Not sure if I’ve said but my knee has been really uncomfortable all week. One of my many excuses for not being at the Farm. I have structured trainers to allow my ankle to remain in a straight line as I run. I’ve been wearing these trainers to work for the last two days and the knee pain has gone but instead I have upper thigh, back of the leg, butt cheek and back pain now as a result. Maybe need to rethink wearing these as daily shoes. I’ve had to take pain killers when I go to bed for the last few nights to relax it.

It’s not agony, it’s just toothache equivalent. So Norma had a good go at that and hopefully will help stretch it out a bit. I thought the wording on the cushion in the massage room was lovely… forgot to tell Norma I’d taken a photo of it! 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣

So yeah… back to this unusually good mood. It’s not a screaming and shouting with excitement good mood it’s a wee smile to myself, calm, relaxed and chilled out good mood…. And it feels really good.

I love leaving work on a Thursday feeling organised. We’ve had a great week and I shared a sneak peak of our new rental van on Facebook today on the Tartan Campers page….

Checking the arty Tartan Camper symbol in the window… was proud of that!

I guess today I’ve been able to switch off completely to any drama around me and get on with what needed doing. That’s an important step as the last few days I’ve been overreacting to it all.

I’ve cooked and ate dinner and enjoyed it. All while sitting outside enjoying the sun.

And relax….. 💜

It’s all in the “jeans”.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I did not go to the Fit Body Farm today… I was too tired. I had a late night last night and really just needed the lie in. I felt a huge amount of guilt missing it but I booked for Friday morning so I can’t keep down this avoiding it path! That gives me some accountability.

I’m being much better with food but feel super cranky that I’m trying not to pig out. It feels a bit like when I tried to give up alcohol…. Just that there’s nothing to look forward to if I can’t have crisps and chocolate at night. I am huffing and puffing like a stroppy teenager…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I know I am using snacks as a reward or relaxation after a busy day…. Something to look forward to, in the same way that people use booze… myself included up until 3.5 years ago. I’m so glad those cravings have gone. i just have to try and get back on track with the food cravings as I could inhale hubdreds of calories in a heartbeat just because I feel I deserve it.

Now this next bit is soooo true…

It’s a scorching hot evening.

It’s been a cold day. My hands were freezing in the office this morning…. I’m convinced that “cold mouse hand” is now a thing. The hand that sits in the mouse 🐁 (not a real mouse🤦🏻‍♀️) is cold all morning till the portacabin heats up.

The sun came out around 3pm I think and it’s just been getting hotter ever since.

I had lunch in Abbie the camper van again today….

Minestrone soup left over from the village pub this weekend!! It’s lovely.

I even put the pop top up while I sat. A nice wee relaxing quiet spot for lunch.

I stayed back after work today to wash he outside of the van as it was really dusty.

I took a before photo but forgot the after pic 🤦🏻‍♀️

So yeah there’s not much else to report. I have the Crochet Hookers tonight and I’m planning to do more work on my blanket. It’s coming on great now that I’ve turned the back to front squares front to back… 🤣

Oh I did have a hissy fit when I went to bed last night. Calaidh had chewed a chunk off my jeans up at the waist band. I was livid…. So angry and poor Craigie got it between the eyes…. So much so, he actually looked for them to buy me new pair today…. Turns out they are from Primark.

Honestly… I freaked over a damaged pair of Primark jeans. (It’s a very cheap shop for my non UK friends….)

It did make me laugh this morning given how upset I had been…. They are the only size 14s I have and that fit me like a glove. It’s amazing how you can overreact though.

So that’s me off to crochet now. Leaving this hot beautiful sun!

Stay safe everyone ☀️☀️☀️

It’s 7.11pm and I don’t know where the day has gone. It’s flown by being back at work.

So this is going to be a quickie… 🤣🤣

I didn’t sleep well because Snorey McSnorerson was back in the room last night. Oh my…. Goodness gracious me…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤣 don’t know why it was so bad but I had fingers stuffed in my ears trying to drown it out!

I must have fallen asleep at some point but I was restless for the rest of the night.

The early morning sky was lovely this morning.

So work was super busy but given the solitude of yesterday… there were a lot of people in a small space!

So I had some lunch in the van today like I was on a wee trip away.

This is a good way to spend lunch! A mini camp out during the day.

So the rest of the day flew by and I popped into my neighbour Helen’s on the way home from work and had a good natter with her.

I cooked salmon and cauliflower for dinner… super healthy. Check me!

And then it was 7.11pm… just like that!

It’s already half way through the week…. Love a Monday off!

Stay safe everyone 💜💜💜