Healing mental health during COVID-19 times and beyond
Author: Julie
Iām healing from anxiety and depression and exploring my way through a whole new lovely world with an abundance of awareness and a new love for lifeā¦ and travelling the world!
I felt totally fine until 3.20pm. I text Craig to ask him to pick me up from work as the car is still in the garage.
By 3.30 I had really bad stomach cramps which I honestly thought was trapped wind. (Lovely convo I know) Iād eaten more biscuits than usual this afternoonā¦.
I walked around the workshop, spent time pummelling my stomach, bending and stretching, I tried everything but my stomach distended and the cramps were so painful that I donāt know where to put myself. The drive home was so uncomfortable but the heated seats helped.
I came in and took ibuprofen to try to relieve the painā¦. Threw that and everything else Iāve eaten right back up.
Iāve tried bed, Iāve tried the couch but honestly Iām comfier on the bathroom floor.
I called the doctor as it was so painful and he did call me back.
He reckons itās the start of gastroenteritis as it came on so quick. Heās written a prescription for Buscopan Cramps and Anti sickness medsā¦. Which we can get tomorrowā¦. But Iāve got my hands on some Buscopan already. Honestly the relief from the cramp is wonderful. Iām lying on the bathroom floor in the dogs duvet (šš¬) with Khaleesi at my feet. I have my head up on the bath and the toilet is literally 12ā away.
I am calm again. Long may the lack of cramp continue.
Stay safe everyone and wash your hands with hot soapy water! ā„ļøā„ļøā„ļø
So Bertie Beetle finally got recovered at about 6.20pm last night (which was a bit earlier than I thought!)
The car and I got dropped at the garage and I had to phone our neighbour to come and get me. Poor guy had been driving about for us for hours!!
Wee sad pic of me in the rain walking to meet himā¦. Still dragging my suitcase.
So the car needs a new passenger side spring and a top mount which is pretty much what I suspected.
Thankfully I seem to have done everything properly this time and the recovery was done under warranty and the parts will be covered under warranty! Check meā¦.
I literally sat on the couch in the dark last night and cuddled the puppers. I didnāt even have the notion to watch tv. Yesterday was a real lesson in waitingā¦. Waiting for a taxi, waiting for a plane, waiting for Craig then waiting for recovery. I was patient most of the day. š
My lovely bush is in full bloom now.
Work was good, it was sunny all day and Ellison and I actually sat outside for lunch. Nothing like Rome heat but compared to Scottish 2024 so far, it was up there as one of the nicest weather days.
Craig made homemade fresh tomato soup for dinner which was lovely.
Calaidh and I then went out for a walk with Claireā¦ this is Calaidh waiting for her, next to the purple bin!!
We had a lovely walk though it was super cold at times!!
Thereās a lovely new bench in Spiers Old School Grounds. It says TAKE SOME BREATHING SPACE.
It has the following sign on it.
This is the view from the benchā¦. Itās lovely.
What a lovely thought. I hope that people get some use out of it.
We had a lovely walk and a grata catch ip.
Iāve got so many videos from Rome that I need to sort through but that wonāt be todayā¦. Todayās about trying to get back into some routine after a whirlwind of a week.
Also the Gateside Inn has a new sign since the filming of the Lockerbie drama at the start of March. It looks lovely! I just spotted it!
So thatās all from me.
Back to auld claes and porridge as we say in Scotland. š
I finally understand why everyone in Rome carries a jacketā¦ I wore my denim jacket today for the first time.
I slept really well but woke at 5.30am and opened the doors to my balcony just to try and let some air in. I had a thumping head due to the heat of the room and probably a bit of dehydration from yesterday.
My transfer taxi picked me up at 9.25am but I had to be out front by 9amā¦. Of course I was out front at 8.45am.
My hair seems to have developed a lovely wave here in Italy.
The taxi journey to the airport was very fast š³š± but I survived which was the main thing.
I saw more of the back streets of Rome as we picked up another couple from Kilmarnock.
The taxi driver offered me some chewing gum which made me think last nights garlic bread was still doing its magic!
I found check in straight away but she asked if I had any electronics in my bagā¦..and I did have Craigās Go Proā¦ also had it in my suitcase on the way outā¦. But I stopped to take it out holding up the check in queue!!
I had a lovely lunch and coffee with Alistair (that I used to work with) and his wife Elaine. That passed the whole time at the airport which was lovely.
Soā¦ā¦ reflectionsā¦
Some Alps down there!
Wowā¦. I actually did it. Iām sitting on a Jet2 plane somewhere over the south of France and Iām as cool as a cucumber. I have been on the Italian double decker trains and metro system all weekend. My trips have gone like clockwork. I have to thank Sally Webb for the City Mapper tipā¦. That app lets you key in where you want to go and it tells you exactly how to get there. I lived by that app this weekend. Thank you Sally!! šš
I also used Google Maps a lot to help me find what I was looking for.
So for all that, the iPhone charger is paramount. I have an amazing charger that I bought from Amazonā¦ which Iāve used to charge my phone every day and it still doesnāt need charged up. It was a godsend.
Iām still surprised by just how nervous I was on the way out.
I really had to hold back the tears for a fair part of the journey and when someone was nice to me, they spilled over.
The week prior had been really difficult, since Iād booked up. I slowly realised that the hotel was way further out than I wanted, so I spent hours trying to figure out how to get places without using public transport.
Iād been warned by so many people to steer clear of public transport for fear of pickpockets, when Iād posted on the Solo Female Travellers FB group.
When you suffer from anxiety, you only need to be told something bad once as you have already taken it on board, worried about it and overthought it to the nth degree.
The first person to mention pickpockets to me already had my attention. I then seemed to attract the negativity and I stopped seeing the positive comments. to be fair, one woman said āgo to Greece, itās nicer thereā, I mean, really?!?
I worried all week to the point of being in floods of tears the day before.
What had I done?
Why was I putting myself through this?
I know whyā¦.
Life is short and I want to live it and unfortunately for me, my living it is getting out there and seeing the world as much as I can.
Ughā¦. Turbulence. š¤®
I was so far out of my comfort zone this weekend that it almost hurt. I ached with fear, my head screamed at me for booking it. I could have had a lovely weekend at home with the dogs while Craig was working.
Iāve always had this itch to explore.
In 2004 after my divorce and 3 factory closures later, I KNEW I had to go to Australia. I walked away from normal life for 15 months and I loved it.
Yet I knew I had to come back.
I then gave up 12 years of my life to a job that began to make me ill.
Iāve learned so much about myself in the last 5 years. Iām very in tune with what works for me and what doesnāt, and despite the discomfort at times, I know I want to keep exploring. I get a massive buzz from visiting places and taking lovely photosā¦ especially under sunshine and blue sky.
I also love talking to people. If I travel alone, I know I will never truly be alone as I will find people if and when I need to.
TURBULENCE š¤® I have no one else to tell.
Iām so lucky that Iām not shy.
SEATBELT SIGN IS ON THAT MEANS WORSERER šš TURBULENCE!!!
Stomach held in tight and eyes shut till this is over!
I tried to sleep through itā¦. Nope. Iām shattered though but my mind seems determined to stay alert. The captain has just advised there is heavy wind and rain on landing in Glasgowā¦. Oh joy.
Why do I do this to myself?!? šš¬š«Ø
Actually I am fine, I just want to be home now.
Preparing for landing now.
Ok so that wasnāt the best landing in the world but Iām back on wet and cold ground.
It took us 40 minutes to clear passport control which is a pretty poor show compared to Rome.
Craig picked me up and then Bertie Beetle broke down!!!! Iām certain the other spring has gone this time, the passenger side. Craig managed to limp to a disused layby at the side of the A737.
Iām currently waiting on rescue from the extended warranty insurance policy as that was the mistake I made the last timeā¦. I got my garage to collect me and had to pay for it.
Iāve been sat for about 45 minutes already and they still havenāt allocated a rescue company because they couldnāt find my policy. Craig had to get picked up as he has a job tonight that he canāt miss.
They just text to say someone will be here by 18.54. Thatās an hour and a half away!!! Happy days.
Anyway Iāve had the best weekend, back to reality now!
Ok so the Star Wars observant among you will soooooo know it typed Palpatine Hill to start withā¦.. I am my husbandās wife š¤¦š»āāļøš
Another amazing day and my last full day in Rome. I will sleep for a fortnight when this is over.
Today I had booked with Crown Tours for the Colosseum, Roman Forum and Palatine Hill. The tour lasted 3 hours but they left us in the Colosseum to wander for the rest of the day if we wanted.
It was such contrast to yesterday but only because it was all in ruinsā¦. This ancient area of Rome was as beautiful in its day, if not more so than the Vatican.
Iām not even going to remotely try and regale you with the history of the area. A tour is an explosion of information, while trying to get sunglasses on and glasses safely put in the bag, then glasses on and sunglasses put safely in the bagā¦ while trying to listen and take photosā¦. you get the gist.
When you travel alone there is no one to hold anything. You just have to try to manage everything as best you canā¦ while ensuring pickpockets donāt see you as fair game.
Palatine Hill is seen as the birthplace of the City of Rome around 1000 BC. Itās where all the upper class lived and all the imperial palaces were built. It had stunning views.
Everything was marble and decorated, even the servant quarters although not to the same extent and the imperial rooms.
The Roman Forum is in the low lying area between the hills and this is where everyone gathered for open air meetings from around 500 BC.
Before the Roman Forum and Colosseum were built, the whole area used to be marshland it was drained around 620BC due to constant flooding. That drainage system is still in use today.
The Roman Forum housed some of the most majestic temples and monuments.
The Colosseum was obviously where all the blood sports took placeā¦. Animal against animal, animal against criminal, criminal against criminal and obviously the gladiators, some of whom became as famous as current footballers would do. Some 450,000 people were killed in the Colosseum in its dayā¦. Thatās a sobering thought as you stand inside it. that was all stopped by the Christians in the 6th Century.
The Forum was abandoned in the 7th century for the river area. A huge earthquake in the 9th century toppled many of the buildings and by the Middle Ages it had all been built over. Hence the ruins.
In true Julie fashion I got there early as this was by far the biggest distance I had to travel this weekend.
So many people told me that everything was within walking distanceā¦. But itās not when you donāt book the correct hotel and you have 45 minutes worth of train journey to get there.
I boarded the train at Balduina and had to take 6 stops to Roma Ortiense.
I chose to wear my short shorts this morning. Until now Iāve been blending in with the Italians wearing long trousers, they also have long tops and jackets with scarves. Thatās a generalisation but there are a lot of them dressed for Scottish winter!
Today I stuck out like a sore thumb and I had the only visible legs on the first train!!!
I had to change at Ortiense onto the Metro and it was a good 6 minute walk with my legs on show through Italian suburbia. I only relaxed when I saw other tourists, once I got to the Colosseum. It shouldnāt matter what we wear and I tried to tell myself that the whole way there!
I got to the Colosseum for 8.30am and my tour was at 10. This gave me time to get some photos. The queues were already massive!
I found a nice wee cafe on Via Poliveria (reminded me of my friend Alice as itās nearly her surname!!) and had a decaf espressoā¦. Yup I knowā¦. ššā¦. And a lovely pistachio filled croissant. It was so good.
Our tour started at the Roman Forum.
This old church was only opened in October having been closed for 50 yearsā¦ they have managed to clean some of the art on the walls.
You can see Jesus in this one.
We are starting to climb up Palatine Hill now.
Looking down to the Colosseum.
I honestly have so many photos I donāt know where to start. I also donāt know that they all load up properly when I publish the blog. Iāll do a minimum for now.
That green door is the one of oldest doors in Romeā¦ believed to date back to 300 BC.
We headed down into the Colosseum.
This was also incredibly busy. Thousands of people wandering aroundā¦. Just to give you some perspective.
My tour was the Arena Tour so you get right out into the main arena.
I finally left the Colosseum about 2.30pmā¦ and was ravenous. I tied to go to a recommended restaurant but it was queued outā¦ so I just pick a random roadside eatery and had some garlic bread and another veggie pizzaā¦.
Iāve already warned Craig that the garlic from the garlic bread will still be there when I get home tomorrow!!! It was soooo strong.
I didnāt have any plans for the afternoon so just wandered aimlessly, with a metro station always in mind.
I found some really lovely buildings and fountains.
Iām sitting on a comfy seat in the hotel gardens writing thisā¦. As the pool is not open yetā¦. But Iāll head up soon and that will be me for the night. Pick up is at 9am tomorrow so Iāll get a lie in!!
Iāll be bombarding you with videos and photos when I get back. Iāve been so lucky with the weather. Not a cloud in the sky.
I have not stopped since 7am and itās 18.02 and Iām waiting on the train to my hotel.
I have had the most breathtaking day where I visited the Vatican Museums, The Sistine Chapel and St Peterās Basilica. I made two friends on the tour and we went to meet another girl Iād arranged to meet for lunch. We had lunch, then went to the Castel SantāAngelo.
I am absolutely knackered but itās been an amazing and really wonderful day.
First stop at Peterās Square before my tour began. itās 8.30am. The queues are very long already.
I donāt think anything can prepare you for the grandeur of the Vatican. I feel liked itās way beyond anything I have ever seen before.
I was super early for my tour so I stopped for an iced coffeeā¦ā¦ not decaf š¤¦š»āāļøš
I toured with Brastours and there was no real logic to my choice, it was just a guided tour which I randomly selected. You get an earphone and you can hear the tour guide as she talks into a microphone. It so clear. it also skips the lines as they call them so youāre guaranteed immediate entry.
This is just inside the Vatican and the first view of St Peterās Dome.
Right about here the coffee started palpitations ššš I felt really dizzy and lightheaded and thought I was going to faintā¦ thankfully it passed.
I got speaking to another lady who felt exactly the same as me and she thought it was the one headphone in one ear making her feel a bit off balance.
Tilt your head for extra dizzinessā¦ these are the Vatican Gardens. Beautiful.
I have never been anywhere as busy as this. The Vatican gets 45,000 visitors A DAY!!! Imagine how much money they must make but there must be some amount to upkeep it too.
The next shots are all photos from the Vatican Museums.
I saw so much today and listened to 3 hours of commentaryā¦ itās impossible to remember most of it.
I do remember this was one of the first statues of Venus, depicting the female body.
There are literally thousands of people walking around. At any point in time the museums are full of people, you have to do some sneaky moves to get photos which the hundreds of people between you and the statue.
Look how many people are in here!
As we head down into the Sistine Chapel we are not allowed any photography but our guide had talked us through everything we were about to see.
Once again, nothing can prepare you for the beauty and the opulence of the Sistine Chapel. Michelangelo lay on his back for 4 years on high scaffolding and painted it all. So obviously no photos but itās a sight to behold.
Did I mention we had to wear long trousers and a long sleeved top for this visit? Itās hot but respectful.
We then head into St Peterās Basilica behind meā¦. It is the biggest church in the world.
This is the tomb of Pope John Paul II.
I think this mosaic is Raphaelās but Iām second guessing that now.
The two ladies I spent the tour with, Sandra and Helen, asked me what I was doing this afternoon and I told them I was meeting a girl from a solo female travellers group, for lunch. They asked to tag along as it would be a good recommendation for lunch if an Italian had booked it.
So we spent the rest of the afternoon together.
Back to the Vatican.
Then to the Castel SantāAngelo. Thereās a tunnel linking the Vatican to the Castel so the Pope could escape in times of trouble!
I have so many more photos of the day but the blog is not loading properly so I will stop it there.
You are never alone when you are alone. There are always special people that you meet along the way. Solo women travelers are a support network like no other. I felt very privileged to be a part of that lovely group today. Thanks to a Sandra and Helen for looking after me on the tour and thanks to a Melanie for being our American Italian guide for the afternoon!!
I will sleep like a very happy girl tonight and get up tomorrow and do it all again. Colosseum style.
Itās really been a day of different emotions. If you havenāt been following, this is my first split trip abroad in about 19 years.
Poor Craig is working all weekend and I fancied some sunshine and found this trip to Rome.
I had a great nights sleep, which surprised me, though I did remember to take the progesterone which was something. That always helps me sleep. I felt calm when the alarm went off at 4.35am, there was no nerves or worry.
I got ready and we left the dogs sleeping so I didnāt have to do that goodbyeā¦ and I drove to the airport in Bertie Beetle. That helped focus my mind and not let it wander.
When Craig drove away I had a bit of a wobble. I checked in with Jet2 and the young girl said, āoh youāre travelling alone? Thatāll be lovelyā and the tears welled up and I couldnāt speak properly.
This weekend was my idea. I booked it and yet Iāve created some kind of mental turmoil for myself ever since. Iāve been surprised at the fear Iāve felt.
I walked into the main terminal to head to departures and the two women in front of me were whispering about me. Cringe.
I literally felt like a flashing light waking through the airport as if everyone was watching me.
Just before we boarded the plane I met a guy that I used to work with in my old job. I told him how nervous I wasā¦ I told anyone who would listen.
I sat next to a lovely couple on the plane from Knightswood and we chatted for most of the flight. They donāt drink either. Denise gave me her phone number in case I was stuck when I was here. How lovely.
Her husband Simon was sitting at the window so he took some photos with my phone. Thatās the Austrian Alps!
When we landed I met another woman and her son and we got a bit lost together!!
At baggage reclaim I found my old work colleague again. I left them to go and find my transfer only to end up sharing the transfer with them, although they are staying somewhere else.
What are the chances that, miles away from home and end up sitting with someone I worked with for 12 years!!!
There are no other photos of my trip until after 3.30pm, my head just wasnāt in the game. Even although I was talking to friendly people, I still felt quite overwhelmed.
The Aparthotel Adagio Vatican is fine. Itās nice enough but a bit run downā¦. As suspected itās also miles out from the city. I took this on the way back in the evening.
I have a small apartment with a seating area. It is quite basic but itāll do fine.
The tears spilled over again when the receptionist asked if anyone was joining me.
I canāt believe how emotional I have felt about being on my own.
The hotel is right next door to the train station.
She gave me all the details on the trains and told me to go to the Tabac on the other side of the train station to buy a 3 day ticket.
Thatās been my fear since I finally figured out how far out the hotel wasā¦. The travelling across Rome.
Here I am heading down an escalator into the station.
I am a new woman.
Gone is the quivering wreck, replaced by Mrs Practicality. Into the Tabac, bought a ticket, into the station, no fear at all. It felt like the most normal thing in the world.
When you suffer from anxiety you just have no idea when it will strike and when it will disappear. Itās been completely the opposite doe me today. I expected the travel to be easy and the negotiating Rome to be terrifying. š¤¦š»āāļøš¤·š»āāļøš
So now thatās out the wayā¦ letās get to the good bit.
I got some advice for a Fb group called āsolo in style: women over 50 travelling solo and loving itāā¦. Full of very inspirational women. They suggested I look up Romewise who detail what you should do when youāre in Rome for the first time for 2.5 daysā¦ eh moi!!
Day 1 is
The Spanish Steps
Piazza Navona
The Pantheon
The Trevi Fountain
I had them all in my sat nav as I knew Iād never remember the order.
I got the train from Balduina Station to Villa Aurelia. Only the second time Iāve ever seen a double decker train.
I changed at Villa Aurelia onto the Meteo and headed to Spagna where I immediately found the Spanish Steps.
What struck me most, as youāll see, is that it was heaving. There were thousands of people.
Everyone is trying to get the perfect shot, the perfect pout, the perfect selfie that it felt really sad and I wondered if I was just as bad. Iāve never been aware of the Instagram or TikTok culture as much before. It was all about the shot.
I went into the TrinitĆ dei Monti at the top of the Spanish Steps. Itās behind the Obelisco Sallustiano.
Itās a 16th century church with beautiful views across Rome.
Back down the steps.
I then headed to the Piazza Navona taking random shots on the way.
This is Piazza Navona.
Againā¦ heaving!
Next stop is only 5 minutes away, the Pantheon.šļø itās a format Roman temple and has been a Roman Catholic Church since AD609.
Itās looks very old.
It was so busy that I didnāt bother to queue to get in. There were two huge queues and I was already 4.30pm and I hadnāt eaten much.
I walked around the back instead.
I canāt remember what this was but it looks quite unassumingā¦was a stunning church inside.
Nothing would prepare me for the Trevi Fountain.
It is just beautiful and break takingā¦ however, this is the realityā¦..
A crazy amount of people!!!!! Itās been a long time since Iāve seen crowds of people like this. All posing, vying to get the best shot of themselves in that place.
I found a lovely little roadside bar, La Fontinella and sat down for garlic bread, veggie pizza and an alcohol free beer.
Loving life.
The hotel is so far out that I want to get home before it gets dark so I thought Iād come and sit by the pool.
The pool doesnāt open until MAY!!! I brought two bikinis. š¤¦š»āāļøš I must get help with my next city break hotel booking. š¤¦š»āāļø
So I sat on my balcony and watched the sun set over Rome.
The end to a lovely day. A loud day and a busy day. A very emotional day but I am here. I have done it and Iām excited for the Vatican tomorrow.
Ok so letās be clear here, the version of me that booked a solo trip to Rome for this weekend, is most definitely not the version of me that woke up this morning.
There were tears while I was still lying in bed. Not just a wee tear, I wanted a good bubble.
What have I done? Why am I putting myself through this. Why am I so scared.
Despite booking what I thought was a central hotel, it seems that mine is a ālittle out of the wayā so I will need to use public transport which so many people have told me not to use. I canāt get a taxi as they overcharge tourists, on the buses and the metro pickpockets will steal from you. If Iāve heard once about pickpockets and scammers, I could write a book on it!
We also know that while this is a possibility, the same can be said of anywhere, any city.
What does my anxiety do with all this?!? Build it up into a huge crescendo that ends in tears.
Why donāt I just cancel?
Becauseā¦ I have to do this. I am not looking forward to it in the slightest and yet I know I will have a fantastic time, and wonder what all the fuss was about.
Iām nervous about the flight, Iām nervous about being on my ownā¦ she who LOVES her own company. Iām nervous about where I will keep my money and phone. I take a million photos, is someone going to pinch my phone out my hand? Do I carry a rucksack too as Iāll need suntan lotion and a hat. Iām nervous about how I get to, and find, the Vatican and the Colosseum for my tours. Iām nervous about where I will eat. I have cereal bars packed just in case. Of course I do! š
Itās exhaustingā¦..
Poor Craig has been amazing this week helping with all my techy stuff. Heās organised all the chargers etc. and heās tried to be excited for me, when heās the one being left at home, then he gets the wailing Julie to have to console. Hard work eh?!
Iām writing this before work to try to get it out of my head.
I havenāt been living in the present moment at all this week. I even forgot to take my progesterone and change my HRT patch last night. Iām all over the place.
Breathe.
All those good words didnāt change my head as much as Iād hoped.
Work was good but the incessant rabbiting voice inside my head had not gone away.
A lovely Italian lady I used to work with has sent me her mobile number in case Iām stuck, she says she has family in Rome that would help me if I needed it. How lovely is that?!? Thanks Alice š
I also joined a solo female travellers group and one of the women has given me her number and suggested meeting for lunch one day. That might not work as both my tours are in the morning but again, how lovely of her to offer.
Yet still my head is screaming at me. If wants to be wrapped up in the drama of it all, the what ifs?
I said yesterday, my biggest problem is that I need time to relax and decompress on a daily basis and I havenāt been able to do that as there have been too many things needing done.
Iām sitting outside Vivās Nails, waiting to get my toenails done, randomly booked for tonight, over a month ago. I feel the calmest I have done today.
How can this be my lifeās dreamā¦ to travel and yet I allow it to cause me so much stress?!? Go figure.
My what ifs are bundled into some giant tornado.
If you told me you were going to Rome for the weekend, I would be so very envious. š
I have to just rip the band aid off and do this.
We can all sit and say I told you so when Iām bouncing around Rome tomorrow, loving the weather and the vibe.
I made another lovely dinner tonight from Planthood. Spicy Turmeric & Lemongrass Laksa With Rice Noodles, Crispy Oyster Mushrooms & Aubergine.
I have to say it was my least favourite. I took a photo with my favourite bush as a backdropā¦ as you do!
So thatās all from me. Iām sorry for all the drama this week but Iām telling it how it is. Most holiday posts just show the wonderful photos and not all the feeling behind it. i ladle it on!
Keep an eye on my FB and instagram pages but Iām going to do my best to soak it all up, once the fear has past! I donāt want to spend the whole weekend on the phone so I may not manage full blogs but Iāll see how it goes.
I will catch you all on the Italian side. š“ó §ó ¢ó ³ó £ó “ó æāļøš®š¹
I had a great nights sleep apart from one thingā¦. I decided it was a good idea for a Khaleesi to sleep in with us.
Instead of heading to her room for bed, she stood at our closed door and looked at me with the saddest eyesā¦. And I caved! ššš
She had my covers all nightā¦. But it must have only woken me a few times, or I would have moved her. I just couldnāt get enough cover out from under her, for my left arm! She was very happy though.
There was a lovely red sky this morning.
On national Unicorn Day š¦š
I am much calmer today.
I feel much better that I have some trips booked for when Iām away. I still have lots of concerns and anxieties but I know that thatās all they are.
Iāve called my travel insurance to make sure Iām covered, got Craig to check our mobile phones are covered under our mobile phone insurance, Iāve told both banks Iām going to Italyā¦. Craig said I worry too much!!
Has he met his wife?!?!? š¤¦š»āāļøš
My bag is mostly packed. Iāll finalise more tonight. I also want to look at a map of Rome and get my bearings.
Hmmmmmā¦. I am really looking forward to some sunshine. āļøāļøāļø Sunday is the hottest dayā¦. Thisāll do nicely!
Actually thatās gonna be pretty hot considering itās about 6.5Ā°C today. It has rained ALL day today. Everything looks soaking wet. The sky is so heavy and foggy.
Iāve had a good day. Itās been a good week at work. A good buzz.
I also made another lovely, colourful dinner tonightā¦.. Sticky Teriyaki Tofu Bowl With Purple Sprouting Broccoli & Pickled Cabbage Over Sushi Rice.
I think Freya is actually licking her lips!
Iām listening to another Mel Robbins podcast, called What Makes a Good Life.
She said that when she was younger she spent way too long looking at the curtains, deciding on the brand and the fabricā¦ she never looked out at the view.
Wow.
That really spoke to me.
Until I was off sick, I never stopped to look out at the view. Now material things donāt really mean anything to me. Itās such a lovely feeling to want less rather than constantly wanting more.
We will not always be happy.
We will have days where we are far from happy. There will be days that are incredibly sad, days where things seem impossible to overcome, but as my friend Ruth has always said to me, we will survive 100% of these days. As awful as they seem, these are the moments that define us.
Dare to be Happier on FB shared this.
The way to happiness is to spend time building healthy relationships with othersā¦. Says she heading off on holiday alone š¤¦š»āāļøš
Have you ever done something you really wanted to do and then stopped and thought, oh jeez, what have I done?!?
Iāve created the perfect storm in my head. Iām building stress and tension by the minute.
I think the main issue is that Iāve booked my Rome weekend with such short notice. I only gave myself 4 days to remember what we wear in 26Ā°C heat, while waking round a city, which Iāve not done for years. Iāve also felt pressure to book the main tourist attractions in advance. Iād hate to go all the way there and not get in to something at the last minute.
So I didnāt sleep well last night at all, my head is buzzingā¦. Overwhelmed with far too much information. I feel like you need a degree to try booking a trip to the Vatican. There are so many options and prices, I swear itās designed to bamboozle.
Every time I sat down calmly to look, I got drawn into wormholes and seem to go round in circles. So at lunch today, I found an article and read it all the way through, without reading all the pop ups.. and finally booked for the Vatican Museums, the Sistine Chapel and St Peterās Basilica. Itās at 10am on Saturday morning. My hotel is only 3km away so that gives me plenty of time to get there.
I have also booked a tour for Sunday morning at 10am. The Colosseum, Roman Forum and Palatine Hill tour.
If that is all I do then I think it will be more than enough.
That calmed my head immediatelyā¦ā¦ but I really struggle having to do things in the evening, when I want to write the blog and relax.
I ironed some clothes last night and need to finalise what Iām taking. I make it seem like a chore rather than fun holiday prep.
Iām sorry, I hear myself but I promised Iād be honest in this blog and tell it warts and all.
Iām driven to step out my comfort zone. I want to travel as I know how good it makes me feel and yet I freak once Iāve done it and remember how much I hate flying!! š
Ok Iāll shut up nowā¦. Iām gonna do a meditation before bed tonight to try to calm my racing thoughts.
I made another lovely dinner tonight. Kimchi Miso Nourish Bowl With Farro, Charred Purple Sprouting Broccoli & Pak Choi. Donāt think Iāve ever eaten Farro before. As usual a it was really lovely.
I took it outside to eat in the sunā¦ although it was very windyā¦ it blew some cobwebs away.
My favourite bush is looking beautiful in the low sun.
The colour matches my dinner.
Iām gonna stop feeling sorry for myself and appreciate the excitement of a holiday.
Stepping out of our comfort zone isnāt always easyā¦ but it will be worth it.
First things first, hereās where my heads atā¦. Great English huh?!?
Iāve decided to go to Rome and itās soooo last minute, Iāve created a pile of stress for myself where I could have just had a quiet weekend at home pottering.
Instead Iām flying half way across Europe to visit a city I know nothing about, in less than FOUR days.
My mind is a whirr of activity. In true Julie fashion, I want to do it right. I want to see everything in the right order at the right time, Iām not adding commas to that sentence as there are none in my inner voice.
I also want to relax and enjoy the sun. I want to avoid the crowds. So many people have warned me about pick pockets that it does worry me. Iām actually getting anxious writing all this so I need to stop giving it houseroom.
I will be fine.
I pretty much know exactly how I will feel.
I will be truly alive.
Iāll be buzzing to share it all with you. Even although Iāll be alone, I will always thinking about what photos to take and what to write to make the blog the best story of my trip.
I just love it.
I saw this first thing todayā¦
I have been to rock bottom and as awful as it was, I am so grateful that it happened as itās opened up a whole new world for me.
The closer I got to the heights of my career the worst I felt. My mountain top was terrifying. It wasnāt where I wanted to be. It was where society expected me to aspire to. I never realised at the time that constant promotion was only compounding my unease. It wasnāt imposter syndrome, although there was a bit of that, I was never going to be the person that the job needed me to be. Iām not political, I donāt stretch the truth, I want to be honest. I wasnāt allowed to be the best version of myself.
This really hit me today.
Today I get to be the best version of me.
I get to speak my truth and choose my own path.
Everything I do is planned last minute, based on how I might be feeling and also based on the weather. I have no plans. Iām winging it allā¦. But I feel proud of the way my 2024 is shaping up.
A lot of deep thinking thereā¦ so back to 5.22am.
I got out of bed to make Pad Thai for lunchā¦ yup I am that person.
It was really lovely at the time but a bit dry by the time lunch came.
We had another busy Monday. The phone didnāt stop, I sat at my desk at 8am and felt like I blinked and it was 4pm!
I came home and made Black Bean Chilli Enchiladas Topped With Cashew Cheese Sauce & A Zingy Cherry Tomato Salsaā¦. Precisely!
Soooo tasty!!
I used the new mixing bowl that mum got for me, thanks Mum!
It made a huge difference not spilling everything all over the worktop. š
So thatās me for today. Will leave you with a Calaidh photo from this morning before work.
I woke at 7am and decided I wanted to go away next weekend. As I do.
I spoke to Craig to make sure thereās nothing else on and started looking.
The weather is wet and windy again next weekend so a train trip to Arisaig didnāt seem that appealing. (Should say here that I would love to go to Arisaig at the weekend but not if I get soaked everytime I go outside)!
I then went on to Skyscannerā¦ of course I did.
On Friday 15th April I am flying to Rome for 3 nights!!!
Wow. No one is no more surprised than me!
I am equal parts excited and terrified.
Feel the fear and do it anyway.
Life is short and is for living.
Now.
I almost backed out as I was booking itā¦ a million anxieties ran through my mind. Why would I put myself through the nerves of doing this? Why am I spending this money? What if Iām too scared to go? What if Iām lonely? I donāt drink so canāt just have a glass of wine somewhere? On and on and onā¦. But I still booked it!
Feel the fear and do it anyway!
Iāve paid a wee bit extra to fly with Jet2 so that I can get coach transfers to my hotel. I also have a hotel with a pool so I have somewhere to relax to if it all gets a bit much. Jet2 also offer 24 hour hotline support so thereās someone I can call if I need it. I canāt ask for much more than that.
Craig is working next weekend, and has never fancied Italy, so thatās the main reason I chose it. Heās really supportive of me travellingā¦ though obviously wishes he could have a holiday too!
So yeah, check me. Excitement and nerves!!
Also I have to get the Monday off work tooā¦ eeek!
Other than that bit of dramatic news, I spent the day writing a bit of the book I kind of think Iām writing and headed up to Braehead to spend some Primark vouchers I got for my birthday and Christmas!
The weather is wild today, again! Even the drive to Braehead was pretty hair-raising.
I didnāt get the denim skirt but I did get the jumper.
Also got it in gray. Itās super lightweight but cosy at the same time. It will be great for layering.
I didnāt get the furry body warmer but it was super cosy!!
I got this T-shirt in this colour and in white and that was my vouchers spent!
Thanks Evelyn and Stuart & Lee!
A few pupper photos to end with.
Holding Bhruās paw!
Big yawn! Sometimes I think we got a dog to match the couch in the sunroom š¤¦š»āāļøšš
I have a had a lovely dayā¦. So farā¦. Itās only 5pm.
Itās been full of a little bit of everything. Exercise, laughter, friendship, sadness, love and of course dog walks and housework.
Before I even start I feet truly blessed to have had such a lovely dayā¦. Itās ok, I hear myself š today has been a normal Saturday but Iāve enjoyed every single minute of it, in the present moment.
It started at 6.20amā¦. The alarm went off after the perfect sleep. It was the hardest thing ever to get out of bed but I did as Iād arranged to go running with Rachel two doors down, her sister Lynsey and Emma.
We ran from Coldstream Mill.
We run just over 3 miles. I was so chuffed I managed to keep up until the very end when I felt a wee bit sick. š¤¢
Itās the calm before the storm.
Spotted these wee lambs, obviously freshly born. š
Thereās lots of flood water after yesterdayās rain.
I was very redā¦ but really proud of myself!
I drove Rachel home and we went out to walk Nacho and Calaidh.
Then I was straight back out with Bhruic and Freya!
The daffodils are out in full bloom!
More floodingā¦
Back home to pick up Khaleesi, itās her turn!
She is so excited when sheās on a walk!
Love this nature with the man madeā¦
All of this before 10am!!
When I got back home, I tackled the housework. The dogs are on the cusp of moulting session again so thereās a whole lot of hair to be hoovered up. I emptied the hoover 4 times. š¤¦š»āāļøš
Itās been great to get the house all cleanā¦. Woe betide any man or puppy that might mess it up šš
Claire came in for a cuppa over lunch time and it was great to catch up.
I did more cleaning and decided to make some lunch. I had fasted for 21 hours without even realising.
I made Kimchi noodle soup with enoki mushrooms, silken tofu, sesame gochugaru topping and fresh coriander.
It was soooooo good!!
I then sent a voice note to my lovely friend who received the inoperable cancer diagnosis over Christmas. If you remember Iāve never met her but sheās been a friend on FB for over 5 years now. She sent me so many lovely cards, books and gifts when I was off sick and struggling with depression. She showed me a light when all I could see was darkness.
Weāve been messaging with voice notes as itās easier for her. I told her it was very windy today as Storm Kathleen is blowing across Scotland.
She sent me a message back to say she is very weak now and her voice is failing.
She said that she wished this hadnāt happened to her so she could have met me. She thanked me for being me, for every single thing that I am. She asked me to please believe in myself because she believed in me and, if I value her opinion, then I must know that sheās right. She said I am simply the absolute best of every good thing in this world and she told me that she loved me so much.
Wow. š„°š¢
Even in her darkest moments, she has the strength to brighten other peopleās lives.
I canāt tell you what this lady has done for me. She showed me that there was a way out of the depression. She showed her love for a stranger because she saw something in me that may have mirrored her own life. Sheās been such an inspiration and I truly hope that I can be the same for someone else some day. I will never forget her message today and I can never repay her, I can only pay it forward.
If thatās not a reason to live life to the full then I donāt know what is.
I have her husbandās phone number now so that I can keep in touch with him.
So yeah Iām gonna end it here tonight, Iām so full of gratitude and love and a few tears but I think thatās perfectly understandable.
My alarm went off at 5.45amā¦. I woke at 3.11am to think about what I was wearing today. š¤¦š»āāļø Of course I did. It was a great sleep until then but obviously the rain, snow, cold etc was playing on my mind. Us over thinkers need to make time to overthink!
Craig got up to make me a decaf coffee which I ended up taking with meā¦ and of course the first train is delayedā¦ a 40mph restriction on the track due to the heavy rain overnight.
I got a bit antsyā¦ I had a half hour to get across Glasgow before my next train. It was only delayed by 11 minutes but the restriction is making us later. Then FB shows me this.
Synchronicity ā„ļø
I did literally run across Glasgow from Central to Queen Street, a steady jog. Iām a bit dishevelled and out of puff but I made it!
Next stop Stirling!
Should say here with my Club 50 railcard, (oh my actual god, how much does that freak me out?!?) Glengarnock to Pitlochry cost me Ā£39.75. Now I know I could drive for less than that probably, but my view is it keeps mileage down on the car and I get to look out the windows and see the world like a lady of leisure. Thatās the planā¦. š
Made it to Stirling with a half hour until my next train.
Of course Mrs overactive bladder always has to find the looā¦
Closed due to flooding
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It will be fine. š¬
I survivedā¦. Iām the blue dot šµ on the map!
The snow appeared just north of Stirling. all of these are taken from a moving train through tinted windows!
Itās very dull, misty and overcastā¦. All 3 of them but the snow is really pretty.
About to arrive in Pitlochry. There is no snow!!
What a lovely day we have had!! Mum and Dad met me off the train, such a shame this is blurry, they appeared as the southbound train pulled out the station and I was crossing the bridge!
They were all bedecked in waterproofs and I felt a bit under waterproofed!
The took me to Cafe Biba for lunch.
A lovely wee building, just like our house! I had the veggie breakfast but didnāt eat the eggā¦ Iām still on this ānot fancying meatā thing. I would eat it if it was put down in front of me but Iām just not able to choose it for some reason. I had a lovely soya decaf latte! Completely perplexed Dad!!
Mum and I went for a wander round the shops starting off with Heather Gems which was recommended to me, by Margaret, yesterday!
Itās a huge store where you watch them making the jewellery tooā¦. Lovely!
We had a good wander around the shops, until 1pm when chauffeur Dad, as he said he was called, came and picked us up!!
We decided to head up to The House of Bruar just north of the lovely village of Blair Atholl.
This is a very posh shopping complex where you walk about and look at things that you can never really afford to buy! Thatās a slight exaggerationā¦ the shoes dad picked up were Ā£435ā¦ I said he should get 2 pairs!! There were lots of photo opportunities though.
This is a cashmere jumper canoe!
The Troop London canoe.
The Yeti canoe. I think Craig will like this one!
Hereās mum in motionā¦ this is the sit-ooterie for food!
We had another cuppa and a cake this time.
Think our village woodcutters need to up their game!
Even the fresh fruit and veg looks amazing.
We headed back down the road towards Pitlochry and stopped in Blair Atholl to look at the water wheel.
There was no water running through the burn at allā¦. Would you believe that this is the reasonā¦
Maybe we got their rain in Ayrshire??? I feel like itās rained all winterā¦ just shows you!
Our next stop was the River Garry Bridge. Itās soooo high up!! this is the view looking north.
Looking south is so very different.
Then chauffeur Dad drove us to Faskally wood where I got a few photos of Loch Faskally.
We went back to the caravan for a quick pit stop to wait for my train home.
Itās started to rain by the time we got to the station to wait on the train.
We mucked about with the mini flower train!
As we waited the Royal Scotsman train pulled into Pitlochry heading north. It is stunning and as dad pointed out, everything that could be painted, has been painted! Click that link and get a look. Itās lovely.
If you zoom in, everything underneath it is spotless, every window had been cleaned, itās an old train thatās pretty immaculate!
Think Iāll have to stick to the Inter7city for now!!
Iāve just pulled into Stirling but this is a direct train to Glasgow so I donāt have to get off here.
Iāve had a lovely day with Mum and Dad! I love that we are making new memories together. That feels important to me.
We need to plan our next adventure!
Only another hour and 45 until Iām home to Craig and the pupper bunch!
The sun was shiningā¦ a reminder that good weather always follows the rain. All of this is going through my head as I drive to work. It makes me smile. I wonder who I am on days like this. I should say itās 3Ā°C so will bitterly cold.
I drove to work this morning in a great mood. I was listening to my Happy playlist on Spotify. Mel Robbins suggested we make a playlist and we should use it to make us feel happy. Chesney Hawkes āI am the one and onlyā is my got to since I passed my driving test! That was a while agoā¦ šš.
I rarely listen to music. What Iām about to say here will make me sound crazyā¦. But it makes me āfeelā too much.
I always seem to well up with emotion at the memories that certain songs stir. I canāt listen to a song without remembering where I was, or who I was with or what stage in my life it reminds me of. I find myself avoiding music and listening to podcasts. Itās safer.š
I had a great wee sing this morning but it wonāt happen often.
No one opened the gate for me today either but that was ok! I did it myself š
I got really anxious about something first thing and let it affect the rest of my day.
Then I upset a lady on a horse tonight, who said I was driving too fastā¦. I stopped dead as soon as I saw her even although she was on the other side of the road. She was really angry.
You know me. I apologised at the time. I drove offā¦. I felt awful. Then I was angry. Then I felt awful again. She who doesnāt like to upset anyone got a right dressing down. I guess it worked, as I will think of horses on every road I ever drive on from now on. Just another thing to add to the list of things to worry about.
Iām ok though, Iām actually good, just quiet and Iām now sitting outside in the gardenā¦ thinkingā¦ itās cold but Iām enjoying the fresh air. Iāve swept up some leaves and I have the 4 dogs sitting out with me. It feels good to decompress.
My favourite bush is coming into bloom.
It would appear Iāve not been āonā HRT for much of this week. Every time I go to replace my patch, the one I want to remove, is not there. Youād think Iād realise at some point? Nope.. oblivious. Those wee patches must disappear into thin air. I never find them!
Despite all the negativity in my day, I had another great kinesiology session last night and felt very calm afterwards, I slept like a log.
The synchronicityā¦.. I get an email from tut.com this morning which is exactly what Kinesiology was all about. ā„ļø
Tomorrow is rail trip day as Iām off to Pitlochry to meet Mum and Dad who are on holiday up there. The forecast is SNOW!!!
Least Iām not driving and it might make for some pretty picturesā¦. If it actually happens!
Wow what a quick dayā¦. I did a stock check at work today and had a great wee time to myselfā¦ until I got back to my desk and tried to catch back up with the day to day!!
I seemed to have switched the wi-fi off on the laptop and was oblivious to anything other than my stock take!
All done for another month.
I had a great sleep last night but lay awake thinking I couldnāt believe I was so awakeā¦ my head thinking rubbish nightsā sleepā¦. Then the alarm went off. It was just time to get up. Our inner voice can be so harsh at times!
I had my left over dinner for lunch todayā¦. It doesnāt look quite as tasty in a plastic tub. I was so full I didnāt eat any snacks for the rest of the day, oh apart from some banana bread!
Really strangely about an hour after it my face went bright red and refused to cool down. Iāve never had hot flushes and I donāt know if thatās what it wasā¦ I had the portacabin doors open and then had to take my long sleeved top off from under my work T shirt.
It was burning and while itās cooler now thereās is still an underlying heat.
I made another lovely Planthood meal tonight.
Rich & Creamy Mushroom Stroganoff With Chickpeas, Baby Spinach, Basmati Rice & Fresh Parsley (copied that straight from the website!). I rushed it in time for Kinesiology but itās delayed for a bit so now Iām chilling writing this while I wait. Itās good actually as I felt a bit too harassed!
The photo on the recipe shows mushroom stroganoffā¦ mine shows chickpea (with mushroom) stroganoff šš itās a bit runnier than it should be but it tastes lovely.
I havenāt had time to focus much on synchronicity todayā¦. I did drive to work thinking the gate would be open.. it wasnātā¦ I laughed, got out and opened and it and drove through saying, I did thatā¦. Honestly, the chat I have to myselfš
This is very true for me. I need to go with the flow
It has rained ALL day!!!
And finallyā¦ Iāve downloaded a course by Mel Robbins that Iām going to start.
Itās called Make it happenā¦ ready to unlock your potential?!? Letās see how it goes. My head is good just now. Normally I would say that something usually comes and wallops that out of me but Iām going to own my positive mind and keep working on it.
She starts off talking about synchronicityā¦ how many times do you have things happen to you that feel like coincidence? Do you have a voice inside of you that tells you something? Do you listen to it or brush it off.
She encourages us to listen to that voice and trust it and to see these coincidences as signs that we are on the right path.
This is the second blog Iāve talked about her podcastsā¦ I sound like a super fanā¦ š just some of them speak to me. (Some of them equally do not!!)
Iām still trying to get up without scrolling through my phone firstā¦ I am finding that tough on the darker mornings.
I was just about to get into the shower today wondering what to make for lunch when Ellison text to say she was bringing lentil soup and a buttered roll for me!! No need to bring anything.
I drove to work today thinking Iād park inside our car park at work and Iām usually the one who opens the gates. I was driving along listening to the podcast and thinking how lovely it would be if the gates were openā¦. I got close and saw them and thought, never mind, they are closedā¦. And there was Ellison walking out to open them!!! She never does that but was in the car park for some other reason and thought to open the gate.
I thought today would be quite quiet and had already decided that I was going to keep busy and thought on all the things I would do as a resultā¦. The day took off and I never got a minute to think about the things I was going to do.
I drove to the little gift shop tonight and said that I would get a space right outside the door and I did.
The key is to change your thinking from, ugh, the gates will always be shut and Iāll have to get out and get wet, ugh Iām going to be really bored today and ugh, Iāll never get a parking space.
I trust my gut 100% and I hear that inner voice talking to me all the time. Since my anxiety and depression, itās very loud and tells me clearly what is not right for me. It screams at me sometimes. I also see signs EVERYWHERE!!
I also tested this theoryā¦ I said I was going to see a Highland Cow today and Visit Scotland just shared a FB reel of a herd of Highlanders running along a single track roadā¦ I didnāt specify in the flesh. š
Now this obviously isnāt always going to work 100% of the time but I love the positivity of it. Set your intention and claim it when it happens, smile to yourselfā¦ I did that!
Iām not a fan of all this windy weather thatās coming againā¦ I donāt like the wind.. then my friend Isy shares thisā¦
Itās 7.30 already and Iāve had a lovely eveningā¦ NOT watching tv.
I made a Planthood meal for dinner tonight.
Kimchi Pancakes With Sticky Soy Portobellos, Gochujang Mayo & Pickled Cucumbers
Sadly my pancakes stuck to the frying pan but I knew that was going to happen.. I manifested it by saying bet the pancakes stick to the frying pan š¤¦š»āāļøš but it tasted really good.
I finished listening to the podcast and Iāve signed up to a free course Make it Happen with Mel Robbins. Iāll get started on that this week.
Iāve been sitting stagnating about some of the things Iām unhappy with recently and now is time to start taking action.
So thatās all from me tonight. Itās given me a wee spring in my step.
I know a few very good friends going through very difficult life changes just now. It is not my story to tell but I donāt want to leave it unsaidā¦. They are all in my thoughts and Iām sending lots of love. ā„ļø A reminder that life is short and we should all make the best of it.
Youāll be pleased to know the roads were extremely quiet this morning at 7am, due to the fact that the rest of the world seemed to have the day off. Iām so dramatic eh?!?
I had a rotten sleep last night. I was tense and woke a few times and eventually had to take ibuprofen to try and relax my muscles. It actually didnāt work, shouldnāt have bothered and should have tried to relax my mind more.
When the alarm went off, I was catapulted into the world from the deepest sleep. Nothing worse, itās a horrible feeling, I felt hungover which is VERY unfair after 5 years and 3 months of the stuff.
Iāve been a bit meh all day. Acht thatās unfair, Iām fine, just a bit flat.
The weather was cloudy and cold all day. What a difference from the beauty sunshine yesterday.
The key is to appreciate the beauty in these days too. Iām very grateful to be healthy and to be living my life. I need to do something to mix it up a bit though. Iām in such a rut through the week. I cannot wait to get under a blanket, in front of the tv and Iām letting life pass me by. Food for thought.
This was my fav, which I knew wasnāt true the minute I read it.
Never in a million!!
I was reminded today of the one time I was completely caught out by an April Fools at work and really believed it. š
A bus operator was using smart paint technology to change the colour of the busā¦ if they drove up to a bus stop and the green route and there were people waiting, they would change the bus to greenā¦. I couldnāt get my head around what happens if you got on a silver bus on the silver route and the driver decided to turn to the green route, what would you do?!?!?
Iāve inserted the video which most likely wonāt work but Iām trying it anyway. It still makes me laugh.
So feet up in front of the tv feeling super comfy and cosy and relaxed. The faster life is for living another day.
Our clocks went back last night. This made me laugh!
I have to say Iāve been neither up nor down about it. It hasnāt bothered me as much as it used to do when I hated my job. Iām looking forward to the very light evening!
Sunshine has been a long time coming. We are finally outside in the garden for the very first time this year. Out of the breeze it feels hot. Itās only 12Ā°C but hey thatās pretty good for us!
Khaleesi is loving the sunshine! About time too, she says.
Itās so lovely to feel the warmth of the sun on your skin after so long. The last time I sat out in the sun was the start of October in Turkey with Gayle. I still remember the last embers of the sun, knowing it would be a while before we felt it again. I was pre-sad to leave!!
Yesterday was lovely but wrap up lovely. Today is sun-trap Sunday in the back garden. I say that as it clouds over, the wind picks up and it goes cool. Did I speak too soon?!?!
Iāve not stopped all day. Iāve weeded and picked up branches and leaves, Iāve swept the decking, Iāve washed all of the dog blankets and now must rinse the washing machine before anything else goes through it. Itās HAIRY!!
Itās a proper spring day. The birds have been chirping all day. There was one in particular this morning, that chirped the introduction to the Game of Thrones theme tune. Iāve been singing that all day! š
Since I said it was hot itās been cloudy and cool but Iām still sitting outside.
I feel so at peace in the fresh air. Sundays arenāt always my best day and yet this one has been calm.
I took Calaidh for a walk up the hill and got her to pose next to some daffodils. Sheās a good girlā¦
Sheās so pretty!
Sheās really thinking letās get this over with!! We got up to the field at the top of the hill and I freaked as there were two deer š¦ in the middle of it. I called her and got her on lead but we were up wind of them so she couldnāt smell them thankfully! they didnāt seem that bothered about her either.
She did chase this poor farm cat up a tree on the way home though! Poor wee thing was hanging on for deal like until I got Calaidh on the lead.
I only got a photo as Iām ready for anything when Iām out walking ššš
So that was the weekend. Itās 5.35pm and Iām sitting outside again. The breeze has picked up and is blowing stuff all over the decking I just swept!
It feels good to have done all that today.
Hope youāve all had a lovely weekend and for those of you who get Bank Holiday Monday, enjoy your lie in. I will be mostly trying to appreciate the empty roads in the morning!
Thatās two days in a row the forecast has said one thing and the weather has done the opposite. Iām not complaining. Iām sitting here right nowā¦.
I have my jacket off and even had my jumper off earlier. The sun has been shinging almost all day. Itās been cold but itās beautiful now. I have fur lined boots and fleecy leggings on and I am pretty cosy.
Iāve found a new path and a new bench today. Iām in Largs but I parked at the Marina and walked from the Largs Pencil, into Largs. People have told me to do that a lot, I finally have!
The Pencil is a memorial to the Battle of Largs in 1263, between the Scots and the Norwegian Vikings.
Itās so lovely to see the sun and in between breeze gusts, feel the warmth of it. Itās been away for a LONG time! I am so ready for Spring and Summer.
I met up with Craigās sister Lisa and my nephew and we played on the 2p machines for a wee while until I won a dolphin keyring! Itās been ages since I did that!! So serious!!
But the sun was calling. Iām like a caged lion being inside when the sun is out. Iāve also fasted for 19 hours so Iām ready for a cuppa. I sat outside in Indigo Eats Largs. It was a beautiful wee sun trap albeit, by the side of the road, it felt very European!
I havenāt washed my hair since Wednesday morning!
I could have sat there all day but the sea was calling. I walked up to the top of the promenade, turned back round and walked all the way back down to the Largs Marina where Iāve parked. I canāt bring myself to leave, itās just so beautiful. Iām now perched on some rocks at the jetty!
Sunshine and blue sky is very good for the soul. šāļøšāļø
Here are some more photos from the walk.
They are rebuilding the harbour wall up the top of the promenade. It looks like they are extending it into the sea a bit too.
Looking back down to Largs.
CalMacās Loch Riddon seemed to stop sailing at 4pm.
My blogger friend The Windsor Waffle, thinks railings are my new thingā¦ she might be right. Itās the shadows too!
My new favourite bench with a lovely dedication on it.
Iāve had a lovely day. I didnāt sleep that well, I tossed and turned like a tossey turney thing. If you ask Fitbit it says it was much better than it felt!
I got up at 7.30ā¦. Iām still trying the no phone before natural sunlight but itās hard. š
I took Calaidh and Bhruic for a run.
Then back to get Freya and take her up the hill. I left my phone to charge as it didnāt charge overnight.
I then really randomly sat down at my laptop and started to writeā¦. I feel like I have a book in me. I say that and squirm because my head says not to be so ridiculous and my heart trusts that it might help some people. I wrote for about 3 hours just jotting things down.
Will see how it goes. I may never mention it againā¦. I feel drawn to help people but Iām not sure gallivanting around the world, with anxiety, is the best kind of business plan. š
On the way back from Largs I stopped at he Hailey Brae roadside view point. Wow.
The gorse bush is almost in full bloom with the Isle of Arran on the horizon.
Largs is just down in the foreground here.
I had the lookout to myself. It was so peaceful.
I love the calm. I love the peace. I love the sun. I love the blue sky.
Itās my day off today and I have zero plans for the next 3 daysā¦ nada, diddly squat, nowt.
That usually just opens up before me like a big hole in the ground but despite saying Iāve been freaking out, Iām actually looking forward to the relaxation. Itās been a busy few weeks.
We had a lovely meal last night at The Ship in Irvine. Our table was booked for 6pm coz thatās how we roll these days. Itās a lovely place.
Craig had Cullen Skink for starter and I had garlic mushrooms. Both were lovely.
Craig had fish and chips and I had vegetable pieā¦. In keeping with my random not eating meat thing.. it was really good.
Pinch my sundae and Iāll punch you. Not quite sure how I captured this random shot but itās a good oneā¦ the dessert is mine.
This is a Tunnocks Ice Cream Sundae.
Tunnocks are a famous Scottish biscuit/cake brand and I have to say it tasted like a Tunnocks Teacake and a snowball all rolled into one!
Itās 1.30pm and Iāve been for a run with Rachel, walked Bhru by myself and walked Khaleesi and Freya with Claireā¦ had a cuppa, tidied the house, hoovered, cleaned, put away washing, marvelled at the sunshine, put two new washings on and had a shower. Then I sat down in the silence and have almost fallen asleep.
The silence is lovely. Iāve only 3 dogs and they are fast asleep.
Showcasing my crochet here. š
Rachel and I headed out at 7.30am. Itās a beautiful morning. Here we are running!!
Itās such a lovely morning.
Itās all about the puddle reflections this morning. It must have rained heavily overnight.
There is a tiny reflection in this puddle!
This huge puddle shows how much itās rained.
Love seeing the sun like this.
Bhru enjoying some one on one!
I headed back home and picked up Claire, Khaleesi & Freya!
We went into Spiers old school grounds and this huge tree has fallen over. As we walked towards it, it looked like a new, muddy pondā¦ then I realised the tree was down and the water is the root bed filling up after the rain.
Freya having a wee chat with Khaleesi.
Freya getting cuddles from her Auntie Claire.
More reflections on the way back.
Claire came in for a cuppa and got kisses from Khaleesi!
So the weather went from warm in the lovely sunshine to torrential rain pretty quickly.
My in-laws came down this afternoon with our nephew this afternoonā¦ to deliver Easter eggs!! We had a lovely catch up.
We also had a guy come out to fix our French doors at the back of the house. For over an hour we had 4 adults and a teenager AND 5 dogs all in one roomā¦. So the guy had free rein to come in and out the house.!
So yeah thatās my Friday. Been a good day.
Hope you all have a great weekend. No Easter break for me as we work Monday but Iām looking forward to the next 2 days to chill.
The Rambling Sloth š¦„ 