I’m still shattered. But I feel very different today.

I felt pretty rotten last night, luckily I didn’t spoil crochet 😆 but I did come home and go straight to bed.

I was in bed from the back of 8 right through until 6.30am.

I woke at 5.30am and I wrapped myself up in a big hug and lay there talking to myself. Not out loud as I’m not completely crazy…… 😆 but I managed to calm myself down.

So much of my self induced stress and anxiety comes from resisting how I feel.

I was so angry at being so tired. I wore it like a badge for the first few days this week, I huffed and puffed and I moaned at everyone I spoke to. I’ve stuffed my face with any junk I could get my hands on…. I’ve literally scrambled for food and opened and shut cupboards for something…. Anything would do. Then be annoyed that I was so full and bloated and be disgusted with myself.

So this morning I showed myself some kindness.

It’s ok to be tired.

I’m working 4 days a week and starting my own business. I’m on the go all the time. I’m not used to that anymore. It’s a change. It needs adapting to.

That is all it is.

Nothing more.

I need time to rest and reset so I can be a better version of myself.

I’m sitting in my jammies, wrapped in up in my blanket.

I’m shattered but it’s ok.

My headache has gone.

Today would have been my lovely Grans’s 104th birthday. A wee blast from the past pic…

And here she is with Freya!

My long hair always annoyed her and she couldn’t understand why I didn’t get it cut. I love that I have a photo of that.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️