I feel like I was awake most of the night waiting for the 3.15am alarm… and yet, I was asleep when it went off!

I’d showered and washed my hair last night for a quick getaway and Craig ran me to the airport to 4.15am.

My anxiety levels were very high this morning. I felt waves of panic in the airport but I listened to some short breathing meditations on the Calm app and the worst of it subsided.

I said this yesterday, it amazes me how much I want to travel and see the world and yes the anxiety comes close to overwhelming me. I am determined to beat this.

I’m not going to live a life in fear of panic attacks…. Imagine what it would be like without the antidepressant 🥺

I calm by the time I walk to the gate.

I am calm boarding the plane.

A wee wave of panic as I sit in my seat but I tell myself it’s temporary and it will pass and it does.

I know there will be people reading this that wonder why I bother putting myself in it. Trust me, I did too this morning…. Give it time and I’ll be like Heidi the Mountain Goat jumping around Southern Spain taking photos. 😆

That light is the moon! 🌙

It was a very clear flight until we got to northern France.

Now there are hardly any photos between the plane and Nerja as my phone charger wasn’t working and I had to keep power for navigation!!

This is Nerja.

My hotel!

The view from the rooftop of the hotel.

Down in Nerja.

LUNCH!!!!

The Balcon de Europa in Nerja.

These railings are my new photo toy…. Move over gates, railings have appeared!

Spot the clouds over the mountains!

I sat here for the whole sunset talking to a lovely solo traveler from Norway!! We chatted for a couple of hours. She made me eat for the light switch on…… a big click and the lights popped on and it was truly breathtaking. The pcs don’t do it justice.

From inside looking up.

I’ve been back in the hotel for a couple of hours “working”…. Trying to pull together posts for Her Travel Circle and blogs…. 😆😆

I am soooo tired.

It’s been worth every bit of anxiety.

Stay safe everyone 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿✈️🇪🇸

If you’ve read this for a while… you know me!

I have a solo trip to Spain tomorrow and I’ve been beside myself with anxiety.

It comes in waves and when I try to breathe it down as it spirals out of me.

I came home from work and finalised packing and now I am calm.

I reached out to Her Travel Circle ladies and they’ve all made me feel better.

This is what I do, I get so anxious about being out of control, stepping out of my comfort zone…. And yet I am desperate to get out of my comfort zone.

The human mind is a wonder isn’t it.

At least mine seems to be. 🫣😆

So all calm now, sitting in front of the tree. Not even rushing to bed.

Need to be at the airport for 4am so a very early start.

I need to focus on Her Travel Circle this weekend just in case the blog isn’t up to my usual standards 😆😆😆

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

What a crazy weather day as Storm Bram hits Scotland.

It’s been dark most of the day.

The torrential rain passed and then the wind picked up.

The drive home was littered with fallen twigs and branches.

I’ve been super busy….. I did 2 Dog Behaviour calls for Craig., then ironed my clothes and packed my bag for Spain on Thursday.

I also booked a trip to the Nerja Caves. really looking forward to seeing them!

I’m now sat next to the Christmas tree with Bhruic, listening to an audio book.

It makes me laugh that I couldn’t concentrate on the first few I listened too and now I love them!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I had so many vivid dreams last night….. late night cheese to blame for that I think.

I woke at 6.10am feeling dead to the world and like I’d been awake all night.

I hadn’t.

Work went so quickly today.

I had 4 sets of customers in that passed the time with lots of chat.

Mum is doing ok. I just spoke to them both there. She’s been to the docs today for a change of a couple of meds recommended by the hospital, I think this is just going to take time .

I sent her a water bottle today with the times of day on it in the hope that it will remind her to drink more. It was just a wee thing to make her smile this morning.

Think I might get one for myself!

I was going to pack for my trip to Spain in Thursday but I’m way too tired.

It can wait!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Poor Mum was kept in an A&E holding ward last night on a drip to help with her low sodium. At least it was a bit quieter than actual A&E.

I drove over late morning and picked my brother up so we could head to Edinburgh Royal Infirmary together.

I can’t tell you the last time the 4 of us spent any time together, just us, but my brother did remark there wasn’t really a worse place he could think of 😆😆

So Mum was discharged at 4.30pm which is great news. Everything structurally checking out ok bit she’s still not feeling great, poor thing.

Tomorrow is a new day and at least she’s back in her own bed now.

I white knuckled it back from Edinburgh in ATROCIOUS driving conditions. Torrential rain, flooding and spray. I had the option to stay at my brother’s but I’m glad I made it back. The weather could have been just as bad tomorrow morning. And I’d have had to have left the house about 6am.

So home, jammies on and sitting in front of the tree with Craig and the puppers.

Get well soon Mum ♥️♥️♥️

It started with a lovely run at 6.45 with Claire and Rachel.

This was my crazy hair when I woke up! 😆

It was so misty!!

Just over 5kms and we’re done!

Then out with the dogs!

Poor mum ended up in A&E today. I hope that she is closer to finding out what’s been wrong with her so I spent a bit of the morning on the phone to my brother, making dog behaviour calls and tidying the house and doing washing.

I spent the afternoon at the little gift shop helping Gayle as it was Beith Lights and Laughter today where they switch the Christmas lights on. The shop was open until 7pm..

It was a fantastic day for the shop.

Mum is being kept in overnight. I hope we get to the bottom of what’s been making her so unwell. 🤞🏼🫶🏼

Stay safe everyone and get well soon Mum xxx

I’ve had a lovely wee day.

I now have my feet up on the couch with the 3 puppers , by the light of the Christmas tree.

These are the little moments of joy that bring peace to your soul.

Ooft that was a bit dramatic.

I’ve felt a bit like that all day.

For those who are not on FB, I was skipping around the garden at 1.30am, marvelling at the moon shining its almost daylight!

Look how bright it was outside.

It was so magical.

The Seven Sisters were clearly visible too.

Up bright and breezy at 6am, this morning for a shower and then a dark dog walk. I’m loving the headtorch photos these days.

It means I can take photos 24/7 now 😆😆😆

I think I forgot to say this but my friend Evelyn said a lovely thing to me recently, she said I see the beauty in everything.

Wow.

That’s such a huge compliment.

I used to live my life seeing the negative in everything. I was sooooo negative. Everything was an excuse to moan or complain to see the worst.

What a lovely thing to realise how much that’s changed… and to hear that from someone else.

You never know how much your words will affect someone and that will live with me forever.

I also have to apologise to Evelyn for walking the dogs in the dark as she gets cross with me!

The diagonal lines at the top show the smirry rain in my head torch beam.

This is where I usually let the dogs off but Freya has a sore leg.

She doesn’t understand why she’s not getting off lead!

That’s our wee village, all lit up in the dark.

So in a random twist I decided to head over to see my mum and dad today. Mum’s not been feeling great recently and I was so happy to see her dressed and ready for a wee outing in Penicuik and for coffee.

It’s been a good week while since I had a mooch around Penicuik shops.

This was not for sale but I would have loved to bring this home and see what Calaidh made of it.

I also popped up to the cemetery to see my Nana and Grandad. They have such a lovely view up here. I grew up looking at that hill. We used to climb it every year on my brother’s birthday when we were younger!

Their house is visible from the grave.

Then I drove home to make a Dog Behaviour call, do a Her Travel Circle TikTok post and eat the lovely stew that mum sent me over with for dinner.

And relax.

Have a lovely weekend!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I’ve had a great day at work today.

I was working on the Tartan Campervan website and it just felt like such an achievement.

Website developer….. I’ll be adding that to my CV 😆 as if!!!

I’ve spent all day trying to figure out how to do the things I did and I figured out most of them.

It was great for the brain!!!

This is the link to campervans we have for sale just now. Please buy one!!!!

https://www.thetartancamper.com/vw-campervans-for-sale

So I’ve no photos for today, just the moon halo I took last night.

It was stunning.

I’ve missed the super moon 🌕 tonight as it’s so cloudy outside and torrential rain!

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I then booked a dog behaviour job for Craig and am heading out to meet Gayle tonight for a wee wander around the shops in Braehead shopping Centre in Glasgow.

We enjoyed that last week.

And relax, it’s the weekend.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Our run was super icy this morning.

Rachel and I met at 6am and had to tiptoe about 4.2kms before we finally got home. We definitely didn’t break any land speed records!

It still felt really good to put.

I had a good day today. It passed quickly,

I took some lovely photos last night when I got home from the wreath making…. The sky was so clear.

Loo at Bhruic’s face!

Spot the plane!

I then took this tonight. Craig fixed the outside light!

Not much else to report tonight! I’m off to bed early!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s after 9pm….. I’ll make this quick.

I woke up at 5.55am to walk the dogs and was wearing my glasses?!?!? Random!

The dog walk was soooooo dark.

The light of the headtorch made for some amazing photos.

It is pitch black when these were taken.

Spotted this wee cat in the field as its eyes shone on the headtorch!

I came home from work and had a call about a her Travel Circle, then made 2 dog behaviour calls for Craig and then headed up to the Gateside Plant Centre for our wreath making class.

Sooooo randomly my lovely friend Carol-Ann was there too. I haven’t seen her is ages but we worked together in 2001!!!!

The finished article!

A lovely evening but I’m up for a run at 6am (we’re having a 15 minute lie in!!)

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

1st December 2025.

Wow.

I think I’m in shock.

It feels like 3 minutes since August. The days seem so much faster in the dark of winter time.

I have also decided that I actually cannot see to drive in the dark anymore.

I drove home in dark, misty rain tonight and all I see is glare. I stick to my side of the road with a wing and a prayer. Feeling such a relief when I finally get back to streetlights!

Anyway, it is a December. We’ve had a tough October and November so I’ve decided my work for December should be Happiness.

Not least because 2 lovely people sent me the Action for Happiness link. Go take a look at their page.

I’ve signed up for 10 days of happiness. 😆

And finally a lovely oil or diesel spill that I saw today… so pretty!! 😆😆

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️