I had a great sleep last night.

I woke with the alarm at 5.25 and managed to get up and out no problem.

Not the best photo but we were waiting in my hallway as Lynsey got stuck behind some wayward cows on the road to meet us!

We all had head torches this morning…. The girls are up the hill on our way home… lovely sky.

Action shot.

I found it hard today… I’m not sure why… me breathing was ok, my legs were ok and it was a bit faster than usual…. It might have just been that.

And we’re done!

This was the sky as I left for work about 45 minutes later. A lovely drive to work.

Today was really busy again. I can’t get doing the day job for all the other things that are happening…. I stayed a half hour late tonight which is nothing, but I could have done with much more!!

I’m loving being so busy but I’ve only 3 working days left before my holiday.

I need to clear my feet tomorrow and write the list of all the things I want to get done…. Once and for all and then cross them off one by one.

Even writing that clears my head.

I should add I’m not stressed or panicked in any way…. like I would usually be.

I’m calm.

I just want to do my job the best I can before I finish up.

In other news…

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day…. This is from the Empathetic Therapist, please contact her if you think you need help.

I had suicidal thoughts when I was at my lowest ebb.

I was so distraught suffering from anxiety and depression, at the same time.

I felt I had become a burden to everyone.

I was so sad that I couldn’t lie when someone asked how I was.

I felt I couldn’t say the same things to the same people over and over.

I was sick of thinking it.

They must have been sick of hearing it.

I even turned to the Samaritans when I felt like there was nowhere else to go.

Yet despite all of that…. There were angels in my life that appeared and told me what I needed to hear when I needed to hear it.

They didn’t give up on me.

They wouldn’t allow me to give up on myself.

You never know when you might be that angel for someone.

When you might say the right words just at the right time, when they really needed to hear it.

Be kind as you never know what someone is going through.

I was hanging by a thread in this selfie taken in 2018…. I was drinking wine to cope with a job that was tearing me apart.

I don’t look it at all do I? Completely the opposite.

This next one was when I was sick. I went for a day out and felt awful and I took this photo to remind myself of how bad I felt.

And this is me in 2019 when I really thought I just couldn’t go on.

But I did and I have survived 100% of my worst days and you can too.

If you feel low ALWAYS reach out to someone. Keep talking… to anyone who will listen.

That’s what got me through.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️