02/09/2025 – The Rambling Sloth 🦥

Did I ever think when I started this that I would have written 1972 blogs?!?!??!?!

Not in a million years.

I never imagined what this daily blog might become for me.

I’m still not sure why I feel so compelled to do it, but I sit down at night and feel calm as I start to write.

Most nights I have no idea what I’m going to write about…. Some nights I know exactly!

I had another experience at work today when I saw myself respond very differently to the way I would have responded previously.

As the accountants go through the VAT return for the quarter, I had a list of issues to address.

My head didn’t go into a complete tailspin, or a flat panic… I didn’t beat myself up for any of the errors or the changes that needed made… instead I was excited to work through the list and get it all fixed.

There were some interesting points made that I could learn from.

I hear myself…. I just enjoyed working through it and getting it done.

I love the peace that kind of thing brings me.

The awareness of a change in my anxiety is pretty special.

It lets me see how terrified I was of everything. How anxiety cripples you in a way that you can’t imagine.

It’s so silly on reflection… when someone picks up errors in a job you have done the anxiety beats you into a pulp! You call yourself everything under the sun, you beat yourself up, you panic that you’ve let everyone down.

So dramatic! So over the top!

It’s been a surprisingly busy but lovely day today.

The sun shone most of the afternoon.

I was in work half an hour early today and worked half an hour late.

I sat outside in the sunshine for a bit when I got home.