No one is more surprised than me.

I had the best time at the Robbie Williams gig in Murrayfield Stadium in Edinburgh last night.

I was beaming from ear to ear as I couldn’t believe how much I was enjoying myself.

I thanked Gayle over and over for being there with me and being so supportive.

Going to a gig with millions of other people is my worst nightmare on a good day.

I’m just being honest.

I do everything I can, not to surround myself with hoards of people.

If I’m really honest, I do everything I can to not get roped into a gig in the first place.

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I’ve been struggling with the start of Setraline antidepressants and sooooo tired.

Yet, it just shows you what you can do when you put your mind to it.

Gayle was the perfect gig buddy. I was more than happy to drive to Edinburgh and get parked as it’s my old stomping ground. She was more than happy to take charge at the stadium!!

We couldn’t get parked at Ingliston Park and Ride but randomly, there was a field open where you could park for £10!!

Of course I was already pre-worried about getting stuck in it as we left…. 🫣😆

We head to the tram stop and got the tram from Ingliston to Murrayfield for £8.40 return, for both of us.

It was raining…. But it wasn’t too bad.

Tram selfie 🤳

When we arrived at Murrayfield, they’d split the stadium into 4 colour coded entrances.

We had to walk from the Green Entrance all the way around the stadium to reach the Purple Entrance!! It was actually a lovely walk and it had stopped raining.

We got some BBQ loaded fries for a mere £15 each!!!!!

We are sitting very high up and my vertigo washes through me as we head up the steps…. Thankfully we have tickets at the end of a row. They turn out to be excellent seats but my head is looking for so many reasons to freak out.

We sit down and I begin to relax. There are lovely people round about us.

Rag ‘n’ Bone Man is the support and he starts about 5 minutes after we sit down. We smile at each other. We couldn’t have planned the day better, so far.

Rag ‘n’ Bone Man is really good.

I don’t always listen to music as I find it too much sometimes, either too noisy or too emotive.

In all honesty, I can be a bit dull, a bit boring. It’s what makes me tick and it’s what I need to function but I am aware of it.

The stadium is filling up.

And then half an hour later Robbie Williams is on stage.

He was exceptional. A real showman. A true entertainer.

I was so happy. I knew all of the songs and most of the words. I didn’t feel weird. I didn’t feel like the odd man out.

We danced and we sang our wee hearts out.

I’m surprised at myself. Gayle is watching me from the side, thinking all the while that I must be enjoying it.

She was right. I loved every minute of it.

I don’t often allow myself to have fun. To just have a laugh, a giggle and a dance. I’m always so serious. Never leaving anything to chance.

After just saying that….. We left before the end in true, let’s be over organised fashion…… we only missed a couple of songs and we walked straight out and straight onto a tram. We got to see Murrayfield like this instead of being crushed side to side with thousands of people.

I couldn’t stop smiling. I was so surprised at myself for enjoying it so much. I kept telling Gayle how happy I was!!

It was a lovely evening. This is 10.15pm.

The tram was empty and we even got a seat.

I got home at midnight and the sky was still light to the north. I love a long Scottish evening.

What a wonderful experience.

And now today is June. Can you believe it?

Despite my new found passion for Robbie Williams gigs, I’ve had a very lazy Sunday.

I’ve watched tv and I’ve slept.

But I know I’m on the path to recovery.

My word for June is kindness…. And I’m keeping hold of breathe as it worked so well for me in May.

I need to lean in to the having fun and being a bit more relaxed (I almost typed reckless there and thought, jeez we can’t go that far!)

This was my lazy spot. Surrounded by pupper love.

After lunch I dragged myself off the couch as I knew I needed fresh air and exercise… and Craig came with me.

These cows were all cuddled up next to the burn. There are 8 or 9 of them!

It was blowin’ a hoolie but very mild. It was good to blow away the cobwebs…

And then come back to my cosy spot in the sunroom.

I’ve had a lovely relaxing day. I’ve slept for a good few hours on and off. Musta needed it.

Thanks to Gayle for making last night so enjoyable…. And to Robbie Williams for being so excellent.

“I love my life… I am powerful… I am beautiful… I am free…. I love my life…. I am wonderful… I am magical…. I am ME.”

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️