There is very little signal so I may have to keep this brief. It might not load up at all!

I came to Oban, with my wee 2 man tent, which is definitely for 2 very small men 😆 It’s even for two very small Julies 😆

(Don’t panic, there is only one of me 🥴🫣)

I’m camping up in Oban and I’m not even on electric hookup. The campsite up here has all the electric hook-up up the hill and the non electric down by the sea. It was a no brainer.

I had kinesiology today in the most beautiful house in the most beautiful street in Paisley.

I was all over the place by the time I got there but as usual kinesiology calms me down.

The new lady is very lovely and I think we connect well.

It actually costs the same as I used to pay 3 years ago so that’s really good. It’s still a lot but it’s worth the investment for me. I’ve tried to explain how it works over the years, and failed dismally. I really don’t know how it works but it just does…. For me anyway.

A word that kept coming up today was forbearing, which is an old fashioned word to say patient, long suffering and not asking for things that are due to us.

Long suffering is something that sits with me and makes its home inside me. I always feel hard done to, like a failure, like everything is a struggle, like everything is out to get me…. That says way more about my responses to life than my life itself.

My homework is the affirmation that I believe that I have all I need within me. I actually do believe this, I just fight it and question it at times.

I also have to work on dealing with other people, without waiting for their acceptance. I think I am very prone to this…. I think I write the blog so you all accept me for who I am and I can relax. As ridiculous as that sounds. You’ll have no expectation of me.

I have to say at nearly 6pm, it’s been the calmest I have been for the rest of the day.

The drive here was beautiful on such a hot day but I was very anxious. The traffic was busy and the road up the side of Loch Lomond felt claustrophobic. (For those who haven’t driven it before, it is probably one of the most stunning drives in Scotland on a sunny day but it’s so narrow!!!) My stomach was doing somersaults all the way…. My right shoulder getting stiffer.

So why do I do this?

I’ve been asking myself the same question all day.

Since I hit 50 I have felt like life is passing me by.

My solo trips have been amazing and holidays with Craig lovely and that’s what brings me real joy. Exploring and taking photographs of beautiful places.

This year I’ve been hiding from what brings me joy as I didn’t feel well in Florence. I panicked and figured I couldn’t do it anymore.

Not gonna lie… I’ve panicked a lot today. I’ve felt sick, churning tummy and a bit out of body. The anxiety has flooded through me at times.

Yet I’m here, the tent is pitched and I drove back into Oban for food despite not fancying anything.

Now I think I feel calm.

I’m grateful that I managed to push through the fears as it’s worth it.

I love the silence. It fills me up.

I’ve a wee quiet corner looking onto this yacht.

That wasn’t very quick was it?!

I should also add it is VERY HOT!!

Hope you all have a lovely weekend.

Stay safe everyone ☀️☀️☀️ (I hope this posts!)