For those of you who saw my FB post this is a bit of a recap.

It would have been so easy to get out of a run today…… there’s no part of me that really wanted to do it…. And yet, I guess there was.

I was in bed for just after 9pm last night and out like a light.

The alarm went off at 5.25am and I rolled straight out of bed and downstairs to get ready.

I was apprehensive of the run. I was worried I would cry if the girls asked how I was.

There were no tears when I sat on the toilet. 😆😆 That’s way too much information but there have been tears the last two days so I took that as a big win.

As soon as I stepped out the door and saw Claire, I felt a glimmer of ok…. That it might be alright. those seem strange words to use but it’s the best way to describe it.

And it was…. I wasn’t massively fast…. My legs weren’t as heavy as the last two runs but my breathing got me a wee bit on the hills. I felt a bit lightheaded. A previous trainer told me you could exercise with a head cold, but not a chest cold. It’s only a head cold so I had no excuse.

I did it. I ran when I could so easily have used any excuse, under the sun, not to run.

And how pretty is this?

It’s a lovely morning. Everything is so green at this time of year.

I love the sun behind the watery cloud.

And we’re done. Good exercise and good chat….starting and finishing at my front door!

It’s lovely as I left for work.

Work was busy and I felt ok all day, no wobbles.

I had an hour and 15 minutes of overtime on Monday…… this next week story is just to give you an idea of the kind of person I am.

I would never take that back. I would wait for it to be offered. For someone to say on you go, leave early…. I was fume that I’d done that extra time and want getting it back. not just this job but in any job….

Claire sent me that above…. It’s so very true and I will use that in future… instead of…. “Have you met me?!?”

I never wanted to rock the boat, always wanted to be teachers pet, didn’t think I was worthy of taking the time back owed to me…. I didn’t want to cause any hassle and I feel very selfish asking…. But it would fester and eat me up from the inside.

Today I decided to leave at 3pm as it’s so hot.

I think it’s about 20°C.

That’s really warm for us.

I have never done that lightly before and today it felt quite light. I usually overthink it to the nth degree…. Today I needed to get into the sun!

There was work message just as I sat down in my garden.

I literally freaked, panicked and started messaging someone at work to get my work phone and I took a breath and thought….. there is no difference doing this at 3.45 as there is doing it at 8 or 9am tomorrow. I am amazed at how quickly I calmed that panic. I’m always proud of myself when I respond differently than a previous version of myself.

I’m sure I’m not the only one that overthinks like that…..

So here I am… in the back garden soaking up the sunlight…. I’m watching two birds that seem to be nesting in our eaves.

Calaidh makes me smile…. Holding on to her ball.

Just throw it she says…. And it would seems she drools all over the footstool. 🫣🥴😆 my heal is soon in a puddle. Lovely.

Then Khaleesi passes and licks my toes 😆

The warmth of the sun is so lovely. love the Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 flag shape in this photo.

Today has definitely been a better day.

Long may both the weather, and my better days, continue.

Have a lovely Wednesday evening. No Hookers for me tonight as they are all busy. I might head to the coast for sunset but I’m not 100% committed 😆

Stay safe everyone ☀️☀️☀️