Day 1838 working Easter Monday!

I got up early this morning to start some strength training….

There are dots to that last sentence as I didn’t do it justice at all but the getting out of bed was something I guess.

I meant to plan my course of attack but I forgot… so I got out of bed without any clear direction.

I did 10 on my knee push ups off the side of the bath in jammies.

I did 20 tricep dips off the edge of the bath…. Still in jammies.

I had a shower.

I got dressed.

I found two tins of Heinz baked beans and I did 20 bicep curls.

I did 10 tricep pull ups with my beans.

I did 10 forward lunges on each leg.

I did twenty squats.

I felt ridiculous at the time but actually as I write that, I’m gonna take that as a win and it’s a whole lot more than I’ve ever done since I left the Fit Body Farm.

I sat and did Donna Ashworth’s journal prompt for the day…. Turning negatives into positives.

I ate a lovely healthy breakfast. Overnight oats with chia seeds, almond milk and Impact Vanilla protein powder, with desiccated coconut, banana and walnuts.

It was really tasty.

I had all 4 puppers watching my every move! Freya was just the closest one.

I cuddled them all and kissed them goodbye.

I felt a huge wave of anxiety wash over me.

A real fear from within.

A sense of impending doom.

It was spiralling out of control.

What if, what if, what if?!?

Breathe.

What if what?!?

There’s nothing to worry about or feel panic about.

Work was going to be absolutely fine and absolutely was.

I was worried about Khaleesi waking the neighbours on their day off, with her excited barking.

I was worried about Craig’s car going into the garage.

I was worried about my drive to work.

I don’t know what it was or where it came from but I didn’t like it.

I cuddled and kissed the dogs again. (Craig’s was still in bed so don’t think I was just ignoring him!!)

It seemed to dissipate over the course of the day.

Now that I’m not fasting, I am very conscious that my weight may be heading in the wrong direction.

I think I said I started to track my calories on My Fitness Pal…. I haven’t been doing it every day but I’ve tried to log everything today.

That lovely breakfast clocks me almost 500 calories!!!

Now I don’t want to go down the route of counting calories, but I know my body and I only need to look at food to put on weight. I need to find some happy medium now that I’m not fasting. I can’t eat everything that I fancy. It’s also amazing how all these healthy things add up.

Projected after dinner today I’ll be at around 2000 calories. (It’s already way more!)

I found a weight loss/maintenance technique that really worked for me…. Until I wasn’t eating enough and then read it’s not great for women…..

I sometimes think I have too much time on my hands to mull all of this over. I want to give myself the best shot in life and I have absolutely no idea whatsoever is best for me right now.

I don’t want to shoot up in size right before summer. By now I’d be bagging some big fasts for help me get summer ready.

It’s hard to change what’s become an inherent process in your life.

First world problems eh?!

I type all this…. Get up out of my seat and finish a bag of Cheese-its and then get started on some honey nut clusters…. The struggle is real 😆😆😆

I finished the Let Them Theory on my drive today.

I’m so taken by it. All the years of getting stressed by other people not doing what you want them to do, not acting how you want them to act.

Mel Robbins isn’t re-inventing the wheel here, just reinforcing the obvious option that we so often overlook. we get to choose what’s right for us.

We get some kind of kick out of moaning about our lives, the more we talk, the bigger we make the issue to be. We embellish the story and pass it on to anyone who will listen.

We could choose to “let them”…. Let them be the adults that they are and live their lives they choose to live it. Let them show you who you who they really are and let ME decide how I choose to respond.

How many hours do we spend in our lives raging about things that other people have, or haven’t done.

Let them.

There’s obviously WAY more to it than that. I’m really excited about the ethos of it.

We get to choose what we accept in our lives.

We sometimes forget that.

We are the only person we will love for the whole of our lives. We choose how we share that love. What a powerful statement.

So that’s me…. I think that was more than enough for a Monday!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️