I do feel a bit more alert today. I think that last night’s blog really helped me to make sense of everything that’s whirling around in my head.

I woke at 5am…. Not quite as early.

It’s Mum’s birthday today! I shared these pics on my FB post. Huge happy birthday mum!!

I look forward to more adventures together in 2025.

I was planning to get up early today as Craig is off to Newton Stewart for a job today…. It’s almost a 2 hour drive just to get there.

I was at the blue dot and I stalked him away down there!!

Our lovely neighbour Holly is letting them out the back through the day but I wanted to walk them first thing.

It was dark….. 🫣

Really dark at 6.15am.

I set off up the hill with my headtorch on… they had their lights on. All good.

It was all going really well…. Until this point when my head-torch picked up eyes 👀 in the field!!!!

I got a wee bit spooked and decided to stick to the main road… that was better!

They were sniffing at everything…. A whole lot of sniffing going on. There was also a small hail storm which they didn’t like, any more than I did!

I thought this looked really pretty. The sky is getting lighter.

I chickened out a second time when I thought I heard a car door slam down a dark road so instead of walking the loop, we went back the way we came. They got a good walk with all the to-ing and fro-ing!!

Surprisingly dirty considering this was just a walk on pavements….. look at the floor and wall…. I love Bhru’s innocent face.

So then I had to clean all that up before I could get to work.

I’m sorry we made this mess mum she says… 😆

I have a diversion, on the way to work, for a few weeks as there is a road closure! The sat nav took me a completely different way again today. It feels like a million different roads in Irvine!!

So I’ve been a bit brighter today. A little less doom and gloom. I’ve stopped wallowing in my own disgust at not being 100% perfect.

I am exhausted though. It’s a tiredness that sleep doesn’t necessarily help at the moment.

That’s to lovely Kelsie for sharing this on her page. I love that we all share things like this.

So fun fact to end with….. did you know today was called Pluto day?

Mum, my friend Ruth and Mum’s cousins Dave all have birthdays today and I have never known that on 18th February 1930, the 9th planet in our solar system was spotted for the first time.

I mean honestly, how did this never come up before now?!?

Sadly for Pluto, in 2006 the International Astronomical Union reduced Pluto to a dwarf planet and said that there were other masses in our solar system, similar in size or even larger. I didn’t know it was no longer classed as a planet!!! You learn something new every day.

Donna Ashworth’s Words to live by post today was all about finding the magic. If I was in a better frame of mind I would have loved this question, but I think it went a long way to dragging me out of myself.

How amazing is our world?! If you really stop to think about how small we are in compassions to the universe, it’s absolutely fascinating. Donna said everything I ground is starting to grow and life is springing up everywhere and we should look for the magic.

I’ve used my courage to try and step out of my slump.

Now I need to look for the light and find the magic again.

I know it will come.

And finally the Ps Waverley bookings are open for 2025 and I can HIGHLY RECOMMEND the following trip.

I got a bit spooked by a Waverley trip to Arran, August last year in bad weather but I still think I’m going to book one!! I won’t do this particular one again but it was honestly just out of this world. Even sailing through the Correyvreckan whirlpool….. a bucket list trip for me, definitely!!

I loved every minute of it!!!!

There is so much in life to be grateful for.

I need to lift myself up and not make myself small.

Find that smile again.

Search for the magic.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️